This didn't feel like the best way to live the last moments of my life to be honest. I was beyond grounded by Charlie, so I was staying home alone most nights. Dad was super mad at me, but it was better when I told him I wasn't planning on staying with Edward. At least he could look me in the eyes after that. Charlie didn't know that they moved because of Edward not wanting me anymore but as a father and as a cop I think his instincts were going off to not trust him after my heart had shattered.
School wasn't easy as well, seeing as Edward and Alice were back there.
Thanks to that, I had a number of problems. One of them was that I didn't want to see them. Alice seemed too sad to actually speak to me, and I didn't know how to feel about that if I was honest. She probably had seen me not talking to her or not responding to her every time she tried to speak to me, and so she didn't even try. That's what I think was happening. I was disappointed in Alice. She was my best friend, before she left, and she left me just like him. I loved her, as much as I loved him, and she couldn't even give me a heads up or call once in a while. She must have known how hard life was for me, for all those months. She must have known, yet she choose to ignore it and me. So from now on, she would get the same treatment. It also hurt that she didn't even try now.
Edward though, he was trying to talk to me, but every time he would start walking towards me, I would turn away. I wasn't about to give him my time of day. He was going to have my mortality – wasn't that enough?
Another thing was that everyone was talking about them- to me. And everyone was expecting us to be get together or some big drama happening, when they saw that there was zero communications between us happening. When people would say school is hell, they had no idea. I didn't know how to shut them up politely anymore.
By the end of the week, I was ready to run away from Forks.
I had to get out of the house, at least. Charlie still had me under lockdown but truthfully it was a lot harder for him to look after me and if I followed his rules and curfew or not, seeing as he was at work most of the time. If I wanted to leave the house, I would just have to be home before he could come home, and he wouldn't even know I had left.
So I knew I was going to reset my awful week by doing something for me. It was time I chose myself, even if it was for a couple of hours.
I wasn't one to sneak out or disobey rules usually, Charlie knew that and that's why he trusted me to not break the said rules while he wasn't home. Truthfully, he also trusted me to probably not get killed by supernatural creatures in Italy, and in Forks, Washington and become one of them as well.
I went home to put my bag away and decided to go to Port Angeles. I couldn't really go anywhere that was in Forks, seeing as someone would mention it to Charlie in one way or another. Word traveled fast here. And with such a tiny population, they would definitely notice.
Port Angeles was an hour away, so two hours driving – there and back. Seeing as Charlie would be home around eight or nine, I could be in the city for approximately an hour. And if I wanted to cut it close, I could be an hour and a half there.
That was the plan.
I put on some music I enjoyed as I was driving, and it already made me feel a lot better. It was just nice to travel outside Forks for me. It was also good to head somewhere for me and not for an ex-boyfriend I had to save from suicide or something. I was enjoying this, truly. This was proving to be a good decision.
When I arrived there, I had no idea what to do though.
An hour driving and listening to music, thinking how good it felt to leave… And I didn't even know where I wanted to go to!
Should I go shopping? Definitely not – it wasn't for me. A movie? No time…
I started walking around and I ended up going to an antique store, just thinking to browse, look at pretty, old things, perhaps find something I would really love.
When I walked in, I could feel my hair stand up suddenly, not understanding why my body was reacting the way it was, I looked around and just saw the cahier looking at me, saying hello. I smiled ta her, thinking it must be the antiques of the shop, and said hello back. I went deeper in the store ignoring the odd feeling, trying to get away from the cashiers eyes at me, trying to disappear in between stuff. But just as I turned to an aisle, I understood why my hairs were standing up.
Rosalie was watching me. She, herself was visibly surprised by seeing me. Rosalie, as ever looking stunning today, and I would lie, if I said, she didn't look beautiful today.
Should I say hello to her? Should I ignore her since I wanted to be alone, especially not wanting her family around? Did she still hate me? Did I still hate her? I didn't have answers to any of the questions.
I remembered our last conversation and how after I was confused and interested by Rosalie.
I didn't have to decide what to do since Rosalie decided first. She came over herself, saying "I didn't expect to see you here."
That made me laugh. Laughing relieving tension from my body, knowing that she was as much taken by surprise by our random meeting here as I was "Same here. What are you doing here?" I asked her. What the hell did Rosalie Cullen do here?! Wasn't she too posh for a place like this?
She smiled "It's a nice boutique." She commented "They have a lot of nice stuff here. It's so underrated, but I love it. I always come in here, when I'm in Forks. Are you looking for something specific?"
"I actually came here to get away from…" I blushed, almost telling her I was running away from her family, but stopped mid-sentence, not to be rude.
She nodded "I get it… That's why I left as well." She shrugged "It's a little too much being back here right now to be honest. And everyone is just so tense, I wanted some time to myself."
I didn't know what to do or what to tell her, and so we just kind of stood there awkwardly for a second, until she said "Okay well, I won't keep you away from being away. Carry on."
She turned away and started doing her own thing, leaving me to do the same. Even if I didn't know what my thing was. I turned to the aisle and started to look through things.
I was trying to look at some things, but I couldn't stop stealing glances at Rosalie. She truly looked so stunning. She had dark clothes on making her long blonde hair more distinct in the shop. She didn't need make up, being a vampire, obviously, yet she was wearing a bright red lipstick, making her look dangerous in a different way I knew vampires to be – she was seductive.
I tried to swallow and look away, trying to appreciate the old and the delicate, yet…
Sometimes I would see her looking back at me as well, and it made me blush for some reason.
I saw a necklace that kind of reminded me of Rosalie. It wasn't my style, but I think it would look cute on me anyway. It would be a funny reminder of a silly run in! A kind of reminder that I should listen to a woman's advice more than a man's perhaps as well. A reminder that life WAS beautiful and that it was always fleeting. The necklace was gold, with a small green stone, that was held in a decorative gold like twirly metal.
As I took it in my hand and kept staring at it, I realized I really loved it. I decided that I would buy this for myself. If this wasn't the time to treat myself I dind't know when that time would come.
As I was checking it out, almost giving all my money for it, I found Rosalie's wandering eyes, watching me. I showed her the necklace I was buying, smiling towards her, telling her silently that I too liked what this boutique had to offer. She smiled back at me.
It felt a smile creeping on my face in a long while. I wanted to punch my smiling face right in the middle of it.
I was in the store maybe more than a couple of minutes, but I felt Rosalie's presence like it was too much in that tiny space. If I didn't feel her eyes on me, I myself wanted to look at her.
When I left the store, I knew I could eat calmly and still make it back in time, for Charlie not to notice me being gone. I actually didn't want to go anywhere else, other than somewhere to eat realizing how hungry I truly was. Not that I had enough of money left for me to get anything else for myself, even if I wanted to do something different. I was standing there, in the parking lot, looking around, trying to decide where I would love to go eat, when I heard my name being called.
I turned around and saw Rosalie coming towards me. I knew she could sprint and be here in a blur but since it was public she was left to act human I waited until she came to stand in front of me. She smiled and spoke up "I know you're here to get away, and I hate to ask you of this, but do you mind if I join you for the rest of your stay in the city before you leave back to Forks?"
I was shocked she had asked me this. I don't think I've ever spoken this much to her, not counting her driving me back to the house. I found out I didn't mind her being with me "I was about to go eat and leave, since I'm still technically grounded." I said, but before she could interpret what I said in the wrong way I continued "I wouldn't mind if you joined me for the rest of my stay though."
She smiled "Where are you going to eat?"
"No idea."
Rosalie smiled brighter "I know this one place, around the corner. It should be really nice, not expensive and a local favorite." Before I could ask her how she knew this, with her special diet needs, she smiled a little wider, showing her sharp teeth "I've heard people talking about it a lot."
After I had awkwardly nodded we made our way to the place she had heard about from humans talking around, not aware that a vampire with super hearing could hear them. It wasn't far away, she was right.
It turned out it was a diner. It looked so homey and comfy, especially seeing as it was starting to cloud over, making it look so warm inside. We came in and people almost instantly stared at Rosalie.
Rosalie just held her head a bit higher than usually, something I didn't notice she did before. She turned to me and smiled, and started walking, basically activating time once again, making everyone kind of blush and look away, making them realize their staring was rude. Rosalie picked a booth the furthest away from everyone and sat down, with me hot on her heels.
I couldn't blame the others at staring at her, but I bet it was annoying as hell, and tiresome at times.
A waitress was over as fast as possible, almost glaring daggers at Rosalie.
"Hi! What can I get for you? Today's special is a chicken, bacon cheeseburger, would that interest you?"
"Umm…I'd like to have a club sandwich and a strawberry milkshake please.", those being the first things I saw, not wanting to interact with the rude waitress longer than I had to.
Rosalie, to my surprise, ordered a double cheese bacon burger, with extra fries, and a milkshake as well. The waitress jotted it down and left, tightening her lips at her order.
Edward, the other Cullen I used to go out to 'eat' with, would never order anything. I didn't have to ask her why she did that because she just shrugged and answered the unspoken question when the waitress left "They hate me more when I do that. It's kind of funny to me."
I nodded smiling a bit. Of course, people would see a beautiful girl walk in and not feel so good about themselves. They would dislike her. And when she would order a huge, fattening meal, with her athletic body, they would hate her so much. I saw it. And it wasn't as if she could change anything of her appearance, she was born with it and then everything was enhanced with her vampirism "That's petty." I laughed.
"It is." She smiled "Sometimes I hear them talking that I'm probably on a binge or something, but still – it's one of my joys in the afterlife."
"I should start working out then." I made a stupid joke that made her toothy smile disappear.
"How has your week been?" sha changed the theme of the conversation.
I sighed. The reason of why I was here was because my week sucked "It's been rough, honestly. Charlie almost hates me, I'm grounded until I'll have to die. Everyone at school can't stop talking about Edward and Alice, and putting us together again, which I hate, and it drives me mad." I rambled a little "It's weird knowing when you'll die and being grounded."
"You keep saying you're grounded. You don't look grounded." She smirked.
I blushed again, laughing a little "Yeah, well. What Charlie doesn't know, won't hurt him. Let him think I'm safe at home."
She laughed a little with me as well, before turning a bit serious "Poor Charlie. But, it'll die out soon enough – the gossip I mean. People get bored easily. Worst case scenario, you'll graduate in less than three months and then..."
I nodded, knowing this, looking at the table "It's just painful knowing that these are the lasts months of my life and I can't even go to the movies without upsetting my dad."
"At least you know when it will end." What she said made me look up at her, seeing she was mimicking me, looking at her hands, her head down.
"You didn't know?" I asked carefully. It seemed that it was a sore subject for her.
"I didn't." she looked up and smiled at me "I'll tell you the full story sometime and some place different." She looked around, and some people were still watching her.
I sighed. It must be a dark story. I wasn't looking forward to knowing how bad she must've had it, but I really wanted to know, my interest getting better of me.
Rosalie and I chose to talk about the boutique we were in. She was talking about all the things she had gotten from it, complimenting me on my necklace, showing the matching earrings she got today.
"You can wear earrings?" I was surprised, knowing that vampire bodies were hard as marble, barely destructible.
She bit her lip, I bet if she would blush if she could "Well, actually no. I would change them for clip-ins."
I didn't have to think twice about what I was going to offer, already looking for the necklace "You want to exchange them? The necklace would look so beautiful on you. And I wouldn't have to make the earrings clip-ins. Not for now anyway."
"You would do that?" She asked surprised.
"Of course." I answered not even thinking about it "It seems more practical." I lied a little.
She looked surprised and gave me the golden colored, green stone, droplet earrings, as I gave her the necklace. I looked at the earrings and noted that they truly were beautiful and detailed. I was glad I walked into that antique today, I decided. I was even more surprised that I was happy that I saw Rosalie there. I wouldn't have guessed these things at the start of the day and definitely not at the start of week.
When the food came, Rosalie immediately asked for a takeaway box, saying she was running late, which the waitress gave her almost instantly.
The food was so good! I moaned taking a bite which made Rosalie smirk at me.
After I swallowed, I told her "You were so right! It's excellent!" It was so good! For the first time in my life, when a vampire suggested a place to eat, or try to give me food, it was better than alright. This was fantastic! I couldn't believe it looked like such a regular diner.
Rosalie and I talked and even laughed about seemingly regular things, but honestly, I just felt comfortable with her, which was something new.
I wanted to hate the Cullen's but sitting with Rosalie was different. It was easy to separate her from everyone else and that was kind of scary. I wanted to detach from them as much as I could, but I felt peace with her.
After I ate, Rosalie said that she still had some things to do in the city, so she couldn't come back with me to Forks. I told her that it was alright, but I kind of felt sad about it. We were doing good and we had to cut it short. I didn't care to think why I actually felt that way.
As I was driving back home, I didn't even really want to go back, which didn't surprise me. I didn't want to go since that meant Edward and Alice and the rest of the Cullens were still there. I had to come to terms with the fact that it was going to be my last months, and that the Cullens were going to be a part of it. At least I knew one of them, I think, I was cool with.
I was going to try to accept the reality but not now. Right now I was thinking of the lovely time I had spend today.
