I'll always be a part of you

by JayJayJahnaiahxo

Elias is a stubborn , sassy , vivacious woman with a strong sense of will and shes battling a love so deep. She knows the rules, She abides by them. She is Gemmas girl. She will take The crown when the queen dies. She is The daughter she never had. She is by chance also Tara's excommunicated younger sister.

7. Aftermath

It had been a while since i had last seen Jax , at the point i was just on high alert so i could actively avoid him.

i had written , typed and even voiced out loud what i would say when i saw him next. The last few weeks had been a rollercoaster of emotions almost as if i was in detox. I was weak , i was sick , i was restless , i was wasn't hungry and most of all .. i was caught up on someone who clearly did not respect or love me enough to choose me , as narcissistic as that sounds i don't mean over his own flesh and blood but i mean as the woman he was supposed to love.

I needed to come to terms with the fact i was second and that was okay because there was nothing wrong with me.. however apart of me has and always will love Jackson Teller.

i was working a graveyard shift as i needed to pick up more because of all the time i had recently had off. I had seen glimpses of him but never put myself in the position to be cornered or even seen by him. It was peaceful. It was tranquil , in my mind and in life but my heart decided it hated me and constantly thumped when ever he was mentioned in passing or even whispers in the wind.

It was about time to knock off when boss man advised he was heading home for an emergency and i needed to lock up. I was cool with it, i had been opening and closing the diner since i was a minor. No big deal. As i had finished locking up i heard an all too familiar rumble. I quickly ran to my car , opened the door and jumped in starting the car as i threw my handbag in the backseat. i made sure to lock the door and "tap tap tap" i can feel his baby blue eyes drilling a hole in the top of my head because i refused to look up.

"so you leave me at TM , cut contact for weeks , dodge my calls and avoid me , E?" he angrily whispered. "And now you're completely ignoring me?"

All i heard from my internal dialogue was " Drive. Drive now. You have come so far. YOU. ARE. WORTH. FUCKING. MORE." I was frozen. It was world of the worlds in the pit of my soul...

"Jax , i never.. " I muttered as i tried regaining control over the internal battle. "I didn't fucking start this. I didn't fucking cause this" I exploded. " YOU DID" i then stomped on the gas and floored it out of the car park before i broke and reclaimed the pathetic piece of meat i was left to be when he broke me.

I. AM. WOMAN.