I know its been a LOOOONG TIME since my last update. I have had a lot of personal tragedy in my life and fell into a deep depression. Following the death of several family members to the horrible disease known as cancer, including my mother. I have sought help for my mental health issues, and I am mostly in a healthier mind space now. There are still hard days here and there, but I can safely say they are few and far between. I also got busy with college and moving out on my own. After many many years, I can now claim to be a college graduate and the owner of my very first home. Now that I have caught you up on the shit show that is my life. Here is an update for this story. I would also like to warn you guys that following this update, you guys should be prepared to see some changes to the previous chapters. Nothing to major, just fixes to mistakes I have found and stuff like that. I am a more mature writer now than I was several years ago. So, I just want to update and fix a few things. I am generally vey happy with the plot and the flow of the story so far. So, don't worry I won't be making any major changes.

Chapter 17

BELLA POV

My day was not too bad, but I did find myself missing Jasper very much. I would often think of him throughout the day and wonder what he was up to. Wonder if he was missing me as much as I was missing him. I also kept feeling this uncomfortable ache in my chest it wasn't painfully necessarily, but I would often find myself stopping and rubbing at my chest throughout the day. I would be overcome with feelings of abandonment and sadness. That has never happened at work before. Sure, I have had days where I felt emotional or sad, but nothing like what I was feeling today. It was so weird, there would be times where I felt better: happy, safe, and secure. Like I feel when Jasper is holding me in his arms. Then just as fast as the good feelings came, they would be replaced by negative again. I made a mental note to ask Jasper about it after work, for now I tired my best to muddle my way through the day. I was so happy when the bell was rang for dinner. We all made our way inside the house to eat supper, dinner was a joyful, noisy affair, it always was on the ranch. Every meal was spent trading stories about the day and laughing at any misfortune that may have happened. After helping Mrs. Tucker clear the table, I gathered my things to leave. Usually, I stay and help with the dishes but tonight I was in a hurry to get home. Back to my cowboy, and the amazing feeling of being in his arms. I said my farewells to everyone and rushed home. Where I found Jasper waiting for me on the porch. I had barely turned off the truck when Jasper opened my door and drew me into his arms. He then procced to kiss the very breathe from my body.

I released a sigh of relief and pulled him closer. This was what I had been longing for all day, the feeling of him holding me close, his wonderful smell. The feel of his amazingly soft lips. Him, just him, everything about him. The feeling of safety and comfort, of love and companionship. He brought out so many positive emotions in me, and all he had to do was hold me or smile at me. He was like sunshine after a hard rain. The first warm day after a long winter, a blanket during a cold day. All theses things and much more. He is my soulmate, the other half of my soul in another body, being reunited again after separation was the most amazing feeling.

After kissing me so thoroughly, Jasper pulled back and let me catch my breathe back.

"You didn't miss lil old me did you Cowboy?"

In response to my sass Jasper drew me back in and laid another breathe taking kiss onto my lips. His kiss was all I needed to know his response, it was a yes and a what do you think, all in one. When I managed to get my normal respiratory rate back under control, Jasper placed me back on the ground and lead me into the house. Once inside he leaned me back against the door and started to kiss me again. We spent several minutes making out like teenagers, I am pretty sure I sighed several times throughout. I am also pretty sure there was some grinding, its all a blur really. All I know is my mate is holding me close and kissing me like I would disappear from his arms if he let up.

Eventually he did let up and stop kissing me; he laid his forehead against mine as I panted and sucked fresh air into my starving lungs. That's when I noticed Jasper was no longer in the driver seat. Major had taken control.

MAJOR POV

I let Jasper kiss our beautiful, sassy girl for a long while. Then I mental nudged him. 'Mine turn asshole' He sighed but gradually relinquished control over to me. I continued to kiss and rub on our girl for several more minutes before releasing her plump, kiss swollen mouth. As he panted and tried to regain her normal breathing. I did keep my forehead pressed to hers and my mouth to myself. Truthfully, if it wasn't for the fact I was a vampire and did not need to breathe. I would be just was breathless. Looking deep into her eyes I ask the question I had been dying to for several days now.

"Yes or no, I need to know right now. Before this goes any farther tonight."

She cocked her head to the side, baring her throat more to my hungry eyes. I saw confusion enter her eyes, then clear just as quickly. She opened her mouth, and I heard the most amazing thing. In my 180 years I cannot remember being so loved or as elated as I was in that moment.

"Yes, of course, I want you as my mate. There is no doubt in my mind that we belong together. Take me upstairs and make me yours."

Before she had even finished the statement, I whisked her up the steps and into her bedroom. I gently laid her on the bed and resumed kissing her. These kisses were gentler, sweeter, slower than before. I wanted her to feel cherished and loved. We had all eternity for me to fuck her senseless, tonight I wanted to love her. To make love to her as I had with no other. I wanted to show my angel how much Jasper and I both belonged to her and how much she belonged to us. I slowed the kisses down and laid my head back against hers. Peering into her bottomless chocolate gaze, I saw all our feelings and more reflected back at me. OUR mate loved us, cherished us, trusted us. Mind, body, and soul. I will spend all my life making sure she feels loved and cared for. Protect her with everything in my scared body and soul. Most of all I promised myself she would never have reason to fear me. Fear was for my enemies and I could be quite cruel when I needed to be. I vowed that no matter what, my mate would never have reason to see that side of me.

Trailing my kissed down her neck and chest I gently remove her tank top. Revealing a royal blue lace bra underneath.

"Blue is my new favorite color," I glace up at her as I speak. Her pupils are blown wide with lust and her lips are parted in pleasure. This is a view I want to see for all eternity, it's a face I vow to have her make often.

"Fuck yer driving me wild, do you have any idea how sexy you look right now" I growl out as I slide her bra straps off her shoulders. Her eyes clear a little and she glances back at me with that sassy little smirk that is quickly becoming one of my favorite expressions.

"Me, do you have any idea what your growling is doing to me. I swear I could cum from your voice alone." She replies in a quite whisper.

"Another time darlin. I'd be more than happy to test that theory out but not tonight." She nods her head as I continue to remove the clothing covering her chest from my hungry gaze.

In the back of my mind I can feel Jasper very annoyingly beating against the walls that separate us mentally. It was pissing me off and taking the focus off my task, so I tried something I never have before. I let loose some of my iron control and let Jaspers conscious join my own. I was still mostly in control, of our body but Jasper was now there with me in spirit. We were one in that moment, together as one person, side by side. It was a new sensation in all our years walking this earth it was the first time we had ever been joined and it was all because of our mate. She was changing us in ways I never believed possible.

Quickly recovering from the sensation of letting Jasper loose, I return my full focus to our mate. Jasper in full agreement that this should be about pleasing her and showing her how much we love and cherish her.

"Angel look at me" She glances up into our eyes, "Are you sure, last chance to back out. If we do this, your ours. There is no going back, no leaving, ever."

"I don't want to stop, and I never want you to leave. Your it for me, always and forever. So, hurry up and claim me already." Releasing a chuckle, I nod my head and kiss her ever so softly.

"Okay" I whisper. I finish striping her of her clothes then quickly remove my shirt and pants. I leave my boxers on for now. After tossing our clothing to the floor, I turn my full attention back to my angel. Placing gently open-mouthed kisses and nips to her skin I make a trail to her breast. Where I proceed to pay lots of attention to her perky mounds. The whole time she releases quiet sighs and little whimpers that drive me mad with lust. Trailing my lips lower I make my way south, towards her pussy. I can tell by smell alone that she is turned on and very very wet.

"Gods, you smell amazing sugar. Can I have a taste? Will you let me bring you pleasure with my mouth and tongue, before I join us together for eternity?" I growl out. She released a loud moan and franticly nods her head.

"Yes, please Major." Hearing her moan my name almost makes me lose control. If not for Jasper whispering to keep control, I would have let my beast out and ravaged her. I regained control quickly though and pulled the beast back form the forefront of my mind. My very human mate was not ready for that yet. After she was turned maybe but not now, it would be near impossible to stop myself from turning her if I let him out now. Sucking in air I did not need I regained my focus on Isabella. Trailing my lips to her belly I placed several wet, warm kisses to the region before moving farther south. I paid the same attention to each of her long long legs. Before moving back up. And finally, finally, I let my tongue slip out taste her.

"My god Isabella, I have never tasted anything, so god dammed delicious before. This this is my new addiction. Its not your blood I carve but your sweet sweet juices." My voice is so husky its more growl than anything else. But god dam is the girl sweet as honey. I was not lying before; I have never tasted anything like Bella before. Mostly because Oral was never something I enjoyed before her. Focusing back on at the task at hand and the most amazing taste in the world. I licked and tasted my girl till I had her screaming out her completion.

"JASPER!"

Authors note: I know I am so evil! I had to though its no fun if I don't leave you guys at the edge of your seats. 😉. As always let me know what you guys thought of the chapter. I hope to have the next chapter up in a few days. So keep an eye out for that.