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(Still in Britannic's dream)
Britannic they named me Britannic as I let the truth come out the both of us just sit there in utter silence even under the moons gentle lonesome light it was hard to describe Titanic's reaction, y-yeah I was launched in 1914 and completed a year later not long after I was drafted as a hospital ship I did 3 voyages to and from the kea channel before I was told my services were no longer needed. Not long after while in the middle of my conversion to a regular ocean liner I was re called back up to keep serving as a hospital ship, my luck ended during my 6th voyage while on my way to pick up wounded there were subs around the area which I was sailing in unfortunately I had hit a mine which caused a big gash into my side the damage was enough to fill 6 of my compartments.
My captain tried to beach me but it only made me sink even faster I was gone in 55 minutes after hitting that mine I took 30 souls with me, she sits still my arms still firmly wrapped around her I let her go over the information I just told her she looks at me with a blank face not believing or wanting to believe something similar had happen to me as well. What about Olympic did she survive the war or mention me at least, yeah only after I had to ask her multiple times about you I desperately wanted to know everything there was to know about you and yeah she survived. Ironically she was the only one to have a full service she got scrapped in 1935 while her younger sisters failed at surviving just thinking about how Olympic was able to have a full service career but me and titanic were robbed such of a life, it gets me fucking pissed off thinking about how she was oh so perfect while the 2 of us didn't get a full chance at life just thinking of it gets me mad I hope titanic stops asking about Olympic.
Oh Olympic I'm so sorry I- can you please stop talking about Olympic for a moment I've waited all these years just to see you I don't want to talk about how lucky she got in life while we got the short end of the bloody stick. I have a right to know everything that happened to Olympic I've been gone all these years wondering about what happened to her she's my sister Britannic don't I have the right to wonder about her, not able to hold in my feelings anymore the idea of Olympic with disappointment in her eyes towards me I don't hold anything back if titanic wants to know about Olympic than that's what she's going to get. You really want to know about that piece of shit sister over your baby sister fine I stand up ignoring the protest from my frozen limbs She's not perfect nowhere close to it she almost sank multiple times as well if she was perfect guess what she wouldn't have let us sink, she fucking promised to keep me safe and that she would always be there for me when needed. What did she do the exact opposite when I needed her the most from when I saw a ship i dont know explode right next to me or all the wounded people I fucking saw where was she.
Every time I would come back from a crossing instead of asking if I was ok all she did was tell me I was neither late coming back or that I'm not careful enough, when I needed someone emotionally she would always push me away telling me there's no time for scaredy boats while in war acting like I was a soldier instead of her sister lets see hmm how about all the times she told me that If I can't handle the simplest of things that white star wouldn't need me, everything I did I tried to make her proud of me at least once to tell me I'm proud of you Britannic instead all I ever got from that sea witch was disappointment and the feeling of being useless. My favorite memory is when she slugged me after I asked her about you the rage I feel for Olympic I don't even want to be related to her at this point the only people who fully know about everything she did to me is Lucy and Dr Andrews all these words I don't just say to Olympic nothing else mattered only the war not even her baby sister that she didn't even look after.
I have always wanted to see you to know you and I thought Olympic would be the best to tell me so I go to her and ask her, usually she would push me away and tell me she's busy but I was determined for her to tell me so I kept pushing and pushing hoping she would tell me about you. After my 5th voyage I was struggling to keep going forward I kept seeing ships who did the same voyage as me have there siblings run up to them asking how are they are they ok holding them crying because they could have lost them, me wanting that I asked Olympic would titanic have held us or make a big scene seeing the both of us coming back safely guess what fucking happened next titanic she looks at me eyes wide with shock she's silent her one hand is over her mouth the look of shock is all over her face she keeps silent so I go in for the kill, she turned around and slugged me with her bow and anchors ripped a nice long gash over my fucking eye.
Olympic told me to stop asking about you after that I did I had to lie to my captain and to RMS Celtic (white stairs doctor/healer) telling them I accidently hit myself while I was being reloaded for supplies to my next crossing
All I ever got from that sea witch was I'm a disappointment ,ill never be as good as she is plus the feeling of being useless the rage I feel for Olympic I don't even want to be related to her at this point the only people who fully know about everything she did to me is Lucy and Dr Andrews all these words I don't just say to Olympic nothing else mattered but the war not even her baby sister that she didn't even look after.
I go silent after that my knees giving out expecting to fall on my face I'm surprised when titanic grabs me and pulls me into her chest wrapping her arms around me tightly as if someone was trying to pull me away. I'm so sorry she did all of that the pain in your eyes there's no denying or faking any of that as much as I want to defend her I can't, as I look up to her she actually believes me the feeling of being in her arms I can't help but feel safe and sound like Lucy when she holds me but differently.
Britannic please forgive me for not being there for you it doesn't matter if you guys where in the middle of war or peace she had no right to do any of that she's the oldest she should know better, I wrap my arms around her shoulders and neck area titanic you have nothing to be sorry for it wasn't your fault I- no I'm the middle sister your big sister it's my fucking job to make sure your ok always. You literally we're thrown into a fucking battlefield over something that didn't have anything to do with you and paid the price while having one sister hurting you while I was dead due to my own actions.
Britannic I don't know what exactly caused Olympic to change that bad when I was still around she was the sweetest person every always making sure I was ok and not being teased for my size or weight, she actually use to be a big pranksters back than that's why I wanted to know if she was ok but I can see the both of you are not. Not sure what to say the fact that I actually have one of my older sisters holding me comforting me here with me if this is a dream please don't let me wake up I stay silent the both of us just stay there holding each other the ice that was around us is slowly melting I start to feel warm actually.
Confused I look up at titanic her skin isn't a sticky blueish color but instead is a warm slight tan color, her magenta color eyes that now shine with love and warmth not sadness and depression I start to feel my face blush we may be sisters but I won't lie without the whole slowly freezing and dying going on she's very pretty. She slowly takes one of her hands and runs it through my hair shaking some of the left over ice out I notice she has a small patch of red going through the side of her hair like I have my shade of green that goes through my side as well.
She starts to let out a small humming sound stroking my hair in a comforting way the sound she keeps making it's familiar to me I slowly close my eyes and lean my head under her chin, so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters. Never opened myself this way life is ours we live it out way now knowing which song she's singing I can't help but join her when she reaches my favorite part (both titanic and Britannic are signing together now) ,never opened myself this way life is ours we live it out way all these words I don't just say and nothing else matters.
Trust I seek and I find in you everyday for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters titanic picks me up so now I'm sitting on her lap her voice is wonderful I let her finish signing as I'm content with listening for the rest of the song, never cared for what they do never cared for what they know but I know so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters. As she finishes I can't help but start crying again this time out of joy she's definitely the ship of dreams no matter what anyone says she also my big sister the one that I thought would be lost to me for ever, I close my eyes just relaxing I start to wonder will titanic be reincarnated like I was as a human or will she go sail off into the afterlife I hope she comes back with me but whatever she decides I will support her decision.
Something seems to be troubling you sis you wanna tell me opening my eyes instead of being in the middle of the Atlantic ocean the two of us are back in the field where she first started appearing in my dreams were laying in the soft grass blue skies all around, well there's a few things that are but my main concern is well what are you going to do now? I mean are you going to sail off or try to come back with me I honestly would love to have you with me I'm tired of not having any family besides Lucy I'm pretty lonely, Lucy whos Lucy and that's a simple answer I wanna go back with you I'm not sure if I will some ships don't always come back even though they wanted to I know the spirit of empress of Ireland almost didn't come back.
With a nod I lower my head there's still a chance titanic may not come back with me she wants to but its in fates hands if she does whatever the case is at least I was able to finally get to meet her to me that is enough for now there's no use in getting worked up over something neither of us can control, Lucy is my girlfriend or well my soulmate technically now we uhh well mated each other Titanic's eyes go wide at the knowledge that not only have a girlfriend but also bonded with her. Wow I honestly didn't expect for you to have bonded I'm happy for you but Lucy right is she reincarnated as well or a regular human , realizing that I'm not sure where titanic and Lusitania are in terms of one another I let out a small Lusitania begging for titanic to not freak out by this Lusitania as In RMS Lusitania from Cunard our rivalry company that Lusitania?
Yes the same exact one and before you say anything I love her with my very soul she was the first person there when I first awoke all alone in a fucking hospital bed having burns all over me with no memory, she has always been there for me helping me dress to making sure I ate enough to spending her lunch break with me for my physical therapy she's been my rock through thick and thin I couldn't ask for anyone else as amazing as her. Titanic stays quite for about 3 seconds before she stands up and starts spinning me all over giggling and laughing Britannic I'm the exact opposite of mad I'm extremely happy for you both and proud of you, wha- sis you honestly think some rivalry is going to have me keep my baby sis be happy he'll fucking no.
Wait so are you actually saying your ok with the two of us together I thought you hated her and her sisters, nope it was simply rivalry I never meant anything real when we had our little fights a few times we played this card game the humans call war. I'm at a loss for this new information right before the war I remember Olympic telling me to never trust any linear from Cunard that all they do is cheat ,lie, steal from white star etc. you name it Olympic would swear Cunard was behind it every time something bad had happen.
With Olympic she would go out of her way to make Cunard and any ship from that company seem like they all worshipped Hitler or was leaking secrets to the German government sometimes it was funny other times it was just straight up embarrassing with the things she would swear to whatever god that Cunard was secretly behind it I say the worst ships who had it worse with Olympics rants would be Mauritania and Aquitania, the poor gals once she even went to as far as offer them to Germany and exchange Germany wouldn't declare war on great Britain at the time Olympic was having trouble sleeping she had gone a total of 72 hours no sleep constantly on patrol for any Germans or whoever she thought was after us. To this very day I still don't know how she did this but she not only knocked both Maury and aqua out she also dragged them out half way to Germany before the sedative and herbs me and Celtic collected and snuck into her drink(yes ships in there natural form they are able to drink and consume some foods but having coal/oil is way better for them) we weren't t sure when she would knock out she practically swallowed a whole herb yard without even a belch.
I wind up telling titanic a few more stories of Olympic and her undying hatred for Cunard and the greyhound sisters each one she gets a kick out of laughing until her face is redder than a tomato tears coming down her face I'm not sure how long it was but it felt wonderful but I know our time is running out, I'm not exactly sure how long I've been dreaming for but I do have to eventually wake up soon I don't wanna freak Lucy out with me practically sleeping all day after just being released from the hospital. But another side of me doesn't wanna wake up I'm enjoying time with titanic I finally got to meet her I don't wanna chance loosing her this time it could be permanent ,plus if she does come back how will I be able to find her when I first was reborn I was practically in critical condition if I wasn't found I may not have been able to make it plus there's no telling where she may wake up.
Before I can think things over a little longer titanic now with a serious face titanic breaks me from thoughts its time brit for you to wake up any longer and you may not wake up that's one of the dangers when it comes to the spiritual plane the longer a living person or vessel stays the chances of them not waking up go higher, but titanic I don't want to leave you after this there's no guarantee that you will be able to return it was hard not knowing you but now that I got to know you a little I don't wanna have to say goodbye after just getting to now you starting to freak I reach for her wrapping my arms around her once again the thought of loosing her starting to fill my mind I start to hyperventilate. I know sis I don't wanna loose you as well I finally feel complete and happy again you brought me from my depressed state before I was still grieving over my death and all my crew members/passenger's but you you were able to free me from the coldest of ice now I'm ready to move forward in life I cant continue to stay stuck in the past any longer.
Im-im happy that I was able to free you but I'm still scared sis I don't know how ill be able to keep moving forward without you brit you can do anything you set your mind to you never needed me there sure a little push by your mate but the rest that was all you, and I cant tell you how proud I am of you I know you will do great things in life regardless if I'm there physically cause I will be there for you inside here she lays a hand over my heart through the thickest of ice and through the blazing heat we will always be family. Now please go live your life not to mourn but to live you have the power now the future is in your hands so make sure you make it a good one ,with that she gives me a final big hug the both of us crying into each other she's right I've gone this far without having family support ill continue to do one step at a time with Lucy by my side ever which way.
As things start to turn dark around us we both let out a smile we let go from the hug I hold up my right hand to her sisters forever mighty RMS TITANIC with a smirk sisters forever my brave little HMHS BRITANNIC she takes my hand into a firm grip as she slowly starts to fade from me with that I feel myself being dragged away.
(WITH TITANIC)
I'm so proud of you little sis you did your part now its time for me to do the same with that I turn around behind me is a wall of golden light I first saw it when I had died but didn't believe I deserved to go through ,but now I'm filled with determination to move on with my own life and be there for my baby sister like I should have and drop kick my older sister for what she has done. With nothing holding me back I start walking to the bright light each step all my memories start playing through my mind like a broken record, my first time I awoke to all the times me and Olympic would fool around to me meeting my first captain to my sea trials.
The proud feeling I felt when I passed my trials and was officially deemed sea worthy I keep a steady pace ready for the bad memories to show up, the first is my close encounter with new York, as if she was trying to stop me from going as if she knew what would happen, to that fateful night where I was lost to the sea the pain that came from the collision. The pain now is nothing compared to what is was earlier looking down at my side it's starting to heal with Britannic's help doing what she's destined to do heal she's going to make a great doctor one day fuck just being a nurse.
I feel a hand on my shoulder as I turn around it's captain smith and behind him is all my passengers that went down with me all of the with smiles on there faces, w-what is this I thought all of you had already crossed over by now what are you still doing here? We've been ready to cross over but you weren't all of us started this journey together all of us will finish it TOGETHER, I hear cheering from everyone else all of them waiting for me to be ready so they can go with me to be judged in the afterlife.
You guys didn't have to do this I was the one who got all of you killed and separated from your families you all should be mad at me I failed everyone, titanic your always where a stubborn one do you honestly think this is all your fault, I was in command and I let you go straight through that ice field full speed under orders or not I knew better but still didn't do anything. There's nothing you can say or do that will change our minds dear titanic like you just said to your little sister it's time to move forward.
Looking over everyone I see that none of them are mad at me but instead looking at me with love and wonder it feels like all those years ago when I was having them board me for my very first crossing, Everyone before we cross over I just wanna say this you where the best crew and passengers a ship could have asked for and I wanna say thank you for waiting all these years for me to get my head out of my arse and move forward. I don't know what's in store for any of us but I promise you this I will make sure each of you will reach our destination this time with no problems if you will let me direct you this one more time?
Everyone roars in approval we started our journey together hit a bump but now we're ready to finish our trip this time with a better destination one filled with more promise and hopefully hope and wonder, captain smith takes he's arm and wraps it around my left arm holding my hand as we all start to walk forward again this time all of us passengers crew and ship none of us are scared. I just wanna say this to you captain smith thank you for all you have done for me my family and for white star, ma'am it was nothing thank you for having me as your captain it truly was a honor I will never forget.
All of us keep walking to our next chapter in our life's me and captain smith will be the first to enter through and make sure no one gets left behind, as the light gets closer the warm feeling around me all I can do is hope I can get a second chance to live my life hopefully way longer and filled with more happiness. I close my eyes as we all start stepping though the light my last thoughts are please let me see my family again just please.
Another chapter finished this one I got some inspiration from the tv show ghost whisper in the second season after a plane crashes the pilots spirit/ghost who originally believed himself to be the reason why they crashed gets helped by Melinda, the pilot and all the passenger's that died as they start to cross over into the light the all march forward with the pilot leading them all honestly I don't think I've could have gotten a better idea for titanic to be able to move on after all these years she's been racked with guilt for her sinking and all the lives that where lost due to her sinking. But after meeting Britannic for the first time she's able to move beyond the guilt and move forward knowing there's people who will need her help, also it seems like I'm able to continue on writing again thankfully work still is a a pain but I'm managing one day at a time. Plus I'm starting to come to terms with my friends death I know he wouldn't have wanted me to stay stuck like how I was he would want me to move forward just like how titanic had trouble moving forward due to her guilt, I felt that I could have done something differently to prevent he's death but I cant stay stuck in the past forever but that doesn't mean I have to forget all the good times and memories. If you know someone whos struggling in life neither from addiction, depression, suicidal, etc. please don't hesitate to help them I rather embarrass myself than loosing someone I care about, that's why this chapter I dedicate it to two people my friend whos name I wont say and for Jason David frank aka tommy Oliver the both of them inspired me in different ways we lost them to early but there memories will last on. Also the song I had titanic and Britannic sing was nothing else matters by Metallica i love that song so much i listen to it when im working in something or stressed.