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Character age:

Akane, Itachi: 21

Naruto, Sasuke: 16

Shisui: 25

Kakashi: 30

I woke up the next morning with a soreness between my legs. Seeing Itachi's sleeping face in front of mine was more than enough to explain why. I propped myself up my elbow, cool air traveling along my body under the covers of my bed. I pressed them against me.

Itachi looked so peaceful, sleeping soundly like he was.

I looked down at the arm on my waist. We did it it twice last night, because apparently once was not enough to satisfy months of sexual tension and he wanted to enjoy the show of me being on top. I sat against the headboard and tilted my head back to look at the ceiling. Itachi and I slept together. I slept with my fiance's brother, it couldn't get worst than that.

Oh wait, it could! I pretended the outside world did not exist last night to shut my conscious but…

I sighed. We wouldn't be able to go back to how things were, even if clearly having sex was something in the making for a while now. God, so much for being the oldest and trying to do the right thing. I had been trying to stay away from him for so long that ultimately, I ended up allowing myself a few slips and Itachi just...just fully came at me and broke down every rule I had given myself.

Talking about him, his fingers started to run up and down my ribs. I looked down at him. He blinked sleepily at me and tried to smile for a second but seeing my stern expression, it disappeared.

"You regret last night," he whispered as a-matter-of-fact. I gulped and nodded. He sighed but I wasn't blind to the hurt in his eyes. His fingers went up and down my left arm, drawing the patterns of the Claw he now had seen, like the Shinigami seal on my stomach. He didn't comment last night, but he did stare at them for a second longer. "Because of them?" I averted my eyes.

I turned around and put my feet on the floor. I took a deep breath and felt Itachi sitting behind me, his arms trapping me against his chest.

"I won't ask about them."

"But you want to know," I said quietly. I looked at him from the corner of my eyes. "You figured out they're the reason I know so much, don't you?" He pursed his lips and looked down, his chin on my shoulder.

"Did someone do it to you?"

"No, I did it to myself." I sighed when he gently kissed my naked shoulder. "The first time by accident, the second time because I needed it." His hand ran down my arm.

"Is it the reason why you regret last night?"

"Yes," I replied honestly. "That, and the consequences if…"

"Nobody has to know, we can keep it to ourselves," he murmured in my ear, nibbling on it.

Last time we kept it to ourselves, him dying almost killed me because of the dependence. I couldn't risk it again.

"No, we can't. You'd resent me one day. It's better to…"

"To pretend it was a mistake?" he asked me coldly, his arm tightening around my waist. "Or pretend it never happened?" He buried his face in the crook of my neck, taking a deep breath. "I don't want to."

"I…" I jumped on my feet when he started to kiss me in the neck. I got dressed quickly. Itachi...that guy could make everything of me, if I didn't get a grip of myself then next thing I knew he was balls deep inside of me.

"Akane, wait a min…"

"No!" I almost yelled, breathing faster and faster.

All the consequences were dawning on me.

"I...I…" I stuttered frantically. "I need to go, I need to...I need to fix this…"

"There is nothing to fix," Itachi replied sternly, his boxers and pants on. He tried to turn me around. "Akane, don't run away from me." I kept breathing faster and faster.

"You don't get it."

"Then explain it to me for once!" he snapped coldly, turning me around to face him. His patience was running thin. "Do you really think I can go back to how things were before because you're scared?" I bit my bottom lip.

"You deserve a future," I mumbled weakly. He blinked.

"Sure?"

"I can't give you any."

"I never said I wanted children," he replied more gently. I shook my head and moved back before he could touch my cheek. "Akane, you're saying something but clearly want the opposite."

"What I want doesn't matter," I hissed, clenching my fists.

"It does to me."

"Yet it doesn't! It's...you deserve so, so much more…" I shook my head and walked away. "I need time. I'm sorry, I can't...not now…" He let me go.

Yet I felt the disgusting feeling crawling up my skin that was guilt as his gaze followed me.

I just ruined everything!

I almost punched Kakashi in the face when he opened his door. He had good reflex and dodged it.

"I also accept a 'good morning' as a form of greeting," he commented as I already had my shoes off. I went to his kitchen and looked for alcohol as if I owned the place.

I had a bottle of white wine in my hand when Kakashi stole it from me.

"Okay, you're not drinking at eight in the morning, older than me or not."

"I really need a drink."

"The strongest thing I'll get you is coffee." I nodded and drank the black coffee he gave me in one go. "So?"

"I slept with Itachi," I blurted out with wide eyes. "Twice!"

"I don't need the details," he commented, pinching the bridge of his nose. "So you two slept with each other. Good, I really couldn't handle the sexual tension anymore."

"It's not 'good', it's horrible!" He raised a brow.

"Was he that bad?" I blushed.

"He was perfect!" I defended him and Kakashi snickered. "Kakashi, this is serious!"

"I know. Let's think calmly. If nobody knows, then the appearances are safe. Your relationship with him though, knowing you're here this early and probably just ran away? Probably not." I averted my eyes in shame. "He saw the seal and the marks?" I nodded and he sighed. "Then, I know you won't like it, but maybe you should tell him about you being a Yuurei and how you...you know, the twins." I gulped.

"I know he should know now but…" I pointed at myself. "Hello, do you really think I will say everything and won't cower in fear in the middle of it!?"

"Then give him your diaries." I blinked. He shrugged. "I mean, you told me there was one for events and one for your personal life. Right now, the second one could answer a lot of his questions."

"But that's…"

"Look Akane, you've gone too far and have to tell him. He will keep pushing anyway, and it won't do you any good if you keep refusing him but never give a clear answer. It's not as if Sasuke's and your engagement was the main reason you don't want to get involved with him."

"What if he hates me after, or thinks I used him as some...some replacement? Or what if he thinks I'm a weirdo with an obsession with him?" He shrugged.

"You can't control how he'll react, just deal with it. Did you use him as a replacement though?"

"No!" I replied, standing up abruptly. "How can you think that!?" He smiled at me.

"Then if you didn't use him as a replacement, why are you worried he'll think that?" I blinked.

"I…" I sat back down, grabbing my hands. "I don't want to lose him again. I didn't use him as a replacement, but I can't lose him a second time." I sighed. "But I can't keep him in the dark, not anymore."

"Then you know what you have to do."

I spent time at his place, writing down everything about Yuureis. It was Itachi, might as well giving him all the information, including the…bad sides of being a Yuurei, like turning a little bit...crazy, or being drawn to death, or having to die for the Claw, or how I wouldn't live long…

Basically, I told him the biggest secret of the Uzumaki clan. Sasuke knew anyway, and Kakashi too. Once I was done, I read through everything, nodding to myself. It was very confusing. I had told the story from the beginning, from Otsutsuki Tensui, including my 'episode' after the Chuunin Exams. It was long and complex, but Itachi would understand it.

I went to Mom's after that, surprising Fū who was in my old room. She had done a few changes in it.

"Sorry to bother you, I have something to pick up."

"Sure, go ahead." I opened the drawer of the desk and removed the false bottom. At the far back was a seal. I used it, two diaries popping into existence. One was the one Itachi gave back to me almost three years ago now. The other one was one I kept in Kiri up until I brought Sasuke with me for training.

He...deserved to know all of it.

I went home close to the evening, after going back to Kakashi's to tell him I wasn't sure if it was the right thing because I was scared. He got fed up with me and walked me home, all the way to my front door.

I felt Itachi in there. Kakashi pushed me in the apartment and shut the door behind me.

I gulped and went to the kitchen.

"You're back." I jumped and turned around. Itachi was on the couch, in the dark.

"...yeah…"

He stood up and walked to me like a cat walking toward his prey. I started to shift from one foot to another. When I could have a good look at him face, I realized it was completely blank. I hugged the diaries and sheets of papers closer to my chest.

He didn't open his mouth, just staring at me. I couldn't find the words.

Ultimately, I pushed the reading materials in his chest. He looked down at it, visibly uninterested.

"I...you deserve to know. Everything," I whispered weakly, my face facing the floor.

"Hn." I shut my eyes tightly. He was cold, but how could I resent him for that?

"I...I know you deserve to hear it from me…"

"I think so as well," he replied quietly. I bit the inside of my cheek.

"I know how I am, I know if I'm the one telling you, then I will keep details to myself, I might change a few things because I'm a coward."

"What's so horrible about you Akane?" he asked me before sighing. "If you want me to know, then tell m…" I raised my head, shaking it.

"I care too much about what you think of me, if I saw it was changing while I talked then I'd stop. This way…" I showed him the diaries. "This way I won't...you'll know everything." He looked down at the diaries and nodded.

"Alright, I'm going to read them." He went to his room and I sighed deeply before going to take a shower.

I wasn't hungry, so I directly went to my room in my pajamas. I gazed softly at my bed, noticing that Itachi, in spite of me running away this morning, changed the sheets. I laid down on my bed and waited, staring at my ceiling.

My stomach was hurting from the stress.

"You're done with the sex now?" Tobirama asked me rather harshly. I closed my eyes, finding myself in my mind.

Oji-chan was sitting on the floor, his back to me. I raised a brow.

"He's depressed you're 'not a kid' anymore," Tobirama said.

"I totally forgot about you all," I mumbled under my breath. "Tell me you didn't spy on me last night." The Second looked disgusted at that idea.

"No worry Akane!" Hashirama reassured me. "When you are in your home or in presence of your family or friends, we automatically close the connection with the outside off to give you privacy!" I sighed in relief and pointed at Minato. "Ah, the Yondaime had a peek of your conversation with his student. He has been like that ever since."

"I'm older than him dammit," I muttered, going to him. "Stop sulking."

"I thought we had a deal," he reminded me weakly, his face completely heartbroken.

"Well, it wasn't what I was thinking about last night, you're kind of a turnoff to me." He looked disgusted at the implication. "If you can cut the connection it's fine anyway." He was still pouting and I sighed. "Were you always like that? Kakashi implied it but...I don't really remember."

"You asked Kushina if you could marry me one day," he mumbled under his breath. "You were so cute with your pigtails, always calling me 'oji-chan'…" I left him to his rambling and went back to the other two Kage.

"He has issues," I stated.

"You think?" Tobirama replied. "Anyone who marries Uzumaki women on their own free will have issues." He shot his brother a pointed look. Hashirama laughed and slapped his brother in the back.

"Don't be like that, you were happy Mito and Umiko were there to work on seals!"

"The previous Yurei...Tobirama, how did you feel when you discovered about this?" He raised a brow and folded his arms.

"It was a burden." I widened my eyes. "I didn't ask for anything and suddenly she was dead set on keeping me alive by any mean possible, it was annoying." Seeing my panic, he sighed. "I call it a burden because she kept putting herself in danger to protect me, protect us really, and it was a struggle to help her."

"I...see…" I was back in my room.

"Akane." I jumped and looked at the door. Itachi was standing there awkwardly, his face emotionless.

"How long have you been standing there?"

"A few minutes." He walked to my desk and put down the diaries as I sat up. It was dark outside.

"Did you read it all?"

"Yes." He took a deep breath. "Everything...makes sense now." He sat down next to me on my bed. There was an awkward silence.

He could have said he hated me it would have been better than the silence.

"Can I see?" he asked me so quietly I almost didn't hear. I shot him a quizzical look and he cleared his throat, uncomfortable. "Can I see your memories?" I pursed my lips. "When we had that altercation at the hideout, I caught a glimpse of you crying over Akiko-san's body. I thought it was weird back then but...now I know it actually happened."

"...you saw that then," I mumbled weakly. I took a deep breath and closed my left eye. "Go on. I'll pass out after. There might be memories in there that are not mine but...his, Sas...old Sasuke showed them to me." He frowned slightly.

"Alright." He looked at me, the usual onyx eyes I loved turning a deep scarlet red.

I found myself watching Shisui, once again, gouging his eye out and falling from a cliff. Itachi immediately tensed, but his eyes never left what was happening in front of him. I gulped, looking away from images of the massacre, the screams ringing loudly in my ear.

Then, it immediately jumped to me trying to kill Sasori, Itachi holding me back, then our conversation where he decided I'd travel with them. Seeing that…

I was so angry back then, so...immature...lost. I didn't care about anything but killing the man who killed my mother.

I blushed when I saw old Itachi and I kissing for the first time and going to my room to sleep together. I stole Itachi glance. He was completely unfazed. How did he feel seeing himself wearing the Akatsuki coat?

"Come on Itachi! Swimming is great!" A young me walked by us in a swimsuit, Itachi reluctantly following her. He sighed.

"If something goes wrong it's on you."

"What can go wro...AHHH!" I blushed, embarrassed as I watched myself falling head first in the pound. It switched to me and Itachi on the bank, him busy playing with my nipples.

"For someone who can handle cold temperature, your body still react to the cold."

"Shut up." I looked away when I saw myself riding him.

Then it was me telling Itachi to leave me then screaming at him to stay, us officially getting together…

Oh.

I was on the bed, next to him and holding him, making circles in his back as he was coughing blood in a bowl. Itachi was pale and sweaty and I was clearly nervous but trying to keep it together.

"I'm sorry Akane."

"You need to rest."

"I can't stay long this ti…"

"Then rest. You need it. I don't care if we don't have sex as long as you don't choke on your own blood." Itachi buried his face in her chest and she kissed his head. "I'll sleep in the couch."

"No."

"It's okay, you need to rest anyway, might as well let you have all the space you can."

"Stay." She pursed her lips.

"It's not a good idea. I can sleep on the floo…"

"In the bed." She sighed.

"Fine." She pushed him away to lay him down, tucking him in to his chin. "But one more request and I'm telling Hoshigaki-san how greedy you are."

"Aren't you supposed to be my girlfriend?" She blushed and stuttered.

"So you choose this moment to call me that you fucking jerk!?"

She went in the kitchen. It was only then, leaning on the sink that she let her frustration showed.

"Less than a year…" she muttered. When she went back in the room, she smiled faintly and kissed a sleeping Itachi on the forehead.

It switched to me receiving the necklace, Itachi making me promise not to hold him back when he'd leave to me trying to hold him back and failing, him saying he loved me and me doing the same before he knocked me out.

Then I was working at the tea house. I looked down as Hoshigaki-san entered the picture, alone, and my past self just nodded. They talked a little then she passed out.

I was then seen at the doctor, being told I was one-month pregnant. There were a few memories during the pregnancy, especially me crying hugging a shirt Itachi would wear at home, saying I would raise twins on my own. Eventually, I was seen being put on bed rest, caressing my huge belly and smiling faintly when there would be a kick.

I shot Itachi a glance. His eyes…were still blank.

Then a knock on the door.

"I'm coming," my past self grumble, using a crutch to walk. She opened the door and widened her eyes.

"Sasaki Akane?" Itachi blinked in surprise at Sasuke's voice. My past self moved back and post-war Sasuke appeared.

"His arm…" Itachi whispered in horror.

"To what do I owe the honor of having a war hero in my humble house?" she replied, on her guards. Itachi perked up at that.

"My brother told me about you and asked me to make sure you would be safe." He looked down at her belly. "He didn't tell me about that."

"He died before knowing Sasuke."

"I...am sorry…"

"That's…" She looked down, water pooling down her legs. "...crap. Sasuke, run to the closest village. There's a house with a distinctive red roof, tell them my water broke." He nodded with wide eyes and ran out as my past self went back to her bed. "I totally blame that on you Itachi...sending me your brother, if you cared so much you…" She bit her lip.

The next thing we saw was a struggling Sasuke, muffling his own pain as I was crushing his only valid hand, screaming bloody murder as I was in labor.

"I don't care how you do it but bring me your brother Sasuke! He'll do it in my place!"

"I can't!"

"FIND A WAY!"

"One last push and the first one is out!"

"GET OUT!" With one last scream there was a wail. The doctor had a bloody baby in her arms.

"It's a girl." Sasuke raised his head, his eye wide. They cleaned Aki and put her on my past self's chest, who chuckled tiredly. She caressed one of her cheek.

"You didn't want to come out, did you?" Sasuke stood up and peeked at her curiously. He poked one of her cheek. "Look, it's your uncle."

"Are you ready for the next one?"

"Next one?" Sasuke repeated in shock. Aki was taken by the nurse and placed in a baby bed.

"I'm expecting twins. Give me your hand." He did it reluctantly and a few pushes later, Shisui was there, barely crying but perfectly healthy.

"Have you picked names?" She nodded at Sasuke and gazed softly at the babies on her chest.

"My daughter is called Akiko in memory of my mother. My son is named Shisui, in memory of the idiot who somehow pushed your brother and I together."

It switched to the first few months where Sasuke stayed with me and we were stuck figuring out parenting together, panicking together. Sasuke, in spite of struggling himself after the war, had been a great emotional support for me. I was glad not to be alone in the end.

Then we saw Sasuke and I going to Konoha so that I could raise my babies. Their childhood started being displayed in front of my eyes and I felt a tear rolling down my cheek. I wiped it away as I was also seeing myself forming bonds once more, being involved in the village as one of the Hokage's advisor, sometimes replacing him.

"Mom, tell your son he's being annoying not minding his business!"

"Aki, any boy interested in you have to go through me first!"

"I do what I want dattebane!"

"Mom!" they yelled together and my past-self just sighed at her genin children.

I was seen behind Naruto as he accepted the title of Nanadaime.

"Nee-chan please be careful." Oh, that was… "I have a bad feeling about this."

"Me too." She looked at the Fourth stone head. "But Sasuke wouldn't have asked for me if it wasn't important." They hugged and she left Konoha.

Shortly after, the scene of my death played again, Shisui and Akiko crying over me after I summoned the Shinigami. I closed my eyes. I didn't want to see myself die in Sasuke's arm again, or hear my thoughts about being a selfish coward all my life.

Suddenly, a younger voice was screaming at Shisui, Uchiha Shisui, to shut up and that he was fake. Ultimately, he saw Shisui looking in my memories as I told him about Danzou, how Shisui told me he was in this with me now. We heard my new found resolve to give him and Itachi a future this time. We saw my meeting with the Sandaime, my first encounter with Fugaku-san and the meeting with the clan heads, how behind the scenes they were working on getting rid of Danzou. Then I met a kid Sasuke, who was grumbling about his brother, and gave him my takoyakis.

And we were taken by Roots, and we escaped. I saw Itachi gulping at Sasuke's red eyes. Eventually, we reached the moment where we met this time around and how I cried at his sight. Once I was alone in my new room, I shut the door and sat against it, a hand on my eyes. Tears were running down my face.

"He's alive," she whispered in relief. She grinned and wiped her tears away. "He's alive. It's...he doesn't know anything about me, but he's alive and well."

Right, I did say that.

"Enough," I whispered, almost begging him. I put a hand on my mouth. Why did my voice sounded so broken and...raw?

We were back in my room. My body fell forward but Itachi caught me, laying me down. I passed out when my head touched the pillow.

The next morning, I woke up quite late. There was a note on my bedside table. I took it.

'I need some time, I won't stay here for a while.'

Oh.

I smiled sadly, not bothering to keep my tears from falling.

It was normal to need some time after discovering and seeing that much. I understood that yet…

...yet I felt abandoned once again.

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