Skip to Chapter 1 if you have read Wildest Dreams or Make You Mine the prologue is identical to this story but this story follows Hallie Porter and her journey.
In June 1978 a young woman by the name of Cassandra Rice was attending Hogwarts and was in her seventh year. She had long straight chocolate brown hair and stunning dark brown eyes. She was a pureblooded witch although this was not important to her as it was for the rest of her house members as she was a Slytherin and one of the few friends Severus Snape actually had. Everyone believed this to be very odd when she was placed in the Slytherin house due to her kind and loving nature but the Sorting Hat never fails at the placement of the students.
It was the end of term everyone was saying their goodbyes, Cassandra was looking for Severus before she left. She spotted him under a tree reading a book, she gave a small smile then approached him "Severus" she spoke softly.
He looked up from his book pushing some hair back, "Cassandra...is everything alright?"
She gave a soft laugh and nodded "I wanted to say goodbye. This is our last day at Hogwarts before we all go to do great and wondrous things."
"Not all of us will go onto do great things, Cassie. Some of us are not as fortunate to already have a job waiting on us with the Ministry..." she took a seat next to him in the grass as he spoke "although Dumbledore did offer me a teaching position here once I gain more training. I am hoping it is the defense against the dark arts position."
"That is wonderful, Sev! You will be a great professor" she smiled at him clearly very proud, "I am not sure if I should join the ministry, my father got me the position. I want to travel and see the world" she leaned into him "we are young and clearly with the war going on we need to take risks and see what the world has to offer. We only have one life and I do not want to use it stuck in some office."
Severus tensed up a moment when she leaned into but relaxed after a moment, she made him feel comfortable and after losing Lily it was nice to have a friend again. "Cassie..."
"Hmm?" she glanced up at him
"I...I..." he was not sure how to explain how he felt to her.
She sat up and looked him in the eyes "I like you too and not just in a friend way. I like you more than that" she leaned in and kissed him. This caught Severus off guard but then responded to the kiss by kissing back and pulling her closer to him. She pulled away "Should we go somewhere..." she glanced around them; they were completely alone she looked back at him "more private." He just nodded unable to speak. She laughed and stood up then they went back to the school and found an abandoned classroom.
When Cassandra and Severus arrived at King's Cross, he pulled her to the side where it was a bit more private "I want to give you something...something to remember me by"
"How could I ever forget you? You are my friend just like Ann and Patrick" she said, Ann and Patrick were her friends from Ravenclaw who were dating each other.
He took a deep breath and pulled a necklace with a periwinkle flower on it "we do not what the future may hold but I hope that if you wear this that you will always remember me"
She smiled "I love it. It is beautiful...do I have to put it on myself?" He shook his head and she turned around and moved her hair in order for him to put the necklace on her. Once it was on, she turned back around and gave him a peck on the lips "Thank you. I will write to you"
"Look forward to it," he said as she walked away to find her parents.
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A month later Cassandra discovered herself expecting, she was sitting with her friend Ann "I am pregnant" she said "What do I do?"
Ann sighed, "Cassandra you do not have many options. You can keep it and raise it or give birth and give it up for adoption although with the current war there's already so many orphaned children or you can..."
Cassandra shook her head stopping Ann from finishing her sentence "I want this baby...I love the father I do but he is not fully there I think he is still in love with someone else.
Ann placed a hand on her friend's "then there is your answer. You can keep the baby; I would tell the father but that is me. If you do not want him involved then do not tell him. If he still in love with another then he will never be able to fully love you, the child may be but not you."
"I have not seen him since we went our separate ways at King's Cross...I am doing this on my own. This is my baby and I will raise it the way I see fit"
"If that is what you want to do then I will support you and I know Patrick will too. You will not raise the baby alone we are here for you"
Cassandra hugged her "You are the best!"
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In March 1979 Cassandra went into labor, she never told Severus about the baby. Ann was there to help her with everything. "Alright Cassandra one more push and the baby will be here," the healer told her, and with one final push the baby was born, "Congratulations! You have a daughter."
The healer handed the baby to another healer to let Cassandra see before taking the baby to get cleaned up, "She is beautiful" she cried "She is mine."
Ann squeezed her hand "Yes, she is. She is beautiful and no one is taking her from you."
They got Cassandra and the baby to recovery; she was sitting in bed holding the baby wrapped in a pink blanket. "Do you have a name?" Ann asked
Cassandra touched the necklace Severus gave her while looking at her daughter "Periwinkle Elizabeth King"
"King? I do not remember attending school with someone with the last name King."
She looked up "You did not know him. I met him in Hogsmeade and had a bit too much butterbeer."
Ann nodded but did not believe that
In September 1981, Cassandra was working for the ministry and raising Periwinkle by herself, Ann tried to get her to join the Order but she claimed with work and being a single mother, she just did not have the time. Cassandra was at the burrow with Periwinkle and Ann and Patrick's twin daughters, she was there to keep Molly company while everyone was out battling death eaters. The children were all asleep and the two were tidying up the living area while they waited.
"Shouldn't they be back already?" Cassandra asked concerned as she glanced at the clock just as Arthur's hand on the clock switched to home.
"There they are," Molly said with relief as Arthur and some other members of the order came in as well.
"Molly" Arthur said hugging her and giving her a kiss.
Cassandra searched the people who were there, "Where's Ann? Patrick?"
The room went quiet no one wanting to say anything. Remus stepped forward "Cassie…"
"No…no…you are wrong! They can't be!"
Molly came over to her, "There now child it will be alright."
"Their daughters…they have no family. Ann was an orphan herself and Patrick lost his parents months ago. These girls have no one."
"I suppose then they will go to an orphanage until they are adopted."
Cassandra shook her head, "No I will do it. I will adopt them. Their parents were my best friends. I am their godmother I will take care of them…but it is no longer safe here. I am moving to America."
A few days passed and they were having a joint funeral for Ann and Patrick, "Mummy and daddy loved you two very much." she told Hallie and Holly who did not have a clue what was going on.
At the reception that was being held at the Burrow, Cassandra had just gotten the twins and Periwinkle to sleep for their afternoon nap. She went to the edge of the property she needed some space. She was leaning against a tree with the wind blowing, it was nearing October and the weather was becoming cooler. Footsteps approached from behind her, "I would like to be alone for a moment please."
"You had a child," the voice said
She looked up and turned towards the voice "Severus…what are you"
"I am apart of the order…I came to pay my respects to them."
"Oh…I did not know you joined. Um…thank you for coming though."
He nodded, "You are welcome. I will repeat though you had a child."
"I did…Periwinkle"
Severus glanced at the necklace she still wore, "Periwinkle? Is she?"
"Look Severus I got to go. I leave tomorrow for America" she went to walk past him
"You did not answer my question!" he raised his voice which he had never done towards her before. He grabbed her arm stopping her from walking "Is she mine?"
"Let go of me, Severus!" she tried to pull her arm from his grip.
Lily approached them coming to check on her, "Cassie are you alright?" she asked which made Severus release his grip then left.
"Yes, I am fine. Just Peri's father trying to cause trouble."
"Is her father Severus?"
She said nothing but gave a simple nod, "I do not want him to know."
Lily nodded, "I understand"
The following day, Cassandra was at the docks preparing to board a ship to America. "Are you sure you want to leave?" Molly asked, everyone was there to say goodbye.
"I am sure. It is not safe here to raise these girls here. Hallie and Holly already lost both of their parents; I am not leaving them alone ever again."
Molly nodded then gave them a hug as did everyone else.
"You are a very brave young witch, Cassie," Remus told her as he was the last to say goodbye, "I will be back one day. I would like the girls to attend Hogwarts, know where they are from, and meet everyone until I feel it is finally safe to return then I will remain with them in America." He nodded as the ship blew its horn for final boarding. She took the twins' hands "Peri grabbed Holly's hand and let's go find our new home."
They boarded the ship "Bye-bye!" the girls said once they were on board and waving goodbye to everyone on the docks.
What Cassandra did not know is that Severus had come to watch them leave as well. Lily who was at the docks as well saying goodbye looked behind her and noticed Severus standing in the far back, she handed Harry to James then excused herself claiming she needed to use the loo. She went to him "You did not say goodbye?"
He looked at her, "We ended on bad terms."
"Did you? Or did you bail on her? From what I gathered from Ann was that you never answered her letters when she wrote now, she did not know she was writing to you but it was obvious of course. Cassie was in love with you."
"I was in love with another. I love her too but not as much I loved someone else."
"Her daughter is yours. It is of course very obvious; Periwinkle resembles you very much."
"I am not the father type."
"You could be if you tried. I should go though."
Severus looked back towards the ship as it was sailing away towards America.