Author's Note: I would just like to remind people that this is a M rated Fanfiction and there will be some sexual situations in the chapters to come. Anyone under 18 should not read.

Bella's POV

"So that's my past sweet pea. Every sordid, horrible, despicable, thing. Can ya still love me knowing what ya know now?"

While I was shocked by Jaspers past, I did not feel disgust towards him. In my opinion he was just a man that was forced into a horrible situation that he had no control over.

I could tell though, by just his question alone, that even after all theses years Jasper still held hate for the person he used to be.

It was in his voice when he talked about all the horrible things the Major did and it was in the question he asked me.

Looking deep into Jasper ruby red eyes, I told him just what I thought about him and his past.

"Jas, hon. How can I not love ya. Yer an honorable man who was forced into a horrible situation that ya had no control over.

Ya did nothing wrong. Do ya here me, nothing. Ya just did what ya had to do to survive and I am very proud of ya for that.

I am also very proud of the man ya have become today. Ya could have let yer past continue to rule yer future, but ya didn't.

As soon as ya knew there was another way. Ya left the life that ya had known for dam near half a century to become a better person.

A lesser man would not have been able to do what ya did. Knowing yer past doesn't change anything between us.

Except make us closer as a couple. I feel honored that ya shared all of that with me. I could tell it wasn't easy for ya. And I am very happy ya choose to trust me with yer past."

When I was finished with me speech. I felt waves of disbelief, humor, trust, love, and lust wash over me. I couldn't help but to lean over the table and kiss Jasper.

The emotions he was giving off were just too much and I had to do something to stop them.

I had no idea that someone could feel all that at once and it was kind of making me dizzy.

I was hoping that my kissing him would distract him enough to stop projecting.

I felt relieved when he stopped projecting and kissed me back. He easily took control of the kiss and deepened it from the chaste kiss I had meant it to be.

When I felt his tongue running across the seems of my mouth. I gladly opened for him. His taste was addictive and I wished for nothing more than to never stop kissing him.

Unfortunately my being human meant I had to breathe and he pulled back from the kiss to allow me to. He rested his forehead against mine as we both panted. Me form lack of breathe and he in arousal.

Opening my eyes that I had just realized were closed. I saw him looking at me in fascination and adoration.

"Ya have once again utterly amazed me Darlin'. I have never in my one-hundred an sixty-nine years on this earth meet someone as caring as ya Darlin'."

Giggling I teasingly replied with, "Good I like throwing ya for a loop. Plus I wouldn't be very fun if I wasn't one of a kind."

That got a chuckle out of him and I couldn't help but to flush in excitement. I was still far to worked up from all the sexual tension that has been between us since he walked into the bar yesterday.

He must have felt my emotions because he took a deep breathe in a growled. His growl only severed to turn me on more. I was already wet from our kiss but his growl caused me to soak my panties with my juices.

Before I knew what was happening I was picked up from my chair and lifted into Jasper strong arms. I instinctually warped my legs around his waist and as soon as I did.

I couldn't help the moan of delight that slipped from my lips. Apparently I wasn't the only one who was aroused. I could feel his erection as it was pressed against my core.

Looking deep into Jaspers eyes I could tell he was hanging on to his control by a thread. He wanted so desperately to take me to bed and fuck me senseless.

The only thing holding him back was his manners. Like all the men around these parts he was raised a gentleman and gentlemen didn't randomly fuck a lady he didn't know.

Jasper was no longer just a man though, he was also a vampire and his vampire instincts were demanding that he take me. That he mark me and make me his mate for all eternity.

I knew that if we did this now, there was a very high chance that I would not be human after and strangely enough I was okay with that.

I knew Jasper would love and honor me for all eternity. He would not control me or belittle me because Jasper knew how it felt when the one your suppose to love with all your heart, tries to control your every thought or action.

I knew Jasper would never do anything to hurt me on there was no reason to wait. Just as I was about to tell him to make me his mate.

His cell phone started to ring. Jasper cursed in anger then set me back down in my seat and ripped his phone from the pocket of his jeans. I almost felt sorry for who was on the other end.

Jasper's POV

Damit! So dam close. I knew she was about to throw caution to the wind and tell me to make her my mate.

But them my fucking phone had to ring and completely kill the mood. I was going to kill whoever was on the other end.

If it was Peter as I thought it was then he and Charlotte would not be having sex anytime soon. Snarling in anger, I answered the dam device,

"What?"

"Whoa easy there Major. I was just calling to tell ya that we have company headed our way. Plus ya'll thank me later. I just saved yer ass from havin' to fake yer lil philly's death," Peter's mocking voice sang out over the speakers of the phone.

Yep that fucker wasn't going to be having sex for a very long time. Every time I felt he and Char getting all hot and heavy.

I am dosing their asses in emotional cold water. Ignoring Peter's teasing, I focused on his bit about company coming.

"Company. Are they hostile or friendly." I question in full Major mood. I had a mate to protect now. And I would allow no harm to come to her.

"Friendly its just the Big Oaf and the Ice Queen ya call a twin," Ah so it was just Emmett and Rosalie.

"Fine don't let them come here. We still have things to work out between us. If they ask were I am tell them I am busy."

"On it Major."

After hanging up with Peter I took a deep breathe before I turned towards Bella. My conversation with Peter had helped to relieve my erection some.

I knew the minute I saw her, it would be back in full force, if I didn't get myself under control first.

Bella seemed to know I was struggling so she walked up behind me and warped her arms around my middle. She then projected calm and serenity at me.

Releasing the breathe I just now realized I was holding. I turned around and hugged her to me. I was very thankful for her help,

"Thanks Darlin' I needed that."

"Not a problem Jas. So who was on the phone." I could feel the curiosity about my conversation pouring off of her and I couldn't help but to tease her about it.

"Ya know Darlin' curiosity killed the cat."

"Ah but the cat didn't have a dashing vampire mate to protect it from harm." She flirtatiously taunted me.

"Do ya have a come back for everything Darlin'"

"Yeah pretty much. Now stop stalling. Who was on the phone?"

"Wow demanding much Darlin'. And that was Peter he was letting me know that Emmett and Rosalie will be stopping by to visit me. I told him to keep them busy that ya and I still had stuff to work out."

She seemed happy about this and them I remembered that her and Emmett were very close when she was dating Edward. Of course she would want to she the man she considered a brother.

I pretty much knew that the next words out of her mouth would be her asking to see them and so I agreed before she had a chance to ask,

"And yes Darlin' if ya want I'll take ya to see Emmett. But later okay ya and I still have stuff to work out."

"Ok but before we get down to my side of the story. I have to take care of the animals." She told me. Then got up from here chair and went out the door towards the barn.

Following after her I ask her what animals, pretending not to already know.

From my exploration of the farm while she was showering. I knew she had at least four horses in the barn.

A barn cat and possible a dog or two. I wasn't quite sure about the dogs though. Their scents weren't as strong on the property,so that meant that they were not always on her farm.

"Well I have four horses, three mares and on gelding. A barn cat and there are two dogs that I sometimes watch when my neighbors are away on business. Is that going to be a problem? I know Edward said that some animals hate vampires."

"Not some animals Darlin'. Most animals. Horses don't really care though, it takes them awhile to fully relax around us. In fact Peter, Char, and I have a few horses on our farm. The cat and dogs will either try to attack me or run for their lives. Though they have no reason to fear me, even when I was an animal drinker I didn't eat domestic animals" I told her honestly. Throwing a joke in at the end of my explanation.

After that no more talking took place. We entered the barn and as soon as the cat smelled me it hissed and ran away. The horses ears perked up and they tensed a bit but then they just ignored me.

Bella asked me if I would clean their stalls while she feed, watered, and turned the horses out to the field to graze. I agreed and we worked together in silence.

I had to admit my girl had good taste in horses. All of hers were beautiful, two of her mares were Paints. As she was turning them out I ask her what their names were.

The mostly white Paint with brown spots and one blue eye was named Lucy. The black Paint was named Lily and they were half sisters she told me.

She had an Appaloosa mare that was a pure white color with groupings of grey spots here and there all over her body. Her name was Snow-White.

Her only gelding was a Palomino who was a solid light golden color, with a pale blonde mane and his name was Apollo.

Once all the animals were taken care of and all the stalls were mucked out we went back into the house.

I knew this would be a hard story for Bella to tell. Her emotions after she found out it would be her turn to talk, were resigned and sad. I almost didn't want to push her if she was feeling this way.

I knew though that neither of us could give our relationship a real chance if we didn't know the others past and so no matter how much it pained her or I to do so. We both had to talk about it.

When we entered the house she went over to the coffee pot and got herself a fresh cup of coffee. Then she went to the refrigerator and started pulling things out.

I knew that she was stalling but I also knew she had yet to eat breakfast. So I let her stall, she would talk when she was ready and until then I would just have to wait patiently.

When she finished making whatever it was she was cooking she sat down in the chair across from me and ate what looked like eggs, bacon, and I think those squish looking things were cooked apples.

I really didn't know though. Human food had changed so much since I was a human as a vampire it smelled horrible. The only reason I was so close to it was because I wanted to be near Bella.

For my mate I would endure anything, even disgusting human food. As long as she never ask me to eat it, I would be fine.

Almost as if she was reading my mind Bella smirked at me and ask if I wanted to try some. Recoiling as if I'd been slapped I covered my mouth and told her to keep it.

I may have been acting childish but hey I got my mate to laugh and for one moment amusement washed away the darker emotions she had been feeling.

Author's Note: Next chapter is all about Bella's past after the Cullens left her. Also as many of you know this is my first story. I am new to writing fanfiction. What I've discovered as I am writing is that I like to write in Jasper's POV more than I do Bella's. I always thought that with me being a women it would be harder to write a mans POV but its just the opposite. It's acutally easier for me to write a mans POV than it is to write a womens POV. Anyway ignore the author's babble. Please review though, your reviews really are what keep me writing.