Edward left, and Jake and Bella fell in love, they started planning a future but when Bella leaves to college out of state and finds out she's pregnant she breaks it off with Jake…. And this is what starts the change in Jake to occur. Bella does not know of the Wolves
Chapter #6
I've been standing here next to Bella, the words she just told me keep repeating in my head "I didn't come here for you to forgive me Jake". My stupid heart cracked at those words, of course she wasn't here for me, why would she?
Stupid, silly heart.
"Why does she know me?" I asked Bella, I was done asking why she left, I know she's lying or keeping something else to herself and whatever excuse she comes up with will never be enough.
She was silent, until I looked over at her and saw that she was chewing on that plump red lip of hers. finally getting a good look at her face, I couldn't deny how achingly beautiful she was. Her clear porcelain skin, shapely dark brows, big dark eyes and red luscious lips that were made to make a man crumble.
I wanted her, after all this time and after everything she's done to me. I still wanted her, and I hate it.
She looked up at me and I finally saw those beautiful eyes, they were red and puffy from crying. I used to be able to read her by simply looking at her eyes, they were so easy to read but now there's nothing. She's different, she's not the same girl anymore, she's not my Bella anymore. Which is fine because I'm not the same anymore, and I owe it all to her.
"She knows all of you, I asked Sue for names and pictures of your friends and family" She told me as she looked up at me. I hate that she sounds so broken and I hate more that I want to comfort her, but she made this mess.
"So, Charlie and Sue knew about her, anyone else who knew about her existence before her father?" I said in my cold tone that I could tell she hates. She flinched at my words, and a sick part of me wants to hurt her more, but I can't.
"Just Renee, she wanted to see me my while I was pregnant" she paused and took a deep breath, "I told her on the phone about Ty and she demanded to know who the father was and how far along I was" she said as her face started to flush with anger, "she said to abort her" she let out in an angry whisper, my mouth opened in shock. My wolf howled with anger at just the thought of someone hurting our pup, it made me look at Ty to make sure she was ok. She was still sitting in the sand, digging random holes, talking to herself.
"I couldn't believe she would say that" Bella continued, she sounded sad instead of angry now, but I couldn't look at her, my wolf wanted to keep watching Ty.
"If I really think about it, I'm not surprised, Renee hated her life in Forks with me and Charlie. So, she saw the same thing happening to her daughter and thought that abortion would fix it this time around" She finished explaining, with a loud sigh.
We stayed quiet after that, just enjoying watching Ty play, after a while Bella sat down leaning on a log. I joined her and we stared at our daughter.
Later on, Ty came and crawled on Bella's lap and promptly fell asleep laying her head on Bella's chest. My wolf gave a contended sigh watching our pup being taken care of.
"I couldn't do it Jake" Bella said tearfully as she caressed our daughter's cheek. "I loved her the second I saw that test, I knew it would be hard and I would struggle, but I couldn't do it" she let out.
"You thought about it?" I asked, as I looked at her, I could see the tears sliding down her face as she stared at our daughter.
"After that talk with Renee, I did, I was so angry with her, with myself, with you and just…it seemed simple you know? Maybe Renee was right, maybe I was too young, I was in school and alone" she said looking up at me, with a guilty look.
I was about to protest but she held up her hand and continued "But I'm not Renee, I wouldn't hate my life, like she did, I didn't see her as a burden. Now looking at Ty and at what you and I made, my life is so much brighter since she's been in it, it has so much more meaning to it." She smiled at me and kissed the top of Ty's head.
"Renee and I haven't talked since she found out I kept her, Charlie has kept his distance from her as well, although he did give her hell for what she told me. He loved Ty as soon as I told him and before you say anything, I made him promise to not tell you or Billy. I told him that if he did, I would keep Ty from all of you" she said in an ashamed voice.
I looked at her with anger in my gaze, "Why would you do that to him?" I spit out.
"I'm not proud of it, but I did what I thought was right" she said stubbornly looking at me, daring me to say something else.
I looked away, not sure if I wanted to hear more.
"For what it's worth Jake, I never stopped loving you" she whispered, shocking me at the sudden topic change. I stood up quickly, pissed that she would throw that at me, she thought she had the right to say that to me after all she's done.
I looked down at her, not recognizing this woman in front of me.
"Don't…don't you dare Bella, I'm hanging on by a thread with all of this and you think you can tell me that?" I told her not caring how loud I was. She took a deep breath and looked up at me with anger.
"Whether you like it or not, it's the truth" she said not trying to tone down her voice.
"I've loved you since I was eighteen and it hasn't changed, am I under the impression that telling you will clear everything up and we will be a big happy family? No, I'm not and I wasn't lying when I said I wasn't here for you but I've kept so much from you these last few years that it came out and I'm sorry but there's no taking it back" she finished taking a deep breath trying to control herself.
"Im not stupid Jake, I know were done, I know that I caused it and there's no fixing it" she continued as the tears she had been holding back fell.
"I just needed to say it once, I just needed you to know and I know its selfish but I couldn't help it" she finished as she stood with our daughter, she looked at me like she was trying to remember my face. I couldn't speak, my throat was tight with emotion, I hated that I loved her confession but at the same time it comes from the mouth of a woman I don't know or trust.
"Like you said Bella, you're not here for me and I certainly don't want you here. So keep your feeling to yourself, you're good at that, next time we see or talk to each other it will only be about our daughter" I finished and walked away with one final look at our daughter, as soon as I was far enough from view I ran into the woods and let out all the pain and torment she brought me and phased.
After giving Ty a bath and putting her to sleep, I went outside and sat on the porch. Today was such a shitstorm, I was exhausted, but I knew I couldn't sleep, and I was waiting for a call from Alice.
I couldn't stop thinking how kind everyone was today, Leah had come looking for me about an hour after Jake ran off.
"Well Swan you sure do know how to crash a party" Leah said as she laughed. She sat next to me on the sand and looked down at Ty who surprisingly was still sleeping.
"She's looks just like him" Leah whispered. "It must have been hard being reminded of him every time you looked at her" Leah continued.
I looked over at her and smiled "it was actually the best part, it reminded me that I had a part of him with me at all times" I answered back. Leah snorted, and said that Charlie wanted to leave. She helped me up and we walked back in silence.
I had expected harsh looks and ugly whispers when he had gone back to the BBQ but instead everyone smiled and asked if they could meet Ty appropriately as they tried to hoover and look at her.
I smiled at that memory, my daughter would have a family, a big one who would adore her. She would want for nothing.
I jumped at the voice of my father.
"What are you doing out here kiddo" my dad said as he sat down next to me on the porch stairs.
I scooted next to him and put my head on his shoulder and took a big breath.
"I needed some fresh air and I was just thinking of how today went" I answered.
Dad snorted and moved me off his shoulder so I could look at him. His eyes were smiling at me, ok I got to be missing something. I scowled at him and he laughed. Just as I was about to say something, but he interrupted me.
"Bells today went great, Jake lit up when he saw her and so did everyone else. Especially Ty, she was so excited she basically floated to Jake when she saw him. This is a good thing" he said as he put his arm over my shoulders and squeezed me to him.
"I know dad, it's just hard" I told him "Jake has never looked at me like that" I whispered to him.
"Are you surprised bells? You broke his heart kiddo and you kept something vital from him, any decent man would feel the same, Jake isn't the exception." He sighed and looked out into the woods "He isn't the same kid he was bells, the sooner you realize that, the faster you guys can be cordial and give that beautiful little girl a great life".
He said, as my eyes filled up with tears that I refused to let fall. I knew he was right; I knew deep in my bones that unless I tell Jake the truth, it would always look like I hurt him on purpose. At the time I didn't care about anyone's feelings, I just cared about keeping everyone safe.
"I'm different too dad, I didn't come here to win him back. I came home so Ty could know her family and because I missed you" I told him as I smiled at him.
He smiled back and just as he was going to say something, but my phone rang.
We both looked down to my phone and when he saw Alice's name pop up, he tensed but didn't leave.
I answered and greeted Alice "Hi Alice, how are you?" I asked
"Hey Bella! great just traveling, the family says hi" she answered back. I looked at Charlie and he had a severe look on is face. I have no idea what his problem is, but then I looked at him and raised my eyebrow at him; had he guessed what they Cullen's are? No, there is no way.
Dad looked back at me and that angry look stayed put, his eyes were almost pleading. Like he was telling me something.
"Ty asked about you Alice, she said that how come you haven't sent her a new bed?" I told her sounding a bit robotic. I'm sure Alice will pick up on it and hopefully will call me later or tomorrow when Charlie wasn't around.
"Oh! Tell her that I was waiting to ask you this, Esme wants to know if you are planning to stay with Charlie or if you are going to look for a place. Esme wants to design Ty's room with her". Alice said, which I'm sure she already knows the answer, but is playing the part since she knows someone is around me and she can't just talk about her predictions.
Charlie must have heard because he got even more rigid which I didn't think was possible and his face was turning a bit purple. He finally stood and went down the stairs and then turned towards me with his arms crossed at his chest.
He was waiting for my answer.
I rolled my eyes at him and decided to calm down the sudden tension.
"I haven't even thought that far out yet Alice, tell Esme thank you and as soon as I figure it out, I'll let her know" I answered her while staring at Charlie and he nodded than climbed the stairs and went inside.
"You should consider getting your own place Bella, the tension with Charlie and us will get very ugly" Alice said in a sad tone.
"Does he know?" I whispered to her.
She stayed quiet for so long I almost thought she hung up.
"I don't know how to answer that, Bella" Alice said, surprising me.
"Well that's a first" I replied to her. "I need to know Alice, even if he just suspects it changes everything".
She remained quiet and that was my answer. My heart thundered and my breath got shaky, after everything I've done, it didn't matter. All the heartbreak was for nothing, not if my dad is in danger of knowing the truth.
"I think he knows something, but I'm not sure. I can't really see him, its more speculation and mainly anger" Alice finally answered.
My eyes welled up and my chest felt tight.
"How, Alice? How would this happen" as I tried to control the sob wanting to tear out of me.
Alice stayed quiet for some time again and then answered, "I don't know Bella, I can't see it. I mean I've never really gone deep into your dad's future so when this speculation started, I would not have seen it."
I took a trembling breath and I knew what I needed to do.
"Tell Esme to look into some properties somewhere in between my dad's place and La Push, at least two bedrooms and a big backyard for Ty to play. Nothing huge, I want something homey and comfortable for dad and Jake. Oh, and wheelchair friendly." I told her with an ache, I was hoping to be with dad a bit longer, but I guess having our own place will be fun again.
"Oh! I'm seeing the perfect place, but I'll have Esme email you some properties and then send over the realtor, so you can get tours" she exclaimed excitedly, which made me smile at the same time.
"I'm sorry Bella, I knew this isn't how you wanted to do this, but if there's even an inkling to him finding out then you have to leave Bella" Alice said, I knew she was right, but it still sucked.
"I know, I have time. It takes time to buy a place anyways and I'm buying the house with the money I got from selling the you know what" I told her in a no-nonsense voice.
"Ugh, Bella that is emergency money, I can easily buy you a hundred houses. Any of us could, I know you don't want to, but when you choose the house, we will be upgrading it with reinforced windows, walls and anything else we can think of to keep both of you safe". Alice said in her rare serious voice.
"I'm buying the house, you can pay for the upgrades" I compromised with her, because I would never be able to afford that type of upgrade and I wouldn't even know what to get or do.
"Perfect! I can't wait to go see you and get you settled in" Alice laughed, and I was sure she was jumping up and down.
"I should go Alice, thank you for everything, I'll see you soon" I told her.
"You definitely will, give Ty a hug and kiss from us" Alice said.
After we hung up, I stayed outside for a while longer, until I felt a gaze on me. I immediately looked up and stared into the woods in front of me. Something was there, staring at me, I stood up and went down the stairs and walked towards the woods. I was tired of this; I've been feeling it almost everyday now.
….
"Leah!" I screamed at my sister through our link.
"I need help with Bella" I told her as I showed her what I was looking at, Bella was looking at the forest with a determined look, then I see her suddenly stand. I knew she felt me staring at her, I've been watching her for a little while. I heard the last of her conversation with Cullen about her looking for a house to be closer to La Push.
"What is she doing?" Leah snarled.
"I don't know, but you need to distract her. Phase or something" I yelled at her. Bella was getting closer; Jake would kill us if he found out she was walking around in the woods because of us.
"Shit ok, Ill figure it out" she huffed out as she ran quicker to get to Bella.
Bella was about to step into the woods, and I held my breath until I heard Leah.
"Bella, what are you doing?" I heard Leah call out, stopping Bella. Bella turned around quickly and looked over at Leah and then turned back into the woods peering inside trying to find something.
"I didn't know you were a night hiker Bella" Leah snorted out. "I hate to stop your nighttime adventure but how about you make us some coffee" Leah said in the nicest tone I've ever heard from her.
Bella gave one last look into the woods and then turned around and started walking back towards Leah and the house. I let out a breath and laid down on the forest floor.
"Hey Leah, sorry, I thought I heard something and was going to check it out really quick. But now that I'm saying that out loud it sounds stupid of me" Bella said in an amused voice.
Leah started laughing and surprised me when she put an arm around Bella's shoulders and started leading her up Charlies house.
"Come on stupid, make me coffee and tell me how you were going to search the woods for weird noises in the dark" Leah said teasingly.
As Bella walked up the stairs to the door, Leah turned around and whispered to me to howl for a replacement.
Before they made it inside, I let a howl out and saw Bella turn around with wide eyes and look at the woods.
"Good thing I stopped you from going in there, it sounds like the noises you heard were coming from a wolf" Leah told her pushing her inside the house. I hope this will stop her from trying to snoop in the woods.
I felt someone phase in and knew it was Sam.
"Seth what is it" Sam asked, and I showed him what happened. He was quiet for a while, as he ran the perimeter that Leah had been on.
Sam finally broke the silence, "it's interesting that she can sense us, the same thing happened when I was watching her that first night, she was home".
He showed me how she was outside in the middle of the night and suddenly looked straight at Sam. I could feel the surprise from Sam that she might have seen him. Which would have been impossible, since he was deep in the woods and his coloring as a wolf matched the darkness of those woods.
"Do you think that means something Sam?" I asked him, excited about the possibility that Bella would know about us.
"I don't know, we need to keep an eye on her. Let's see if it's a fluke or something else" Sam said as Jared phased in to take over for me.
"Go home Sam, I'll keep covering for Leah" I said as I was approaching him.
"Alright, show Jared what happened and then Jared show the next shift and so on. We need to be careful and make sure this doesn't happen." Sam said as he phased out.
I let out a breath and started running again.
"What happened?" Jared asked. I smiled remembering Bella trying to go into the woods. If there is one thing, I found out tonight is that my new sister is brave. As brave as an alphas mate should be.