A/N: Yes there is smut in this chapter, the beginning and end denoted with '***'
Kendra awoke on her side with Dyson behind her. He was stroking her arm in a loving manner. It was oblivious he was up. He was always so patient with her and Kendra appreciated that. Normally, she wouldn't accept these displays of affection and would get up but today was different. She turned around to face him and nuzzled her head under his chin and hugged him as well.
She took in his scent and basked in the closeness they had now.
Kendra knew she had to get up and go back to Lauren's place to assist Tamsin but Dyson was her priority now. She needed to move forward and this was the only way she knew how. It just felt right. She somehow had to release the iron fisted control she had over her life and mission and just let the hand of fate move her.
If she was going to loss herself and trust someone else to guide her, then it would be only in Dyson's care. He had already given up so much for her and that was proof enough of his unwavering dedication to her. Dyson may know the way for her to 'stay'.
"Can I just lay here with you here in bed all day," Kendra mumbled with her head on his chest.
"Sure. I'd like that," Dyson said smiling while also stroking her back.
Kendra, Dyson knew, was not the type of person to just hang around and do nothing. Like Bo, she was always on the move somewhere, but this was different.
Kendra dozed off again and woke up a short time later still in the same position with Dyson. Dyson was still awake.
Kendra propped her sleepy head up with her hand and looked into Dyson's expressive eyes and finally said, "Do you remember when I said that if you had a chance to be with your life mate to grab her and never look back?"
Dyson just nodded with a smirk on his face.
"I meant Bo," Kendra said soothingly.
"Oh really?" Dyson chuckled amused to which Kendra joined in.
There was silence which followed that descended upon them quickly.
Kendra finally broke her stare with his mesmerizing eyes not knowing what to say, but decided to move forward. "I understand that you claimed me as your life mate to the Dire Wolf council and estranged yourself from Bo all to protect me. First thing Dyson, I'm not exactly helpless. If Grizzal wants to put out a hit on me, I say bring it. ….."
"I would do anything to keep you safe Kendra. But no one can run or stop an edict from the council…." Dyson quickly interjected.
"WHY are you doing this for me?!" Kendra let out exasperated lifting her head locking onto Dyson.
"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" Dyson forcefully stated as a fact. Dyson needed her to know his true feelings for her. Sure they beat around the bush about it, but not now.
'SHIT. He does love me,' Kendra thought and it was the real thing for him judging by his bold proclamation. It was not qualified by terms such as 'I think', 'I believe', or even 'I know'. He stated it like a fact. Kendra was not expecting this type of response from Dyson. He normally danced around it giving her space, but here he was confronting the issue head on. Brave, courageous and noble. Kendra thought she lost her one and only chance at love with Eric and gave up, but one does not find love, love sometimes finds you in its own time, place and way. An unexpected type love Kendra was familiar with. Some would call it dumb luck, some call it destiny and some are bold enough to call it fate.
Kendra didn't exactly know how to react. She would have normally attributed it to a lack in judgment on Dyson's part, but after telling it like it was to Alex, she had to stop and reassess on how to respond.
She broke eye contact and hid her face under his chin.
"It's a raw deal Dyson and you know it. You are giving up everything to be with a human." Kendra mumbled closing her eye's tightly talking into his chest.
"It still does not change the fact that I do love you." Dyson rebutted knowing full well that Kendra was trying to back up and avoid this topic. Dyson pressed forward.
"You know I only wanted to tease you and string you along at first to get you to help me fulfill my promise to Eric right?" Kendra muttered never looking to Dyson due to the shame she felt.
"Yes, but the young unjaded Kendra I knew was still inside you. I knew given time, you'd come around to me. You never told me your promise to Eric. I can only assume it was to wipe out my entire race." Dyson said calmly.
Kendra paused and finally gave up hiding it from him. "Yup, you got it. Immediately after my failed attempt at suicide, between states of consciousness being pulled out by my team, I yelled to Eric hoping at least his soul would hear me. I told him, I PROMISED HIM, that I would avenge his death and vowed to eradicate not just all who were involved, but everyone in your entire race. If I couldn't, I would die trying. I would take as many of you down as I could. I thought that you were all devil spawn and I was the weapon of justice to cleanse this world of your kind. That's the reason why I have so many issues letting you in." She admitted weakly as a tear escaped her eyes.
"So am I in?" Dyson asked stroking her back.
"More than you know Dyson. But I still think you have the wrong girl. I'm not exact girlfriend or life mate material. So you aren't mad at me for giving Eric my word to kill you all off which probably includes you?" Kendra inquired mumbling finally looking into Dyson's eyes once more.
Dyson smiled at Kendra. He knew her end game all along, but they always had some sort of deep connection even when she was with Eric. He finally replied in a roundabout way, "Kendra, it was hard holding on to Bo, even harder losing her. I will never repeat that mistake again. Bo is gone. I wanted her all to myself but she's a succubus. It was and still is in her nature to sleep with others. You can't change that and if you do, she wouldn't be Bo. You want justice. THAT is in your nature. That is who you are. Are you a cold blooded killer? A person that has no moral compass and is willing to stereotype and genocide a whole race based on that? For Bo, it isn't really a choice, for you however, it is. "
"A simple no would have sufficed." Kendra grinned back then pecking him on the lips thankful for his patience and forgiveness. She then transitioned to a more serious topic. "I was serious when I said I was messed up and it's not in an 'aww that's cute' sort of way, it's a 'DAMN she needs to see a shrink and/or be in a padded cell' type of way."
"You're as sane as can be in this insane world. You were enraged at shifters taking down your team including Eric and that is understandable why you made that commitment to him. I reviewed you comm logs that day, and one of the comms was open as you were giving orders to your team. You gave orders to 'Kill them all'. I assumed that all meant those responsible for the deaths on your team. Does justice always demand death?"
"If you got me a week ago, yes, but now I'm not so sure," Kendra frowned, "I'm…. I'm losing myself to you Dyson. What was once cut and dry is now murky and grey. You have been showering me with kindness, affection and support from the day I met you and it never changed or waned. Even after Eric's passing, you have been a rock and pillar of my support system even though I treated you like crap. That would either make you the biggest romantic out there, or the most foolish Fae around. Haven't you heard nice people finish last? Why would you take such a gamble on a human?"
"A righteous, smart, creative, friendly, persistent, and strong person is hard to come by. That is a trait I always liked. It didn't matter if you were a Fae or not, you are all those and more. Birds of a feather flock together," Dyson admitted solemnly.
"So, that makes us good friends and that we are but you want more. Much more. You want a committed relationship with messed up short timer human who gets naked with you in bed one moment and tries to kill you the next. Are you sure you just don't have 'yellow fever'?" Kendra smirked.
"Nope and I got the right girl, like you said, if I had the chance to be the with my life mate, seize her," Dyson said pining Kendra playfully to the bed on top of her. He put her arms playfully above her head, "and never look back."
Kendra cooed, "You just want to fuck me don't you? Storm the gates of my temple? Is that all you men think about?"
"All the qualities I list have NOTHING to be with sex Kendra. I just want us to be together." Dyson said never letting Kendra's pinned hands go.
*** "Oh really?" Kendra questioned with in evil grin, "If that so that why are you between my legs and your wolf is hard…. And….." Kendra snaked her head slowly and seductively next to his ear, "it's twitching and leaking out onto my stomach slowly. Are you backed up?"
Kendra then rapidly brought her legs around the small of his back and trapped his body firmly against hers tighter. "Nothing to say Dyson? Because I don't need my hands to take down evil shaper shifters. Like sooooo"
Dyson's tip was being stimulated by the tight contact with Kendra firm body and he couldn't believe it, he just started to thrust instinctively and it was heaven.
"No Kendra…." Dyson weakly groaned. His words did not match what his body wanted.
"Oh no Dyson, you started it, now be a big bad wolf and finished it. 'Cus the real thing is soo much better." Kendra smiled with her voice filled with desire as Dyson's grip on her hands loosened but she didn't remove her hands to make a point.
Dyson barreled towards peak fast as he just thrust against Kendra harder and he was making the space between them slick with his motion. He didn't want Kendra to feel like she was just a love toy so he began to slow down with all his might.
Kendra felt Dyson slow his pace down so she just whispered more into his ear as he was hunched over on top of her.
"Bo is just a big titted cow who's been passed around more than beer bong. But me…. I'm picky. I'm muscular and FIRM," Kendra said pulling Dyson in more forcefully, "experienced in how to handle horny guys like you but still be EXTRMELY dangerous."
Dyson efforts to back down were in vain when his body just went back to trusting with even more fever. His wolf was already past the point no return.
Kendra finally knew she got him, "I kill your kind and I can take out you and your wolf right now because I'm Kendra Shaw and don't you forget it. I know everything about your kind and maybe then some. You like to fuck the girls you take prisoner, especially the virgins during your campaigns. You have me pinned now but I OWN you, you bad dog and you will come on MY command like a good puppy. Not a moment sooner or later."
Dyson didn't care what she had to say since he could no longer back down and only sought release.
Kendra loved this and gloated. She loosened her legs around him so he couldn't release since there wasn't enough friction, but tight enough where he couldn't reposition to use his ram at her castle entrance.
This went on for a long time and Dyson was going crazy, she felt his frustration and knew she had to let him release when she started to see signs of him shifting. His arms and shoulders muscles grew and flexed and his fangs began to come in. He was trying to hide his face from her by keeping it next to her but she knew.
"Are you shifting on me Dyson?!" Kendra barked. "I thought you LOVED me," she jeered.
A part of her was scared since Dyson in a fully or partially shifted form could overpower her especially now with no weapons on her, but she could tell how much Dyson did care for her. He was stopping himself from shifting even being held at his peak which was probably torture for him.
Dyson was never held at peak before and Kendra was doing it well. He hated to shift on her knowing how much she loathed that side of him. It was that side of him that was the link to his kind murdering the people Kendra cared about. Whether he tried to slow down, and speed up, Kendra was in control with just her strong muscular legs. He finally felt himself fully shift against his will since he was near exhaustion; it was there he saw the fear in her eyes and expressions. He hatred that and attempted to pull away, but Kendra just held him in even tighter. He had no idea why but Kendra was brave and determined.
Kendra finally got to see Dyson in his shaped shifted state close up and he was a beast. He was strong and powerful but gentle and intelligent. Dyson was still in there even at the madding pace.
Dyson was now not only grunting but howling too. Maddened that he couldn't release or back down. Holding his primal urge back to just change positions and just take and violate her, but that was not Dyson. He was determined not to mess this one up. He hid his face from Kendra and was partly ashamed at what he was, when he felt Kendra kiss his cheek and turned Dyson's shifted face to meet her eye to eye. Dyson looked into her eyes still in a frenzy but realized that Kendra's fear was gone and was replaced with and expression of caring.
Kendra felt his shame soon after he fully shifted. She empathized with him since he didn't want to be seen like that. She also felt like she kind of trapped Dyson to just being a thing driven by lust. Dyson was anything but shallow. She kissed him on the cheek trying her hardest to accept him for WHO he was and not WHAT he was for the first time. Their eyes met and even in his shifted form, his expressive brown eyes still showed through. It told her that she could trust Dyson no matter which state he was in.
It was time Kendra surmised before Dyson lost control on her but she knew how to make Dyson crest hard by giving him a guilt trip during his release so he would be forced to hold it back.
Kendra tightened her legs around him one final time as he grunted and roared with massive trusts. He was going to release and she yelled at him. "Dyson don't tell you you're going to come all over your PARTNER. Your BEST friend."
Dyson released hard and he heard every word she said and held back the flood gates mid release as he grunted loudly in pain but at the same time waves of pleasure crashed into him forcing him to higher heights of ecstasy.
"You mentally undressed me ALL these years Dyson or you won't be making a huge mess right now you big bad wolf!" Kendra screamed and at Dyson, who roared in more pain and pleasure.
Dyson was so mind wiped, since he was at the heights of both pain and pleasure and Kendra would not let him get off the hook that easy.
"I heard you were noble Dyson. They why are your trying to desecrate and fuck a virgin," Kendra said in a booming voice.
Those final words made Dyson give up and let it all go. That was all it took for Dyson as he just continued to release all over her stomach and chest with a loud mighty roar like he was wounded mortally in battle. He was amazed how well Kendra worked him and he just felt tired and collapsed on top of her coming down from the high.
Kendra hugged Dyson who then rolled to his side out of breath and barely conscious.
Not only had Dyson used all his energy to stop of shifting, but he used the remainder holding the flood gates back. He changed back into his human form finally all covered with sweat.
"You've been holding back on me," Kendra motioned to her chest sitting up, "and I know just how to get the last bit of it out." Kendra purred.
Dyson rolled to his back ready to pass out when he discovered to his surprise that his torture was not over yet. Kendra began working his flaccid wolf with her tongue which she never did before. He just let her in his still hyper sensitized state as he convulsed in pleasure.
"Dyson, I'm DANGEROUS to be around. If I don't take you down, someone else will because of your association to me, the scorn of the Dire Wolf council," Kendra purred as she bit his tip lightly which caused him to jerk in pleasure, "I told you I can take you down too Dyson and here you are, all spent and exhausted." Kendra whispered into his ear still using a hand on his wolf, "Are you SURE you want me?"
"God YES Kendra!" Dyson huffed out quickly.
"Are you SURE it's not your other head talking?" Kendra asked tightening her grip still whispering in his ear.
"No Kendra," Dyson exclaimed but brought his hand up to her chest and stomach smearing the remnants of his release all over her in addition to caressing her breasts.
Kendra inhaled sharply because of what he was doing and recomposed herself propping herself up on her side besides Dyson, finally relenting her grip on his wolf.
*** "So," Kendra laughed lightly, "if Bo walked in here RIGHT now and told you to fuck her, what would you do since you are really her life mate."
"Kendra, Bo and I are done. I am her life mate only on paper now. YOU are the only person that matters to me. YOU, and not Bo. You can stop talking about Bo when we are together you know," Dyson asserted.
"I… I can't compete with her Dyson," Kendra admitted looking down feeling vulnerable, "Tamsin….. She's so strong willed and stubborn but even she fell to the wiles of a succubus and Valkyrie's are normally immune to that."
"Kendra," Dyson said soothingly snaking his arm around her and scooting her in closer to his body, "You are asking me if I can go against my nature and I can and will. I survived this long because of that. When a species becomes too predictable, they become extinct. Sure Bo may have my wolf, but you have my spirit and where the spirit is, my wolf will follow. I meant what I said in that letter. You are an amazing person and I sometimes think you do have Fae powers. You can't compete with Bo, nor can I, nor can anyone else. She's Bo, the unaligned succubus. By the same token, Bo in no way can compete with you either. You know so much about her now that even you are a danger to her. In addition, you have some skills which not even Bo can do much less master. You are Kendra 'Cerberus' Shaw, a human who can attack using at least 3 vastly different methods and it is guaranteed that one of them will work."
Kendra felt much better but made an off handed comment to release some tension.
"So what if she just dropped all her clothes right here and now, what would you do?" Kendra smirked.
Dyson's mind ran with all the possibilities and rubbed his chin and mumbled, "Well, I could always kick her out of here without her clothes. Or, we could cuff her to a post and make her watch us have a massively wild sex not allowing her to feed."
Kendra just laughed hardily and Dyson followed.
After they calmed down, Kendra slowly brought Dyson into a kiss on the lips. They kissed tenderly for minutes until Kendra broke the kiss and put her forehead against his finally muttering, "OK Dyson. I'll stay but I have no idea where our road leads. I have so much crap I have to deal with like what to do about Grizzal and his band of not so merry boys. Also if I do stay, I might get insanely jealous and protective of you with Bo prancing about barely contained by her leather clothing. I'm human and if I commit, I need your same commitment even with your wolf belonging to her."
Dyson slowly nodded in understanding and agreement but added, "We'll get through all of this TOGETHER Kendra, ok?"
Kendra nodded and nuzzled into Dyson to rest since her legs were tired.
Dyson closed his eyes and fell quickly into a deep slumber with this life mate in his arms.
Tamsin's eyes slowly opened. She still felt really weak and disoriented. Things weren't coming to her as fast as they should. She started to look around and found that she was hooked up to a blood pressure cuff and leads. A portable machine was taking her vitals at her bed side. She had no idea if she was in some sort of accident but she felt like crap.
Tamsin was in a bed room of sorts and quickly scanned the room trying to sit up in the process. Through her grunts of exertion it got the attention of a woman of Asian descent with an Australian accent, "Tamsin, thank god. You had us worried there, we couldn't wake you up for 2 days. Are you ok?" the Asian woman asked.
"Ummm ok. But who the heck are you?" Tamsin questioned with her snarky wit backing up a little from Kendra.
This was bad Kendra thought. Tamsin lost at least her short term memory. She needed the doc and fast.
"Drake! Get Doctor Lewis here quickly." Kendra yelled out to which Drake jolted up in his chair from his slumber in the room and ran out.
Tamsin had no idea who any of these people were and she was getting extremely apprehensive. Finally she heard a name she recognized. 'Doctor Lewis'.
"Tamsin, I'm Kendra Shaw your friend, you've been on assignment with me at the 69th for the past couple months. Just relax ok?" Kendra said backing up as well to allow Tamsin some space.
Tamsin knew there was a problem, here this person was claiming to be part of precinct 69 but was in civilian clothing. There was no way to verify her identity besides asking her for a badge. In addition, how was she in assignment to an all human district? No way in hell would she accept that assignment.
Lauren quickly walked in with Drake close behind. Lauren was quick to sense the situation of a disoriented patient and her anxiety was getting worse by the second.
Kendra turned around and whispered into Lauren's ear, "Tamsin can't remember me."
Laruen was quick to act to defuse the tension level. "Can I have all of you wait outside?" Lauren asked but was really giving an order. After the last person filed out which was Kendra, Lauren kept her distance from the bed and waited a couple more seconds looking at Tamsin's face of confusion and strain to recall everything.
Lauren just calmly in soothing tones let out, "Hey Tamsin, do you know who I am?"
"What the fuck is going on here Lauren? Where's Dyson? … a … and the rest of the gang?" Tamsin let out flustered and frustrated. She realized something was wrong, she felt different. She had aches and pains. She felt, HUMAN.
"Dyson is working with Bo and Kenzi at the 39th. What's the last thing you remember?" Lauren asked.
"Shit! Am I HUMAN! What type of shit are you pulling here! I will kick your ass right now doc if you don't fess up and fix this crap RIGHT NOW." Tamsin yelled in anger. No one ever takes her Valkyrie powers.
"Ummm Tamsin, that is a long story. You seem to be suffering from short term memory loss, a form of amnesia. I'm not going to harm you Tamsin, I'm here to help. Just calm" Laruen said be she was cut off by Tamsin who bolt out of her bed sending all the monitoring equipment hooked up to her crashing to the ground but tripped. She was not use to the response of her human condition Lauren deduced and being asleep for 2 days did take some time to get them working again.
Lauren quickly backed up and reached into her pocket for a needle filled with sedative.
It was then Kendra rushed in and pulled Tamsin up and sat her back into her bed forcefully.
Tamsin didn't take any shit from anyone and growled, "Get off you me you bitch or you'll regret it."
Kendra noticed shadows appearing on her face and acted quickly before the fear set in. She lunged and hugged Tamsin which took her off guard since most normal people back up upon seeing her shadows. She whispered into Tamsin's ear, "You gave me the title of SISTER a couple weeks back. Ask Arin through the link now, she knows."
Tamsin was about to go all out on this stupid Asian woman who looked somewhat scrawny but did pack considerable strength for her frame. Also she was smart enough to evade her casting of doubt. Tasmin hesitated going medieval on her ass using brute strength, but what the heck, what would talking to Arin hurt?
The last thing she knew about her sister was that they didn't talk much to each other but when they did, at least they were always on the level with each other.
Tamsin took a bit, since it felt different, but established a link with Arin.
'Arin, this is Tamsin, 4, 1, 8. Answer me a quick question,' she thought quickly.
Arin was still practicing hand to hand techniques in a field with her unit when she just stopped what she was doing, 'Sister! I tried to contact you yesterday, but you wouldn't respond, are you ok?'
'NO! Fucking Doc Lewis pulling some shit on me. I can't seem to remember recent things… a lots of things. Also I'm just about to kill this person claiming to be my sister. She's human, Asian type descent, built like a brick house, annoying, with an Australian accent. Kendra Shaw I think it is,' Tamsin communicated back.
Arin knew something bad happened to her where she didn't remember recent history but knew that by Tamsin's statements, she'd better let her sister know that truth and fast, 'DON'T hurt Kendra. She IS your sister. YOU gave her that title weeks ago. She's been by your side more than I have for a couple months now. She's human but we both trust her with our lives. OK?'
'Fucking repeat that Arin. Was I on drugs? And why did you let me form a friendship with a HUMAN?' Tamsin urgently communicated back in disbelief.
'Sister PLEASE trust me. Kendra saved your life. Look. Out of all the people with you right now, she is the only person you can absolutely trust. You got me? I will be down there tomorrow maybe the day after. Just work with her ok?' Arin stated.
Tamsin noted her sister said 'please'. It must have been important. She needed someone right now to give her the facts and if Kendra was it, so be it. Tamsin stopped the shadows on her face and noted that Kendra still had her in a bear hug.
"It's OK, I won't kill you …. just yet. You can let me go now HUMAN. Arin for some odd reason vouched for you," Tamsin spat out annoyed. No one gets that close to her. No one.
Kendra released her and just to prove a point that they were close, brought Tamsin into the standard Valkyrie Greeting.
Tamsin was surprised and almost head butted her but restrained herself realizing that this human knew the correct way to do the Valkyrie greeting. Not even Tamsin practiced it anymore to her knowledge, but it was nice to know that Kendra was in her corner.
They broke and Lauren began to set the machines back up.
"So feeble human ….. ummmm sister?…. Mind filling me in on WHO I need to kill for making me human ….. ish… or where the alcohol is?" Tamsin said scrunching up her face.
'FUCK! How do I normally address this annoying clingy human!' Tamsin though back to Arin.
'Kendra. Unless you are on an op, you call her Captain or Cap.' Arin thought back evading flurries of punches and kicks from her 3 attacking partners.
'WTF. I address a human on a first name basis and she out ranks me? Shit, this is soo wrong. Is there anything ELSE major you want to tell me? Like I'm fucking human and FYI I will kill however did this to me. TWICE.' Tamsin communicated back to Arin.
'Ask .. SHIT!' Arin did a back flip to avoid a sweep she almost didn't see 'Kendra. She can give you all those and .. FUCK that side kick HURT…. And more. K? TTYL, gotta kick some ass.' Arin quickly relayed.
Arin abilities in combat improved greatly over the past couple of months. Not only was she practicing more, but she could now feel to a certain extent which increased her speed, agility, and attack recognition. Also, she now trained to take over and lead all the sisterhood after Tamsin left, which she was now determined to do. She had no idea how Tamsin got amnesia, but hoped that it was temporary.
Kendra looked at Lauren and Lauren finally filled her in on what happened
"Tamsin, you casted too much doubt on Drake, one of my friends. When he came to, he was in a deranged state. You managed to reverse it. However, I think in doing so, you may have inadvertently lost your connotative abilities to recall recent events in your medial temporal lobe. That is my hypothesis thus far but I need to run more tests to confirm and find a remedy ok?"
"I was probably deranged for trying to reverse it. Well in any case, speed it up, I got a bottle with my name on it waiting for me hopefully somewhere close," Tamsin huffed out doing and annoyed eye roll.
"That deranged action you did was very heroic and big of you. You SAVED him from a year or more worth of psych treatment." Lauren shot back coldly, annoyed at that Tamsin, was back to being Tamsin.
Lauren had no idea which was worse. Tamsin's scathing, sarcastic remarks with matching unfriendly demeanor or the Tamsin of a couple days ago, nice, personable, but stole Bo right out from under her and everyone else.
It was quiet for a time and Lauren hooked up some leads to Tamsin forehead and temples.
Something was wrong Tamsin thought. She SAVED someone? 'What the heck. When did I get a heroic complex?' Tamsin thought to herself.
Lauren just moved on turning on her machine to take readings, "Tamsin, what was the last thing you remember?"
"Emmmm, waking up in a strange place with strange people telling me I did strange things?" Tamsin tilted her head scrunching her face.
"Lieutenant….." Kendra warned.
Tamsin never heard anyone address her by rank but it was obvious that Kendra was telling her to stop being flip.
"Fiiiiine. Before that, I remember helping Bo though her dawning invitation annnnd I kissed a girl and I liked it. Bo was yummy with taste of her cherry chapstick. Hope you don't mind it." Tamsin let out in a large exhale, but still pushing Lauren's buttons to the lyrics of a one hit wonder. She was waiting for Lauren to smack her again which she was ready to block, but it didn't happen.
Lauren just mumbled out looking at the readings, "And I bet you 2 are probably star crossed lovers Tamsin. Heck you 2 may even be bonded."
Kendra didn't know who to smack the crap out of, Lauren or Tamsin or both.
"Yea right, I've had better than that unaligned succu-dry and Bo bonded to ME? I too sexy for her so sexy it hurts." Tamsin stated with a click also borrowing lines from yet another one hit wonder.
"I doubt it," Lauren mumbled taking a closer look at the readings.
Lauren's mind immediately popped to a scene in Star Wars and wanted to say, 'Search you heart, you know it to be true.' To which Tamsin would do an impersonation of Luke Skywalker saying, 'Noooooo!' but that was quickly interrupted.
"Lieutenant Tamsin Jennings!" Kendra scolded, "Are you normally this personable? It's a wonder a raging bitch like you can even have friends in the sisterhood. Now shut the fuck up and let the doctor do her thing OK?"
"Fiiiiiiine." Tamsin huffed out in defeat looking away.
Kendra then glanced at Lauren and warned, "Lauren, please DON'T encourage her."
Tamsin was about to leave, but Arin told her to trust Kendra above all. That means Kendra had some slack which Tamsin grudgingly gave her. She had a ton of unanswered questions and hopefully the doc could give her a magic cure or Kendra and Arin could fill her in.
The tests went by without any further incident but Lauren concluded that Tamsin or any other Valkyrie was not built to cast "clarity" and when she did so, she damaged her hippocampus in the CA1 region which caused a type of retrograde amnesia.
Lauren was still analyzing the test results but gave Tamsin a regiment of vitamins to boost the RbAp48 protein. Hopefully with time, Tamsin would remember. Lauren noted that had Tamsin been a full Valkyrie, she would have recovered while she slept but this was not that case. Tamsin needed Bo but that was her choice and an item Lauren knew that Kendra had to broach.
Lauren decided not to push to the topic but reminded Tamsin kindly to use her sling on the left arm which she apparently took off. Lauren didn't want her to reinjure her arm. Tamsin after all was still in a very fragile state both physically and mentally.
Tamsin and Kendra left the lab and walked over to a large comfortable leather sofa where they just plopped down both not know where to start, but against the doctor's orders, Kendra fetched 2 beers to lighten up the mood.
Kendra noted while she was getting the beers, she received a text message and it had 4 simple words, "Bo can fix her. - Lauren"
"So uuum… Kendra, thanks for the beer but I need something stronger but that can wait," Tamsin clicked with a smile.
"OK, Tamsin, what do you want to know?" Kendra mumbled drinking a beer leaning on the opposite end of the couch.
"Am I human and WHO did this to me?" Tamsin asked getting to the point.
"Odin. He made you a fallen Valkyrie for not turning Bo over to him," Kendra mentioned in a relaxed manner.
"*I* didn't bring in my mark! No way. Did Bo like thrall me or something 'cus I'll kick her ass right now if she did," Tamsin asked in total disbelief.
"No you and Bo fought in hand to hand and you told Bo to kill you. You'd rather live with the repercussions than turn Bo in. You did the right thing," Kendra explained trying to dance around the fact that Bo and her were now lovers.
"Really. No way I am that soft," Tamsin shot back taking a big gulp from the bottle, but it sounded somewhat plausible. She did kind of like Bo although she liked admiring Bo from a distance.
"Ask your sister Arin," Kendra replied.
"FINE. OK if I am fallen then HOW do I have powers still?" Tamsin asked following up.
"Bo gave you some limited powers back in addition to the Xanther rune you are wearing which boosts it," Kendra smirked and took another swig of beer.
"Bo can't even wield her powers correctly and not to mention, no one except gods like Odin and Freya can give a Valkyrie her powers. Tell me a new one. Bo told me that she couldn't even transfer her chi to me." Tamsin huffed out a laugh.
"Bo is a Demi-God blood daughter to Odin and as such had some ability to grant you powers. She saved you Tamsin. You were human and severely injured in a raid I led taking down 200+ shifters. You took down 50+ yourself. Bo was able to save you in your death bed by turning into some glowing red deep voiced demon I guess is the best way to describe it," Kendra further explained.
"OK and Bo would do that for a fallen Valkyrie? Gods she's gotta stop play hero all the time. *IF* I saved her by not returning her to Odin and I became fallen, that is my prerogative. But here she is thinking she owed me some debt. Stupid succubus," Tamsin huffed out a laugh rolling her eyes.
"Tamsin, Bo felt guilty for sending you on a mission to find Lauren. When Lauren went missing, Bo got worried and needed to find her. You transferred to my precinct to canvas human only regions since you were human and outside Fae laws at the time. We ran into some Fae drug dealers who worked for Grizzal in the course of trying finding her," Kendra clarified.
"So what, I took an assignment WHILE I was human for Bo, combed human only regions for months risking my fragile life for a bunch of hum… PEOPLE at your precinct… with no Fae backup. Is that about right Kendra?" Tamsin summarized.
Kendra just nodded and stated, "If you don't believe me…"
"Yea yea yea, ask Arin. Fine. But later. So if I am not one of Bo's thralls and not on drugs. Then doing good deeds like curing people I could care less about, getting more friends. What the heck happened in a couple months? Did becoming human fuck me up that bad? Like what? Did I like fall head over heals in love with Bo to make me do all this crazy shit?" Tamsin asked scrunching her face grasping for straws.
"Yes." Kendra quickly replied in a terse manner.
Tamsin's jaw just dropped.
"Don't play with me huma…. KENDRA, Yes to what?" Tamsin asked leaning forward with attentiveness.
"You fell in love with Bo," Kendra clarified.
There was a silence that loomed over them as Tamsin was trying to sort out fact from fiction.
"This is NOT a fucking joke ok Kendra? There is NO WAY I fell for a mark. Not turning her over to Bo is one thing and that is a BIG if but, falling in LOVE. IMPOSSIBLE. I'm a Valkyrie part of Odin's best," Tamsin raised her voice with iron clad assurance in addition to getting annoyed.
"Loooove…. Yuck," Tamsin then murmured doing an exaggerated gagging motion.
Kendra just stared at her never flinching with a slight grin.
"FINE, I KNOW. Ask Arin." Tamsin finally huffed out doing an eye roll.
'ARIN. Did I fall for a mark AND don't jerk me around got it?' Tamsin communicated closing her eyes briefly.
Arin was in a shower and she just smiled knowing that her sister was going to have a cow knowing the full truth.
'Yes sister, you fell in love with Bo, the goddess of the new order. She loves you too. Also emmmm both of you are bonded in some fashion even in your fallen state,' Arin said via the link in all seriousness.
'I told you *NOT* to jerk me around Arin. Now I want the truth from you sister to sister,' Tamsin thought back frustrated.
'You gave her your fealty. Both of you fell madly in love with one another, you can feel each other's emotional states too especially when they go to extremes,' Arin rebutted.
Tamsin concentrated on Bo not believing Arin but found it was natural as breathing to sense her. She felt Bo. She was happy, sad, worried and a little aroused all at the same time. The last part was pretty much a given since she was a succubus.
Tamsin couldn't believe it, but it was true. Lauren was actually serious about them being 'star crossed lovers.' 'Crap the doc scored one on me and I didn't even know it,' she thought to herself making a mental note to get her back later.
Tamsin resigned to just hide her face behind hands and a now empty beer bottle.
"Kendra, does Lauren have something stronger than this horse piss?" Tamsin mumbled in defeat trying to grasp everything she just heard.
"Sure Terminator, let me see if I can get you something more to your linking but not too much, you were stone drunk when you seduced Bo to get into bed with you. I heard that started off your relationship quite quickly I might add," Kendra stated as a fact and got up to go to the bar.
Tamsin still covered her face. This was just too much. She wanted to pinch herself but deep down, she knew it was true since Arin and Kendra and even Lauren were singing the same tune.
Kendra was still trying to get her way around the bar when Tamsin spoke from across the room.
"Kendra, seriously, I came on to Bo and Bo crumbled to me?" Tamsin finally removed the hands covering he face like curtains parting.
"Yes. When you became human, you got drunk a lot easier and well, Bo wasn't looking since she was still thinking about Lauren from what Kenzi told me. You somehow changed her mind and the rest as they say is history." Kendra mentioned pouring some vodka shots.
Tamsin decided to deflect since she had no idea how she overpowered Bo in her own field of expertise. "Wow, goes to show, ya don't mess with a Valkyrie," Tamsin sang out seeing Kendra walk over with the shots in hand.
Tamsin thought it was a good time to check her phone downing the caustic shot.
Mid gulp she accessed her pictures and the first one that came up was of Bo in the cargo container buck naked on HER cot.
Tamsin almost got charged with alcohol abuse since she almost spat it back out but forcefully gulped it down and coughed several times in succession instead.
"ARE YOU OK?!" Kendra exclaimed worried.
Tamsin was still in a coughing fit and just pointed to her phone showing Kendra what was on her screen to satisfy her that at least a Doctor was not necessary at this time.
Kendra looked over to Tamsin's phone and just laughed boisterously falling into the back rest of the couch. She never saw that photo before, but the reaction Tamsin had was just too funny to pass up.
After Tamsin calmed down and chose to relock her phone, she just chuckled too, "OK, Kendra, I will look over the contents of my phone later."
"Yes, that would be good, Terminator." Kendra said still calming down from laughing.
"You called me Terminator a couple times now. Is that my call sign?" Tamsin asked.
"Yes, my team gave it to you. To them, you are unstoppable and revered. You did a lot of good for the team and we are all indebted to you," Kendra mentioned sincerely.
"Can you tell me more about it?" Tamsin asked scrunching her face.
Kendra was more than happy to fill her in the often time hilarious stories and moments with the team. Tamsin found out that she did have a family at the 69th. She was characterized by the caring of others she never imaged. She knew being fallen she had only a little time left, but to do what Kendra said she did for the team. It was a Tamsin not even she could fathom.
Too bad she couldn't remember a thing. No wonder Kendra was her sister. Kendra and even the team backed her up when it came to her mission and they did so without question.
Tamsin had earned it.
They spent the rest time laughing. Kendra also helped Tamsin fill in some of the information regarding her and Dyson and developments at the 39th.
Tamsin was happy for Kendra. She found her place in the Fae world and Dyson was her lover and there was no better person than him to guide her.
"So Tamsin, I want to let you know that you can return to Bo and she will heal you and you will be able to remember everything most likely. She will also be able to heal your physical injuries like your dislocated left arm," Kendra offered changing tact.
Tamsin thought about it for a moment and responded, "No. If my final mission is to return Lauren to Bo and make them an item again with me only have limited time left here, it would be best that I part this way. If I did fall for Bo, I can't afford to get overly attached because I … I won't be able to move on….. Bo won't either….. I …. I guess this is a good thing," Tamsin confessed looking away from Kendra.
"Tamsin, you may get your memory back, just give it time. Bo will see you next weekend. Just… just don't be too hard on her ok? I don't like her that much either because of the fact she can steal Dyson at any time, but she really truly cares for you," Kendra informed putting hand on Tamsin's knee for reassurance.
"Yea," Tamsin said languidly, "In the meantime, if I don't drink 24x7 then what do I do to pass time?"
Kendra smiled and pulled her up out of the chair. "Let me show you."
They both walked into what looked like a back room and workshop of sorts and there in the middle of a work bench sat square in the middle of table was a Russian Dragonov semi-automatic sniper rifle. It was heavily modified with a collapsible polymer stock, beautifully engravings of a dragon on the shiny grey upper, a barrel that looked custom, probably with a tighter threading for more accuracy. The knife for the bayonet was still in the process of being engraved no doubt by her.
This rifle was not for her she quickly deduced but for someone else special judging from the design, its beauty without being too flashy, elegance, and simplicity of function. It was for Bo.
"You know you already gave Bo a Glock and body armor and she RAVES about it to Kenzi all the time. Here," Kendra said pulling out her phone and going through the photos, "Ahhhh here is it. Look at this."
Tamsin was flattered and disappointed at the same time. It was a picture of Kenzi and Bo posing fully armed and very dangerous. Tamsin loved the Glock Bo had with a red upper and olive green lower posed in western style draw pretending to blow the smoke off the tip of the barrel. The leather vest was so like Bo but had better coverage which was not like Bo, but Tamsin assumed she put the bullet proof material inside the lining of the vest. It needed to be zipped all the way up thought to have maximum affect Tamsin noted but Bo was Bo, always flaunting her assets. The disappointing part was that it looked like she gave away Stalingrad to Kenzi. Kenzi's was kneeing on one knee next to Bo taking aim with Stalingrad with a dirty harry expression.
"Great. Didn't know I did shop class all for Bo," Tamsin mumbled to herself.
"Now only if I could find a way to keep Dyson," Kendra stated also to herself.
"Kendra, you have Dyson and Lauren and I have Bo so no worries, K," Tamsin said with a click picking up the rifle and checking it action which was impressively precise and smooth.
"Well not really that, I just past my prime and will only get grey, frail and old all the while Dyson and Bo and well most other Fae have longer life spans," Kendra said sitting down on a stool deep in thought.
"You see Tamsin," Kendra looked down, "Dyson wants me to be his life mate and he made a motion to the dire wolf council as such. When that happens he can never go back to Bo. That is fine, but I need to be there for him and I have a human life span. I'll just got old I'll be gone in a blink of an eye. He can't control his hormones around me for now, but when I get older, will he still love me and desire me? I know he will still love me, but unless I find the fountain of youth, I don't know if I can keep his desire strong."
Tamsin felt odd, Kendra was spewing out relationship detail and assumed that she gave good advice before, but how can she if what didn't know what love what really since she forgot everything.
Tamsin concentrated and offered, "Kendra, if you want him to desire you, you give him something that will never fade with time. Do you have a special talent you do that isn't dependent on your youth?"
"Well Eric taught me card and parlor tricks, and ummm I can sing somewhat. I grew up as a child prodigy but couldn't quite hit the notes I needed to. The Ave Maria is what got me. I also got nervous with large crowds and I would choke up." Kendra smiled unsure about her skills.
"Ohhhhh the Ave Maria. Gods how SECULAR. Well then, YOU are in luck. I can help you Kendra. I use to sing with my sisterhood in my former life times. So I got a rifle to fix up and lots of time with you. Shall we get started?" Tamsin asked with a click getting Kendra to stand up.
Tamsin started to tutor Kendra on how to sing the Ave Maria. It required a good vocal range, but Kendra actually had a great signing voice, it just need practice and refinement.
The rest of the week Kendra and Tamsin were inseparable. They built each other up. Kendra helped bring Tamsin up to speed in addition to helping her with the Dragonov. Tamsin tutored Kendra working on her pitch and vocal range.
Tamsin did get text messages from Bo during the remainder of the week and she just responded as nice as she could. After looking over her phone, she knew she owned the succubus but if she couldn't feel love or have the background on their relationship, it was kind of hard to connect to Bo. Sure Bo was hot in Tamsin's mind, but love required more.
Lauren did her best to keep Tamsin's human body working and monitored her progress. She was healing slowly even for human standards, which told her that Tamsin didn't have much time left. Her treatments helped but Lauren tried hard to stop Tamsin's inevitable demise like she did for Bo to satiate her hunger. Lauren still cared for Tamsin even though they had their differences. Lauren knew that even now, Tamsin was still on mission and she would complete it to her detriment and that is that kept Lauren in her corner. Not so much that she will be reunited with Bo, but more so of the fact that Tamsin was doing the right thing.
The weekend came and Tamsin obeyed Lauren's recommendations to stay out of the training exercises with the Burning Cypress clan and at the end of the day, Kendra and Tamsin decided it was time to put Kendra's voice to the test and practice in a chapel.
She did well Tamsin noted and no longer needed her mentoring and therefore sang with her on the second verse.
All was going well for both Tamsin and Kendra.
Kendra was happy that with Tamsin's help, she was able to sing again and be able to sing for Dyson. Tamsin gave her a gift that would never fade with time and she was extremely grateful.
Tamsin liked the respite of not being with the gang. She needed to forget her woes of her mission and her human condition. She still had not gotten her memories back, but it was ok, she had another week. At least she could stall Bo via text message and tell her she was busy which always worked.
The bliss was interrupted when Tamsin heard a familiar voice which made her heart jump.
"LAUREN!" Bo exclaimed from the floor below.
Tamsin and Kendra both looked at the scene unfolding before them and for Tamsin, she found Bo beautiful as always, but Lauren lunged forward and kissed Bo.
Tamsin didn't know what to feel, but knew her mission was now complete.
She needed to move on now and mumbled, "Mission accomplished. My final one," and proceeded to walk away stealthily.
Tamsin all of a sudden remembered briefly an image of Bo and her kissing together and it had all the feelings she had for Bo. It was pure love. A tear unintentionally fell from her eyes feeling the loss.
Just before the steps, she felt a dull pain in her heart. It was the bond. It was still active!