Bella's POV
Grabbing my keys from the trucks ignition, I ran into the house before Jasper could respond to my teasing. Racing through the door, I kicked off my boots in the hallway and throw my coat and purse on the couch.
My thoughts were racing and I was still trying to figure out how I felt about the fact that Jasper was my mate. I was so caught up in thought, that I was startled when my stomach rumbled in hunger.
Deciding that the rhythm of making food for myself would calm my thoughts. I went into the kitchen to fix something to eat.
I was halfway through making a turkey sandwich with lettuce and tomato. When someone grab me form behind.
My scream of shock soon morphed into a giggle as I registered Jasper's unique scent of hay, fresh cut grass, and whiskey.
After spinning in a circle with me, he very gently placed me back on my feet and hugged me close to him. His hug was surprisingly warming and I was delighted to be hugged so closely to his body.
Feeling him bury his nose in my hair and breathe in my scent, I relaxed in his hold. My whirlwind thoughts seemed to come to a screeching halt.
Time seemed to stop as we stood holding each other in my kitchen. I don't know how long we stood there for. All I know is I didn't want to be anywhere else and that scared me a little.
I had promised myself that after Edward. I would never allow myself to become so dependent on another person, that I lost myself in them. I felt like I was losing myself in Jasper and I couldn't allow that to happen.
I was just about to distance myself from his hold when my stomach growled again. He very reluctantly released me from his arms, playfully smacked my ass, and told me to go eat.
As soon as his arms left my body all my chaotic thoughts came back. Turning back to the counter. I finished making my sandwich then quietly sat across from Jasper at the kitchen table.
We didn't talk as I ate, something I was immensely grateful for. I needed a minute to sort out my muddled thoughts. I had so much I wanted to know that I didn't know what to ask first.
Frustrated beyond words with my inability to articulate my questions. I blurted out my insecurities without evening knowing what I was saying.
"Are ya disappointed that ya got stuck with me as a mate?" Silence hung in the air after my question. Thinking that I was right, I felt the tears gather in the corner of my eyes.
I was about to open my mouth and ask him to leave, when I heard him hiss. Glancing up from my lap, I was once again meet with pitch black eyes.
I gasped in shock at the rage I saw in them, rage that was directed at me. Still though I knew that no matter how pissed Jasper or his beast was, they would never hurt me.
I sat in silence while Jasper panted hard and tried to clam the rage he felt. Struggling to control himself seemed so hard for him.
Not knowing what to do, I let my instincts guide me, as I got up from my seat and went to kneel in front of him. I couldn't bear to see him like this, not because I was scared of him, but because I didn't like to see him so upset.
"Jas," I gently called his name as I placed my hand on his face. I turned his face towards me as I spoke again,trying to clam him down, "Jas hon, look at me please. I am sorry ok, I didn't mean to upset you. Just calm down baby please, you need to clam down hon."
Jasper exhaled deeply then closed his eyes. When he opened them again they were still dark but the red had reentered some around the edges of his eyes.
I knew that he had gained a little of his control back. His beast though, was still close to the surface and any wrong word or gesture would bring him back in less than a heartbeat.
Very carefully, Jasper grabbed my hand from his face and tugged me from my position on the floor, to straddle his lap. Looking into his eyes I could still see the anger he felt, but mixed with the anger was love.
Leaning in I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. Jasper kissed me back fiercely, easily taking control of the kiss. He plundered my mouth with his tongue and I gladly let him.
Being in his arms had once again stopped my turbulent thoughts and his kiss felt like heaven. When he pulled back I panted as I tried to catch my breath.
He gently laid his nose against my neck and panted as he placed light nips and kisses there. Regaining my breath I moaned as he nipped a practically sensitive spot on my neck.
My moan seemed to snap him out of his haze and he gentle stood up. Placing me lightly in the seat he just vacated he blurred away from me.
Feeling hurt I whimpered and was stunned when I was once again lifted into his strong arms, as he purred like a cat.
Jasper's POV
Pissed at her stupid question, I could not control a hiss from escaping my mouth. I was breathing hard trying to control myself so I didn't break anything.
It didn't help that I had the Major screaming at me in my head. He to was pissed and he wanted out to show her how not disappointed he was to have her as a mate.
I knew though that she was not ready for him. So I fought as hard as I could to keep him in. I was starting to lose and felt him taking over. When I heard a tender voice call me name and felt a soft hand on my face.
The hand tried to turn my head. I knew that Bella and I were the only ones in the house so I didn't attack, and allowed her hand to move my head.
She turned my head so that I was forced to look into her eyes as she gently spoke, "Jas hon, look at me please. I am sorry ok, I didn't mean to upset you. Just calm down baby please, you need to clam down hon."
Exhaling the breathe I didn't know I was holding. I closed my eyes and rained in my rage the best I could, fighting back the Major. I once again opened my eyes and looked into her pretty coco brown eyes.
Needing to feel her in my arms, I gentle pulled her hand from my face and tugged her to straddle my lap. Her eyes searched mine trying to see if I had gained back control, I would assume.
I of course was wrong about her motives, as I always seemed to be. She leaned in wrapping her arms round my neck and kissed me.
And I was flying back into the recesses of my mind as the Major once again took control. I was really getting tired of him taking control right as we were getting intimate.
He and I were going to have a talk about this. She was my mate too damit and I was really tired of him hogging all her kisses.
Major's POV
Mentally chuckling at Jasper's pouting, I mentally flipped him the bird. Then turned my focus to our mate and took control of the kiss. Exploring her mouth I let the rage I was still feeling leave my body as I fiercely kissed her.
Knowing she needed to breathe I released her from my kiss. I placed my nose against her racing pulse point and panted in arousal. Placing small nips and kisses up the length of her neck, I tried to rain in my need.
I knew Jasper was right and she was not ready for us, but it was so hard not to just take her. Especially when she moaned as I nipped a sensitive spot on her neck.
I needed to distance myself from her or I was going to take her now. Gently plucking her from my lap. I stood up and sat her in the place I was just sitting. Running at vampire speed, I was across the room before she realized I had set her down.
When she did realize I had left her, she whimpered in hurt and I couldn't help but pick her back up and purr to her.
Holding her to me, I growled in a gravelly voice, " None of that now sweetheart. I am not rejecting ya. I just needed to regain my control as much as I would really really love to continue, we can't. Ya and Jasper need to have a talk."
Dazed she nodded then throw me for a loop with her question, "What do I call ya? Yer not really Jasper and it doesn't feel right to call ya his name."
Laughing at how smart my mate is, I told her to call me Major. Then let Jasper come back, he was always better at explaining things than I was.
Jasper's POV
Bummed that once again I was left to explain things, I cursed at the Major mentally. He just chuckled and told me to stop being an idiot and talk to our mate.
Letting Bella slip from my hold, I was suspired when instead of letting me go. She wrapped her legs around my waist and her arms around my neck. In this position she could look into my eyes without having to look up at me.
Lifting my brow at her I looked at her in shock. She just grinned playfully back at me and said, "What ? I am to wore out to stand, and why should I have to, when I have a sexy cowboy who could easily hold me."
Chuckling at her sass, I replied back impishly, "Holding ya ain't the only thing I could help ya with." Bucking my hips playfully I gently rubbed against her clit making her moan.
"Oh shit!" She breathlessly said. Chuckling again I was about to set her down before things got heated between us. She had other plans though and squeezed her legs tighter around my hips and rolled her own against mine.
"Isabella," I hissed trying to keep my voice stern. "Yer playing with fire Darlin'. My control might be good but yer making it really hard not to just take ya upstairs and fuck ya senseless."
She just giggled, fucking giggled and cheekily told me to burn her. As tempting as the offer was. I know we needed to talk before we did anything else and as much as it killed me to do it. I dowsed us both emotionally with serenity.
She glared at me then jumped from my arms. "Darlin' we both really needed to chill the fuck out. As sexy as ya are and as much as I would really enjoy fukin' ya. We really need to talk and ya know it."
She sigh then nodded her head. "Give me a minute. I am going to go change into my PJ's."
Groaning I gave her a heated look and said, "Try not to choose something too skimpy now. I don't know how well I'll be able to control myself if yer barely dressed."
Giggling again she dashed up the stairs to her room, I would presume. Which I really needed to stop doing.
It was becoming obvious that this girl loved to throw me off balance, she never reacted as I expected her to.
Feeling my phone buzz in my jeans pocket. I pulled it out and flipped it open, seeing I had a new text from Peter. I warily read it, Havin' fun there Major. Ain't ya girl just a hoot.
Fuck ya asshole and mind yer own business. I texted back.
"Whacha doin'," Glancing up from my phone I saw that Bella was standing on the last step in just a tank top and short shorts.
Groaning I told her, "Peter texted me. I was just replying. And I thought we agreed to wear clothes Darlin'"
She glanced down at herself then hoped off the stairs right into my open arms. Then replied, "This is clothes, I usually sleep naked. The air conditioning in this house sucks and I get really hot at night."
Playfully I glared at her, "Yer a right tease ain't ya Darlin.'" She just laughed and snuggled into me. I once again felt her exhaustion sweep over me.
Kissing her head I softly told her, "Go to bed Darlin' I ain't goin' no were. We can talk tomorrow."
Groaning she asked me to stay with her. Told me she didn't want me to go and asked if I would hold her as she slept. Not being able to tell her no, I cradled her bridle style in my arms and carried her to bed.
Laying her gentle on her bed I pulled back the blankets then swiftly climbed into bed next to her. As soon as I pulled her under the covers with me, she laid her head on my chest and was out like a light bulb. Pulling her more tightly into my side, I closed my eyes and just listened to her steady heartbeat and her soft breathing.
Author's Note: Sorry guys for not updating last weakened. I recently got a part time job. That on top off school work has keep me very busy. I don't know if I'll be able to continue updating on a schedule. So just be on the look out for when I do update. Review and tell me what you thought of the chapter. Your guys reviews really do inspire me to keep writting.