Jamie moved closer to Goren, put his hands and head against his powerful chest, and cuddled up to him.
At this gesture, Goren felt all the love he had for his son.
With gentleness, he wrapped his arms around Jamie's small waist, hugging him gently.
And to think that it was in this very bed, where his son was sleeping in his arms right now, that Jamie was conceived.
Goren could not forget the two nights they had slept with Eames.
Two beautiful nights.
And the first night that this beautiful, adorable little boy was born and held in his arms.
Goren had hidden his face long before Jamie was conceived.
If he had refused to sleep with Eames in the first place...
It wasn't because he didn't want to...
And that he didn't want to help her have a child.
But because he knew that once he laid a finger on her...
He would no longer be able to keep quiet about the feelings he had tried so hard to hide, and buried deep in his heart.
Goren knew that he would be lost.
And that he would no longer be able to hide what he felt for her.
But since those two nights alone...
Nothing had happened again.
And it had been five years already.
Five years of watching Jamie grow up, without ever being able to tell her that he was her real father.
Goren would love to tell him the truth.
But he couldn't.
Goren couldn't do that without talking to Eames.
And first...
Would she agree...
Eames might blame him for wanting to interfere in her life...
And maybe she would be afraid that he would want his son back...
Claiming custody.
But Goren would never do such a thing.
He would never take Jamie away from Eames.
Jamie was everything to Eames.
And just because Goren had a lawyer friend who handled family matters, it didn't mean he would take Jamie away from Eames.
On the contrary...
If Eames wanted to be a part of his life...
Goren would be the happiest...
And the happiest of men.
But Goren knew that this was impossible.
That he could not hope for such a thing.
Eames would never agree to share his life.
He couldn't deny it.
Eames would never go with a man like him.
Even though he adored Jamie...
A man who by his behavior had ruined certain career opportunities for her.
So she would never go with him.
And he knew it very well.
And besides...
How would Jamie react when he found out the truth...
That he wasn't her uncle...
But that he was his father.
Goren couldn't envision hurting Jamie.
Jamie might think that Goren didn't want him...
And that's why he had kept his fatherhood quiet.
When it had nothing to do with that.
He could never tell Jamie that he had done this to help his mother at first.
But in the end...
He would have loved to be her father.
Goren would so love to tell Jamie the truth.
That he was a part of him.
The flesh of his flesh...
His blood.
Gently, he tightened his embrace, and rested his chin on Jamie's little golden curls.
- Did you tell Eames about your desire to recognize Jamie...
At Logan's words, Goren lifted his head, and looked at Eames, who was at Barek's desk, talking with her, and shook his head in denial.
Talking to Eames about her desire to recognize Jamie...
Goren didn't know how to tell Eames.
Let alone if he should.
He was so afraid he would lose everything by telling him.
So he preferred to keep his mouth shut...
And stay Jamie's uncle...
And Eames' partner.
Even if he hoped for much more.
- You know that in a few years Jamie will wonder... Goren turned his gaze to Logan, who was looking at him intently, looking serious. About your resemblance.
Their resemblance...
It's true...
Goren forgot that everyone who had seen Jamie had seen their striking resemblance.
Except for the color of his curls, everyone told him that Jamie was the spitting image of him.
So when he grew up...
Jamie would notice the resemblance.
And he would wonder about it.
Goren couldn't take that chance.
If Jamie reacted badly.
Blaming him for never having wanted her...
And turned his back.
Goren would lose Jamie's love.
And he couldn't face that.
Maybe Goren needed to talk to Eames.
Even if it was going to be hard.
- You're right, Logan... Goren paused, and then launched into it. I have to decide to talk to Eames.
Ah, finally...
Goren decided to talk to Eames.
For five years...
Well, it was about time.
Especially when you know that Goren only had God for Eames...
For Jamie.
And that he only dreamed of one thing...
To be with Eames and Jamie...
A family.
- Don't worry. Logan put a warm hand on Goren's shoulder and smiled. I'm sure Eames is looking forward to it.
Eames is looking forward to this...
If only Logan was telling the truth.
And that Eames had this desire...
That she wanted him to recognize Jamie.
That would be so wonderful.
- Goren... Eames...
At Deakins' voice, Goren snapped out of his thoughts, and turned his gaze to Deakins, who had just emerged from his office.
Eames looked up at their captain.
- You have to go to a crime scene.
Goren and Eames looked at each other, nodded, and got up from their chairs.
But Eames stopped, before joining Goren, who was waiting for him at the entrance to the hallway.
- Caro...
- Yes, I know...
Barek waved his hand to her to go.
She knew very well what Eames was asking her.
And Carolyn was happy to go and get Jamie.
After all, she was his godmother.
And Jamie was such a sweet little boy.
- Thank you so much Caro.
Barek shook his head in denial, over an Eames who went to join Goren, and when they arrived at Goren's side, they headed for the elevator.
Barek smiled, tenderized.
Eames always thanked her.
It always made him happy to enjoy Jamie.
She really didn't have to thank her.
Well...
Let's go get Jamie.
Barek put his hands on his desk, pushed his seat back, and stood up.