well, here it is. the forty-fifth chapter of my only 'Vampire Knight' fanfiction, 'Life with Yuuki: 'Vampire Knight' As Told by Zero', just like I had promised all of my readers. this chapter, as I had said in chapter forty-four, is more or less a continuation of where I left off in the aforementioned forty-fourth chapter. this is also another chapter in a line of more chapters to come in the near future. this forty-fifth chapter is a full-on one-thousand-three-hundred-twenty-four words worth of pure storyline to the story. it is a storyline that doesn't include the headnote, right here, nor does it include the (mandatory) disclaimer which makes up the paragraph following this headnote, here.

disclamation: I don't own 'Vampire Knight' in the manga or in the anime. I can do nothing except write this fanfiction as I hate on Viz Media for the way they ended the 'Vampire Knight' anime. I hate Kaname Kuuran so much, I would kill him if I was in the series, myself, especially with what he does just to get the mindless followers that are the Night Class students off of his back. anyway, Matsuri Hino-san owns the manga and its sequel 'Vampire Knight Memories'. I haven't read much of the manga, but then again, I notice an insane amount of resemblance towards 'Vampire Knight' and my one true manga, 'Fruits Basket'. if you ask me, those are both far better love stories than 'Twilight' could have ever even hoped to be.


My Yuuki had turned on the shower for a bit by then just so that she could make a little noise to drown out the sound of when I would drink her blood. Then, she unbuttoned the overcoat of her own Day Class school uniform.

Yuuki Cross: I realize now that this is the only thing I can do for you.

Then, my precious little Yuuki removed said overcoat to her school uniform.

Yours Truly: Yuuki, what are you saying?

Then, my precious little Yuuki rushed me as she slammed me against the tiled wall of the headmaster's bathroom. I blushed as she rushed me into the wall. I knew what she wanted me to do at the time, but I just could not do it at all.

Yuuki Cross: This is the best way. Zero, drink my blood.

Upon her request for me to drink her blood, my precious Yuuki then brought the two of us both down to foot level in the room which held the idiot headmaster's bath from within. I only continued to blush slightly as she brought both of us down to the level at which the bath tiles were in the room.

Yuuki Cross (continued): You'll feel better, even if only for a little while.

Even as my Yuuki gave me her permission to drink her blood, I still could never live with myself if I had done anything even similar to it. I still continued to slightly blush a small tint of red on my cheeks and looked upwards to the lights that hit the headmaster's bath. There were times that I wished Yuuki was more knowledgeable towards everything that she did to me during every last inch of our time with one another.

Yours Truly: Please don't. I can't. I would never forgive myself.

My Yuuki still held on tightly to me as I begged her to reconsider her decision.

Yuuki Cross: Yes. I know.

My head was sent down onto Yuuki's shoulder blade anyway as I started to give in to my vampiric urges, breathing like my lungs were on fire.

Yuuki Cross (continued): I'm sorry, Zero.

Of course, everyone worth their knowledge of the beasts in human form that my brand of people hunted down knew that the thing which my dearest Yuuki and I were doing was the most forbidden sin against the vampire world of all. I still sucked down my precious Yuuki's blood like I was dying of thirst anyway, even when I did not want anything of the sort. I truly was a monster, a beast in human form. I felt completely horrid for that into which I was turning, a level E vampire.

I had to force myself to stop drinking Yuuki's blood on my own since she clearly had no plans to push me away this time. I was at the very least able to end it without causing my precious Yuuki to faint as she had when I had first drank her blood since I could still hold onto my sense of self this time. She even had something to ask me when I let go of her body.

Yuuki Cross (continued): Zero, are you alright?

Yours Truly: This being I've become is despicable. Even if I loathe vampires, even if I don't wanna hurt anyone, I can't stop myself from lusting for blood.

I blushed slightly once more as I just wiped away my dearest Yuuki's blood that still remained on my lips and my chin. Then, I turned my head towards Yuuki as I continued to blush the slight tint of red that still covered my cheeks. I had a request of my own to give to my dearest Yuuki before she could ever be at risk of dying from a slow and painful loss of blood.

Yours Truly (continued): Yuuki, just give up on me.

I placed my head into my right hand as I continued talking to my Yuuki about needing to put herself before me, like she was meant to.

Yours Truly (continued): You know it, too. This is just like the blood tablets. This doesn't solve anything, it's simply a temporary measure. Please! Before I require a taste for your blood…

My Yuuki, of course, had a thing or two to say about what I was requesting of her at the time.

Yuuki Cross: Just give up on you? How could you ask me to do that? I made a promise to you, and I'll keep it, no matter what. I promised you that I would stop you, and I don't care if you refuse or even if you hate me, Zero. I will tame the beast in you as many times as necessary.

I could not even believe what she had just told me at the time. As much as I appreciated the gesture, I could have easily sworn that my Yuuki could not have possibly been in her right mind with exactly what she had told me when she said that.

Yuuki Cross (continued): You are NOT a level E, and I am NOT going to let you die. If you want, you can hate me along with the vampires. But the one thing I won't let you do is give up on everything.

Was she really allowing me to hate her along with the beings responsible for my state of body and of mind? Did she really think that that could ever happen? Yuuki was definitely out of her mind with that kind of statement.

Yours Truly: How could I ever hate you?

I honestly did not know what happened to me there. The words from that simply spilt out through my lips before I could stop them. I could hear my dearest Yuuki's reaction to what I said to her by then. She only gasped at me for it. I covered my face to hide the even redder blush. I could practically feel it coming.

Yours Truly (continued): Are you alright?

My dearest Yuuki put her left hand atop her head and blushed slightly as she responded to my question about how she was doing for the time.

Yuuki Cross: Uh, yeah. I feel fine. I don't even think I feel faint this time. Don't worry about me. I'm fine, as usual, and I won't have any problems going to school tomorrow, either.

Yuuki then placed her hand back down onto the bath floor and opened her eyes just before she began talking to me again.

Yuuki Cross (continued): Nothing has changed, Zero, and tomorrow, come back to class. Do it for me, please! Do it for both of us. If you need a bit of time to think it over, I'll give you that time.

Yours Truly: Alright then. I'll return to school tomorrow if you can prevent anyone possible from finding out about what we had done tonight.

Yuuki only grew her usual bright, sunny and totally cheery expression on her face.

Yuuki Cross: Then, it's settled.

Oh, was it settled, alright. I just knew that Yuuki was going to find some way to screw up at what I had asked of her and expose my bitemarks on her neck to that Kaname Kuuran. I knew that it had sounded messed up, but backing out of her will to offer up herself to me in order to keep me alive was the best thing for her, I just knew it. She should have already let me be exterminated by Master or any other vampire hunter by now. I was nobody's puppet or pawn, least of all Kaname Kuuran's. That's right. He might have acted honorable, but I already knew of the untrustworthy, manipulative, spawn-of-the-devil bastard he truly was underneath his trustworthy face.