Requiem

I lost you
on bloody sands.
Ancient and honored traditions
that confuse and kill.
My own hands
the weapon used
to bring you down.

I lost you
a handful of times.
You disappeared
then came back.
Cheated death.
Laughed
in its face.

I lost you
in coldest space.
A ship too wounded to move.
Your face the last thing
I would see.
I gave my life
to keep you safe.

I lost you,
was nowhere near.
The Enterprise needed you.
Not your ship
but you saved her
and our friends.
Then disappeared.

I lose you
one final time.
Now that I have ceased to mourn,
was unaware you even lived.
You die again.
This final blow
the greatest one of all.

Jim.

(Pairing: Kirk/Spock Written in 2001)