Waking up the next morning I lay still in my bed just looking up at the ceiling wondering what my familial relationships were going to be like now I had told my mother exactly what was going on with me, with my brother and how I felt.
Pushing back my blanket I sat up and ran a hand through my hair I had no expectations that my relationship with my brother would be any different; Daniel seemed to have some vendetta against me, Johnny and the other guys.
Still not being friendly with my twin wouldn't affect me any differently, I had managed this long without him, but I needed my Mom to see me differently to treat me as the good one for once.
Walking to my closet I quietly picked out the clothes I was wearing today and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror "Great" I sighed seeing how tired I looked, talking about your childhood traumas apparently took a lot out of a person.
Opening my door, I peeked my head out and ran into the bathroom to have a shower and ran back before Ma or Daniel woke up and tried to talk to me, it was too early for a heart to heart.
Smoothing down my clothes and fluffing up my hair I gave it a quick spray with Aqua-net before quickly applying some makeup I needed to cover up the fact that I had only slept a few hours.
Hearing footsteps out in the apartment I knew Ma was up "okay breathe" I mumbled breathing deeply as I opened my door as if nothing had ever happened.
"Morning Sweetheart" Ma called from her spot in the kitchen and turned to me with a smile looking like Suzy Homemaker.
"Morning Ma" I greeted back and sat at the table where Mom placed a plate down in front of me before taking the seat opposite with a coffee cup in hand, she wanted to talk.
"How are you feeling?" she asked softly and I gave a small sigh as I bit into my toast "Better" I answered quietly trying not to look into her eyes.
"I'm glad" Ma replied, but I knew she wasn't done "Thank you for letting me in, I know it's not easy for you" I just nodded and continued eating, this false sense of reconciliation was going to be short-lived, and I knew it.
Hearing another set of footsteps, I knew Daniel was coming, and by the look on Ma's face, she was apprehensive about the situation too "Good Morning Ma" My twin said as he gave her a kiss on the cheek "Morning" we both grumbled giving each other the side eye.
"Oh, I almost forgot here" Mom started as she opened her purse and took out some money "What's this for?" I questioned when she handed me half and gave the other half to Daniel.
"For the Halloween dance," Ma explained to us with a smile "Go out and buy yourselves costumes or spend it on your date" She grinned giving Daniel a wink.
"Thanks, Ma" I grinned and stood up throwing my bag over my shoulder "Oh and I'm gonna be late home tonight, I'm helping the decorating committee with the Halloween decorations."
Mom blinks before giving me another smile "Do you want me to pick you up?" I shook my head quickly "I'm sure Johnny will bring me home" Ma looked at me and crossed her arms "When will I be officially meeting Johnny?" she questioned, and I grimaced knowing their first 'meeting' wasn't a great one.
"Uh I'm not sure, soon, I think" I spluttered as I quickly backed up to the door and opened it "See you later" I shouted awkwardly as I all but ran out of the door and to the bus stop where Daniel soon joined me silently.
We were the only two waiting, and the atmosphere was so deadly I almost wanted to jump out into the oncoming traffic just to get away from it "So" Daniel said, and I repeated it twisting the ends of my hair.
"How's it going?" I raised an eyebrow at my older brother and huffed out a laugh "Are you trying to make small talk?" Daniel shrugs his shoulders and places his hands on his hips kicking at some stones with his shoes.
"Oh god please, save it, I know Ma probably told you some sob story but don't force yourself to be kind" I spat at him as he just looked at me straight-faced.
"Ma didn't tell me anything, I heard everything you said" Daniel muttered and my stomach tightened, if I knew he was listening I wouldn't have said anything "Even if you hate me I think we should try to be civil in front of Ma" Daniel said running his hand through his hair.
Sucking on the inside of my cheek trying not to argue or snap a comment back I nodded in agreement "I guess we owe her that much" Daniel nodded too and I got a good look at his face for the first time "So what actually happened to your face?" I questioned as the bus pulled up.
"You wouldn't believe me even if I told you" Daniel mumbled as he climbed onto the bus leaving me following him in confusion wanting to know what he was hiding from me "What the hell does that mean?". I questioned as I sat behind him on the near-empty bus.
Daniel sighed but didn't turn to look at me "it's nothing" I clicked my tongue annoyed "It obviously something if you begged mom to move us back to New Jersey" Daniel turned to me quickly his face screwed up "she told you?".
I nodded and looked out of the window noticing we were getting closer to school "Yeah she wanted to know what I thought" I told him honestly "about moving back home" I added when I saw his look of confusion.
As the bus stopped at our school, I picked up my bag and walked off the bus "Well what did you tell her?" Daniel called as he jumped up to follow me "I told her I like it here" I answered looking around for Johnny.
"Well of course you do. You've had it really easy since we came here, fitting in great with the top dogs, doing good with the work, oh and don't get me started with Johnny and the rest of those guys" Daniel fumed as he stood in front of me blocking my way.
"What the hell is your problem?" I frowned walking around him "Don't forget that's exactly how I felt back in New Jersey; no one wanted to be my friend because they wanted to be yours" I shouted back at him confident we were drawing a crowd.
"Remember how you would always make sure none of your friends wanted to hang out with me, telling them how 'mean' I was. Yeah now you know I felt" I hissed at him lowly, this is exactly what i thought would happen; we were back to arguing.
"and leave Johnny out of this, he's done nothing to you," I called to him over my shoulder as I walked into school passing a confused Ali "Nothing? you think beating me up at the beach is nothing?" Daniel growled at me as he grabbed my arm.
Snatching it away from him I let out a laugh in disbelief "You started it, well she started it, if you'd kept your nose out their business you would have been fine."
"Don't blame me for that. Blame her!" I argued point over Ali who looked at us shocked as I walked away grumbling to myself "What an asshole and people say I have a bad attitude."