Following chapter is (probably) M rated for sexual innuendos just to be safe.
If you don't want to read it, you can skip without losing track of the plot; It's just the conclusion to the previous chapter.
Enjoy. xx
"I will never lie to you." he blurted out. "And I would never-" I took his hand. "I would never use my… my… thing on you."
His stuttering was incredibly amiable but I couldn't hold back a chuckle. 'Childish!', I scolded my thoughts.
"What?" He asked bewildered and leaned back as if he could see better this way. He probably frowned.
I cringed because of my stupidity of ruining this moment.
I felt my cheeks burn with embarrassment. "What you said."
"What is so funny about that?" He sounded agitated and his hand turned sweaty. Or was it mine?
Now it was on me to stutter. I almost couldn't take the heat on my face. "You said you would never use your thing on me." My voice was barely audible and a big part of me hoped he wouldn't understand what I had said.
I silently swore myself never to be this childish again while he rightfully treated me with silence. My heart raced more than when he had kissed me.
Then a light snicker turned into a louder laugh in his throat and he picked me off from the ground just enough to kiss me. I didn't know what to do. As a reflex because I lost my stability, I wrapped my arms around his neck. He didn't break the kiss when he laid me down into the soft straw and positioned himself on top of me.
I had lied. My heart was beating just as fast right now.
I felt his weight on my hips and on my lungs. I was instantly out of breath, but didn't care. It was a weird combination of not knowing what to do with my arms and legs while also not really wanting to think about it. When he licked my lips during a kiss, everything was lost. My brain blanked and I couldn't even feel my fingertips anymore. I seemed to just disappear or get lost in him.
He reminded me of my body again, when he caressed the thigh of my right leg that I had somehow tucked up so he could lie between my legs more comfortably. I couldn't remember when I had done it, but my blanked brain somehow still knew what to do. It seemed like the correct thing one does. I felt his heat radiating on my inner thigh and torso. Breathless kissing.
I had just found a good way to use my tongue in a kiss when he separated his lips from mine, only to kiss my cheek and down to my neck. When an overly-defined sigh escaped my mouth, I opened my eyes in shock, hoping he hadn't notice my weird noise. An absurd hope because his ear was close to my mouth. At least he didn't seem to mind.
His lips still kissing down to my collarbone and up again. Spending an incredible amount of time on the part where my chin and my neck met. I didn't yet know if I liked it or not. I was still too busy with being embarrassed. He shifted to balance on his other leg more and it sent tingles through my veins, enough to make me suck in breath. I felt him smile against my skin. Right before I closed my eyes again, I saw the stars dancing over our bodies in faint light. Simply breathing didn't seem enough anymore to deal with my emotions. Words didn't seem to be it but also not just silence. I wasn't brave enough to figure it out.
Patrick stopped kissing my neck but I still felt his breath on my ear.
"I would do it right now with you if you'd want me to." He muttered under his breath, panting from having to support himself on his elbows or something else. Tingles again. To stop myself from blushing, I opened my eyes and turned my face to his. Different thoughts. Nothing was being done tonight. Nothing at all.
He still had his eyes closed, head laid down partly on his own arm and partly on my shoulder while I couldn't figure out how to bring my breathing and heart rate down again.
"You're heavy." I managed to utter and instantly he rolled off of me, grinning. His eyes were reading me, taking every inch of my face in.
"And you're beautiful when you blush." He said, picking straw out of my hair and afterwards caressing my cheek with his thumb while his hand gently rested on my jaw.