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"You ripped him a new one darling , bit harsh?" Jax mumbled as I approached the doors to TM.

"Nah he's fine" I shot back.

"Hey can you take me home now" I realised what I said and corrected myself "I mean back to Ma's"

Jax nodded and said "Its always gonna be home darlin" he then disappeared back through the doors telling the guys where he was heading.

We both walked out of the clubhouse to Jax's Harley and he hopped on passing me his spare helmet. I chuckled and looked at it , reminiscing on the times so long ago that I lived care free. That I didn't consume myself with a schedule. A time more simpler. I stopped day dreaming and jumped on the bike wrapping my arms around Jax , as tight as I could.

Jax knew how free I felt on the bike. Jax knew how much I loved riding so a drive that took 10 minutes max to Gemmas he turned into an hour ride , stopping in at JTs grave site. We said hello and goodbye to his old man and jumped back onto the bike.

Jax and I eventually reached Gemma's and she stood in the door way smoking a cigarette looking pissed off. "Where the fuck were you two , Bobby said you left 2 hours ago???"

" Hey ma" Jax smirked giving Gemma a kiss on the cheek.

"sorry ma , you know I love riding. Jax took me for ride around out to the old falls just out of town"

"baby i dont wanna know what you were riding " Gemma chuckled

She could never stay mad so she welcomed me in with open arms.

Gemma pulled me aside as we walked in.

"you need to be there for him. He is spinning out of control. You are his safe haven."

I nodded at Gemma

"That's what family does" I replied sternly with a soft smile.

Gemma pulled dinner out of the oven and Jax and I tucked into the casserole , mash potato and greens Gemma cooked. I cleaned up and went to head for the room I used to sleep in. I said good night and stole a shirt Jax used to live in and laid on the bed , before I knew it I woke suddenly at 3 am needing a drink. I must have been tired I think I was snoring and woke myself up. I was a bit groggy but remembered where I was and headed toward the kitchen. I Heard heavy breathing and slinked into the lounge seeing Jax sleeping peacefully.

I loved watching him sleep not in a creepy way but i knew that His dreams were forgiving and it was the only place he wasn't judged. He wasn't a VP , he wasn't running guns and he got everything he desired... Her.

I watched for a wee while longer and walked back into the kitchen for a glass of water. Peering back over my shoulder Jax woke up and whispered "E is that you?"

I poured Jax a drink and walked back. Retracing my steps.

silently , i passed Jax his drink and sat on his legs Sinking back into the couch and swung my legs so I was stradling him loosely and laying on his legs resting my head on the arm rest. We spoke about high school and my family. We then moved subject to The one he loves. The one that ran away and left me to pick up the pieces. I went quiet and pretended to snore so Jax would shut the fuck up and thinking quietly about the bitch.

I woke up to a soft light peering through the open curtain and heard a faint knocking at the door. Jax pepped up and scrambled for his piece.

"wow drama queen I'll go and have a look see who it is first before we pull up on em, k" I quizzed Jax laughing.

My laugh turned into a low growl when I saw who was knocking.

"What the fuck do you want Tara"

Tara cocked her eyebrow and huffed at me. I saw red and all I wanted to do was lose it.

"I said what the fuck do you want" I bellowed louder this time.

" I'm here to speak with Jax about his son and the baby's mother "

Before I could reply Jax was behind me along with Gemma.

"something wrong with the kid?" Jax Asked Gripping me aroung the waist - A natural reaction for us both.

"I'd like it if we could speak privately" Tara asked.

Jax Nodded and lead Tara to the steps by his motorbike .

Gemma took my hand and we sat at the table.

"Clay said hes gonna join me along with sack. Why don't you go with Jax to see The baby?"

I was contemplating my next move when the sound of the door slamming and Dads cutlass pulling out of the driveway pulled me back to reality.

Gemma and I both look at Jax expecting the worst.

"Abels doing good. Doctor's are happy with his recovery but Wendy's in a bad way. Darlin think you can come with me to talk to Wendy?" Jax pleaded.

"Jax you know she hated me. I won't be much help ... I'm the midst of my sentence when I saw his face drop so I quickly recantered and said a simple "yes"

Jax lit up so I quickly hurried a shower and clothes change.

Pulling up to St Thomas Jax saw Tara again and from what I saw carried on a conversation from many many years ago. He was getting closer and she was pulling away.

I walked into the hospital and made my way to Abel , I asked the nurse in the room where Wendy Case Teller was and she pointed me to ward 4B room 18.

"Hey wendy" I whispered.

Wendy woke and asked what I was doing in her room.

"Tara said you weren't doing so well with Abel and everything that's happened. I kinda just wanted to extend myself and see if you were okay"

"E - I don't know what you're trying to achieve but you being here is just insulting. I can't see my son and you're probably going to swoop in like your slut sister and play mommy to my baby" Wendy shouted at me.

I understood her frustration and I tried to keep my cool but before knew it I had wrapped my hands around her throat.

Wendy was gasping for air scratching at my hands before I let go and fell back towards the door.

"He doesn't fucking love me Wendy" I screeched and ran off , out through the hospital rooms and back into the lobby.

Jax grabbed me around my shoulders and his face was overtaken with concern

"E what's going on"

"Nothing I just , seeing Wendy spooked me."

Tara walked past Jax and grabbed his kutte - smiling while doing so and he kissed her cheek.

I Looked up at Jackson and stared at him "So you're back in with my sister. Suppose were going to be in-laws now" I scoffed , clearly showing just how Jealous and twisted I was at their "reunion"

"E , she helped save Abels life. I owe her alot. You know I love her. I will always love her. I fucked my way through this life. Every time i was inside someone she was inside my head " Jax choked out.

I took a deep breath and regained my composure. I refused to let anyone see me weak so with a smile I replied. "You two are meant for eachother. I really hope it works out for you both this time"

I walked out of the hospital knowing Id regret pushing him back into her arms. i need to just go home and get back to me and my routine. Guilt swept over me about Wendy and i knew right then and there I've got to bury this bitch im becoming. I wasn't going to let Tara win again.