After Shane defeating Murney, he started helping everyone in the family.
Zoe with her driving lessons.
Lulu and the Fireflies with self-defense lessons.
Seth and his play as a director.
He was better now at singing and dancing the Peter Panda song and changing diapers.
And not but less important...
"No way" I said with a frown, refusing him going to come with me at my session.
"Somehow they don't help you control your anger, Lexi" Shane said, closing the trunk of the minivan as the last box of cookies was loaded.
"Baby steps, Shane" I said sheepishly, shrugging a shoulder, "Baby steps"
Shane ignored me, "Come on"
Shane started to walk toward the small gym my meetings were held.
I followed behind, quickly, "Please" I said, hands pressed together as if praying to him to listen to me, "Don't do this. They... They're gonna get angry if a stranger comes" However, Shane ignored my pleading and as soon as we entered, my eyes fell on a pastry table in the middle of the room, cringing, murmuring under my breath "Woah. They really want another food fight, don't they?"
My mmanager was in the middle of the room, trying to get everyone to get quiet as everyone was fighting, verbally with everyone.
Shane looked around, frowning. "Is this process?"
I crossed my arms, leaning against the wall, giving him a look. "We have our moments"
"That's going to change" Shane said to me.
I snickered, giving him an humorous look, "Yeah, right. You're going to struggle first at getting everyone to shut up. And then even more to get one of us to start speaking first" I twirled a strand of my hair as Shane surveyed the room, hands behind his back, "Our manager usually takes another fifteen minutes so we can finally talk. Everyone gets angrier on these meetings than on their houses"
"Not on my watch" Shane pointed at me before going to the center of the gym gaining the attention of my manager.
Mark glared at Shane and with a 'go ahead' gesture he backed away, almost fuming with anger.
Yeah. I knew he wouldn't last as our manager. He was the third on this past two months.
"Attention! Everybody!" Shane called out with authority.
I raised my eyebrows in amusement as Chad and Vanessa looked Shane up and down before continuing arguing.
Shane frowned, looking at me.
I smirked with a shrug, mouthing at him, "Told you so" Shane's frown deepened slightly, slowly looking down at the pastry table, then up to the wall as if considering something. I frowned in confusion as he picked up a muffin, "What are you doing, soldier man?"
Suddenly, Shane threw the muffin against a wall. Hard. The sound echoed though the entire gym that it got everyone to fall into a stunned silence, flinching, looking his way.
I gaped in surprise.
Everyone was silent now.
No one had succeeded on shutting us the fuck up in less than five minutes...
Wow.
"The hell?!" Chad was the first one to glare at Shane.
Shane looked unfazed before looking at me, "You were saying?" he asked, tilting his head aside "Fiffteen minutes?"
I felt everyone's eyes on me.
I pursed my lips, pushing against the wall to straighten up, walking closer, "Well, managing everyone to shut up its one thing. But getting them to talk?" I pointed at the group, raising my eyebrows, "Have you ever coached an anger management session before?"
"No" Shane answered making some of us to chuckle "But I know how to deal with anger" My smirk faltered a bit. What? Shane clapped his hands once before facing everyone on the little gym, placing his hands behind his back, pacing slowly in front of us, "Now, you all have on thing in common. You're angry, you can't control that anger and you have the need to let it go and you end up using physical force. Am I correct?"
Shane looked at each one of us in our eyes.
I shifted my weight to my right leg as I looked down crossing my arms, knowing he was right.
Even Chad looked away with a small huff, some others were avoiding eye contact.
"Not true, bald man" Vanessa spoke gesturing all of us "We don't have a problem. Everyone else thinks we have a problem" I nodded slightly in agreement. She shrugged, "No one can accept we're like this so they treat us like they want"
Shane frowned before noticing I was agreeing. "Alexia come on in here" he instructed, pointing at his side. I didn't move, looking at him defiantly "Now"
I sighed in annoyance, walking toward him under Chad's wolfy whistles.
"Shut the fuck up or I'll force your hand to go where the sun doesn't shine for you" I growled at him.
Shane raised his eyebrows in amusement at my threat as I reached his side.
Everyone was watching either in boredom or curiosity.
"So you don't have a problem, huh?" Shane asked.
I shrugged before crossing my arms, "I don't"
Shane nodded skeptically, "I think you do. All of you do" he said looking at all of us, then back at me, seriously "Accept it"
I rolled my eyes at the way he ordered us.
"Aren't you gonna start all the crap about how being angry is a negative emotion and affects our chi or whatever?" Alex spoke with a scowl. He had two more months than I did going to this therapy
"No, I'm not" Shane said, shaking his head. "Because you are gonna think what makes you angry. We're gonna start over there"
I looked surprised, "What?" I voiced what everyone else was thinking, frowning, "That's not the whole point of this therapy thing"
"The point is let go of your anger so we can talk" Shane pointed out.
"Screw you" I glared at him, angrily.
"That's right" Shane nodded "Get your anger out. You never agreed on my presence on your house, you told your mother you didn't want me there, but she still ignored you and still welcomed me to your home. I invaded all your and your siblings lives making changes and ruining your weekends"
Witch each word Shane was saying, more anger was raising up making me clench my hands into fists until I snapped, raising my leg trying to kick between his legs but just like the first time, he saw it coming and caught my leg mid air.
"Fuck you" I growled as he threw my leg back down and as soon as he did, I tried to punch him with my right hook, sadly not working as he again caught my fist, gladly not using strength to do any harm like he had done with Murney.
The thought of Murney fulfilled my anger again and with my other hand I tried to punch him but Shane caught my hand with his other one. I struggled wanting my hands back but Shane didn't even move.
I growled angrily, kicking my leg up going to kick his abdomen but he jumped back, suddenly spinning me around and pulling me towards him, hugging my hands to my body, restraining me over there for a few minutes.
I struggled endlessly on his grip until all my energy left me making me fall to the ground, breathing heavily. My muscles relaxed after my pent up anger left me, weirdly enough starting to feel better.
"Lexi?" Shane asked while slowly letting go of my hands and standing up. I took deep breaths trying to calm myself, slowly looking up and behind me to Shane "Are you okay?"
I shook my head in a positive gesture, speaking quietly "I'm not angry right now if that's what you mean"
Shane knelt in front of me "Ready to talk about what makes you angry the most?"
"Murney" I spoke without thinking about it. My heartbeat and breathing slowly steadying "He treats me, Seth and Zoe like crap. He humiliated my sister because she hadn't approved Driver's Ed yet. Jake... I swear he makes me go crazy with anger where I want to kick his ass...badly" that made some people to chuckle in surprise. Not for me wanting to hit Jake but me being the first one to talk. My eyes filled with tears as I thought of another person I was angry with, but I didn't mention it "I hate and it really makes me angry that everyone at home treats me differently because they don't want me getting angry that affects how they interact with me. I'm not allowed to even drive" I said with a watery chuckle, wiping my tears with the back of my hand. Shane sighed slowly, looking at me with sympathy "I'm not even allowed to... tell them how I really feel because they confuse my opening up as if I'm going to get angry and they avoid my chic flick moments. I wouldn't be angry if it weren't for..." I stopped abruptly, not wanting to admit yet that indeed my father was the one to cause my anger issues "I hate being angry all the time" I said finally admitting what Shane wanted me to. "I have anger problems and I hate it and ironically that makes me angry. I want it to stop"
I didn't cry more, only the few silent tears falling down my cheeks.
"How do you feel now Lexi?" Shane asked, softly, giving me a few moments to recover.
"Honestly" I said laughing slightly "I feel like... A blossom flower with no fucking problems bothering me"
