Author's note: I've been missing for a minute, and I do apologize for that. I've been taking time to get mentally healthy again. Thank you Kai16Ray for persisting in getting me to come back and complete this story.

Chapter 8

She smelled so sweet. Her human scent didn't offend him, rather it was soothing, familiar.

But why?

Her eyes met his own, staring deep into his soul.

"Inuyasha…"

"Kagome."

Inuyasha opened his eyes, his mind racing to hold onto the dream that had trapped him only moments before. He let out a deep breath, looking to the body next to him. Sesshomaru was fast asleep, his chest rising and falling slowly. Inuyasha could hear his slow breaths, the sound pulling him into a light slumber.

Inuyasha felt the beginnings of a dream as he fell quickly into the depths, the feeling waking him up again. He turned onto his side to get rid of the falling feeling, though a restless feeling replaced it. Inuyasha sighed, pushing the warm furs off his body. Sesshomaru stirred but didn't wake, the stress having caught up with the demon lord.

Inuyasha sat up and put a hand to his stomach when he felt a rushing nausea, closing his eyes as he tried to will it away. He blamed it on drinking too much the night before, popping his back and rising from the bed. He covered himself with a kimono, heading over to the shoji. He opened it and walked out, closing it softly as to not wake Sesshomaru.

It seemed it was still rather late at night, so Inuyasha stayed silent as he tiptoed through the halls, wishing only for water to help with his nausea. He vaguely remembered where the kitchen was, his eyes adjusted to the dimly lit hallways. The fires had been lit a while before, though in some areas the moons light shone through and gave the walls an eerie shadow.

Not that it scared Inuyasha, his nausea scared him more than any monster.

The hanyou stopped in the empty kitchen and sighed softly, raiding the area for water. He found a porcelain jug full of water, lifting it and sipping the cool water. It had become the chilly temperature of the room and went smoothly down his throat.

Inuyasha placed it down with a lick of his lips, using his sleeve to wipe remnants away. He looked down to his stomach and gave it a small rub, his nausea calming down some. He turned around, holding back a girlish scream when he spotted a maid behind him.

Why hadn't he noticed her?

"Did you need something?" Inuyasha raised an eyebrow, realizing it had been the maid he had intimidated previously. She seemed angry he was there, or rather just in the castle. The hanyou knew she wanted him dead, though her desires were as useless as his attempt to recall any memory.

Inuyasha shrugged, licking his lips again.

He didn't have time to play into her games. A comfy bed called to him.

And an even warmer body.

"Nothing that would interest you," Inuyasha replied, walking past the maid as if she wasn't there.

"I hope you die." Inuyasha stopped in his slow strides, looking over his shoulder to the shaking maid.

"You are nothing to Lord Sesshomaru, neither the disgusting pup in your belly."

Something snapped.

Her throat felt like paper. It was so easy to crush it, her gasping screams of fear nothing but wind in his ears. It was weirdly calming, watching her face turn red with the need for air and her eyes bulge. Snapping her neck was even easier.

Pup…

Could that maid smell something he couldn't?

"Inuyasha?"

The small voice snapped the hanyou out of his daze, golden eyes finding a small body at the kitchen entrance.

"Rin," Inuyasha whispered, his eyes moving back to the body of the lifeless maid.

What had he done?

"Are you okay?" Rin whispered, her eyes glancing to the maid.

No.

Something wasn't right.

Why had he done that?

How could he have lost control like that?

How could he have murdered so easily?

"Rin, go back to bed," Inuyasha whispered, the little human girl shaking her head.

"I'm not afraid." Inuyasha was about to reply when he smelled a familiar scent, identical golden eyes connecting.

"What happened?" Sesshomaru inquired, his tone demanding an answer. Inuyasha looked away from the demon, staring down at the body.

"What does it look like?" Inuyasha whispered, Sesshomaru sending Rin back to her room before moving over to Inuyasha.

"What did she say to you?" Sesshomaru asked, his tone a little less harsh. Inuyasha wasn't in the mood to be interrogated, his mind a mush of thoughts and fears.

What had come over him?

"She told me to die." Sesshomaru looked down to the maid, his eyes looking back to Inuyasha's stoic face. He sniffed the air.

"You are with pup, Inuyasha." The hanyou looked to Sesshomaru with a confused stare, the demon looking down to Inuyasha's stomach.

"You may not know it, but you have already become protective of the pup inside you. You live only now to protect it."

Inuyasha felt a weird alien feeling come over him, the nausea rising sharply. Inuyasha ran to a corner and threw up what had been in his stomach, the action accompanied by a dreadful feeling.

What would happen to him now?

"I was hoping my seed wasn't potent to you. It appears it was."

Inuyasha shivered after he managed to stop throwing up, breathing heavily as he fought the urge to throw up again. The last thing he wanted to hear about was how potent Sesshomaru's seed was.

"What are you going to do with me?" Inuyasha whispered, his throat sore from his own bile. Sesshomaru was silent for a long moment, the silence only adding to the alien feeling inside the hanyou.

Would he give birth and be discarded?

"I will not have a pup of wedlock. You will marry me, Inuyasha." The hanyou gave the demon a look of disbelief, though the demons eyes only held sincerity.

Him, marry Sesshomaru?

His vision faded away to a distant memory, those brown eyes he dreamed of only moments before staring at him lovingly.

"When this is all over, will you marry me Inuyasha?"

Kagome…

Kagome.

Kagome!

Inuyasha blinked, a film raised from his mind. Memories flooded behind his eyes, a feeling of disgust rising into his mouth. Rage built into his chest as more memories flooded his brain, Inuyasha able to remember everything.

Everything.

"You sick asshole," Inuyasha growled, his body pulsing. Inuyasha felt his demon roar in rage, his human side screaming.

His body pulsed again, Inuyasha feeling his demon tear through his conscious and force itself into control.

"Inuyasha ca-"

"You lied to me!" Inuyasha roared, Sesshomaru taking a step back. The hanyou turned to face the demon lord, Sesshomaru standing his ground as Inuyasha lost his control.

Inuyasha felt violated as he remembered what Sesshomaru had done to him, remembered how he made him feel.

He had used him.

And Inuyasha had blindly followed him.

"I'll tear you apart," Inuyasha growled, Sesshomaru's eyes becoming stoic.

"So, you remember." It wasn't a question, they both knew. The ruse was up, the truth laid out for them both.

Inuyasha was hurt. Deep inside he felt the pain, though he dug it deeper.

Sesshomaru didn't deserve his tears.

Inuyasha lunged at the demon, his eyes becoming red as his demon took control. Sesshomaru easily blocked him, his eyes staring into Inuyasha's.

"Calm down, Inuyasha."

"Go to hell!" Inuyasha yelled, throwing a fist at the demon's perfect face. It was easily blocked again, Sesshomaru grabbing his wrists and easily maneuvering the hanyou over his shoulder. Inuyasha roared in anger, though in a flash they were back in Sesshomaru's room. The demon pinned him down to the bed, Inuyasha yelling out in anger as he tried to escape.

Sesshomaru kept him pinned, his stoic face only inches from Inuyasha's. Inuyasha twisted and pulled but couldn't get free, his body exhausting itself as he felt his demon fade away. He knew it was due to the pup, his body reserving all its energy to help it grow.

The thought made him sick.

He knew now though he did have a heat. A heat he starved for so long. He had always hid away when it came, and when Kagome left for her human world he stayed near his companions so no demons would attempt to mount him.

How could he be so stupid to forget that?

How did he forget that?

When his body could take no more, he fell against the bed, his face twisted in a mask of rage. Sesshomaru let out a deep breath, Inuyasha feeling his breath against his face.

The air he breathed was disgusting.

"Memory or not Inuyasha, you will marry me." Inuyasha spit in the demon's face, Sesshomaru releasing him to wipe it away. Inuyasha squirmed free from under him, only to be caught and pinned again.

His body was weak, fuck his human side for that.

"I would never marry you," Inuyasha spat, Sesshomaru's lips tilting just slightly into a frown.

"I'm not giving you a choice."

"Why, because you raped me!"

"You were willing."

Inuyasha growled in anger, his body beginning to shake. He felt the burn of tears, felt the disgust of being under the demon.

He had been so stupid.

"I had no memory!"

"That didn't stop you from enjoying it, Inuyasha."

"Fuck!" Inuyasha yelled out, closing his eyes as he fought the tears trying to escape.

He felt his throat tighten when he spoke next, his sobs barely suppressed.

"Why did you do this? Why?"

Sesshomaru stayed silent once again, Inuyasha unable to stop the tear that escaped.

"Why did you use me?" Inuyasha whispered, his lip quivering dangerously.

Damn this pup.

How could he have lost control of himself so easily?

"I used you to relieve my musk." Inuyasha couldn't stop a sob from escaping, his mind screaming for an escape.

To think he had thought the demon had changed.

"I don't want your abomination," Inuyasha seethed, opening his eyes and glaring into Sesshomaru's. The stoic stare he received wasn't what he wanted.

What had happened to the demon that had only been there yesterday?

What was he worth to him now?

Inuyasha started struggling anew, screaming out in anger. It ended in a sobbing whimper, Inuyasha unable to hold back his tears. Their warmth offered little comfort as Inuyasha felt his chest tighten, the pain rivaling anything he had felt before.

How would Kagome see him now?

Where was she?

Where was Kagome!

"Get off me!" Inuyasha yelled out, twisting sharply and managing to get onto his stomach. Sesshomaru used his momentum to pin him down again, Inuyasha feeling his heat.

Would the demon dominate him again?

Would he strip of him of his last remaining dignity? His pride?

"Please don't," Inuyasha whimpered, Sesshomaru not responding. Inuyasha felt small under the demon, his anger replaced with fear and disgust. Sesshomaru didn't dominate him though, instead getting off the hanyou.

"Inuyasha, I didn't want to hurt you." The hanyou turned over, wiping away his tears with a shaking hand. The hanyou gasped for breath between his sobs, Sesshomaru's stoic expression breaking slightly.

"I thought selfishly Inuyasha. I didn't mean for this to happen."

"You didn't expect me to remember." Inuyasha sniffled, trying to control his shaking body.

"Would you have ever told me the truth? If I didn't remember?" Inuyasha knew the answer, but he needed to hear it. He needed to know this was all a lie.

"No."

"I hate you," Inuyasha whispered on a sob, Sesshomaru silent once again.

"Is this why you wanted to make me your concubine? So, you could freely come to my bed when you see fit? So if I never remembered you could fuck me like a whore!"

"No."

"Then what! Why did you lie to me? W-Why?" Inuyasha grabbed the furs, lowering his head in defeat. His ears fell flat against his head as he fumed with rage, his demon too weak to answer the call. He felt almost human as he cried in front of Sesshomaru, the demon unable to speak.

They both had been blindsided by the sudden remembrance, neither able to think of what to do. Inuyasha wanted to be held, to forget everything that had come back into his brain. It hurt, hurt to remember everything.

It hurt even more to feel used by the man he had been falsely told he loved. A lie he had started to believe.

He felt so small.

"Inuyasha…" The tone of Sesshomaru's voice was almost soft, Inuyasha feeling hands touch his hair. Inuyasha couldn't find the will to push the demon away as he pulled him into a loose hug, the motion almost comforting.

"Forgive me."

Inuyasha didn't move as his sobs slowly stopped, his eyes feeling puffy. Sesshomaru moved closer, letting Inuyasha's forehead rest against his chest. Inuyasha fought new sobs as he took in the demon's warmth, feeling the memories of his time with Sesshomaru pushing away the burning ones with Kagome.

God how badly he wished now he didn't remember.

"Let me leave," Inuyasha whispered against the demon's chest.

"Let me think things over."

Inuyasha heard Sesshomaru swallow, could feel his nervousness. Though his face never gave him away, his body always did.

"Let me go back to my hut Sesshomaru. Let me think this over for a week."

Sesshomaru held onto him tighter.

"Only for a week. Then I will come for you, Inuyasha."

Author's note: I wasn't expecting the turn this had, though I do apologize for my rusty touch. Hopefully I can get into the swing of things again as time progresses. This story may be finished yet.