Chapter 9

WARNING- THIS STORY CONTAINS MATURE THEMES SUCH AS SELF HARM AND ABUSE, PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MAY UPSET OR TRIGGER YOU IN AN WAY

I have suffered with self harming before not long ago, and please if you or any of your friends/family are going through it, get help and just remember it DOES get better and you're not alone. I'm always here if you need any help I'll understand xx

Disclaimer- I do not own 'Twilight' or any of the other books written by Stephanie Meyer. All characters mentioned in this fanfic belong to the wonderful author and not me (although I wish Jacob aka Taylor Lautner belonged to me )

This story is set in New Moon, just after Edward left Bella and she is depressed and lonely.

Edward's POV

The family were left shocked at what Bella had done and they all wanted to see her just like me so we packed up and left for the airport like that, not even having to think about it. We all cared about Bella and were hoping she'd be okay. Carlisle booked the plane tickets on the way, and because he was a doctor he got them easily. Before we knew it, we were up in the air, the blue sky and clouds at eye level with us. I sat there quietly, worrying about Bella and if anyone had found her unconscious yet. I knew that her and that Jacob kid had become close friends whilst I was gone and I hoped that he'd found her and took her to the hospital.

I am left in my own thoughts for a while, until Alice speaks up.

"Edward?" she asks softly.

"Yeah?" I reply.

"Bella's going to be okay, you know" she reassures me with her eyes closed, trying to see if she could spot anything in her vision.

"I hope so" I say, knowing that even Alice couldn't be sure of that.

A few hours later, we begin to get closer and closer to Forks and I start to worry. I had acted on the spur of the moment kind of thing whilst Bella was in danger and I hadn't thought things through at all. I just assumed that Bella would be happy to see me, but now I realised that I had to accept the possibility that she wouldn't be. After all, I had left her on her own for half a year, and what would she think of me just turning up out of the blue now? I was an idiot for ever abandoning her in the first place, and I knew it but as much as I wanted to, I couldn't turn back time and I had to 'face the music' as humans called it.

Bella's POV

I had panicked as soon as Jacob had mentioned getting me help, I knew I needed it, but the thought of having a counsellor scared the shit out of me. Having to tell someone who is a total stranger to me about all my personal problems seemed pointless and I was afraid that if I admitted exactly what I'd been feeling to her, she'd think that I was some psycho loon and send me to a mental institution. I know that it's stupid because many people go through the same thing as me everyday and they manage to get help but I don't think I can.

I was glad I had told Jacob everything, because it was a relief to be honest and open with someone as I hadn't for months now. It was like a weight off my shoulders, but at the same time, I feared that Jacob would judge me and end up not wanting to be my friend anymore. The possibility terrified me as even though I hadn't fully admitted it to Jacob, the truth was that he was the only thing that stopped me from completely drowning in my depression. I don't think I could carry on anymore without him and I'd miss him so much. I'd already lost Edward and my mom, I couldn't lose him too.

Jacob was the best thing that had happened to me since Edward had left and Mom had died and he'll never understand just how much him being there has helped me get though the mess that is my life. I could never thank him enough for all the times he has supported and comforted me when I've been sad and I would be forever grateful for his friendship. I know it might sound a little cringey, but it's true and I loved Jacob with my whole heart.

That was why I would give the whole counselling thing a go if it would stop him from worrying about me, I wouldn't show him just how much 'getting help' scared me, I'd have to put on a brave face while I was around him.

Edward's POV

We finally arrive in Forks and the plane lands smoothly, I step out of the plane slowly and know that this is the place where me and my family actually belong. The rain drizzles down lightly, and there are many trees spread out all over the car park that whip in the wind. The weather was the only reason Carlisle had ever chosen to move here in the first place, as it was a safe place for us to go out normally during the day without having to worry about our skin glittering in the sun. It would be a bit inconspicuous if any humans were to see us walking down the street, with our extremely pale vampire skin glittering and sparkling in the sunlight!

We all get a taxi from the airport and drive straight to Bella's house. When we get there, the lights are off and the door is locked, which obviously isn't a problem for us vampires. Emmet clambers up the tree outside Bella's bedroom and then swings his muscular body through the window, which happens to be left open. He disappears into her room and I assume he is going to check the bathroom where she was lying on the floor in Alice's vision. He returns a few seconds later, and flings himself out the window, landing neatly on the grass below.

"No sign of her" he says gruffly.

"She's not in the bathroom?" Alice asks.

"Nope" Emmet sighs defeatedly.

"But that's where she was in the vision.." Alice says, confused.

"Someone must have found her" I reply before walking closer towards the window, a putrid stench filling my nose.

"Can you smell that?" I ask them, my nose wrinkling in disgust.

"Yeah" Alice says.

"Eww, it smells like a dog" Rosalie exclaims, covering her nose delicately.

"WEREWOLF!" we all shout in realization at the same time.

I instantly recognise the smell to be one of a werewolf, as I've smelt it before, but it doesn't make any sense as Bella didn't know any werewolves. So who could have been in her room then?

"Who?" Carslisle asks.

"I don't know".

"As far as I was aware, Bella didn't even know werewolves were real, never mind actually knowing one!" I add.

"Yeah, but that was over six months ago, Edward" Alice argues.

"So?"

"Well, things could have changed since them as it is a long time" she reasons.

True, I think. But where would Bella have met a werewolf from and how because everyone knows werewolves are dangerous?

"Didn't you say she'd made a new friend, Edward?" Jasper questions.

"Yeah, Billy Black's son".

"Well he could be a werewolf for all you know" Emmet cuts in.

Aha, so Jacob might be a werewolf, turns out he isn't as good for her as I thought then.

"So you're telling me that I leave the girl alone for a few months so she can be safe from the likes of us and then she goes and makes friends with a flipping werewolf and puts herself into more danger than she would have been with me? " I say, annoyed.

Emmet gives a booming laugh and Alice nods thoughtfully.

"So if Bella isn't in the house and the scent of Jacob is in her bedroom then he must have found her and called an ambulance," Carlisle says.

"What hospital would she have gone to from here?" I ask him urgently.

"Forks Hospital, I would guess" he answers immediately.

"Where you used to work?"

"Yes"

"Come on then, what are we waiting for?" I ask them, getting the taxi driver to take us there now.

Bella's POV

I am to stay in hospital overnight until tomorrow just so they can keep an eye on me, and then I am going to be discharged. The doctor asked a few questions on how it happened and I told him the truth, he had asked me if it was the first time, and I had told him no. He had looked at me with concern but all he could do was make a 'safeguarding' note of it in my patient file before moving on.

Jacob had stayed with me the whole time since I had been brought in by the paramedics, and he hadn't ever left my side, not even to go to the toilet. I had told him that I was fine now but he looked unconvinced and vowed to not move until I was discharged and got help from the counsellor.

"Is Charlie still at work?" he asks worriedly.

"Yeah, he won't be back until late tonight and he'll probably be so drunk he won't notice that I'm not in bed.

"You sure?" he asks.

"Yeah, it's not like he'll care that I've been in hospital anyway".

"Of course he won't, what a great dad" Jacob says bitterly.

"Oh come on, Jake, cheer up" I try and get him to smile but fail miserably.

"Bells, this isn't the time to be happy. You've just almost died from cutting yourself and you want me to act like everything's fine?".

"Well.. I thought.." I stammer stupidly.

"No, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to take it out on you, I'm just not too pleased that you did this to yourself, that's all" Jacob mutters, motioning towards the bandages that are wrapped tightly around both my wrists.

"It's fine, Jake, I get it. I'm sorry for doing it".

"No, don't apologize, Bella. It's not your fault, you were just upset that's all" he reassures me.

I don't have the heart to tell him that it won't be the last time I do it, it will only make him obsessed over worrying about me and he has enough to deal with.

Suddenly, the nurse announces that I have a visitor and I sit there, confused. Who else would be visiting me? Charlie didn't know I was here and I didn't want him to find out, Jake was the only person who cared now.

"Bella?" a familiar voice calls.

Oh god, sorry I haven't updated for a while, I was busy with school and life. I know it might sound like a bunch of excuses, but oh well. Hope you liked this chapter, I know not that much happened in it, but I'm trying to build it up and make the story a decent length. That's just say I know exactly what I want to happen, I'm just spreading it out PLEASE REVIEW x