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Song: Bullet Proof...I Wish I Was - Radiohead

Peter

Screams echoed through the walls of my small room. Glass shattering and the pounding of feet storming out of the apartment made me flinch. My cheek was pressed firmly against the dirty carpet beneath my bed as I hid. Always hiding.

A door is pulled open, and seconds later the sheet that draped over the bed is pulled up. I squint, looking up at my mother's bruised face. All I see are bruises. Not her kind, lost eyes or the rest of her face. It's all a shadow. A mask covering the face that haunts me every night.

She smiled at me as if it didn't hurt her split lip to do so, but no matter how many times she did it, I never smiled back.

"Pete? It's okay. You can come out now." Her trembling hand reached out towards me, but I didn't take it right away.

"Mom, we should leave-" I tried to tell her.

"Shh!" Her smile is immediately wiped away and replaced with an urgent scowl, "Shh, don't say those things. You know your father doesn't like hearing that! I promise it'll be better after today. I talked to him, and he's going to try harder, okay? He will!"

I didn't want to get out beneath the small, cramped space I often hid in. Not when I knew he was going to drag me out with him and hit me too.

"Please, Peter? Mommy n-needs you. I-I can't do this alone..."

I reluctantly took her hand, being swayed by her pleading eyes that were bloodshot, and when she hugged me, I held my breath as the sour smell of alcohol irritated my senses.

"It's going to be better from now on," She whispers as she runs her hand over my shaggy, unruly hair.

I know she won't remember any of this tomorrow when she wakes up with another hangover—she never does—and all I can do is nod in response and hold her tight.

"Okay, mom."

Startling awake, I felt my heart thundering in my chest as I gripped with reality to understand where I was.

Laying on my back, I stared up at the white ceiling of a bedroom with wide eyes until the soothing scent of flowers caught my attention.

A weight on my arm made me grimace as it started to sting from the numbness. But then I realized what it was, and suddenly, all my discomfort was washed away by the woman who slept curled up next to me.

My heart skittered around in my chest as I recalled the events that took place last night. The way Jasper and I ravaged Bella on this bed until all three of us were spent. The best fucking night of my life.

Looking over to my right, I closed my eyes in relief. I pressed my forehead against Bella's temple as she sighed contentedly even in sleep, relishing in her sweet scent of strawberries and lavender—letting her calm the storm that raged inside me currently.

She wasn't the only one lying beside me on the bed, however. Jasper was on the other side; his arm draped over her stomach as he slept soundly.

But no matter how much I loved being near both of them, how much I didn't regret last night, I felt the stains of my past sullying my entire body now. I needed to wash it off...all of it, at least for now.

As gently as I could, I slipped my arm out from under Bella's head and was relieved to see that she turned over into Jasper's arms rather than stir her awake. I didn't bother pulling any clothes on, making my way to the bathroom.

I wasted no time turning the shower on, wanting the water to be scalding hot against my skin so that I could feel anything other than the clammy, disgusting coat over my skin that reminded me of all the horrible things I've done in my life.

I stared into the mirror as I rested my hands on the marble counter of the sink. I stared blankly at myself, at my broad chest that had scars from all the jobs I'd done for the family and even before that.

Letting out a deep breath, I stepped past the fogged-up glass door and stood under the showerhead. The hot water quickly turned my ashen skin bright pink as I placed my hands on the wall. Letting my head fall forward, I kept my eyes closed and let myself go numb.

I hadn't had a nightmare like that in a long time. Hadn't seen her in a very long time. Why now? Why torment me with the horrors my parents put me through?

Running my hands through my wet hair, I sighed.

I'm startled when two soft hands wrapped around my torso moments later, and my heart begins pounding for a whole other reason now.

Turning the temperature of the water down so that she wouldn't get burnt, I turned to face Bella. Her deep brown eyes stared up at me with concern.

"What are you doing up?" I whispered, my eyes trailing down her naked body and instantly feeling my arousal awaken. I can still feel her, smell her on my skin as if she was a part of me. Permanently tattooed on me, and I'd be damned if I regretted it. I couldn't get enough of her.

Bella gave me a small smile before placing a kiss on my chest, "I felt you leave the bed...bad dream?"

I wrapped my arms around her and held her tight. Her breasts were pressed against my bare chest, and I closed my eyes as the water continued to trickle down my body and onto hers. I cupped the back of her neck as I held her for a long while, feeling my erratic heartbeat calm the longer we embraced.

"Something like that."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not right now," she stepped out of our embrace, and I frowned, "What is it?"

She takes a few seconds to contemplate what she wants to say, biting her bottom lip and driving me crazy.

"Then do you want...help to forget about it?"

My heart started pounding for a completely different reason now, and I wondered if it would ever stop around Bella. I licked my lips, "What do you have in mind?"

She smiled, the ends of her long hair wet from the water. Reaching for the body wash and bath sponge on the shelf, she poured a generous coat before stepping closer to me. She never stopped looking into my eyes, and I felt myself grow hard without much thought.

As she ran the sponge over my chest, staring at the foam build-up over my abdomen and awakening my need for her once again, I felt utterly entranced.

And then she spoke, "I don't think I'll ever forget what happened to me..."

I blinked, completely stunned to hear what she just admitted. Bella rarely talks about what James and those men did to her. I couldn't blame her for refusing to voice all the horrendous things that were done to her. But hearing her admit it out loud made a knot form in my throat.

She said, "But some days are better...especially after telling you and Jasper. As if it lessened the load in my heart."

I did understand her—more than she'll ever know.

I place my hand over hers, making her forget about scrubbing my chest. My fingers curl under her chin, and I wait patiently for her to look up at me with tear-filled eyes.

"I want you to know that you can talk about it too. Whatever it is, Peter. I'm always here."

"I know, baby," and I did. "I'm just...I need time to build up to it. You...are the strongest woman I know, did you know that?"

The flush on her cheeks made me bend down and place a kiss on each one, wanting nothing more than to bring James back from the dead and kill him all over again.

Resting my forehead against hers, I whispered, "But know that you're stronger because you're still here and they're not. They're all dead, forgotten. Know that."

I don't know who made the first move, but soon, we were wrapped up in each other once more. My lips pressed against hers, melding together, and with every sigh and caress, our kiss only deepened. Wrapping my arms around her, I pull her into me.

Bella whimpers as my tongue slipped out, licking her lips. Tasting her.

The moment her lips parted, I was slipping my tongue into her mouth, gently pushing her back until she was up against the wall. Her moan echoed in the fog-filled bathroom, and I relished every second of it. My leg nestled between hers, feeling the slick wetness between them—her own arousal and the warm water making me devour her mouth as my hand closed around her jaw possessively. The need to claim her, to make her all mine undeniable now as something raw and powerful stirred awake.

"Peter," she pants moments before she leans into my touch, her legs parting as I pressed my knee up.

"You're Jasper's now. You know that, right?" I lean away to stare into the sinfully dazed look on her face before she nodded. Her lips were as pink as her cheeks now. I leaned forward to whisper into her ear, biting on her earlobe, "But you're also mine. And most importantly you're yours, forever. No need to hide or be afraid anymore. Not ever."

"Peter," She murmurs, wrapping her arms around my shoulders.

As I hoist her up into my arms, a low rumble rises from within my chest—practically sounding like a growl. My dick was so hard I knew I wouldn't last long once I was inside her warmth.

"I need to be inside you. Fuck," I bite my lip as Bella nibbled on my neck, almost making me stumble into the corner of the counter. I sit her down on the cool marble, making her flinch when her warm wet flesh touched it. I murmured as I kissed her jaw, "Sorry."

I knelt, kissing her legs as my hand pulled one of the drawers open, retrieving a condom as I nipped the inside of her thighs.

When I looked up, I couldn't stifle a groan as I find my girl running her fingers up and down her wet slit. Chest heaving, eyelids heavy and cheeks flushed. What a beautiful fucking sight.

"Let's make each other forget the past, Peter." She breathed, her chest rising and falling faster and faster.

"Fuck, yes." I fell on my knees completely and spread her legs, bringing them on either side of my head as they rested over my shoulders. Fuck, she was already trembling. From arousal or just being cold I wasn't sure.

Her breathing intensified as I kissed her inner thighs, my arms wrapped around her legs and holding her in place while my fingers sank into her soft flesh.

And then I dug in—eating her out like a starved man who's just been presented with a feast. My tongue ran up and down her slit, savoring every inch of her sweet taste in a frenzy.

My eyes flickered up to find her's as my tongue dipped into her core. I watched as Bella's hand flew up to her mouth to stifle a moan, but it was no use.

If I knew anything about Bella when we were in bed, it was that she couldn't be quiet even if her life depended on it. I wouldn't be surprised if Jasper was up now.

I sucked and nibbled on her clit until her legs started shaking. Flattening my tongue, I thrust two fingers in her wet pussy, pushing and curling them irregularly.

Bella gasped, her hands digging into my hair, pulling me away just as I started feeling her orgasm building—her legs trying to close around my head and her pussy began fluttering around my fingers.

Before she could come, I pulled away. This made her groan as she slumped back against the mirror, panting as she slapped a hand down on the counter.

I rose, licking up the sweet taste of her, "Never get over the taste of you," I stared her down, relishing in her flustered state and the possessive way she looked at me, "Not yet darlin', I want you here with me when you come. I think we both need that now."

My dick was painfully hard as I pushed between her legs, rolling the condom over my throbbing member and groaning when her hand suddenly gripped me.

"Bella," I hissed, grabbing the back of her head and pulling her closer until my lips found hers. The rhythm her hand maintained was slow and torturous, as if she were giving me a taste of my own medicine. Resting my hand against the mirror beside her head I moaned, "Fuck, your hand is so soft Bella. So warm and...perfect around my cock."

Bella moaned, responding to my dirty talk by pulling me closer with her legs.

"Fuck me," she gasped as I practically towered over her even in this position. I moaned against her breasts, capturing one of her nipples in my mouth while her hand kept pumping me up and down. Kneading and pinching her nipples until they were hard, "P-Peter...please."

I grinned as I finally gave up teasing her. Grabbing the base of my aching cock as I lined it up at her wet entrance. I ran the head up and down, teasing her clit with light taps that made her shudder before returning to her core. I nibbled on her neck, "Oh, Bella. You don't have to beg, darlin'. Never. I'm going to make you cum all over my cock. It's been aching for you and it hasn't even been a day."

With that said, I thrust into her—the two of us moaning into each other's mouths as I went in and out of her warmth, pushing and pulling away. It was slow and relentless, and now I was torturing both of us. Not wanting this to end so soon.

"God!" Bella writhed underneath me as I kept going, my body rocking and grinding into hers. "That's feels...faster Peter. Fuck me."

"No, just like this," I cupped her face, making her look at me so I could see every flutter of her lashes and the way her eyes rolled when I drove in deeper. "I want this to last, Bella. Then I'll do anything you say after. If you want me to fuck you hard and fast after I make love to you then I will. But now I want this, baby. Us."

Bella slowed then, blinking as she registered what I just said. I feel her walls close around me the moment I said love and I found yet something else she liked hearing.

Her arms wrapped around my shoulders, kissing my chest as I stepped even closer. Chest to chest, I could feel her heart pounding.

"So...good. You feel so fucking good," I grit through my teeth as I feel myself reaching a high without moving inside her at all. Leaning forward, I encased her in my arms and held her tight as I finally moved into her, "I love you."

Flutter.

I groan, feeling myself getting closer and closer.

Bella watched me, running her fingers through my wet hair. She looked as though she were mesmerized, entranced by the sight of me. When it couldn't be farther from the truth. I didn't know what to do with that. It was overwhelming and I couldn't get enough.

"I love you," I whimpered this time as I thrust in and out, trying to keep an even pace but unable to stop myself from pushing even faster this time. That damn flutter was back again, pressing around my dick, "Fuck, Bella you need to stop doing that. I'm gonna cum before you."

"You mean this?" Flutter. I gritted my teeth, my breathing growing louder as she kept pace with me this time, taking over completely.

"Yes, that." I bit her bottom lip, making her moan. God I loved that sound.

Tilting her hips up, she met me thrust for thrust. She squeezed around me again with every press I made and I lost it, moving one of my hands between us and frantically flicking her clit in circular motions until she bucked. Eyes widening as she looked down then back up to me. Her hands gripped my shoulders as I bounced her rhythmically, hooking my arms under her legs.

We were going fast now but never looked away from each other, wanting to be present in this moment as we came. I don't recall coming this hard and long ever in my life as I groaned my release, telling her how much I loved her as she said my name over and over again.

When she finally came in a silent gasp, she whispered her love for me in my ear. Her entire body trembled as her arms held me in place. I whispered sweet words in her ear to soothe her, praising her.

The sound of the door creaking open startled both of us and we turned to find Jasper's heated gaze watching us. He was naked from the waist up, having pulled on his briefs.

But he was hard, I could see it clearly.

It made my dick suddenly throb inside Bella, making her moan softly as she must have felt it. She reached a hand out towards him, "Jasper."

"I didn't want to interrupt," he said as he padded towards us. My hand reached for his arm before I could understand what I was doing, pulling him over until he was beside us. Jasper kissed Bella's jaw as I kept my hand on his arm. My heart raced as he said, "You two were just so beautiful."

"I want both of you," she murmured as she kissed his lips, hand trailing down his hard muscles and cupping his erections through the briefs. "Do you want me?"

"What kind of question is that?" Jasper laughed but it sounded pained with need as she pulled him out and stroked him.

His blue eyes met mine then went to my lips, "You okay?"

I knew what he was asking without saying more. It made a knot form in my throat and I forced myself to nod, "I am now."

Jasper reached out towards me, his hand cupping the back of my neck in a way he hasn't done before. I felt short of breath as I grew hard once more inside Bella.

It was then when I noticed Bella was watching us through hooded lashes, intrigued by this new affection between us.

"Jasper..." I panted, unsure what I was asking for but apparently he did because his thumb pressed against my lips.

"Just fucking kiss me," he breathed before leaning towards me.

It was like my lips knew exactly how to kiss him, melding into his in a heated, cautious kiss. Jasper silently asked for permission as his tongue swiped across my mouth, gently thrusting in against mine.

Small soft hands ran across my chest at the same time Jasper groaned into the kiss. Bella was touching us, slow and accepting as she watched us kiss for the first time.

Before I knew what I was doing, my hips moved again inside her pulsing pussy.

Bella cursed softly and that was when Jasper and I finally pulled away, looking at our beautiful girl as her back rested against the mirror. I caught our reflection there, staring as Jasper kissed my neck and then Bella.

The three of us came together again, wrapped up in each other's arms.

A beautiful sight.

One I would never forget.

With the two most important people in my whole world.