Clary POV.
"Clary, Jace." I hear the soft voice of my mother coming from somewhere in the room. I groan and push my head deeper into Jace's chest. I hear him grunt and feel his arms tighten around my waist. "Hey sweet-peas you both need to get up otherwise you won't sleep tonight. And I need to speak to Clary alone. Please Jace."
I feel Jace stretch from my side and lean down to whisper in my ear. "Clare, you need to let go of my now. I need to leave so you can speak to your mom. You wanted that earlier." He says. I must be still half asleep because my brain doesn't even process what comes out.
"Yeah but that was until I got comfortable cuddled in bed with you. Now I'd rather stay like this, cause you're warm and she will be cold." I mumble tightening my hold on him. I feel rather than hear him laugh as my mother shouts 'Hey' from beside me. "Ok, ok I'm up, I'm up." I mumble unwinding myself from Jace. I didn't realise that I had tangled my legs with his as well. This made me blush as I quickly sat up facing my mother not him.
"I'm just going to go down stairs and sit with Jon when you're finished we can watch films." He says before he closes the door.
"Oh Jace! Jon isn't here, he went out on a date with Sebastian. But I'll tell you what you can do for me. Isabelle and Simon are here can you three go into the kitchen get the potatoes and carrots out of the cupboard and start peeling them for me." Don't give me that face Jace! You do know how to peel a vegetable as well so don't try that one either!" She says before Jace even fully opens his mouth. He sighs running his hand through his hair and walking off towards the stairs.
"Izzy, Simon! Stop sucking face you have to help me in the kitchen get dinner ready." He calls walking down the stairs. I laugh and turn towards my mother who is looking towards me anxiously.
"Mom?" I question unsure why she's looking at me that way. "Is something wrong?"
"I'm not sure honey. That why I came in to speak to you. I… Um I have noticed that you haven't needed… Umm. Clary," She sighs into her hands. "You have to realise that this is just as embarrassing for me to ask you as it is for you to answer. I know you are seventeen and as you know I can't actually judge you if you were because I was in the same position with Jonathan, but the thing is Clary I need you to tell me if you are?" She finishes looking into my eyes, the questioning look clearly displayed on her face.
"If I am what mom? I don't understand." I ask worry in my voice. What if she worked out what I did earlier in the car?
FLASHBACK
"You could be coming on your per…" Izzy starts but doesn't get to finish because I cut in, trying to save myself from a ton of embarrassment.
"That's something I do not want to talk about with boys in the car. Thank you very much Isabelle! Let's just go so I can put my pyjamas on please." I say and turn to Jace who nods his head and starts the car. I start running things through my head.
Crap my period. Crap, crap, crap! When was the last time I had a period… the week before the wedding… which was two months ago. Shit! Did we not use protection? Shit! Shit! Shit! I could be pregnant. My hand involuntary move to clutch my stomach. I hope everyone just assumes that it's because I'm feeling sick. How could I be so stupid to not notice that my monthly visit hasn't been?
"Jace can you go a bit faster please. I really don't think those Pizzas are agreeing with me. Actually pull over when you can please." I say feeling the pull in my stomach telling me that I'm going to be sick any second.
"We'll be there soon Clary don't be sick in the car please. You won't be the one who needs to clean it up." As soon as Jace finishes his sentence I'm out of the car and hunched over on the side of the road heaving my dinner up.
"You ok Clary?" Jace asks his hand rubbing my back, my hair in his other hand.
"God I really wish you would stop seeing me like this. I hate being ill in front of people." I mutter out. It can't be appealing to see someone who has a crush on you bringing up their dinner. I take out a napkin and wipe my mouth. As soon as I finish Jace pulls me to his chest.
"I'm glad you do it in front of me. Then I know when your ill and can take care of you. Do we need to take you to the doctors Clare? Are you really ok?" He asks and I pale, thankful that my face is hidden in his chest.
"I'll be ok. I think I just have an upset stomach. It doesn't seem to want to keep anything down." I mutter back half-heartedly. Hopefully he will put it down to me being ill.
"Hey Red, You're going to be ok. Remember I'm always here no matter what. ." My shoulders start to shake and I know he feel it. "Hey don't cry in the street. Come on dry your eyes. When we get home me and you, we'll go have a lay down and I promise you can cry as much as you want there, no judging at all from me. I may even join you. I haven't had a good cry in a while." I laugh at this and pull away ready to get back into the car.
"Ok. I'm ready let's get home. And Jace, Thank you. For always being there." I tell him this whilst walking around the car.
"No problem." Jace says with a smile. I think he mutters something but I ignore it and get in the car the same time he does.
"Clary are you ok? What's wrong do you have stomach flu?" Jon asks as soon as I get back into the car. Instantly I remember the reason why I'm ill. The small smile I had on my face a few seconds ago drops.
"No Jon. I don't have the stomach flu." I say then blank everyone out. I hear Jace in the background telling Jon to 'leave it' and turn towards him and mouth a thank you in his direction. He smiles at me and starts the drive again.
I hear people speaking but it sounds like I'm listening from underneath the sea, thousands of feet under the sea. What feels like hours later I feel someone touch my hands and I jump at the contact.
"Hey Clare," Jace says as he reaches in and unbuckle my seat belt pulling my legs out of the car at the same time. "Do you want me to carry you into the house? I can princess carry you or you could have a piggy-back ride?" I can't help but smile at the though and I stick my hands out to be carried the way I want to. "Princess carrying it is." He pulls me into his arms and I cuddle into his chest, my arms around his neck. "You're going to have to kick the door shut, I don't want to risk dropping you on your butt." I laugh a breathy laugh and kick the door shut, feeling the secrete heavy in my chest as I hold on to him.
END OF FLASHBACK
"Clary what I've been meaning to ask you is…" She runs her hands through her hair. "Clary are you pregnant?" She lifts her head her eyes hold fear in them. Fear that I'm going to say yes. Fear that she's going to be a Grandma. Fear that I don't even have to look in a mirror to know is mirrored on my face, my eyes bugged and my whole body went stiff as soon as she asked.
"I'm not sure." I say and drop my head. "I could be. It only clicked in the car with Isabelle earlier that I haven't actually had my monthly visit since the week before the wedding." I say to her my head still hung, unable to look into her eyes afraid I'll see disappointment in them.
"Oh my baby. Come here come and give me a cuddle." She says and holds out her hands in order for me to crawl into her lap. I don't hesitate. I am on her lap her arms tightly wrapped around me holding me closer than she has in a while. "I have some tests in my bathroom, we will do one after everyone leaves ok?" She says and quickly jumps up. "Wipe your tears honey then come down stairs. I promise not to tell anyone and we can finish this conversation when we come back up later."
She leans down and plants a kiss on the top of my head and leave to walk out the door. "Mom?" I call before I even realised what I wanted to say to her. She turns back around and looks into my eyes. I don't see anger or disappointment in her eyes. All I see is worry. Worry that her daughter, her baby girl, her princess, could be carrying her first grandchild and worry that it would ruin my life. "I love you mom. Thanks for not, you know, blowing up." I say and hang my head low feeling all the disappointment that I thought she would feel pushing on my chest as my own disappointment in myself.
"Aw honey, I would never be mad at you for something like this. I can't it would be very hypocritical of me considering I was in exactly the same position as you are in now when I was your age. I just hope you tell Sebastian soon so he and your brother don't get too attached." She says. The next words are out of my mouth before I can stop them and I instantly want to take them back.
"Sebastian why would I tell him? I've never slept with Sebastian." As soon as the words are out my hand flies to my mouth. I look up and see my mother's mouth hanging open and shock written clearly all over her face.
"I just want to ask you one thing and then I promise we will leave it until everyone has gone home or to sleep. Is it ok for me to ask you one question?" She says running her hand over her face, her eyes starting to look tired and drained. I nod my head and quietly say ok and she sighs. I can tell already that she doesn't want to ask the question and she's hoping for an answer out of this question. I hope I can give her one she will like. "Do you know who the father is? You haven't been on a wild one like your brother used to have you?" She looks straight into my eyes. I know it's so she can tell if I'm lying or not, but I would never lie to my mother. I may withhold the truth but that's not lying really. Is it?
"Yes. I know who the father is. And no I haven't been on 'a wild one' I've only ever slept with one person mom! It was a one-time thing that happened a while ago and I'm not even sure he remembers it happening." I whisper the last part, my head in my hands propped up on my knees.
"Oh my baby girl." My mother says walking back into the room and pulling me in to an embrace. "Do I know who he is? Are you going to tell me? You have to tell him, even if he doesn't remember the night." She says and pulls back from me.
"You know him but I'm not going to tell you who until he knows as well. I will tell him mom but I want proof, like a scan photo or something so he doesn't think that I'm just trying to pin something on him. I don't want to seem like that type of girl mom and I need the photo to prove that." I say getting up out of bed and brushing my hair then cleaning my face with a make-up wipe.
"Oh honey do you think that he'd be like that really?" I just shake my head saying I don't know what he'd react like. "Ok well honey we'll talk more about scans and stuff after we are sure that you are pregnant, but until after dinner all of this, this conversation, is on pause ok?" I nod my head and we both make our way out of my bedroom and down stairs into the kitchen.
Okay guys! Twice in one week! Hope you enjoy this and I know that people are starting to get fed up of Jace not knowing but I have a plan on how to get him to find out and I really want to use my idea so a few more chapters and he'll know I promise!
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