Chapter 18

Author's note: I have come to realize this is the longest story I have done in over two years. I don't feel the need to rush this story, so I hope you all continue to enjoy it as much as I do. Also, Saturday naps are nice.

Inuyasha came to surrounded by warmth, and the smell of cooking meat. He breathed in deeply, not wanting to open his eyes as something about this moment reminded him of home. His mother did not cook often, but when she did it was always a glorious occasion for the hanyou.

"How do you feel?" Inuyasha's eyes fluttered open at the voice of his mate, groggily looking around him and seeing he was surrounded by their numerous furs. He weakly pushed them away before he could get too hot, stretching his arms over his head with a loud yawn. He realized he was still in his human form, ignoring his breasts as he shifted to his hands and knees.

He felt better than good, he felt amazing. He felt like he had really slept for the first time since waking up in his hut, and he couldn't think of a better thing to wake up to either. Inuyasha would later be humiliated by this, but he crawled out of their shared futon and crawled to Sesshomaru's side, pressing himself against his warm body and welcoming scent.

"Good," Inuyasha sighed out contentedly, Sesshomaru looking back to the meat that was slowly roasting over the fire. An arm rose and pressed Inuyasha against Sesshomaru's body tighter, the weight of it relaxing the hanyou further. Though he had turned into a human a few times around the demon, Sesshomaru usually had business to attend to, or something of the nature. To willing be touched in this form felt more intimate than their many couplings.

"The miko returned." It wasn't a question, and at the mention of it Inuyasha felt something uneasy rise inside of him. He didn't try to move from Sesshomaru's embrace however, merely tilting his eyes up to meet the patient, though anger filled eyes of his mate. Inuyasha could see jealousy under there as well, and the sight of it made Inuyasha feel guilty.

"Yeah," he responded, lowering his eyes and looking back to the fire. He wondered if he should tell him about his son, though by the energy he gave off, this would not be the correct time. Inuyasha knew he would keep it to himself for a long time, before he ever told his mate. Though more than anything, he wanted to take it to his grave.

"She told me she didn't awaken the well. She wasn't sure what did." Sesshomaru waited, since they both knew that wasn't what the demon wanted to know. Inuyasha swallowed thickly, pressing his nose into his mate's side. Even though he was a human, Sesshomaru smelled really good.

"She wanted to apologize," Inuyasha finally admitted, looking up and meeting his mates beautiful golden eyes. Inuyasha couldn't help but be taken aback by them, the eyes swirling golden, yet the gold was so pure, and the accent of his magenta markings only made them even more breathtaking. Inuyasha wanted to lean up and kiss his mate, though the arm around him kept him in place. Inuyasha instead rubbed against his mate, finding comfort in his strength.

"She's married now, though she felt guilty for making me forget." Sesshomaru slowly loosened his arm, though still waited. Inuyasha felt reluctant, though he knew his mate needed to hear this. He needed to know Kagome would never return and he wouldn't leave him. Sesshomaru for all his power, feared nothing more.

"She didn't recognize me in this form, and I didn't tell her it was me. I told her I knew me, and she told me she felt guilty." Inuyasha felt tears burn at his eyes but he tried to hold them back, trying hard to blink them away.

"I told her to leave, that she was awful. And she told me all she had wanted was to say good bye. She apologized and left. The well won't let her through again." Sesshomaru unwrapped his arm and stood, taking the meat off the fire and putting it on a plate. He gave Inuyasha a bowl of soup with the meat, the suddenness of it making Inuyasha wonder if maybe he had said something wrong.

"Never leave my side like that again," Sesshomaru told him after a long second, Inuyasha looking down to the prepared food then back to his mate.

"You're not angry?" He asked with wonder in his voice, Sesshomaru looking to him stoically. Inuyasha felt like a child to be met with his wall again, but he could still see the jealousy underneath. The anger however, was gone. After a long minute, the demon spoke.

"My mother advised I give you a last good bye. It seemed… fitting." Inuyasha ate his food silently after that, Sesshomaru following his example. After the food was gone, the demon stood.

"Come with me, I need to wash the smell of the bitch off you." Inuyasha stood without complaint, since he wasn't sure if he wanted to smell Kagome on himself when he turned back to his hanyou form. He followed his mate to the back of the hut, and after a few minutes of walking they stopped at a hot spring. Inuyasha began to undress, Sesshomaru placing clean kimonos on a rock for after their bath.

Inuyasha felt weird showing off his body to his mate, since this was the first time he had actually turned into a woman during his pregnancy with such large breasts. He covered them and moved into the water, Sesshomaru joining in. He moved Inuyasha's hands from over his breasts, causing the hanyou to blush fiercely. Sesshomaru didn't touch him intimately however, rather cleaning him and putting his own scent over his mate.

Inuyasha jumped when his hand went between his legs, grabbing his wrist with a squeak he could only manage in his female voice.

"H-Hey!" Inuyasha barked at him, unsure of this form. Sesshomaru glared down at him, the sight of it making the hanyou loosen his hand. Sesshomaru pulled his hand back up, bit off his claws and picked the hanyou up. Inuyasha yelped as he was placed on the edge of the hot spring, feeling heat rise in his cheeks as his body became aroused at the idea of being handled in such a way. It was very different from being aroused as a man, as instead of feeling his member get hard, he felt a deep throbbing between his thighs.

Sesshomaru rose out the water and got on his knees next to his mate, making a very blatant display of his own arousal. Inuyasha sat up from his laid back position, moving his legs out of the water and facing his mate. Though he knew the demon needed to once again feel connected to his mate, Inuyasha was not as willing to have sex in this form.

It was strange, it was weird, and on top of it all he was technically a virgin in this form. That last thought speared fear through his chest, which Sesshomaru seemed to see. Inuyasha gasped when he was kissed, the warmth and taste of his mate making him whine softly. He tried not to flinch at the sound of his voice, feeling like a wanton whore. Sesshomaru didn't let him stew in his thoughts for long, deepening the kiss and slowly moving Inuyasha down to the ground.

The demon cradled his mates head with his arm, reaching his other hand down once again. The hanyou jumped at the feeling, though couldn't move to squirm away. He felt the fingers as if they were alien, his body however igniting. Inuyasha took in a sharp breath when the fingers went inside, pulling away from the kiss abruptly and shaking his head.

"Not there," he whispered, Sesshomaru instead moving his kisses to Inuyasha's neck and shoulders. The hanyou still felt his fingers move ever slowly, massaging him to get him used to the feeling. Inuyasha closed his eyes as those warm lips moved to his chest, kissing a full breast.

"I will love all of you, Inuyasha." The hanyou gasped when his nipple was nipped, tightening his thighs in response.

"Love this next new moon," Inuyasha grit out when Sesshomaru started to rub something with his thumb, his hips moving involuntarily to the gentle circles.

"No," Sesshomaru spoke with finality, moving his kisses down lower. Inuyasha felt tender love when the demon kissed his stomach, butterfly kisses placed along the bump and down between his legs. Inuyasha grabbed the demon's head with a gasp, shaking his head violently.

"This is weird!" Inuyasha hissed out, his hips jumping and a gasp escaping at the feeling of a warm tongue. Sesshomaru didn't rise up, instead speaking against a warm thigh.

"You are mine, Inuyasha. And unlike that bitch, I wish to love all of you." Inuyasha dug a hand into the dirt when the tongue became a firm presence, his hips shaking as he fought the urge to press closer to the feeling. Sesshomaru didn't particularly know what he was doing, as he had never slept with a female, though he listened to his mates sounds and undulations of his body. He found it easier to please his mate as he liked the taste of his body, and even pressed in a finger to massage from the inside. When Inuyasha had his chest arched and was moaning his name, he knew he must have been doing something right. At the gush against his tongue, he assumed his mate had finished. It was not as straight forward as a member releasing, though he felt he did a good job as he rose up from between his mate's legs.

Inuyasha was a shivering mess against the ground, his body nearly glowing. Sesshomaru took that as a very good sign as he lined himself up, seeing Inuyasha's panic before he pushed in.

To say the least, the hanyou had expected it to be far worse. It definitely hurt, and left a deep ache that lingered longer than he had expected. Having Sesshomaru inside this form however seemed rather… ritualistic. It was a weird way to phrase it, though the hanyou felt he was almost an offering to the demon lord. It wasn't bad by any terms, as the ache gave way to the previous throbbing need. Beyond those feelings, even in his human form, he could almost hear the echo of his youkai.

It was happy. It felt desired, it felt full, it felt complete. Inuyasha gasped at those overwhelming emotions, feeling tears once again manifest as those feelings felt overwhelming in this form. Sesshomaru grabbed the hanyou's hips, raising them before moving down over his mate. Inuyasha placed his ankles on his back, grabbing a handful of his mate's hair and pulling him down for a deep all consuming kiss.

"I love you," Inuyasha whispered, Sesshomaru panting softly against his lips. His hips began to move, the hanyou gasping softly with each gentle thrust. He felt the tears fall down his face, taking in shaky breaths as Sesshomaru was given the connection he so badly needed.

"Stay mine," Sesshomaru grit out, Inuyasha nodding his head as he wrapped his arms around the demon's neck. Inuyasha suddenly felt very overwhelmed, overwhelmed by his mates understanding, by Kagome returning, by the pup he would soon deliver into this world. He thought of the son he hoped one day to see, and the many more pups he would have with Sesshomaru. All of it crashed down and attacked him, the hanyou releasing a choking sob as Sesshomaru sped up his thrusts.

The demon lord held the hanyou close, grunting as his release neared. Inuyasha held on tightly to his mate, sobbing against his chest as he felt for the first time in a long time he was truly connecting with his mate. Inuyasha gasped on a breath when his body thrummed with release, Sesshomaru stilling on top of him with a shaky groan.

They stayed like that for a minute, Sesshomaru holding his mate as he cried against him. When Inuyasha finally felt the tidal wave die out he rubbed his nose against his mate, the demon pulling out and settling his mate in his lap. When the first rays of the sun began to shine Inuyasha felt himself shift, his female form fading away. His youkai roared at the feeling of being whole, Inuyasha looking into his mate's eyes once again.

There was nothing but understanding and love.

Inuyasha vouched to never hurt his mate again. But to do so, he needed to tell him his one last secret.

"Kagome told me I have a son." It was blunt, and obviously not what the demon was expecting after their connection had been restored. He remained calm however, his fingers idly playing with the hanyou's ears. Inuyasha was expecting to be yelled at.

"He is not here. But our pup is." Inuyasha's lips parted in surprise, Sesshomaru pushing away his tidal wave of anger at the new bit of information. With the well closed they could not see the boy, though Sesshomaru hoped to live long enough to see the boy for himself. For now, the most important thing to him was his pup and his mate.

"Let us return to the hut." Inuyasha nodded, getting to his feet with the help of his mate. They dressed and returned to the hut, Inuyasha laying down next to his mate once again.

"Do you think we'll have a boy or a girl?" Inuyasha asked, shivering slightly as Sesshomaru ran his fingers over his stomach.

"I hope for a boy," Sesshomaru replied, Inuyasha humming softly as he closed his eyes.

"I hope for twins," Inuyasha replied, smiling softly. "A boy and a girl."

"We would fill the castle sooner," Sesshomaru joked lightly, Inuyasha chuckling as he bumped him lightly with a hand.

"Boy or girl, I will love them.