(Violet's Pov)
I kept looking at Clem as she closed the door and came up to me and I got up from the bed and looked down at her.
"Violet, are you ok?" She asked me and I just kept on looking down at her.
"Why wouldn't I be?" I asked as she looked up to me more.
"Did you hit your head or something? You're acting strange and I'm getting worried about you." She says as she cupped my face in her hands and I took a breather.
"Yes, I am fine Clementine, no need to worry I'm just tired or something, but I'm ok." I tell her and she stares at me a bit, she was still worried and I sigh gently at this.
"What do I have to do to convince you I'm ok?" I asked and she looked to my gun and I roll my eyes a bit as I move my hands from her and go and grab the gun and hold it out to her.
"Go on take it if you're worried, I don't mind it." I tell her and she looked to me as she took my rifle and unloaded it and I nod as I take a seat on the bed again and rub my eyes with the palm of my hands. I look up to see Clementine as she was when I first met her bandage on her head, no baseball cap, those beautiful golden like eyes staring at me as she looked at me from my place on the walls of Ericson, and I shake my head a bit as I lay back on the bed and cover my eyes a bit as I take in a breath.
"I uh... Vi, you know that wasn't Tenn... Right?" she asked as I sat back up.
"What?"
"The body... that we just buried?" She asked. I was a bit confused and I thought a bit.
"Hmm, right... it wasn't him?" I asked and she nods, and I think.
"So, Tenn. wasn't a walker?"
"No, he never was one." She explained and I think a bit.
"But it looked like him though." I tell her and she takes a seat next to me.
"I told you about Kenny, right?" She asked and I nodded my head a bit.
"Yea, he was part of your first group, he had a son... Why?"
"... When Duck died... Kenny saw a walker in the attic of this house we got to in Savanna, you remember the house." She says and I nod remembering we had been there at one point when we drove into Georgia, right after the farm and when we took care of Lee.
"Well... the walker kind of looked like Duck, and Kenny couldn't kill it, the uh... the boy died in the attic and... Lee took care of it... Kenny couldn't do it, he just sat and watched it... AJ told me that's what you did was just sit and watch the walker even as it came up to you." She says and I look to her.
"It didn't bite me though."
"That... that doesn't make things better Violet, the only reason it didn't bite you was because AJ had to shoot it, do you know how scared he was? How scared I was when he told me?" She asked and I looked to the floor and then the wall, I couldn't look her in the eyes.
"I'm guessing he was terrified and, so are you?" I asked.
"You need to talk to me about this Violet... what if the walker did bite you?" She asked.
"I don't know... I honestly thought nothing of it, I mean... you and AJ did fine before you met me, and I knew you two could take care of Mary so." I muttered and I felt a tight grip on my hand as I looked to see her hand holding mine. I look up to her to see tears in her eyes, wide with not only sadness but worry she looked terrified at what I said too.
"How could you say that?"
"I mean it's true, you took care of yourself way before you met me and the others, you took care of AJ too." I tell her.
"Not the entire time... Jesus Vi, before I crashed the car, we had no food, no more fuel, or even water, I gave AJ our last bit of food, we were literally going to die because I couldn't provide." She says.
"But then you came to the school." I say.
"I crashed into your lives you mean." She said trying to make me smile, which almost worked but not fully.
"Yea." I muttered as I looked away from her.
"Without your help we wouldn't have gotten the food at the train station." She says.
"Louis helped more."
"Vi."
"It's true though, he rang the dinner bell." I tell her as I remember that night.
"You let me and AJ stay."
"Because you were willing to help us after we kicked you out." I tell her.
"You didn't vote us out though, you wanted us to stay, you kept the others away from AJ even after what he did to Marlon, you kept him safe, when I was on the boat, you took care of him, he looked up to you." She says and I close my eyes a bit as I remember.
"You kept him safe when I was gone, did you not?" She asked and I nodded.
"I did... but so did the others."
"Not as much as you Vi, when you were in Texas, you took care of him for me, you taught him things that I didn't even know about, like how to clean water, how to shoot a rifle, how to ride a motorcycle, you played baseball with him, you taught him how to ride a normal bike, you taught him how to drive the truck, you've done so god damn much for him, and me too." She says and I remember our time at my old childhood home.
"When you saw me after I got bit, you took action and took my leg off, you believed I would make it, you saved me, not once, not twice but multiple times and I can never repay you for it." She says and I look to her.
"But the boat."
"That you couldn't have controlled."
"But if they took me instead."
"They would have done the same thing to you, and I wouldn't have wanted that to happen to you." She says and I finally look to her again.
"We're always going to need you Violet, always, I mean hell I've got one leg, a busted eye, and I'm surprised I'm still alive... heck I'm surprised you haven't left me on my own." She says and I looked to her shocked.
"I would never do that to you." I tell her.
"I know... I know you wouldn't." She says and gives me a light kiss on the cheek, and I look at her.
"I just... I don't know what I was thinking, I honestly don't." I tell her and she nods.
"That's fine, but you know when you have these thoughts you can talk to me... hell talk to AJ if you have too, he was so worried about you after you left the grave, he wanted to come up here." She says to me and I think about how he looked when I just grabbed the body of the Walker.
"I'll talk to him later, I just... I don't know I want to sleep but I don't want to." I tell her honestly and she holds my hand more.
"Stay up here a bit and collect your thoughts, then if you feel like you can't sleep come down and just lay on the couch or talk to the kids about anything." She says and I nod as she slowly gets up, kissed my cheek again and heads out the room. It was a while as I just sat in the room laying on the bed, looking at the ceiling. I couldn't even tell Clem about how I thought Mary was Joan for that split second. I shake my head at the thought as I finally got up from the bed and headed down into the living room and I saw AJ drawing in his sketchbook I found for him.
"Hmm, whatcha drawing there kiddo?" I asked using one of his old Nicknames as he looked up to me as I then sat down next to him as he pushed the drawing to me, he's gotten so good with his art that it almost looked like a photo, just like Clementine if she ever got back into it.
"You, back when we were in the other community." He says as I look at it, and of course it was me in our standard uniform as I had a cigarette in my mouth.
"I remember that day... you asked me if you could smoke." I tell him.
"And you said-."
"No way in this life or the next will you ever smoke." We both said at the same time and I chuckled at this.
"God that was what... three months in the community... seemed so long ago." I say as I looked at the drawing more and he took it back and I looked at him.
"Yea, it was a long time ago." He says and I pat his head a bit as I looked at the old TV that we just never took out of her.
"I do apologize for the way I acted... I'm sorry if I scared you." I tell him.
"You made me worry, you weren't acting like yourself." He says and I look down at him as he drew more.
"Yea... Yea I wasn't acting like myself...and I'm sorry you saw that." I tell him and he nods a bit as I move my hand off his head and I placed them on the table.
"It's fine... but why did you act like that?" He asked and I sighed a bit at this question, and I thought a bit on what to say.
"I don't know, it all started when Louis talked about Joan, and me, and I just had a bad memories come back, and then Mary... when she smiled at me I thought of Tenn. when he would smile as he showed me his drawings." I say and I feel my throat tighten a bit as I wanted to cry.
"And then I just saw something in the woods, and the Walker... he looked like Tenn. Almost like if he had a twin, just without the scar... and I just couldn't do it... Heh, now I know how Clem felt." I say.
"What do you mean?" he asked, and I shook my head a bit.
"She saw a walker that looked like Lee once." I lied to him, he doesn't need to know the truth, it's not my place to say.
"Oh... ok I can see that." He says and I nod.
"Yea, she couldn't go through that again... so I took care of him... and you took care of my version of Tenn." I explained and he nods again.
"'I'm sorry." He says.
"What for?"
"For not being there earlier." He says.
"Not your fault, you went out hunting." I tell him.
"Yea but."
"Nope, no buts, you were doing a job, you didn't know this would happen, I didn't know it would happen." I tell him and I looked down at his drawing.
"Dinner is ready." I hear and look up to see Mary as I helped AJ up, we went to the table and I sat down just as the others did. They all began to eat and I ate a bit here and there as they would just talk.
"So, I read this book that was talking about these old TV shows they called up... cart-oons." Mary says and I laugh a bit.
"Cartoons, one whole word." I say and she nods a bit.
"Did you watch them?" she asked, and I nodded.
"Oh yea, I loved them as a kid, AJ here was lucky, when we used to live on the farm, I was able to get the VHS to work, he watched old Disney movies." I ramble a bit as I remember that day.
"He was so fascinated when the dalmatians talked, it was so cute and funny." I say as I looked to him.
"I liked the one movie where the kid pulls the sword from something." He said.
"Ah, The Sword in the Stone... never knew why they said stone, looked like an anvil now that I think about it." I muttered to myself the last bit.
"Yea I really Liked the wizard guy." He then began to explain the movie to Mary who was fascinated by all this and I looked to Clementine a bit and I get to thinking.
"You know what, I'm going to find some of these old movies, I mean when we find a stable place to stay that is." I tell them and they nod.
"I would love that." AJ says and I smile a bit as we finish up dinner and we make plans.
"We can head west like we originally planned." Clementine says and I nod at this.
"We can go to California and surf some waves." I say with the worst surfer accent that made Clem laugh a bit. We finally finished with dinner and I grabbed the plates as the kids left and I looked to Clementine as she got up and helped me clean the dishes.
"When do you want to leave?" I asked her and she looked to me.
"Not sure yet... we can leave tomorrow or heck even in a few days." She says and I nod at this and I thinks.
"A few days the crops can be good to take from the greenhouse." I say and she nods as we work more on the dishes and I look at the plate in my hand as I place it on the counter and sigh a bit.
"I know you want to go; I felt the same way before I met you." She says and I chuckle a bit.
"Yea... yea even then you kind of wanted to go but kind of wanted to stay you know... More so for AJ to keep him safe, and honestly we were till the raiders." I mumbled as I look at her.
"Yea, that day was intense." She says and I look at her.
"I'm sorry for what happened that night, I should have helped." I tell her as she looked at me.
"Nothing to be sorry about Vi, but hey... Our first night stargazing." She says and I chuckled a bit.
"Our first kiss." I say.
"Oh, it was wonderful." She says as I watched her close her eye as she smiled a bit.
"I was... A bit shocked when you kissed me." I tell her.
"Ah yes, the famous line." She says and I chuckled as she kissed me.
"Holy shit." I say as I lean my head against hers.
"That's romantic."
"I mean... Holy shit." I laughed a bit as I pulled her closer to me. It was good to hold her, made everything feel real to me and not like everything was just a dream or just in my head.
"Ok, time to get the kids ready for bed." She says.
"Hey, we aren't kids, we're teens." I hear Mary and AJ both call out and they laughed at this and I smirk as I looked to Clementine.
"Seem like they picked that up from you." I tell her.
"Uh no, I think they learned that from you." She tells me.
"We learned it from both of you." Mary says and I smile.
"Ok, Ok, we are both to blame... mostly Violet though." Clementine says and I smirked a bit.
"Ok I'll take credit for raising some awesome kids." I say as I pose a bit and she shoved me, and I looked to her.
"Is there anything we need to do?" I asked as I looked to all of them. I saw Tenn. Again, and I shake my head a bit as I see everyone else and I sigh as I take a seat.
"Violet?" I hear and look up to Clementine as she placed her hand on my back and I back up a bit as I see she doesn't have a missing eye.
"Violet are you ok?" I heard and look to AJ as he looked like a kid again and I nod.
"Yea, Yea I'm good just uh... seeing things, nothing bad, just tired." I say as I look at them as they look like they do now.
"You sure?" Mary asked and I nodded, and I saw her as a child again. Back when we first met her, and I offered her candy and I rub my head a bit as I look at the dinner table.
"Are you sure?" I heard and I nod at this.
"Yes, please stop asking me." I tell them all as I look up at them as they looked normal again and they nod.
"I'm sorry I just... I just need some sleep or something." I mumbled as I got up and headed to the living room and I laid on the couch for a bit. I closed my eyes gently as I was able to just sleep for a bit, or at least I was able to sleep as long as I could before I woke up from another nightmare and look around to room quickly to see it was still dark out. I get up quickly as I look out the window a bit and saw a walker here and there outside.
"Vi?" I hear and look to see Clementine with a candle as it lit up the room a bit and I clenched my chest a bit at the scare and she looked at me worried, but I shook it off.
"Sorry, you just scared me a bit." I admitted and she nods as she goes and places the candle on the counter, and I looked at her a bit as she looked out the window.
"Some more walkers hu?" She asked and I nodded.
"Yea, I mean... We can leave sometime this week, I kind of like the beach idea right now." I joked a bit to lighten the mood and I just looked at the Walkers as they shuffled on by the house.
"Yea going to the beach sounds really good, I haven't been to the beach in a long time." I hear her say and I nod at this as I hold her hand and I looked to her to see her normal again and I sake my head.
"You sure you're ok?" She asked and I nodded a bit and then shook my head no.
"I um... I'm not seeing you; I'm seeing the old you." I say as I looked out the window again.
"Pardon?" She asked and I think.
"I uh... I'm seeing you like you were when we first met." I tried to explain as best as I could to her as she looked to me and I looked at her.
"You mean, before I lost my leg and eye?" She asked, and I nodded to her.
"Yea, when we first met." I tell her and she moved me to face her, and that's all I could see, was what she once was.
"Vi?" She asked and I shook my head.
"No just... I just... See you like you were not what you are." I explained to her as I look at her.
"Hey, hey it's ok just, calm down and take a few breaths." She says and I close my eyes a bit as I take a few breaths.
"Breath in and out." She says and I do as I'm told and chuckle as she copies me a bit and I smile at this.
"You ok?" She asked, and I looked at her to still see her without her busted eye, so I lie to her.
"Yea, I'm fine... thanks." I tell her just so that she wouldn't have to worry about me at all, why should she worry about me? There's no point in worrying for me, I'm just a screw up.
"Come on let's get to bed." She tells me and I nod as I help her to our room. It wasn't long till we both laid in the bed and I just looked to the ceiling, before I knew it, the sun had risen, and I didn't get any sleep. I slowly got up from the bed and I looked to the door to see Joan and I shake my head and look back to see that she disappeared and I sigh as I get up more and head to the door and look around a bit in the hallway. I don't see anything as I go down the hall and look around more to see no one anywhere. I went and I grabbed my gun as I headed down the stair and I opened the door to look outside a bit to see nothing. No one, no walkers, I thought I might have actually fallen asleep had it not been for the wind actually hitting my face and actually feeling the wind hit my face. I looked around a bit then heard some footsteps and I look to see Mary and AJ as they look to me.
"We want to go with you if you're going hunting." AJ states as he grabbed his gun and I look at him.
"Well we do need some meat... sure we can go hunting." I say and they both nod as Mary grabbed her gun and I look at the stairs to see Clementine coming down.
"Is Clementine coming too?" Mary asked and I look at her some more.
"Sure, if she wants." I tell her and I look to Clementine as she nods and goes and grabbed her gun. I went and grabbed my bag and we all headed out, we were deep in the woods and I watched for any walkers that would try to sneak up on us but I haven't seen any yet, which was good for us in the long run honestly.
"I bet I can find a big deer." AJ says.
"No, I'll find an even bigger one." Mary tells him and they argue a bit and I smile as I watch them bicker, I still remember how they sounded as children, how they looked and I just saw it happen right in front of me, as if they weren't teenagers at this point in their lives.
"Violet?" I hear and look to clementine as I smile a bit to her.
"Yea?"
"You good?" She asked and I nod again and look around a bit more as I hear some other footsteps.
"My, My, My, if it isn't my little flower." I heard as we all stopped, and I turn around just in time to get hit with the butt of a rifle and I fall to the ground.
"Violet." I hear as I look up to see Joan and my heart starts to race as I feel like I'm having a panic attack.
"You thought you could get away from me?" She says and I look at her scared as she smirked.
"I, I didn't I." I tried to say as I look to see some of Jonas' people point their guns at Clem and the others.
"Don't shoot them." I say and she looked to me and smirked.
"Oh, why shouldn't we shoot them?" She asked.
"B-Because they're my family." I say to her.
"A family that abandoned you." She says and I shake my head as I see her hold a bat as she swung it at me. I don't know why; I really don't know why I did what I did but I got up quickly as they kept their guns on us and I looked at her as I clenched my fist as I glare at her.
"They didn't." I tell her.
"Hm, keep telling yourself that." She says and I watch her as I see the bat again and I shake my head as it disappeared, and she looked at me with that stupid smirk on her face and I glared at her as I watched the others.
"Come on Violet, you were such a good soldier, you were one of the best we've had in years, you knew what you were doing." She tells me and I shake my head.
"Fuck you, you... fucking psychopath." I say and she laughed.
"Me a psychopath? How so?" She asked and her friends laughed, and I shook my head more as I saw the bat again and I look to my rifle on the ground.
"You want to shoot me hu?" she asked, and I look at her.
"You know, you took Clementine's punishments, the one you really should blame is yourself or at least your wife." She says and I look to her a bit confused. Was I hallucinating all of this?
"Violet?" I heard as I looked to see Tenn. and the blood covering his face and I step back a bit.
"VIOLET?!" I heard as I looked to see Clem, AJ, and Mary all looking at me and I look around to not see anyone.
"God fucking damn it." I say as I look around more.
"Violet what's wrong?" I look to see Clementine as she comes up to me.
"Where is she?" I asked as I looked around frantically.
"Who are you talking about?" Clem asked.
"Joan I just saw Joan where the fuck is she?" I asked panicked.
"Joan is gone, she isn't here." She tells me.
"No, I just saw her, I just fucking saw her god damn it." I say and look around more.
"Violet, you're freaking out just calm down." Mary says and I shake my head.
"I just fucking saw her; I swear I did." I tell Clementine as she looked to me scared.
"Ok, we are heading back now." She says and I move away from her.
"No, I need to find Joan now." I tell her.
"No, you don't what they hell are you going to do to her?" She asked me.
"I'm going to bash her fucking head in with a baseball bat, or... or shoot her in the fucking face, I don't know." I say as I back up from all three of them.
"Violet, please put the gun down and just talk it out, you need to calm down." Clementine says as she gets closer to me and I look behind her to see something and I aim my gun up and she raised her hand.
"Violet." She says and I take the shot and I see Joan fall to the ground.
"FUCK!" I hear and look to see Javie and David.
"JAVIE?!" Clementine yelled too and I looked to see Kate on the ground holding her arm and I back up as I drop the rifle.
"YOU FUCKING SHOT HER!" I heard as I looked to see David come up to me and I looked around a bit.
"DON'T!" I hear and look to see AJ raise his gun at David, who stopped moving as he got near me and I looked around.
"I thought, Joan, no she looked... she was behind Clementine, Kate wasn't there." I mumbled a bit and looked to see her looking at me a bit and I took a few steps back.
"No, it was Joan, I shot Joan, not Kate, that's not her, that's not Kate." I say and they all looked at me and I saw Ruby and the others as they help her. I clenched my fists and looked around more.
"Someone help me." I hear Ruby say and I looked at Kate.
"I... I'm sorry I-." I tried to apologize.
"Don't you fucking dare say anything to her." David tell me and I look at him.
"I thought it was Joan, she was behind Clem, who the fuck sneaks up on people like that?" I asked getting a bit pissed.
"Violet?" I hear Omar say and I look at him as he come up to me, AJ still holding his gun on David.
"That... that's not really Kate is it?" I asked him.
"It, is but it's ok, Ruby is taking care of her, just calm down." I closed my eyes as I take a few breaths and I open my eyes to look at everyone as they look at me, some worried, some pissed, some even confused.
"Um... m-medicine back at the house." I tell Clem and she nods as we all head to the cabin, David not getting any closer to me as I walk with Clementine as we get everyone to the cabin. Once there they helped Kate inside, but I stayed outside on the porch and I rubbed my eyes a bit as I take a few breaths.
"PTSD." I hear and look up to see David and I back up a bit scared, I was never this scared.
"Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you." He says and I don't let my guard down at any point as I watched him.
"You have PTSD, seems pretty bad." He says.
"Uh... PTSD?" I asked as I watched him take a seat a few feet away from me.
"Yea... Joan did something really bad hu?" He asked and I looked at him as he looked to me.
"Hm." I didn't say much as I kept my eye on him.
"Soldiers get it for war, but it's not just gained from that." He says and I watch him as he looked to me.
"What did she do to you?" He asked and I just kept quiet. Why should I tell him shit, after what he did to me and the others.
"I still haven't forgiven you after what happened to Romeo." I tell him.
"Hm, you mean last winter?" He asked and I nodded.
"And the wall." I tell him and he looked at me.
"You should be thanking us for that." He says and I look at the woods keeping watch.
"No, I'll never thank you, you and your brother." I tell him and he looked at me.
"You don't have to, and I don't care, but I'm just telling you, you've got PTSD, and you got it from Joan, what did she do to you?" He asked again and I glared at him. I looked to the woods and just watched for walkers.
"Violet?" I hear and look to Minnie and I stand up as I look to her.
"You and I need to talk." She says and we both walk off the porch and I just keep my eyes on the woods.
"Violet." I hear Minnie say and I look to her to see her normal, like how she looked before the world ended and I shook my head a bit.
"Vi." She says.
"No, you're not her." I mumbled to myself.
"Not who?" She asked and I shook my head.
"The Minnie, I once knew." I tell her.
"No, I'm not her, I'm different... and you are too." She says and I nod a bit.
"I am." I muttered.
"Vi, you need to talk to us, what is going on." She says and I walked some more, we passed the grave and I looked at the grave, mostly at the cross I made, and I feel Minerva stop next to me.
"I've gone a bit crazy I guess, like not in a good way." I tell her honestly.
"It's fresh." She says and I nod.
"Yesterday... I thought Tenn. was a walker, I almost got bit because I thought it was Tenn." I tell her.
"You buried a walker?" She asked and I nodded as I look at the cross more and I looked back to her. She had her long hair, was in her old pink shirt, and blue jeans. I place my hand on her head and felt how short it really was and she looked to me as I pulled my hand back.
"Your hair was better longer." I tell her.
"Was it?" she asked, and I nodded.
"I liked it when it was long." I tell her and she smiled a bit.
"I remember when you let Brody and Sophie cut your hair, it was funny." She says and I chuckled a bit and I nod as I felt the back of my head and I shiver as I move my hand away when I remembered Joan pulling on my hair.
"God, I miss them." I tell her as I felt tears prick my eyes a bit and I look to see Brody by the grave and I see Marlon too. I was mad at him, after what he did to Brody.
"Brody." I muttered as I backed up a bit.
"Violet, what are you seeing?" I hear Minnie ask.
"Brody... and Marlon by the grave... It's scary." I tell her.
"They aren't there, remember." She tells me and I nod.
"They're back at the school, they've been dead for years." I say.
"Right." She says and I sigh.
"She didn't deserve that, to be killed by Marlon like that, she was so scared, she didn't talk to me after you and Sophie were gone." I tell her as I look at the grave.
"I want to go back to the farm... I want to bury Tenn. properly; he deserves that at least... you know?" I asked and I look to her as she nods.
"He'd like that a lot." She says and I nod as I see Marlon and Brody fade away and I sigh a bit.
"She's ok, by the way."
"Who?" I asked.
"Kate... You were kind of a shit shot back there." She says.
"That's good, I mean, bad, but in a good way because you know." I tried to figure out the right words to say but couldn't.
"I know what you mean and it's ok." She says and I sigh a bit.
"What are you all doing out this way anyway?" I asked her.
"We were heading to a new town to build a community, a strong one that is, with walls." She says and I look at her then to the woods.
"Not like, Joan's community, this one is good... the place we were at originally isn't the best place to go to now." She says.
"Walkers?" I asked and she nods.
"Yea, huge heard past through." She says.
"James?" I asked.
"Yea, way too many for him to actually handle." She says and I nod at this.
"Not much walkers here." I tell her.
"I can see that." She tells me and I nod a bit to her saying that.
"Yea, the only walker heard we had to deal with was the one we had yesterday, when Aasim and the others came by that night." I explain and she nods.
"We should head back you know." She says and I nod as we do head back to the house and I see Clementine and Ruby talking on the porch and I keep my head down as we get up.
"Violet." I hear Ruby say as I look up to her a bit and she hugged me, and I kept my hands to my side.
"You ok?" she asked.
"Hm, yea I'm ok, how's Kate?" I asked.
"She's doing just fine, thanks for letting us use your medicine, I didn't have some of that stuff on me." She says and I nod at this.
"She's asleep on the couch right now." She tells me and I nod as I stay outside.
"Vi." I hear and look to Clementine.
"I um... I have to go." I mutter as I head off the porch once again and I go to my motorcycle and look at it a bit.
"You aren't leaving, are you?" She asked and I shook my head.
"No, not without you and the kids." I tell her and she nods a bit as we look at the bike.
"You should go take a walk, or a ride." She tells me and I look at her.
"Later, I'll think on it." I tell her. I then hear some yelling and we all head in to see AJ and Javi yelling at each other.
"What is going on here?" I say and Javi glared at me.
"Your fucking kid here pointing a gun at us." He says and I look at AJ.
"I don't know if she was going to turn and what they did to you." AJ tells us and I nod.
"I can understand that, just put the gun away AJ we don't want any more issues." I tell him and he listens to me.
"Wait, that's AJ?" Javi asked and Clementine nods and I look at AJ.
"AJ come with me." I tell him and he follows me as we leave the people and I look to him.
"You good kiddo?" I asked and he nods a bit.
"Mad hu?" I asked and he nods.
"Understandable, I don't blame you." I tell him as we walk and talk.
"You said they hurt you, why are you helping them?" He asked and I look to him.
"Ruby and the others are with them, the kids, didn't want to scare them, and Kate helped me a bit when Javi and David were asses so... Got to help her." I muttered as I looked to him as we kept walking.
"It's confusing." He says and I nod a bit to him.
"Yea, yea it is I don't blame you at all, I kinda confuse myself sometimes." I admitted to him.
"You said you saw Joan, but she wasn't there." He says and I nod.
"I thought I saw Tenn... in that Walker, but it wasn't him, I'm just mixing things up these days, don't know why though." I admitted.
"Mixing things up?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yea, it's confusing for me to talk on it." I tell him and I look around and I look back to him to see him as a child once again and I sigh.
"Like sometimes I'll see you and Mary as little kids, not teenagers, or clementine before she lost her eye and leg... or Minerva before the walkers." I tell him.
"Oh, Clem said those are hallucinations, I learned that in school." He says and I smile a bit at this.
"Yes, that's it, but sometimes they're scary, like when I see Joan, I see her holding that bat, or something else... It's difficult for me to really explain it, I don't know why I'm thinking like this, maybe the explosions and stuff finally got to me I don't know, I might not be as ok as I thought." I tell him and he nods.
"It's ok, I can help you." He says and I rub his head.
"I know you would, I know all of you would, but for now I don't want it... Is that ok?" I asked and he nods a bit as we just walked more and more till, we finally got back to the cabin. I see the others standing on the porch talking and the kids were playing with the other dogs including Snow, they also asked Mary some questions and AJ went up to talk to them as the adults came up to me.
"Ok, what's going on? Like what is really going on?" Louis asked and I look to him.
"Just a bad day that's all." I say.
"No, no you are not avoiding this." Ruby says and I sigh.
"I just talked to AJ about this, I don't want to repeat myself." I tell them.
"Are you kidding me? You say you saw Joan and then shoot Kate." Louis says and I look to him.
"Violet, you need to tell us what's going on." Minnie says worried.
"There is nothing wrong with me, there is nothing wrong, I was just freaked when no one called out and I shot them ok, I just... Fucking hell, I don't want to deal with this shit." I tell them all as they looked at me and I grip my hair a bit as I then slick it back as I tried to calm down.
"VI." I hear and look to Clementine as she placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Fine... Joan use to punish me for what Clementine did that she didn't like, I took a few whacks in the head with different items, mostly a bat I don't know why but that's the one thing she used after Javi and David had me and the others. Then with the wall being busted I kind of started to remember Lilly and Clem and Minnie and... And then Tennessee, and shit I don't know, but regardless I'm done talking about it, there's nothing to fix it anyway." I tell them as I get more and more pissed. Why thought?
"Why didn't you tell any of us?" I hear someone say and I look at them all.
"How the hell could I? you all would treat me different, I'm fucking sick and tired of it, even back when we were at the school everyone treated me different, fucking LOUIS KEPT BRINGING UP MY GRANDMA!" I yelled the last part as I moved away from them and started talking to myself a bit.
"Marlon was a bad guy but oh it's fine to try and keep him, but god forbid I start acting crazy now everyone is worried?" I randomly said.
"Violet."
"Oh, and don't get me started on the shit that Joan did, for fuck sake I... I can't even." I mutter.
"What else did she do to you?" Omar asked and I look at him, then to the others.
"Nothing, what?" I asked.
"What did you mean by you can't even, after Joan did something to you? What else did she do?" Minerva asked and I shook my head.
"Just beat me that's all nothing else." I say and walk around a bit.
"Violet, we're worried." Clementine says as she comes up to me.
"Don't be, I'm fine, I'm fine, she didn't do anything else, I'm fine, she didn't do anything else." I mutter it as if it was a motto I had to repeat over and over again as I remember her taking a knife to my chest and I hold my head.
"Just stop talking about it, I just want to fucking forget it, leave me alone." I tell them.
"We can't leave this alone." Ruby says and I wanted to cry. Why can't they just leave this alone.
"Violet." Clementine says.
"No, no, no, it's fine I'm ok, it wasn't that bad." I muttered.
"What wasn't that bad?" She asked.
"The cuts, the burns, they weren't bad... the other things too." I mutter.
"What other things?" she asked, and I shook my head.
"Drop it." I seethed and she back up a bit.
"Just drop it, that's all I'm saying." I tell her. I look to the others who looked worried and I shake my head.
"We need to leave in a few days, we can't stay here any longer." I tell Clementine and she looked at me a bit worried.
"Just drop it, I don't want to remember it." I tell her.
"Violet you can't keep this to yourself it's hurting you a lot... you're scaring me." She says and I look away and then back to her.
"You won't think of me any different?" I asked.
"Why would I?" she asked me, and I take a breath as I look to the others and her.
"I'll tell you... But only you." I tell her and she looked at me as I looked to her sadly.
"Ok." She says and I nod.