Dear Sirius,

You have no idea how sorry I am for not writing you back as soon as I got your letter! I feel terrible about letting you suffer like that, but I really had no choice. Of course, I cannot tell you why. That would be just too simple, wouldn't it?

I think you're going to forgive me, though, since things are really about to get awesome. Your mind didn't go coocoo. I do love you, even if that scares me and makes things complicated. I don't have enough strength to push you away, though, so instead, I've decided to direct my efforts into making things work between us. Properly work.

This conversation should probably take place face to face, but I have no faith in myself to be able to tell you everything I want and not be influenced by... Well, by you. I know you enough to realize that you're just going to dismiss all of my doubts and worries, but I really need you listen, Sirius. My choice, although I don't regret it to the least, means that I believe you're capable of being responsible and careful. My secrets have to stay secrets for now, but if I decide to tell you something, even a small detail – you have to keep it to yourself. You're not stupid, so maybe I shouldn't be explaining that to you, but I wouldn't be myself if I didn't worry.

Promise me, that you won't search for answers on your own and that you're going to trust me. Whatever I do, no matter how dangerous it seems, I probably can handle it. I refuse to explain myself to you, just as I refuse to be responsible for your choices. If you really want me, I need you to truly grow up, at least in that one area of life.

Oh and one more thing. Don't you dare leave me, Black. The sorrow would undoubtedly kill me, but I would still haunt you for a freaking eternity.

With love,

Kitten

Love,

You have no idea how happy I am! And you were right, I forgive you for making me act like a complete moron. Merlin, I wish I was there to kiss you... It's a good thing that the break is due to end in a week, cause James' mom would kill me for sneaking out of the house to go to see you. I swear, that woman would be an incredible sneakoscope. She knows literally everything that's going on! I wouldn't be surprised if she'd known I was going to fall for you even before we've officially met, since me and Prongs have been talking about you during the summer. You know, about the scar and... Well, it doesn't matter.

As for the second part of your letter... Kitten, you're so predictable! I was completely sure that you're going to write something like that and I've managed to come up with a beautiful speech to counter it. You're going to have to wait for it until we see each other, though. Consider it a payback for not writing me back! And yes, I know that it's immature and you're going to be freakishly mad, but the thing is, I like it when you're mad. It makes me wonder about so many things that may require such a fiery temper... I can almost see you blush, love.

Damn, I miss you. You have no idea...

Sirius

P.S. I love that you have finally accepted your nickname. I'm going to make sure that no one beside me calls you that. You're mine now, aren't you, Kitten?

Dear Hermione,

I think congratulations are in order, aren't they? Before you get mad, Padfoot wrote me a letter longer than every single one of his essays, so you should probably be proud of him, rather than angry. Honestly, I had no idea he knew so many words.

I am so happy for the two of you. Lily and James are clearly meant for each other, but I think you and Sirius are going to be a tough competition for the "Couple of the century" title. I knew it from that day, when we've left the castle for Hogsmeade. He's going to make you happy, Hermione, trust me. Despite his previous behaviour, I know that he's not going to let that one girl, who managed to capture his heart, slip away. He truly loves you and I am glad that you decided to take a risk. It will be worth it, I am sure of it.

Apart from the obvious changes, how is the break going for you? I hope that Severus doesn't bother you too much. He's your friend, I am aware of that, but I still worry about you. Could you blame me for it?

Once again, congrats!

Remus

Hermione!

Do I honestly have to find out about you and Sirius from POTTER, out of all people?! I swear, I want to strangle you so much right now, but I know I can't. Not only because you're at Hogwarts, but also because that would mean not seeing you and Sirius together, after such a long time!

Besides... I don't know if I should tell you this via letter, but that message from Potter was really surprising. I mean... He usually writes to me every single day, making my sister go crazy, because of the owls flying in and out of the house. He tells me how much he loves me and describes his days, as if I care what chores did his mother give him. But this time he just... He said he was sorry for bugging me with letters all the time and that he just wanted to tell me that Sirius had finally convinced you to give him a shot. And that's it. Literally, his letter ended right there with nothing more than "I hope you have a nice break!". I don't know what to make of it. I would ask one of my roommates, but they keep pestering me about giving him a chance and I really don't need that right now. Do you know what has gotten into him?

Please, write me back as soon as possible, I'm kind of freaking out.

Lily

P.S. Is everything alright with you and Severus? I just realised that I got so caught up with that Potter thing that I forgot to ask... I'm such a great friend, aren't I?

Padfoot,

Sometimes I hate you. Honestly, you can make me go so crazy, that my hair frizzes. But you can also make me smile like a blithering idiot, so I can't even stay mad at you for torturing me like that. That is so unfair! Also, I didn't blush.

I miss you too. This break makes me so miserable, you have no idea. I could use a visit to the kitchen with you, maybe it would cheer me up a bit. Don't worry though, nothing terrible has happened. I am just overly tired and it has a lot to do with the reason for not writing you back right away. I wonder if you're going to figure it out once you see me... Huh.

Did you honestly have to tell everyone about us? I've got a letter from Remus, but I am pretty sure that you have told Peter as well. He doesn't have an owl, so he can't exactly write to me on his own, but I don't need his letter to know that you're a huge tattletale. What kind of a prankster are you?! Can you imagine their faces if you'd kissed me on the platform without previously telling them we're together? Wait. Now that I think of it, you did good by telling them. Peter would probably faint out of the embarrassment and we would have to rescue him.

You're the only one that haven't asked me about Severus, you know? I am not sure if that's a good thing or a bad one. Nonetheless, everything is fine here. I don't see him that often, as I am busy with my own numerous tasks, but when I do see him, we're mostly studying and writing essays. Speaking of essays... Do I need to remind you that Flitwick told us to write one about the Water-Making Spell? Three rolls of paper to be delivered on the first class after the break. You'd better start writing it now, someone told me that your letters would probably be marked way higher than those creations you call essays.

How is everything going, by the way? Have you and James completely destroyed the house as of yet or is it still standing? I swear, Prongs' parents must be the most patient and considerate people in the whole world, if they're putting up with the likes of you.

Can't wait to see you again. I honestly never thought that those words are going to leave my mouth willingly. Guess love does make you act like an idiot, after all. We're just going to have to live with that, yeah?

Love,

Hermione

P.S. I am not a thing, Sirius, and I don't have an owner. But I guess I can be yours. As long as you're mine, that is.

Dear Lily,

I wish I had better news for you, but I have no clue why James decided to change his tactics, so to speak. He mentioned that Sirius has been acting like a love-struck fool and it annoyed him to no end, so maybe he figured out that his own behaviour must annoy everyone around him as well, including you. Maybe that's a good thing, you know? He has to grow up sometime and with Sirius' determination to be responsible (or at least more responsible, you never know with that guy), he probably won't be able to keep acting like a child all the time. Why don't you write him a letter yourself? I think it could shed some light whether he tries to actually change or not.

As for your question, things with Severus are alright. I know that he hurt you, but I honestly believe he regrets it. Truly. He's not so bad when it's just me and him, I think I forced him to respect me and treat me like his equal and that makes our conversation much more lively than anyone could think. I like him, Lily, I really do. Maybe I shouldn't trust him, considering the rest of his friends, but it's not like I share my deepest secrets with him. We talk mostly about academic stuff and you probably know that he's absolutely brilliant.

How are things going for you? Is your sister driving you crazy? Or maybe it's the other way around? I can't wait to hear from you!

Hermione

HOLY SHIT!

Lily just sent me a letter. Lily Evans. Letter. To me! Can you believe it, Herms?! I've waited five years for such thing to happen and now that it did, I have no idea why. I didn't even write to her as much as usual, because she never writes me back. I just told her about you and Sirius, since I've figured you won't tell her yourself. I could almost hear your voice in my head going: "It's no big deal, really". You can be such a dork sometimes...

Why do you think Lily had sent me a letter now? You think she's warming up to me? Women are so complicated, Hermione. How does it even work that she decided to talk to me after I decided to be all mature and... Oh. Now I get it! She just hates not being the centre of attention, doesn't she? That must be it.

Anyways, it was a pleasant surprise. Maybe I should give her cold shoulder once in a while, so that she won't take me for granted. I'll ask my mom about it. Or maybe my dad? Nah, my mom will be better, since she knows how to speak "woman". My father would probably be as dumbfounded as I am, considering the fact that it was my mother who had to ask him out, because he was too clueless to do so. I don't know who I've gotten my charm from, but it's not him, for sure.

Hope you're having a great time, all alone in your library. Sirius tells me that you pester him about homework even via letters. Shame on you, Hermione, really. Don't you know that Christmas break is supposed to be peaceful and joyous?

Very disappointed in you,

James

Love,

I can't believe you've managed to convince Evans to send him a letter. I am not stupid enough to think that it was James' doing, but, of course, I'm not going to tell him that. His mom laughed at him so hard for saying that Lily liked being in the centre of attention... I wish you could have seen it. James' face was absolutely hilarious!

I am actually pretty sure that you would love Euphemia, just as she would love you. She's so proud that James and I both fell for smart girls, as she has always been worried that no such bird would want us, idiots. Incredibly charming, that woman...

It's almost surreal that we're going to see each other tomorrow. This week was much easier to survive than I expected, but it has probably something to do with the amount of chores James' mom assigned us. One would expect that you don't have to take care of the garden in winter, but it turns out that there's always something to do. Even if it means freezing your ass off with a shovel in your hand, trying to save flowers from dying. Aren't they already dead? It's freaking cold outside. I think that Euphemia just wanted to kick us out of the house.

I literally can't wait to board the train. Although, I have to warn you about one thing. I've lost a bet with Remus (don't ask, please) and he's forcing me to wear a skirt to the feast. Since I'm an honourable man, I have no choice but to comply. Even if that means that I'll make a fool out of myself and also you, by accident. I have no intentions of staying away from you, even if you find it humiliating to kiss a man in a skirt. Oh, maybe I can wear a kilt? Technically, it's still a skirt, but at least it's manly. Or so I've been told (please, don't ask about that as well).

Can't wait to see you, Kitten. I honestly don't think I can sleep at night, because whenever I close my eyes, I see you. Fuck, that sounded cheesy. I think I should go now...

See you tomorrow, sweetheart.

Yours,

Sirius