It's time for a change

The weekend went by smoothly after that whole rape scare I decided to chill at home that weekend and just isolate myself. I had my therapy session as usual with Nanao and told her about the party leaving out the rape altercation duh I'm not telling her that. Nanao was calm as usual and she even gave me advice for my panic attacks. Basic knowledge here. Count to ten and take deep breaths in between counting. She made me promise to have a more positive outlook on life and to also write happy thoughts into which I agreed to. Monday morning came all too quick. I honestly didn't want to go to school but I had exams and I couldn't not go. I'm not a coward or anything. Shiro drove as usual and walked me to my locker where a lot of people were huddled. I frowned as I looked and saw that my locker had been vandalized. Written in black marker were the words slut, whore, cow, bitch, cunt. The list went on.

I was embarrassed everyone was looking at me laughing and snickering. It was so stereotypical of me to do but I just pushed past everyone and ran. I didn't know where I was running but I had to get away from that. My feet lead me outside. The cold air seems to be a breather for me lately. I honestly couldn't believe they wrote that about me on my locker like where did that come from? I decided that I wouldn't let this phase me and carry on with my day as Nanao said deep breaths count in between. I took one last needed air gulp savoring it as if it was my last then turned to the building and went to my class.

When I got there kids were looking at me whispering gossiping. It was very annoying and frustrating. In between classes I made sure to reassure Shiro that I was fine and that I would see him at lunch. After Chemistry Chad wanted to walk me to the cafeteria which I appreciated more than he could ever imagine. He told me to hang in there and that it gets better. I couldn't help but hug him. He was such a good friend. Once I was in the cafeteria I went into my usual corner away from people but today I just couldn't not be the center of attention. I decided to keep my head down.

"Ugh the nerve of these idiots to believe a stupid rumor and those bitches I saw what they did to your locker I'm sorry Ichi."

I looked at Neliel and smiled. She really was a good friend. It saddens me even more thinking of the nasty rumors and nasty things I used to say about her. Neliel grabbed my hand and squeezed it encouragingly. Wait, did she just say a rumor?

"What rumor?"

"It's all around school apparently Kugo told Shinji that you hit on him and you practically begged him to fuck you and when he said no you got someone to beat him up." Neliel explained.

That's the dumbest fucking thing I've ever heard I was almost raped by that disgusting fucking pervert. The sad thing is people actually believed that bullshit what in the actual fuck is going on with peoples logic now a days. Shiro made his presence known along with Gin and Renji which caused the whole cafeteria to whisper and gossip more.

"We should go to the principal. I know you don't want to but Kugo attacked you. We have to tell him." Shiro spoke up.

I would not get anyone involved, especially the principal; this was my battle and mine alone. I turned to Shiro with determination. "No, this is my fight. I don't want any adults involved, especially the principal or our parents." I refuse to be admitted because of something I can take care of.

Renji was frowning at the table, "Look just be careful okay females are ruthless."

"Oh, I can help Ichi. I can fight, believe it or not."

I didn't believe it. Neliel looked like the type of girl to cry over a broken nail. Then again I was into sports back then and everyone still always depicted me as weak so maybe I shouldn't judge a book by its cover. I smiled at the table. They really were good friends. I never thought after becoming a social outcast I would ever have friends. Something was bothering me though.

"Hey Nel, where is your brother? I just noticed I have never seen him at lunch or even in the halls."

"Oh Grimm he's out he doesn't eat lunch on campus he just leaves and comes back and as for never seeing him in the halls well he's always late to class he takes recurring 'mental' breaks now and then. Meaning he usually skips."

I nodded, it actually made sense honestly. He didn't scream good school boy when I first saw him anyways. After lunch as usual the day went by pretty fast for a Monday. As I was leaving my last class I of course came face to face with Shinji and my other old friends. I took a deep breath and counted in my head 1.2.3 breathe 4.5.6 breathe 7.8.9 breathe and 10. We all stared at each other for a bit. I was calm for now, my breathing was slowed and my heart rate was stable for now at least.

"You whore you really tried fucking my boyfriend you haven't been getting enough dick lately huh?"

Breathe Ichi breathe, "He came onto me just so you know. Maybe talk to your pig boyfriend before trying to confront me." Yeah take that bitch.

"Ichigo you are such a slut we know you've been after Kugo for like ever and for you to come on to him is just disgusting you're trash."

You know now that I think about it Rukia was always annoying and she was such a little bitch. She always had to put her two cents in even when it had absolutely nothing to do with her. Breathe Ichi breathe.

"I'm sorry Rukia didn't you cheat on Renji with Ashido. How am I the whore here exactly?"

Ooo yeah you bitch fuck with me I got my witty comebacks as long as I'm calm I can do this.

"You stupid bitch!"

My eyes widened as Shinji and Rukia charged me. I quickly backed away going to run but one of the cowardly bitches grabbed me by the hair. Orihime of course took her phone out to record that's all the pussy bitch knew how to do. I fell straight to the ground and came full impact with a punch in the face weak it was Shinji then a punch in the gut weak it was Rukia. I was then kicked. They were really going for my ribs today.

"Who do you think you are huh stay away from my boyfriend bitch unless you want more of this." Shinji screamed.

She grabbed me by the hair and started punching me in the face. Pussy punches Shiro hits harder than this. Rukia was still kicking me. I feel like that's all she could do honestly. They were so weak these hits felt like nothing. Rukia spitted on me and they poured their drinks on me and left like it was nothing. Ironically no one was here to see the fight. They calculated that shit to a T they knew everyone would be gone before me even the teacher I was always last since I liked a relatively cleared hallway to walk down.

I laid down on the ground and sighed. I already knew I was going to bruise badly and I already knew I was going to have a black eye. It didn't hurt necessarily, it was just an annoying pain. I think I'm just going to lie on the ground for a bit. Actually, maybe a piano will fall on me with my luck. You know maybe a nap would be nice, why not? I have fluids on me and a nap sounds great. Oh fuck did those bitches hit me in the head? Ugh damn adrenaline no wonder I didn't feel much. Shit I probably have a concussion. Fuck me.

I woke up in my room. Shiro and Gin were hovering over me, Neliel and Renji were standing in the back also watching me. I kind of just stared at them wondering what happened. As if he could read my mind, which he probably can, Shiro began to explain everything.

"Mom says you have a concussion and that you should be fine. The black eye you have should be gone in a few days as well as those bruises on your ribs. Dad said the swelling in your face should be gone within a day or two. Mom and dad are thinking about transferring you to another school."

I knew better than to try and sit up or anything of the sort especially with a concussion. I've had worse bruises. I don't understand why my parents want to transfer me. I sighed and looked at the ceiling. I'll tell half the truth.

"I got into an altercation with Shinji, Rukia, and Orihime." I explained.

"Oh we know that we saw the video of course their faces are blurred out but we know who did this to you."

I felt weak and ashamed, "Please let me handle this please Shi."

Gin frowned at me, "Ichigo you keep getting roughed up and it's hard for us not to act this is going way too far. You need to start fighting back or else you could seriously hurt even worse than this."

I know he's right but there was still hope for us to be friends. Maybe they need to get the malice out of their system just a little longer then we can go back to being friends like we used to. Wait what am I saying oh my gosh Nanao was right.

"You're right Gin I promise you guys I'll start fighting back I promise."

Neliel hugged me and said she'd come and visit me and bring cake next time. Renji also hugged me and told me he'd bring me little chocolates. Gin and Shiro both kissed my cheek and told me to take it easy. I rolled my eyes. Gin swore he was my brother then again he might as well be he's been protecting me since we were young. I cut my tv on and decided on some cartoons hopefully with some much needed rest after being woken up every hour would help me relax.

I missed three days of school and during those three days Renji bought me candy and played board games with me. Neliel bought me cakes and watched tv with me. Gin and Shiro would eat popcorn and watch movies with me. On the third day Neliel bought Grimmjow with her, who bought me a weird looking stuffed animal. It was a panther Grimmjow said it was to protect me. I couldn't help but blush. It was so sweet. Neliel left stating she had to do her chores and needed to go grocery shopping. Which left me and Grimmjow alone.

"So Ichigo, why do you keep getting into these horrible situations?"

I sighed and decided to give Grimmjow the whole spill on my ex-best friends. Grimmjow sat diligently and listened; he was a good listener. I wonder if it's because Neliel was his sister and she talked a lot.

"Geez Ichigo all that because of a lie? And for some best friends they sure did believe a dude over you."

I couldn't help but smile. Grimmjow was nice to talk to, he listened and was understanding. Grimmjow shook his head and told me to get up and get dressed. I frowned. Does he not know what a social outcast is or something? Grimmjow left my room and gave me five minutes. I was flabbergasted because I couldn't get dressed in five minutes. I decided on a lazy day and wore a pair of sweatpants and a blue t-shirt with some boots. I put my hair in a messy bun and walked out to Grimmjow's car. My wounds healed nicely in this time period. I felt almost as good as new. Just wish the bruises were completely gone. He looked me up and down and smiled which caused me to glare.

"I look that bad?"

He shook his head, "Nope you look normal for once and to me you look good."

This fucker he knew exactly what to say to get me to blush. Grimmjow drove and drove and drove and at a point in time it felt like forever before we stopped. Grimmjow got out of the car, opened my door and helped me out. I looked around and saw that he took me in the middle of the woods. I looked at him as if he was stupid he just rolled his eyes and grabbed my hand. My face was super red as he guided me through the forest to wherever he was taking me.

"When I was a kid I had a fascination with cats big cats small cats I fucking dig cats okay. Well when Nel and I were younger we used to run off and play here in the forest. And I came across this beautiful kitty one day. She was so scared I took care of her. I fed her, bathed her, spoiled her. Then one day I came out to find her not in her usual spot when I came to greet her. I climbed every tree trying to see if I could find her but nothing. I decided to go to her den. She always hated me in her den but oh well had to make sure she was okay. Well I went to her den to find her dead. Some hunters came and shot her, tainting her beautiful white fur. They just killed her for sport." Grimmjow led me deeper into the woods which would have freaked me out but I could hear the pain in his voice feel it. That sense of lost and hopelessness. "I named her Pan. I buried her by her den and saw that she had a litter of kittens. I take care of them and frequently come out here to make sure they're okay."

Grimmjow stopped me at a cave-like entrance and started making noises and out popped three little heads. My eyes got super big. They were beautiful little kitties a black and white one and a full on black one and a full on white one. They sniffed Grimmjow's hand and started climbing on him. It was so cute. The black and white one came over to me and started sniffing me then gave a small lick. My heart melted.

"That little trouble maker's name is Mia. She is such a curious little thing then the black one here his name is Kuro playful as hell and then her. "He eyed the white one with such nostalgia and love he grabbed her by the belly and smiled, "She's just like her mother spitting image and attitude to boot her name is Pan..Pantera."

Pantera licked Grimmjow's face and rubbed her face to his. It was such a beautiful sight I almost cried. I was so confused, why would he share this intimate moment with me?

"Ichigo I mourned Pantera for days, weeks, months. I was sad and depressed. I couldn't even look at her kitties. But then I thought I loved Pan. She was my baby and she still is but I have to think about now and in the present. I have to be strong for these three. I need to work hard so I can build a place for them to live without fear so they won't meet the same fate as their mother. Do you get what I am saying here Ichigo?"

I honestly felt tears coming from my eyes. I don't know why but they were falling ever so swiftly down my face. I probably looked like a mess. I turned my face to hide it from him but he just grabbed my chin and had me staring into those ice cold eyes of his. I couldn't speak hell, I could barely breathe as he wiped my tears away. I knew exactly what he was saying and I appreciated him even more.

A/N Merry Christmas I wanted to put out a chapter of we live in different worlds but holy shit this writer's block is really bad for that story. I then was like well lets update the Nanny blank mind on that as well. So then I said why not this it's not that bad at least I don't think so. I need help guys with an idea to help me get out of this little blocker I'm in. But I hope this chapter was okay. I don't know why gang of roses hasn't been posting but oh well. Anyways MERRY CHRISTMAS guys hope you guys have a fun safe Christmas.