Word Count: 736
Summary: Continuation of S12E011.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don't own The Big Bang Theory or the characters.

"And at a certain point the fear of losing her goes away?"

"I will let you know!"

~Based on the little smile on Penny's face when Leonard walks away.

They were sitting on the couch wearing comfortable clothes, after showering. Penny's legs were on top of Leonard, and they were watching TV, even though Leonard was talking it over, complaining about how much his chest hurt due to her shooting him so close. She didn't even mention that he had shot her too, and allowed him to talk about the rest of the gang's experience. When Leonard told her that Denise had walked in on Howard and Bernadette, Penny only laughed. How he knew that before she did, she wouldn't know. But he did.

"You won't lose me." Penny said, after Leonard quieting down for a little way. The smile on her face stayed for a little longer as she thought on her next words. Once they were out of her mouth, she just stared at him.

"What?" His confused face was priceless, so much so that if she didn't want to talk to him seriously, she would be all over him. But she controlled herself.

"When we were talking to Stuart you kind of made it look like you were scared of losing me after so many years. I just want you to know that I'm not going anywhere."

He looked at her and grabbed her hand. "You got it all wrong Penny."

"I don't think I did."

"You did. I know it might have come out like that, but it wasn't how I meant it. Not exactly at least. I mean, I didn't say as you leaving me for someone else. Although I am scared of that, and nothing you can say will ever change that." She gave him a sad smile and squeezed his hand, but he didn't even look at her. "I meant it more as in one day one of us leaving the other behind."

Penny looked at him without understanding. Leonard gave her a moment to think, and she opened her mouth in surprise once she understood.

"Oh! You mean when the other… leaves." He just nodded. "Leonard, sweetie, don't worry about that yet. It will be in a lot of years."

"Really? How do you know that, huh? What if tomorrow when I leave for work, I get in a car crash or someday I go travel somewhere and the plane falls? Huh? It can happen tomorrow!" He was getting agitated, and Penny knew she couldn't fix it. It was scary for herself as well, to think of a life without her homunculus in it.

"It can also not happen, Leonard. Why worry about it now? Look, we always knew that death is a thing, okay? It happens, it's irreversible." She grabbed his hand even tighter, but none of them complained. "You know what? Tomorrow you don't worry about that. We stay indoors, just the two of us. We lock the doors so that it doesn't happen to us the same thing that happened with Howard, Bernadette and Denise. How 'bout that?"

"I do like the idea of spending the day with just you. But it can't be this every day."

"I know it can't." She sounded disappointed, Leonard could tell. He could also see that she was trying to make him feel better, like she had done with Stuart that very same day. Actually, like they both had done with Stuart that very same day, in different ways. "But we can enjoy every day we have. And it's sweet that you're scared. I'm scared too." Vulnerability. She didn't show that to everyone. He really is a lucky man.

"You are?"

"Of course! I love you." His smile was from ear to ear, and she was happy that he was smiling. Even if he couldn't feel entirely happy and un-scared, he was smiling. And damn if she didn't love that smile of his.

"I love you too." They shared a sweet kiss that quickly turned into a passionate one, one that made Penny jump from the couch and run to the door to lock it, immediately running to the bedroom with her husband, both giggling.

Even if they were both terrified of losing each other, that didn't mean they couldn't enjoy each other's presence. And with that in mind, they feel asleep, holding each other - naked and tired.

The End

This episode was interesting. Every Lenny interaction was sweet and they didn't fight. Ever. I mean, Leonard didn't want to shoot her, they ended up shooting each other. What's not to love? (This week, because I think I won't exactly enjoy next week's episode. My thoughts go back to S12E03, so I see myself hating the episode already without seeing anything yet…!)

I won't talk about Shamy because I fast forwarded them. Sorry, but I couldn't see it. I was bored with Sheldon the minute Lenny wasn't there. Only saw them making up because Bernie was in the scene.

Howardette! I loved them. They're like rabbits, huh!

Raj/Anu. I like them, wanted to see them more often, sad about their fight but glad it happened. They needed it.

Stuart/Denise was… interesting? I liked it, but it's still weird to see Stuart with someone. I'm glad he's happy though!

That's all guys. Sorry for the long A/N but I enjoy writing my opinion on the episode (that is more Lenny than anything else, but I am a big Lenny shipper, as you should all know! :) and I'm not sorry at all for that.)