*Chapter contains sensitive topics*

Ana

"I'm nervous, Christian," I fidget in my seat.

Christian and I are at the doctor's office sitting in front of Doctor Greene's desk, waiting for the results. It has been a few weeks since the embryo transfer, and today we find out if we are pregnant or not. I came into the office a few days ago to get a blood test, and the results have just come back this morning.

The procedure was really draining, and our savings is now gone. I hope that the method was successful because we can't afford to do another round of treatment.

"I know, baby. Me too," Christian gives me a small smile and squeezes my hand.

Doctor Greene walks into her office twenty minutes later. She sits down at her desk and gives us a small sympathetic smile. My hopes suddenly fall as well as Christian's when we see her tenderhearted expression.

"I have just received the results of your blood test, and unfortunately, it was negative. I'm very sorry. We do have another option to continue another embryo transfer and of course, we have the payment plan if that is something you want to talk about?" she explains politely.

Christian lets my hand go and leans forward and stares down at his lap dejected. All the time money we have put into this treatment, it didn't work, and it was all for nothing.

I whimper, and my head falls forward as my tears flow down my cheeks. Doctor Greene stops talking when she sees me crying and explains softly that she will give us a moment alone. On her way out, she gives my shoulder a gentle squeeze before closing the door softly.

Christian takes me into his arms as I cover my face with my hands as my tears continue to flow down my cheeks. He tries to whisper in my ear that everything is going to be alright, but right now, I don't know if it's ever going to be.

Two days later

It has been a few days since we found out the embryo transfer wasn't successful and to say I am heartbroken, would be an understatement. We left Doctor Greene's office after about an hour of going over the other options we have available to us. We can't afford anything else other than taking the Clomid again or just stop trying to conceive all together for a while.

After several days of constant tears from both of us, and over an hour of discussion, Christian and I decided to take some time off from trying. We both can't handle any more disappointment, and we just want to put this behind us for the time being and just concentrate on other things.

Doctor Greene suggested we continued further treating my PCOS and gave me the option of starting birth control, but I declined. I just want to forget about pregnancy and having a baby for awhile.

Christian also agreed since he still has been having troubles at work, and he has been more stressed out because of it. I'm worried about him because he's been getting home late these last few days and when I try to talk to him about it, he blows it off and says it just usual work stuff.

The last school bell rings, and the students pile out of the room. I sigh and pack up my belongings, turn off the light and leave my classroom.

I see the new math teacher, Leila, in the hallway talking to one of her students. She spots me in the hallway and waves before saying goodbye to the student. She smiles at me as she heads towards me. I stare in longing at her pregnant belly for a second before shaking my head and smiling at her. Get a grip!

Leila and I have been talking ever since I met her at the doctors' office. She is actually a very sweet girl. She was at the doctor's office to see her friend, Kate, who she met a few days after she moved here. Kate was one of the nurses that works in Doctor Greene's office. Leila introduced us, and the three of us have been friends ever since.

Leila moved here from Seattle because the father of her baby broke up with her when she found out she was pregnant. He didn't want anything to do with her or the baby, so she decided she needed a fresh start, and wanted to move somewhere else. She received the job offer at the school a few months later when the original math teacher, Sarah, moved due to her husband's job transferred them to Germany.

Kate has become a good friend as well. Leila met Kate in town one afternoon after she moved here and has been friends since. Kate and her family moved to North Bend the summer after I went off to college, and she attended nursing school and moved back here a few years later.

Kate has a bubbly personality with her big green eyes and strawberry blonde hair. I confided in her a few weeks ago about our fertility struggle and as a nurse she gives me advice when I need it, and a shoulder to cry on when I am feeling down. She is really turning out to be a good friend which I could use right now with everything going on in our personal life.

Christian

I park my truck in the school's parking lot. I wanted to surprise Ana by picking her up from work and taking her out to dinner.

It's been incredibly stressful with all this pregnancy stuff; I wanted to try to get her mind off everything that has been going on. The garage is still struggling, so I'm also looking forward to a nice evening out.

I sigh and finish off my cigarette before flicking it out the window. I get out of my truck and look around the parking lot to see multiple parents waiting for their kids to get out of school. Several women stare at me while they are parked in line waiting for their kids to walk out. Some of them wave and some blatantly check out my ass as I walk by causing me to roll my eyes slightly.

I'm not wearing my usual work clothes. Instead, I threw on a pair of nice jeans and a black button-up shirt. My long hair is slicked back with gel, and I'm clean shaven. I know Ana is going to do a double take when she sees me since she loves my usual stubble, white shirt, and dirty jeans. It's not every day that I get dressed up unless for a special occasion or a date night, which haven't been a regular occurrence here lately. I would like to change that by taking out my wife more often.

Kids walk past me as I head down the hallway towards my wife's classroom. Leila, I think her name is, comes walking out of Ana's door staring down at her watch. She see's me causing her to smile and wave. I nod at her as she walks towards me.

"Hi, Christian. Ana is just talking to one of her students about a paper. She didn't tell me you were dropping by?" she explains as she rubs her stomach.

I look down at her hand that is busy rubbing her baby bump causing me to swallow thickly. "Yeah, she doesn't know I'm here. Want to surprise her with dinner," I clear my throat.

"That's sweet. I'm sure she will love that," she smiles and tucks her hair behind her ears.

"Hope so," I smile tightly at her. We stand there in awkward silence for a few seconds before she breaks the silence.

"Oh, hey. Listen, I know you are a mechanic. I'm having trouble with my car here lately, is there any way you can look at it for me? Ana said you wouldn't mind?" she said while nervously twisting her fingers in front of her.

I clear my throat again and nod at her. "Sure. You can drop it by the garage, or I can come to you. Whichever you prefer."

"Thank you. I can drop it off at the garage, that's no problem. I know there is a newer one in town, but I prefer the local businesses instead of those bigger corporate ones," she rolls her eyes.

I give her a small smile. "Well, we truly appreciate your business. I have a spot available this Saturday or Monday," I mentally go through my schedule for the next few days.

"I don't have too much to do this weekend, so Saturday is perfect. Noon okay?" she beams.

"That's fine. I'll see you then," I smile back and run my hand through my hair.

"Great. Thank you, I really appreciate you looking at it. It's been driving me nuts," she says in relief, and I nod my head.

She suddenly clutches her stomach causing me to touch her arm in concern reactively. "Are you okay?"

"Oh my, God. I think the baby just kicked," she says up at me in shock.

My eyes widen and look towards her stomach. She suddenly giggles and cups her bump. "She did it again. She kicked," she beams up at me, and I can't help but smile.

"I'm sorry. This is the first time I felt something. Oh, my, that was a strong one," she giggles again and rubs her stomach.

Before I know what, I'm doing, I blurt out, "May I?" I point towards her stomach.

She looks up at me and smiles. "Of course, you can," she smiles and places my hand on her belly.

My eyes widen in wonder when I feel a slight kick against my hand. I look at her stomach in awe and smile softly when the baby kicks my hand again. "Wow," I say mesmerized by the several little kicks against my palm.

Ana

"Thank you so much, Mrs. Grey," Miranda smiles at me in relief when I finish explaining a question she had on one of her papers.

"Your welcome. I'll see you on Monday," I smile and gather my things; so that I can leave for the day.

She opens the door and walks out, but before it can close, I suddenly hear Christian's voice coming from the hallway. I smile in surprise and hurriedly grab my things from my desk and walk out of my classroom but stop in my tracks when I see Christian's hand on Leila's belly.

They are smiling at each other as he continues to rub her stomach. She laughs when Christian says something to her, and he shakes his head in amusement. I look towards the floor and try not to start crying when I see the longing in Christian's eyes when he stares at her stomach.

I try to compose myself, and after a few moments, I clear my throat and walk toward them. Christian is the first to look up. He immediately takes his hand off her stomach and stares at me guiltily. I smile slightly at him before looking over at Leila.

"Hey. Ana, the baby, finally kicked," she beams at me and places my hand on her stomach where Christian's hand was.

After a few minutes of not feeling anything, she shrugs anxiously at me, and I stare at the floor in embarrassment.

"Well, thanks again, Christian. I will see you on Saturday. By Ana, I'll see you on Monday," she hugs me tightly for a few seconds, before walking down the hallway.

"I'm fixing her car," Christian explains when I stare at him questionably.

I nod and remember she was having trouble with her car this week and needed someone to look at it for her, so I said that Christian wouldn't mind checking it out for her.

Christian walks up to me and kisses me softly on the lips. "Hi. I thought I'd come and surprise you. Dinner out sound good to you?" he tucks a stay hair behind my ear.

I give him a small smile and peck his lips. "I would love that. Thank you," I straighten out his shirt and chuckle. "You clean up good, Mr. Grey."

"Thank you, Mrs. Grey. Let's go," he smiles and offers me his arm.

I smile and put my arm through his, and together we walk towards his truck. My smile slips slightly from my face when I think back to earlier. I know he wasn't doing anything wrong or doing anything to make me think that something is going on. I just can't help but feel jealous and insecure, not because I think he is going to cheat on me, but the sadness and longing he had in his eyes when he was staring down at her stomach, or when he sees someone who is pregnant.

I can't seem to give him a child we both so desperately want, and that is what kills me a little more inside every day.

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