I woke up in time for work to a low grumble, which was vibrating right outside my room. Oh no! What is it! It stopped after a few seconds, so I slowly stood up and went outside, the light of dawn covers the sky above the Glade. There is nothing outside, everyone is still sleeping and there is no sign that any one was there. There is a small space between the walls of my room on the left and back side and the walls of the maze, so I walk around but I don't see anything. Oh, the doors to the maze opened...I guess it's time for work anyway...

I get to the kitchen the same time as Siggy and he tells me how happy he is that I'm back and that today Joe really needs the morning off.

"Why is that?," I grab some water and take it to boil.

"Well, today he has to prepare lunch and help with the feast."

"Feast?"

"For the new greenie."

"New greenie?," I turn to him.

"Yeah, should be coming up today. Winston says the piglets don't need the mom, so we are going to roast her! It'll be delicious."

The new greenie? It's today? I try to count backwards since the day I arrived, but they all blend together. Today? It's happening today?!Oh... Wow. Okay, so it could be a new girl? A new girl on the Glade, that would be nice. Someone who might understand what it's like, but what if she's mean? What if I don't like her? What if she steal all my friends away because she is prettier or is nicer? I should be nicer... What if Newt likes her and they start dating? I mean, I would be happy for him, but jealous a hundred percent! What if this new girl has a name!? I bet she knows it right away and it's beautiful and exotic, just like her. We will have to live together and things are going to get so awkward, but I'll be nice. Nicer than her. What happens when I see her and I feel nothing? She looks to me, but my mind is still blank and I don't remember who I am?

I clean up after breakfast and start lunch prep, "When does the box come up again?," I ask Siggy as I chop onions.

Siggy snorts," Depends, as of late it comes sometime after breakfast and before lunch, but you never really know. Don't you worry, I also go and see the new greenie so you'll get to him."

Oh.. do I even want to see her come up? What if she's like I was, scared and confused, I don't know if I can watch that. Maybe she'll be sweet and kind, maybe we'll get along and become friends, I'd like that. I hope she's nice. What if she's totally crazy, though? And makes it in to the maze, never to be seen again? That'd be sad, hopefully not, but maybe she'll find the way out and lead us all home. Maybe she'll be a Runner and become best friends with Mihno, Hank...and Ben. I never see Ben anymore, and with a new girl on the team, I bet he'd be so busy he'd forget about me.

There is still a chance it could be a boy. Another boy in the Glade or a new girl, I don't know which one is scarier. A new girl will be a hard adjustment, but it could be a really good thing. I kind of hope it's a girl now... As long as she isn't insane or mean.

Joseph nudges me," I'm here. You can go now."

"Oh, thanks Joe," I take off my apron and hand it to him. "Has the box thing come up yet?"

He shook his head and took over my station, Should I go to the box. I back out of the kitchen and glance towards the center of the Glade where it sits, it could happen right now... I freeze but the air is still and nothing happens, I turn away from the box and head to my room. I lay in my hammock and feel a pit forming in my stomach, They'll be here soon. Unless they don't send anyone, Newt said he wouldn't be surprised if they didn't. He also said it could be two people... I don't know. I don't really want anything to change, I look over to the other hammocks, but someone could be sleeping next to me tonight. I remember my first day I was so scared, maybe I can help her feel better. Feel less alone...

"Greenie?," A voice interrupts my thoughts.

"Hm, yeah," I sit up in my hammock.

Newt steps through my door and my heart jumps," Hey... Alby thinks it would be good if you were at the box when the new Greenie is here...," he leans against the door.

"Why? In case it's a girl?," I ask but I already knew the answer.

Newt coughs," Yeah... I mean, what was it like when you came out of the box?"

"Yeah, I understand. For me, it was scared... I bet everyone is at first," Newt nodded to my words. " I didn't feel safe, I felt like you were all," I looked away," hurt me or something."

"I hope your views have changed?"

"Of course," I look back to him. "I know you don't want to hurt me...," a heat rises to my cheeks," none of you do," I add quickly.

The distant sound of a buzzer pierces the air and I feel my stomach drop. That's the box... I stand up abruptly, I taste metal in my cheek, blood? I had bit my tongue when the buzzer sounded.

"Shuck, Hurry!," Newt dashes from the shack. I can't move, my feet are glued to the floor. What if it doesn't help... What if I don't remember my name? "GREENIE!," I hear Newt call from a distance.

I can't do it... I can't. My stomach is twisted in knots and I feel my breakfast at the bottom of my throat. My breathing quickens, it felt like all the air in the Glade was gone as we I stood in my room.

"Greenie! Greenie?!," Newt ran back into the room, but I couldn't look at him. My hands start shaking as I struggle to breath. "Greenie," he steps towards me."It's okay. Just breath, it's okay." Newt takes my hand in his," It's okay. You're okay," he spoke softly. I look at him, but even his warm chocolate eye can't melt the fear that has paralyzed me.

"I-I-I... I-I-I...," I couldn't speak, couldn't explain to him, I just stood there shaking and hyperventilating.

"Sit down," he lowers me to my hammock," Just breath. Keep breathing."

I put my head between my legs and squeeze his hand, I try to focus on the floor. I felt Newt rub my back and I also felt my breathing return to normal, "I can't see her," I say before sitting up.

"Can't see her?"

"I don't want to... I can't..."

"It's okay," Newt keeps rubbing my back. Is this selfish? Shouldn't I go help her? Try to make it easier for her than me... I should, but can I? I glance to Newt, his eyes are clouded by his troubles as he watches me.

"I'm sorry... You should go. Alby will need you."

"Alby is very capable," he says without hesitation. "I'm sure he is fine."

"I don't want you to get in trouble."

"I won't."

I inhale sharply," I'm sorry," I say trying to laugh it off.

"Don't be," Newt was serious, he didn't want me too feel bad.

"Thanks," I could barely look at him. I look so stupid. Why couldn't I just go? This could be a good thing, it might give me a name. "We should go, though..."

"We?" he arched a brow.

"Yeah, I need to... I mean, I should meet her," I stand up and my hand falls out of his. It made my palm feel cold and alone, I wanted to grab his hand back, but I resisted the urge.

Newt stood too, "Okay, are you sure?" I nod and Newt turns and leads the way to the box. I keep my mind blank, don't overthink this. Just let it happen. No one is by the box, we waited too long...

"Let me see if I can find Alby," Newt darts off to the Homestead.

I stare at the box, a signal of all we have left behind. It's the place we are all reborn, were we become Gladers. This girl has no idea what she walked into, she didn't even have a choice.

"I can't find him," Newt jogs up beside me," when I do, I'll see if he can bring the new greenie back to your room. Is that okay?"

"Yeah," I keep my eyes on the box.

Newt waits a second, but says nothing before going to look for Alby in the Gardens. I watch the box for a while before turning to go back to my hut, the weather seemed a lot nicer than it had been. Maybe rainy season is over, I think as I watch the sunlight fade behind the maze walls. I sit back in my room and wait, Why isn't she here yet? Is she fighting this? Stop. It might not be a girl, don't start thinking that. I just hope whoever they are, they can help me.

"Greenie?," the voice awaken my fear again.

"Yeah," I straighten up.

Alby walks into my room and beside him is a tall man I didn't know. I've never seen him, it must be... He's the greenie. It's a boy. I close my eyes quickly, clear your mind... I take a deep breath and open my eyes to look at the new greenie. He's tall, at least 6 foot and he is built, probably the most muscular guy on the entire Glade. He had long straight blonde hair, it went just below his shoulders. His face was chiseled and he's eyes were bright and confused as he looked around my room.

I searched my brain, Where is it? It's... My name is... My eyes opened to the harsh truth, I don't have a name.

"Greenie, this is the new Greenbean," he gestures to the new man.

I didn't say anything, neither did the man, I bet he was wondering why I wouldn't look away from him. I scanned his body again and again, searching for any sort of spark in my memory. Where is it?! Where is it!? It has to be here! WHERE IS IT!? I have to have a name!

"Greenie, you okay?"

"uhmm... yeah... I'm okay," I sit back down on my hammock, afraid that my legs couldn't hold me anymore.

"Did you want to talk to him some more?," alby asked backing out of my room.

"No. No, that's okay," I fake a smile. "I'll see you at the bonfire."

"Okay," Alby says, convinced of my lie. "Let me show the bathhouse Greenbean." They both leave and a curl up on my hammock, too tired to think anymore, too tired to cry.