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The night had been a rollercoaster of ups and downs. Luckily, the female detectives left the bar on a positive note and in good spirits. Expectancy, desire and nerves were in the air. You know how I feel about you. That statement ran on a constant loop through Amanda's thoughts. Well, that and thoughts about what the rest of the night would bring. Thankfully, they chose to walk to Olivia's apartment, so some of the blush on her cheeks could be blamed on the crisp night air. Just the thought alone sent a chill down her spine. The cause, definitely wasn't solely based on the plummeting temperature.
Olivia felt the slight shutter from Amanda, given their close proximity and linked their fingers together. She brought their adjoined hands to her lips and placed a lingering kiss on them. The look that accompanied the kiss, flushed the blonde even more at the unspoken promise of things to come. They rounded the corner of Olivia's apartment hand in hand. Exhilaration. Anticipation. Lust. Anxiousness. Every emotion felt, rested in baited breath at the turn of the key, leading into 4E. Olivia closed the door and secured the locks. When she turned to face Amanda, she noticed the uneasy expression upon her countenance.
"Hey," Liv moved in closer and gestured towards her head. "What's going on in there?"
Everything. Every fucking thing. "Nothing. Nothing's going on. I'm fine."
"Ok…"
"Yep, everything's fine. I'll be right back."
The blonde scurried off to the restroom, locking the door behind her. Amanda looked at her complexion in the mirror, all of her insecurities staring back at her. Self-doubt, amongst other things, were getting the best of her. Fucking Amaro. He got to her. Mainly because a part of her believes him. That was the ugly truth. She splashed some cold water on her face, hoping to put a halt to her inner turmoil. The detective dried her face and left the restroom, hopefully along with the doubt. Olivia was busy 'tidying up the place' when Amanda finally emerged. She stood against the wall and took in the sight of the brunette 'at work'.
"You know that you don't have to do that right?"
"I know, I know. I was rushing this morning and didn't have time to clear some of this clutter. I'm finishing up now. Make yourself comfortable."
Amanda looked around the room, searching for the clutter. "Right…" She sat on the couch and waited for Liv to finish decluttering.
"Done," Olivia plopped down on the couch beside the other woman.
"You sure? There's a piece of lent you missed in the corner over there," Amanda pointed behind her. A pillow was hurled at her head as she dodged out of its way. "Hey!"
"Not so funny now, huh?"
"You're so going to pay for th—" another pillow stopped her mid-sentence. Her reflexes weren't as quick the second time around. She heard the sound of Liv's laughter, muffled behind the pillow.
"Now that is funny."
Amanda removed the pillow from her face and saw the brunette laughing heartily. Head tossed back, mouth slightly open. She looked absolutely beautiful. Carefree and happy. Genuinely happy. A sight, the blonde hadn't seen, since before Lawrence's vicious attack that nearly ended them. Seeing Olivia so happy, truly warmed her heart.
"I've missed this…"
Olivia's laughter ceased, as their eyes locked. The unspoken words, rang out loud and clear. "Me too."
"Feels kind of like how it was before but better."
"Oh, come on. I know how much you secretly loved that lifestyle. And don't even get me started on the condo," teased the brunette. It amused Olivia, how the other woman's disdain slowly faded away for the 'pretentious upper-class', when they were temporarily submerged into that alluring lifestyle.
Amanda got a little revenge, as she launched the pillow back at her partner, "Shut it." That infectious laughter filled her ears again. It was one of her favorite sounds. "Fine, I'm not going to deny it. In my defense, I'm a small-town gal. So, hell yeah that world was intriguing to me but it wasn't real. I like this better. Sitting here with you, no longer pretending…"
Olivia made a joke earlier, to lighten the mood. Just in case a buffer was needed. However, the blonde didn't shy away from her feelings, to the detective's surprise. Instead, she doubled down and honestly expressed herself. Not so long ago, the conversation would have taken another turn. Progress.
"Come with me, I want to show you something." Liv saw the suspicious look on her partner's face. "Don't overthink it," she smiled and extended her hand. Amanda's curiosity outweighed her timorous. She didn't need much cajoling as she took Liv's hand. The brunette led them into her bedroom.
Amanda could hear her heartbeat thumping in her ears. Her nerves flowed from head to toe. The anticipation was killing her. The short distance, that seemingly went on forever, had finally come to an end. When they entered the bedroom, a gasp escaped the blonde's mouth. Olivia didn't know if the gasp was good or bad. Fearing the worst, she began to explain and let her intentions be known before Amanda freaked out or bolted for the door.
"H-how? Wh-when, where'd you get this?"
"I asked Huang to send it to me. I had to pull his arm a little but he finally sent it." Liv waited for a response but was met with baffled silence, then decided to continue. "I asked for it specifically because I wanted to remember that night. It was the night when I truly saw you. Not my preconceived opinions about you, but you. I saw you, Amanda. The pain, the hurt but most importantly your perseverance. The feistiness and grit. Strength and toughness. I saw you go through every emotion possible that night, but you held yourself together. I was more than impressed, I was in awe. Have been ever since. So, I asked for this, to remind me of the night when I started to fall for you…"
Amanda's eyes were bright and wide, burning with emotion. Her gaze was fixed on the painting, while taking in every word. Her painting, 'Untitled', was hanging on the wall of Olivia Benson's bedroom. She remembered every detail about the painting, when she originally created it. More importantly, she also remembered every detail about the night it 'debuted' to the public while they were undercover. Her emotions had been all over the place that night but she managed to keep it together throughout the op, with Olivia's steadfast support. Solidifying the blonde's feelings that she'd been keeping at bay. Unable to suppress them any longer, when they were alone later that night, she kissed Olivia for the first time.
Amanda finally peeled her eyes away from the painting. She turned to face Olivia, who had a slightly shy expression on her face. The brunette still didn't know how her partner was going to react. With good reasoning, considering there'd been nothing but silence since she laid eyes on 'Untitled'. Amanda was in a completely different head space. Months ago, hell maybe even a few weeks ago, she would've reacted differently. Insecurely, immaturely, uncertainly but things were different now. She was different and no longer afraid of what she wanted. Words were irrelevant and unnecessary, as the blonde moved in and claimed what she'd been denying herself for far too long.
Without hesitation, Amanda tilted her head upwards and poured every ounce of her being into a searing kiss. The unexpected kiss was eagerly reciprocated. Every thought outside of the current feeling, was completely forgotten. Soft lips and tongues meshed in sync, both giving as good as they were giving. Desperate hands roamed uncharted canvases in search of more. More feeling. More firsts. More skin. More…
Olivia broke away from the kiss, breathless. Burning mocha eyes locked on lustful violet ones, wordlessly communicating. They were on the same page, desire dripping from their pores. The emboldened brunette gripped Amanda by the waist, pulling their bodies flush against each other. The heat radiating between them as their lips met again. A soft moan escaped the blonde's mouth, when their tongues cascaded together, sending jolts of pleasure throughout her body. Her legs were wobbly when they hit the edge of the bedframe, momentum guiding her body onto the welcoming bed.
Amanda's breath caught in her throat, when she looked up and saw eyes darker than she'd ever seen them. Olivia took a moment to admire the sight before her. Beautiful flushed skin. Swollen, parted lips. Sprawled out, sexy golden hair. All accompanied with a 'come hither' look. The brunette let out a low sigh, as she hovered over the awaiting woman. The anticipation was slowly torturing Amanda, in the most delicious way possible. "Get over here..."
There wasn't any hesitation, as Liv obeyed the sexy command. Satisfying her need, just as much, in the process. Olivia was familiarizing herself with every touch and curve of Amanda's body. She worked from her lips, to her neck, finding sensitive pleasure points along the way. Every tremble, every reaction fed her desire even more. In the midst of her exploration, an abrupt change of course took place. Amanda suddenly flipped them, topping Olivia.
Amanda took the squeal and delightfully surprised look on Liv's face as a green light. As she kissed her way down to the swell of ample cleavage. Slowly unbuttoning the shirt, leaving a trail of hot kisses after each button, until the shirt was completely off. Her eyes were glued on Olivia, when she removed her bra. Flinging it across the room. Another wave of desire shot straight to her core. She didn't waste another second, as she wrapped her lips around an awaiting peak, bringing her right hand up to massage the other breast.
"Aaahhh…" Olivia's pleasured moan, filled the room. While Amanda worked her way down her new favorite canvas. She tugged at the slacks, until they were off completely, kissing every piece of newly exposed skin. Olivia's breathing was audible. Body on fire, when all of a sudden, everything stopped. She wanted to scream, her need to be touched was desired more than her next breath. Before she could externally protest, a warm, completely nude body covered hers. Amanda could feel the subtle trembling in Olivia's body. Part excitement, a lot of nerves. But Liv was determined not to let nerves interfere. She took Amanda's hand and guided it down to the only bundle of nerves that needed attention.
Both women gasped simultaneously when the contact was made. Their lips reconnected in a frenzy of hot open-mouthed kisses. Tongues battled for control, while Amanda's fingers were busy, dragging slow circles over the sensitive flesh. Each flick sent a new wave of lubricant straight to the brunette's core, as a whimper escaped her lips. Her arousal increased when the blonde slid down her body, coming face to face with her sex. Amanda gazed up at the other woman, letting her intention be known. After silent permission, she spread Olivia's legs open, then lunged head first into sheer bliss.
"Aanghhh," was the only 'word' that Liv could form while Amanda's tongue went to work. She took her time, discovering and exploring every inch. Lapping at the warmness coating her tongue. Every moan, was motivation to push further. She wrapped her lips around the throbbing bundle. "Fuuuuhhh..." The blonde continued to lick and suckle, while her own arousal increased. A new pleasure spot must've been discovered because suddenly Amanda's neck was caught in between the sexiest pair of thighs imaginable. And there was no other place she'd rather be. A muffled groan escaped her mouth at the change of position. The vibrations from the moan intensified the pleasure coursing through Olivia's body.
"Amanda…" a breathless plea fell from her lips. Amanda reached up and intertwined their fingers. Olivia was on the verge of climax, as she grabbed a handful of blonde hair with her free hand. Another moan escaped Amanda's mouth and she felt Liv's body begin to tremble. "Ohhhmygod! Amanda," she bucked her hips and writhed in ecstasy as an orgasm exploded from deep within. The blonde slowed her ministrations as the other woman came down from her high. She slowly kissed her way back up Olivia's glistening body, admiring every inch on her way.
The brunette's breathing had finally returned to normal. Her body, not so much. Amanda's kisses had finally made their way back up north. Sensing a slight hesitation, Olivia brought their lips together for a searing kiss. Tasting herself on the other woman's lips, served as a natural aphrodisiac. Liv sat up, pulling the blonde along, to straddle her hips as their kissing resumed. Amanda would've been satisfied with just satisfying her partner. That was until she felt talented fingers sliding through her drenched folds. Olivia rubbed and stroked until the blonde was ready to explode. "Please…" the desperate plea was followed by action as Amanda sunk her body down on the fingers teasing her entrance. "Ahhhhh," Liv buried her face in bouncy breasts, showering them with attention as her fingers continued to work. She added another finger, feeling the warm tightness surrounding them. "Holy fuck," Amanda wrapped her arms around Olivia's neck and held on for the ride, as fingers pumped in and out. Their bodies found a rhythm, moving together perfectly in sync.
"Ohhhh, I'm so close." Amanda panted as her body was experiencing such intense pleasure. All of her senses were on fire. From the lips all over her body down to the fingers buried deep inside. A new sensation occurred when she curved forward, hitting a new spot. "Liiiiivvvvv," she grinded down one last time before falling over the edge into ecstasy. Expletives flowed freely as her body trembled with aftershocks. She held on close to Olivia's body, while her breathing slowed down. They stayed that way for a while, silently content, naked and free. They were finally on the same page and things were better than they could ever imagine. Everything felt right. Everything was right, together. Sated, satisfied and safe in each other's arms.