Chapter Twenty
First Time

Saturday night came quickly, and Relena more than welcomed it. While her work had been fun, mainly whenever Serena was with her, she had been busy. By the end of the day on Friday, Relena couldn't wait to spend her weekend at home, in the company of Heero, Serena, and Trowa.

Dinner had been good, and Relena was pleasantly surprised to find that Heero and Trowa weren't acting differently toward each other. When Serena and Trowa had first arrived, Relena hugged and congratulated Trowa since she hadn't seen him till then. Heero had shaken Trowa's hand while she had been greeting Serena. Something Relena found odd but didn't question it. Not till she and Serena were alone.

Relena sat quietly next to Serena on the back deck. Heero and Trowa had gone back inside to discuss something, which meant Heero was leaving her in the care of Serena. Relena knew how it worked. If Heero wasn't around, someone else was. So this meant only one thing.

"Are you armed right now?" Relena asked once the guys left them.

"Why are you asking?" Serena glanced over at her as she took a sip from her wine glass.

"Because if you are, technically, you're drinking on the job," Relena laughed as she brought her glass to her lips.

"Think Heero will fire me?"

"Depends," Relena brought a finger to her chin in thought. "Did he give you permission to drink?"

"He's going to wish he hadn't. Especially after we finish this bottle," Serena smirked before the two erupted in laughter.

"There's something I wanted to discuss with you," Relena said once they had calmed down. Serena lifted a brow.

"What does it pertain to?"

"How much do you know about Heero and me?"

"What do you mean?"

"You know all of Heero's memories, correct?"

"Yes," Serena said, giving her a questioning look. Both she and Heero had explained that the ZERO system stored their memories and how Serena was able to regain hers. But it almost meant she had either seen or knew about Heero's.

"What do you know about our relationship?"

"Like how he threatened to kill you?" Serena asked. Relena nodded at her. "I know until 196 A.C. before he destroyed the Wing Zero."

"So you know about-"

"Your first kiss?" Serena smirked. "Yeah, and I must say he wasn't very gentle." Relena laughed as she remembered Heero pulling her to his chest and kissing her on the lips before disappearing into the Colony.

"No, he wasn't. But that's what made it even more special. I can tell you the second time was much better."

"Not the information I want to know," Serena said.

"So you must know how he felt before and after that."

"I know more than I should."

"I think that's special. For both of us," Relena said.

"Huh?"

"You know Heero probably better than I do," Relena smiled at her. "You have a bond with him that no one else will ever have."

"I wouldn't necessarily say that," Serena frowned. "You share something with him that no one else ever will. Your connection runs deeper than either of you could ever imagine. In a sense, to understand that, you would call it fate." Relena could only gape at Serena.

"I would like to think that," Relena beamed after a moment.

"It's the truth," Serena said nonchalantly. "It doesn't take a genius to figure something like that out."

"I'm not sure about that. Heero did take a long time to make a move."

"He wanted to make a move before he ever did." Serena countered back.

"And you know this for sure?" Relena raised an eyebrow.

"Heero may not have been your everyday teenager, but he still had feelings." Serena looked away, looking around the backyard.

"So if I had let him, he would've slept with me?" Serena turned wide eyes to her. "What? Is it so wrong to ask?" Relena looked at her.

"I can't believe we're having this discussion," Serena said, shaking her head. "I, unfortunately, know the answer to that."

"So, what is it?" Relena presses.

"Yes," Serena said with a grimace on her face. The wine seemed to make Serena talk more openly about things. Or was it the fact that their relationship was growing closer?

"Oh c'mon," Relena chuckled. "It's not like I'm telling you about our first time. But I believe that was the day everything changed for us."

"I don't want to know," Serena's face became serious. "I've seen enough to last me a lifetime."

"It's not as bad as you think," Relena shook her head. "It's quite interesting. Of course, I'd be leaving out some details, for your sake."

"As long as you don't inform me of the act itself. Then I'll listen to how you two became a couple." Relena beamed a smile at her.

August of A.C. 198

Relena had been lying in bed, wide awake. She knew it had to be almost midnight, as she had gone to bed around ten, but her thoughts kept her from reaching the haven of her dreams.

They had been going in circles for years. At times Relena wondered if she was what he wanted. Did he ever dream of her? The way she did about him? How often had she looked at him from across a room and imagined it was just the two of them? Alone, indulging in the newfound feelings.

But they couldn't make any promises. He couldn't promise to be there in the morning.

And it never stopped her from giving up hope that, maybe one day, they would figure it out.

Relena rolled over, hugging her pillow to her chest. She longed for him to hold her, to kiss her. It had been several months since she had last seen him. He was a frequent flyer still, coming and going even though he had joined Preventer. Even becoming a part of her security. He only told her that, one day, he wouldn't be gone as much. Once things settled down more, he wouldn't leave her side.

But how much longer could she wait for him? How did she even know he wanted the same things as her?

Ding.

Relena turned her head to the side. Her phone screen shone like a dim light. Reaching for her phone, she stared blankly at the screen.

Is it too late? The simple message read.

Meet me in the back. Relena replied.

Relena tossed the bed sheets from her body without a second thought. Exiting her room, she all but ran down the flights of stairs. Relena's penthouse offered more than a beautiful view of the city. It had two floors of solitude, located on the west side of Brussels.

They had been secretly seeing each other outside of work life. They mostly kept to quiet rooms. Or even more tranquil apartments, but they had also gone out. Per-her request. They had found a dive bar not far from where they lived. They had only gone a few times before deciding that staying hidden from prying eyes would be better. While Relena hadn't cared where they were, so long as they were together.

That was whenever he was there in the city or when he'd accompany her on business trips.

Relena reached the back door to the fire escape in record time. Her heart pounded in her chest as she looked through the glass windows. There he stood, waiting. He could've easily broken in. Triggering the alarms. But he waited for her.

When Relena opened the door, she took a deep breath as she scanned his body. Dark jeans, even against the dark of night, sneakers instead of his usual combat books, a light-colored t-shirt, and then his eyes. The deepest blue she had ever seen. Piercing through the night with desire.

She stood transfixed, lost in his eyes. This was something they hadn't done. Kissing and light touches had been as far as they had ever gone. Heero had been the one to take things slow. For whatever reason, Heero never stayed the night, nor had they physically done anything.

But tonight was different. Relena knew it deep within herself.

There was something behind his eyes. Lingering close enough to the surface for Relena to catch a glimpse. Had he been wanting this too?

Stepping to the side, Relena allowed him in. Heero seemed hesitant at first, almost as if he was unsure if he should even be there.

"Is everything all right?" Relena asked once the door was closed. When Heero didn't respond, she looked back up into his eyes. Confusion, concern, and what she could only think of was lust?

"This was a bad idea," Heero said as he shook his head.

"No!" Relena reached out, grabbing his hand. "No," she said more softly. "This isn't."

"How do you know?"

"Because I do." She bit her lip. "I want it too." He seemed to weigh her words. Then slowly, he nodded his head. Lacing his fingers through hers, they made their way to her bedroom.

Heero and her stood in front of her bed, hands laced together as they stared into each other's eyes. Relena's heart pounded in her chest. She was nervous, and Relena thought Heero was too until he let go of one of her hands, bringing his hand up to cup her face. Slowly, he leaned in, kissing her gently on the lips.

Moving her arms, Relena wrapped them around Heero's neck as she melted into him. The newly found closeness between them still sent sparks throughout Relena's body. She had never been this intimate with anyone before. Heero moved his hand from her face to join his other hand, resting on her waist. Slowly he pushed her back till her legs bumped into her bed. Not once did Heero break their kiss.

Heero gently nudged her more, and when Relena pulled away from him, she wanted to protest until she opened her eyes and looked into his. Emotions swirled about, and Relena felt her heart skip a beat as Heero moved her to sit on the bed. Before Relena could think more, he was leaning down with one knee between her legs. Causing Relena to move back toward the pillows as Heero crawled on top of her. Settling himself, Relena could feel his breath on her cheek before he claimed her lips again in a kiss.

The kiss grew in passion. Relena opened her mouth when she felt Heero's tongue flick against her lips, looking for permission. As Heero's tongue swirled around hers, his hands seemed to find new places to touch. But Heero stopped once his hand grazed her breast, and he pulled away.

Relena realized that Heero was unsure once again. He opened his mouth to speak, but Relena silenced him with a kiss before taking his hand and moving it back to her chest. She wasn't sure what she was doing, and even though she was still nervous, the excitement of what was happening and wanting to be closer to him drove her thoughts for them to continue.

Heero's hand resumed feeling, almost searching her chest. He was gentle, never squeezing her breasts hard. But he didn't dare move the material of her shirt. Only feeling from the outside. Even when his thumb brushed over one of her hard nipples. Relena almost wished Heero had moved her top out of the way. The feeling he was causing her to have, was unlike anything she had felt before.

Then Heero did something she wasn't expecting. Breaking their kiss, Heero pushed himself up onto his knees. Reaching behind his head, he pulled his t-shirt over his head before throwing it to the ground. Relena sat up, staring at his half-naked body in awe. She reached out a hand, and her fingers traced a scar that ran from the left side, just below his neck, and down till it crossed over the center of his chest, stopping under his right pectoral.

The scar looked faint, but it was hard to tell in the moonlight seeping through the curtains in her room. Before Relena's fingers could find one of the many others to trace, Heero grabbed her hand and brought it up to his lips, kissing it as he looked at her. So many emotions swirled about like a storm in his eyes. Relena couldn't name them all, but the one at the forefront struck her the most. Passion.

Heero released her hand before reaching for her shirt. Never breaking eye contact, Heero silently asked her for permission. She drew in a deep breath as she nodded, and before she knew it, her shirt was pulled over her head. The air prickled her skin once the garment left her warm body. And for the first time, Relena felt self-conscious about what they were doing.

There they were. Half naked in her bed. And Relena realized it was the first time Heero had ever seen her like this. Relena folded her arms over her chest, feeling uneasy with Heero's piercing gaze focused on her.

"Don't," Heero's voice was soft as he reached a hand to her. Relena swallowed as she moved her arms away from covering her body. "You're perfect the way you are."

Relena stared at Heero. He had said similar things in the past, but the way he said those words now… Her thoughts stopped as Heero reclaimed her lips. Once again, causing her to melt into him. Maybe it didn't matter what she thought because Heero seemed pleased enough with her body.

Heero eased her back onto the pillows as his hands began to trace imaginary lines over her body. Relena felt her body hum as electricity started to course through her. How was it possible that one touch from him could ignite a fire within her? Relena's thoughts continued, even as her hands explored Heero's body. Feeling his muscles as they contracted before relaxing whenever she touched a new spot.

Their kissing continued to grow before Heero broke away, moving to kiss her neck. Relena breathed deeply, welcoming the air and new sensations Heero was causing. Heero's mouth trailed down her neck to her chest. Planting soft kisses as he went. His hand had found one of her breasts again, and Relena moaned as his thumb rubbed over her nipple. She felt his lips curl up against her skin. Heero continued down the length of her body, kissing different places. Relena wondered if he was only doing it to see her reaction. Several times she had squirmed under his weight when he found a spot that was more ticklishly than the last.

When Heero reached the top of her pajama pants, everything stopped. Relena realized once again what they were doing, and while she wanted this… she didn't know what they were supposed to do. Or what she was supposed to do. Heero seemed to sense her distress as he stopped and moved to sit up.

"Is everything okay?" His voice was smooth, but Relena swore she heard a hint of nervousness.

"Yes," Relena swallowed. "I… I don't know what to do, though."

"Neither do I," Heero chuckled. Almost as if he was embarrassed by the admission.

"You've never done this?" Relena asked as she sat up. "Not even… with someone else?"

"No," Heero shook his head. "Is everything I'm doing… okay?" Relena opened her mouth before quickly shutting it. "Tell me what I'm doing wrong, and I'll do something else."

"No, it's not that," Relena shook her head. "I'm confused because you seem as if you know what you're doing."

"Oh," Heero said before he took her hand, placing it on his chest. "I'm… I'm doing what I think you would want me to do and what I want to feel."

It took Relena a moment before she understood what Heero was saying. He let go of her hand, and Relena found herself tracing another scar on his chest. Not only was he just as nervous as she was. But he wanted to touch her. To feel her in the same way she wanted to feel him.

"Then, let's take our time and enjoy this," Relena said as she brought her eyes back to his.

Heero nodded as he sat up more, moving his hands to the button of his jeans. If Relena had been hyper-aware of what lay under them before when Heero was pressed up against, she was even more aware now when she noticed the bulge.

Relena moved to her knees, placing her hands on his. Heero looked at her questionably. She bit her lip as she pushed his hands away, slowly unbuttoning his jeans before moving to unzip the fly. As Relena brought her eyes to his, the flames of desire burned deep within them. Heero helped her to remove his pants before he made quick work of hers.

They sat, staring at each other in nothing more than their underwear. Heero's eyes roamed her body before returning to settle on her face. In return, Relena glanced down at his boxers a few times, wondering what he looked like without them on. It seemed like a silly concept in her mind, but the curiosity was there nonetheless. If they were going to do this… to have sex, she would learn what Heero's penis looked like.

"Lay down," Heero's voice broke through Relena's thoughts. Relena did as she was told, and what surprised her was when Heero laid down next to her. "If you don't like something I'm doing. Or you want to stop… tell me."

"Okay."

"I mean it," Heero said as he cupped her cheek.

"I know," Relena said. "I trust you." Heero gave her the faintest of smiles before claiming her lips again in a slow, passionate kiss.

One of his hands began to move, gliding down the length of her body. His fingers ghosted over her skin until he reached her panties. His hand stilled, and Relena realized why. Placing her hand over his, she pushed his hand down until he was touching her entrance through the fabric. Relena felt heat rise throughout her body as his fingers moved over the material. Then he slipped them underneath. A moan escaped her throat. She had never wanted anyone to touch her as badly as she wanted Heero to do so. The thought scared her for a moment before she banished it. She wanted Heero to touch her in this intimate way.

His fingers played around, stroking the flame that was igniting her. Then he slipped one into her, and Relena gasped as she broke away from their kiss. It didn't hurt, but it surprised her. She felt her back arch on its own accord as Heero moved his finger in and out while he kissed her neck. After a moment, Relena felt a second finger join the first one. A new feeling washed over her as Heero continued with the slow but steady rhythm he had set.

Relena's hand fumbled around on the bed, reaching to touch him. Once she found his boxers, she slid her palm over him. Relena heard him take in a sharp breath as he stopped kissing her. He removed his hand from between her legs. Relena thought she had done something wrong until Heero yanked his boxers off, adding them to the pile of clothes on the floor. It was the first time Relena had seen what had been hiding under the material. Heero's member was more prominent than she was expecting. Then again, she had never seen one in person before. There was nothing for her to compare it to. For a second, Relena rethought what they were about to do. But as she brought her eyes to meet his, Relena remembered why they were doing this.

Heero took hold of her panties and gently slid them over her hips and down her legs. Relena lay back against her pillows. Heero moved to position himself at her entrance. He looked at her, asking her silently again for permission.

"I trust you," Relena said as she reached her hand out to him. Heero leaned forward as he grabbed her hand, kissing the back of it before sitting upright again.

Heero gradually pushed himself into her. Relena felt some discomfort, but it wasn't terrible. She tried to breathe through it, knowing it was only for a short period. But as Heero stilled, she realized she had closed her eyes tightly. A worried look greeted her as Relena opened her eyes to meet his.

"I'm hurting you, aren't I?"

"No," Relena shook her head. "But… go slow. Please."

Heero nodded before he finished pushing himself fully into her. Or what she hoped was him doing so. Heero leaned forward, kissing her on the lip, but he didn't move. He told her, when she was ready, to let him know. After a few moments of her adjusting to having something foreign in her, Relena nodded her head. Slowly Heero drew back before pushing himself into her. The motion caused her to gasp. Heero stopped immediately, but Relena quickly soothed his fears. While the feeling was still uncomfortable, the sensation of Heero moving inside her felt oddly good.

Heero resumed a slow pace of drawing himself out of her before pushing back into her. The more he did it, the more the uncomfortableness Relena was feeling melted away. Her body started to relax, and the sensation began to turn into pleasure. Heero was gentle, alternating between kissing her lips and forehead. He kept his movements consistent. But as the minutes passed, Relena knew it was becoming more difficult for Heero to maintain his consistency.

His breath ragged against her ear, and his groans were in a low deep voice. It didn't help that her sounds of pleasure had started to grow. Relena had caught herself moaning louder than she had moments before. His hands tangled in her hair as his pace increased. Relena held onto his shoulders tighter as something started to build within her. She cried out when Heero sat up, grabbing her hips as his movements became more reckless.

The growing need for a release from the pressure she felt started to mount the more Heero thrust into her. Then she felt Heero move one of his hands to her breasts, kneading and molding it. His thumb brushed against her nipple, and Relena swore it would be her undoing if he kept at it. But she wanted him to keep doing it.

Then it happened. Relena felt an explosion deep within her. It sent a sensation through her entire body. One she had never felt before. Regardless of whether or not either of them knew how to have sex, something magical had happened to her. When Relena felt like she was coming down from whatever high she was on, she noticed Heero straining as he leaned forward. His forearms landed on either side of her head. He kissed her roughly on the lips before moving his head to rest against her shoulder. It was long after Relena heard Heero groan deeply next to her ear as his movements slowed. His body trembled before he completely stilled above her.

His breath was hot and ragged against her skin. Relena wrapped her arms around him, holding him tightly to her. Their bodies were still joined together before Heero pushed himself up, looking deep into her eyes. Relena saw contentment and peace swirl about in his eyes. She wondered if it was the first time he had ever felt like that. Reaching her hand around, she cupped his face. She was smiling at him. Heero brought his face to hers. Kissing her softly as he removed himself from inside of her.

Heero rolled off her, and Relena instantly missed his warmth and presence. Closing her eyes, she knew what would happen next. He was going to leave her. But then she felt the covers on her bed pulled over her body and the warmth she felt moments ago was back as Heero wrapped an arm around her. Opening her eyes, Relena turned her head to find Heero settling into bed next to her. The corners of his lips turned up before he kissed her again. Relena curled her body against him, wanting to hold onto the moment for all eternity. She felt his fingers in her hair, trailing lightly through the strands, lulling her to sleep.

Relena woke, rolling herself to find the spot next to her empty. Straining her ears, Relena could hear his footsteps echoing on the stairs. Getting up, she grabbed her night robe, rushing after him.

"Stay." She breathed as she stopped at the top of the stairs. Heero stopped, turning to look at her from over his shoulder. "Please," Relena begged.

"You know I shouldn't-"

"I don't care!" Relena cried out. "Stay with me. Just this once."

Relena held her breath as Heero stared at her from the bottom of the stairs. Minutes felt like hours before she received her answer.

"Hm," Heero nodded before he made his way up the stairs.

"I believe that was the day we both realized we were going to be more than what we already were," Relena said. "It took him another year before he agreed to a real relationship," Relena chuckled.

"He was going to leave because he felt like he had tainted you." Relena swung her head toward Serena.

"How do you know that?"

"Heero thought he didn't deserve you. But his feelings for you ran deep, and he couldn't fight them off any longer. He didn't want to stay away, to hide in the shadows. He wanted more. But if he gave in to those feelings, he knew he could ruin everything you had been working towards. Your reputation could've been destroyed because you were involved with someone like him," Serena said, looking over the yard again.

"Is that why we never took the next step in our relationship?"

"Part of it," Serena said, turning to look at her. "It's more complicated than that. But I don't want to share those personal details about Heero."

"Are you the reason he asked me to marry him?" Relena asked boldly. Serena seemed taken aback by her question. Serena knew more than she was telling her. Relena understood that while Serena had shared more information about Heero, she was keeping a boundary in place.

"I never said anything to him about marrying you. But does it even matter?"

"I suppose it doesn't."

"Are you happy?" Serena asked.

"Very much so," Relena nodded her head.

"Then that is what truly matters," Serena smiled. "Don't always question things."

A/N

Merry Christmas Eve! And Happy Holidays!

Yes, here I am... again coming in super late, but! Here is chapter 20, and the long-awaited Heero and Relena chapter!

If you caught a bunch of references in the lovely scene between Heero and Relena... you can thank RFP. I had written the bare bones of this scene out years ago, and in honor of old times, I kept them in there. Plus, I still owe her a second installment to another story that I started to write but then got busy so that one is just sitting in my docs waiting for me to finish... I promise I'll get it done. Santa suit in all!

Back to the chapter 20 talk, there will be plenty more to come, but we need to make it through a few more Serena-focused chapters. There are reasons for this, but I will make sure to include another Heero and Relena before they become the main focus of this story. Was that a hint? Kind of, lol. Anywho's! I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, enjoying family and friends! Make sure you take some time to relax as well! Don't forget, I will be taking a week or two off to relax, with the holidays being so crazy and the fact I got a lovely cold, my body needs it! It also allows me some time to write because I only have chapter 21 done... and then nothing... but the middle and ending of this story are about done... so that's a plus! Right? Haha! I promise it'll all come together! (I'm also seeing that this chapter needs further edits... just enjoy it as it is and when I have time, I'll finish the final touches to it.)

Another note, lol because I keep adding to this one. Someone really needs to take their own advice and not question every damn thing! Just saying! Girl, I see you... and those damn questions you keep asking throughout this entire story!

Until I return... in the New Year! Wow! Take care everyone, enjoy the holidays and please, please! Be safe!
- Much love and well wishes, MM.

B&B4L - I saw your messages. Thank you! I will send you a message very soon, but I hope you are doing well and enjoying Christmas with your family! 3