One week later - Friday
'Another stupid day at school...' The girl lazily walked to her locker. Grabbing her books and stuffing them into her backpack, she quickly turned around only to hit a brick wall. "Ow! What the-"
"Did you break your nose on my rock hard abs?"
Saskia gave her best friend a playful glare. "Right... So, what's up?" She rubbed her nose carefully. Cartman started walking beside her to their first class. He was a little nervous and his heart rate sped up a bit.
'Just ask her dammit...' "So uh... Tokens' throwing a huge party for his birthday this weekend... you going?"
"Oh yeah? Nah I wasn't invited..." She was a little hurt she hadn't heard this from the man himself. Saskia thought they were friends.
"Tch, he doesn't need to invite you. Don't be an idiot Sas." The girl gazed up at him with her large green eyes framed by simple black glasses. Eyes that always melted his icy heart. Cartman noticed her push her glasses back up into place and start picking at her nails, yet another one of her nervous habits. "It's implied you're invited. All his friends are. Trust me, if he doesn't want you there, they'll let you know at the door." He placed his hands behind his head to appear more cool and aloof, though on the inside, he was a nervous wreck. If Saskia agreed to go, this was where he'd ask her out. He promised himself he would before anyone beat him to it.
"I don't know Eric... you know I'm not the party type... besides..." She tucked some hair behind her ear. "There'll be alcohol there and ... I don't know... It's not my thing you know?" Her fake smile wasn't convincing him.
Cartman expected this answer from her and so had the perfect response. "Zack will be there." He replied as-a-matter-of-factly. She furrowed her brows in confusion at him. "I guess he hasn't said anything to you yet but..." The boy stopped in front of their classroom door. "He's thinking of asking Bebe out."
Saskia's heart stopped and her left eye twitched slightly. "What?"
~.~.~.~
'Ugh! I can't believe he's thinking of asking that bitch out! The second we get home I'm calling him out on it! No fucking way is that hoe gonna be anything with my brother!' There was twenty minutes of class left and Saskia had been grinding her teeth the whole time. She mentally kept screaming things she wanted to say to Zack.
"Relax already." She was jolted from her thoughts. "I swear, if I have to keep hearing you grind your teeth, I'm gonna lose it." Cartman glared at her. The girl simply ignored him and stared at the whiteboard where their teacher was writing something. Soon, he noticed her foot began tapping insistently and he placed a hand on her leg to stop her.
Saskia smiled at him. "Geez Eric, I know I'm cute but aren't you moving a little fast there buddy?" He quickly removed his hand from her leg and blushed a thousand shades of red.
"Shut the fuck up! I just wanted to stop you from bugging me!" He hissed, though he was clearly flustered.
"Geez, relax, I'm just kidding..." Saskia glared at him. She rested her head on her desk and pulled her hoodie over her head. "Wake me up when class is over." She mumbled.
"Fine... Lazy hoe." Eric grumbled but was smiling all the while.
Unknown to the two lovebirds, Kenny was watching them intently. His eyes held a glint of jealousy, and his hands were formed into fists. 'Great... I fucked things up with Saskia and now Eric is gonna win her over...' He had to think of something. Some way he could indirectly apologize. She hardly wanted to even look at him the last time he tried to. How was he going to pull this off?...
Saskia had fallen asleep and the sound of her light snoring forced a small smile from Cartman. All he could think of was how cute she was. The way her body moved up and down ever so slightly with her breathing. How she had turned to face him at some point during her nap and now, her mouth was slightly agape. Her hair covered part of her face and she would wiggle her nose from the tickling sensation it gave her.
He was daydreaming now. His arm rested on his desk and was holding up his head. The blabbering from the teacher was heard as muffled sounds as he drifted off deeper into his fantasy. They were sitting on one of the school benches during lunch. Saskia had rested her head on his shoulder and his arm was around her. She had fallen asleep on him and he could feel her soft breathing.
That was officially his happy place now. Whenever he was angry or upset, he would drift to that fantasy and his temper would subside. Oh raven haired girl... what were you doing to him? To this angry boy that everyone hated? That everyone pushed away and wanted nothing to do with him? The only one to make him smile, the only one that gave him butterflies in his stomach. 'Saskia... I think I love you...'
~~~ Lunch ~~~
Everyone was gathered around their usual table during lunch. The boys were having their usual conversation either about sports or girls. Stan was talking about Token's birthday party and how he hoped to get lucky with Wendy. Saskia flinched for a second realizing what he meant by that. She wanted to tell him, she felt it was her duty as a friend but was stopped by her thoughts of Kenny. What if what happened between them, happened with her and Stan? She didn't want to lose another friend. So, she remained silent on the matter.
"You're offly quiet." Zack turned to her and offered his sister some of his fries. She politely refused but took his chocolate milk instead. "Hey! I was gonna drink that, brat!"
"Oh calm down, I just want a sip, you big baby." But before the girl could take a drink, she saw Kenny approaching their group. Saskia quickly stood up and handed her brother the unopened milk. "I'll see you guys later." She hastily grabbed her backpack, slung it over her shoulder and walked away.
Kenny stopped dead in his tracks. He stared at the girl making her way towards him. Her head was down and her hand clutched her backpack strap tightly. She made no attempt to look at him whatsoever. The girl quickly passed by him and their shoulders almost touched. He could have stopped her if he wanted to. And he did want to but... he hesitated. He felt it wasn't the right time. Not in front of everyone. He hadn't told a soul about what transpired between him and the girl. He didn't want to be yelled at by any of them, especially Zack and Cartman. No... he'd have to find a way to be alone with her.
He could smell the lotion on her. It was apples and cinnamon. The scent reminded him of a warm embrace. Something he wished to share with her. It felt like time briefly stopped. She walked past him in slow motion. He noticed for a split second, Saskia clutched her backpack strap a little tighter as she passed him. Being close to him must have made her uncomfortable he figured. 'How do I... fix this?... How do I say I'm sorry?...'
"What was that about?" Zack's gaze turned to Cartman but the boy only shrugged.
"Hey, what the fuck happened to you?" Cartman raised a brow in confusion at Kenny.
"Oh you know, just got into another fight. No big deal." He had a black eye, a busted lip, his hair was in tangles and he had some scratches and bruises on his face.
"Dude, you look like shit." Kyle offered the blond a handkerchief he always carried. The boy gratefully accepted the offer and wiped a bit of blood off his lip.
"You should go to the nurse's office." Stan's voice held concern for his blond friend.
'The nurse's office! That would be a perfect opportunity to be alone with Saskia!' "Yeah I'll go over there after lunch."
~.~.~ 5th period *Kenny's point of view* ~.~.~
Stupid fat ass wouldn't let up on me going to the nurse's office. He kept pestering me all cooking class about why I hadn't gone yet. I had to make something up fast so he'd get off my ass. He finally let up once I told him I wanted to finish my cheese souffle. Which, by the way, turned out fucking amazing. In fact, it was so good, I brought a piece for Saskia as a peace offering.
As I reach the nurse's office my palms began to get sweaty. Fuck! Why does the mere thought of this girl make me so nervous?... I can feel my heart race and my breathing quicken slightly. Get it together Kenny!
Gently opening the door, I quietly make my way inside and see nurse Gollum attending to some other students.
"Oh Kenny! My word, what happened to you?!" She placed her hands on my face, tilting it to one side. As she examined me, nurse Gollum sighed. "Saskia! Saskia! I need you over here!"
A moment later, a beautiful, raven haired sweetheart appeared. My heart sank when I saw her. The second she saw me, her gaze immediately turned away. She really didn't want to see me.
"Saskia, take Kenny and attend to him while I finish up here ok? If you need anything call me but I think you can handle it." Saskia nodded to nurse Gollum, then returned her gaze to me.
I saw her lick her lips briefly before speaking. "Follow me over here please."
I clutched the plate the souffle was resting on tightly. I didn't want to drop it since my hands began to sweat again.
"Sit up on the exam chair and I'll clean you up." Her voice was so soft, almost inaudible. I saw her grab some Hydrogen Peroxide and some gauze. Then, she reached for some ointment and band aids.
Saskia made her way towards me but kept trying to avoid eye contact. "Wait." She stopped dead in her tracks and made eye contact with me for a second before looking away once again. "Here, I made this in class today and... I wanted you to try it. I... uh... I hope you like it." I cleared my throat as I handed her the plate.
She took it from my hands gently. The ravenette quickly smelled it and her eyes widened a bit but she didn't say anything. Placing the plate on a nearby counter, Saskia walked back over to me and in a whisper, replied with a 'Thank you.'
There was some awkward silence that soon followed. Neither of us had anything to say and I was at a loss for words on how to apologize. How was I going to do this?... 'Hey Saskia, I'm sorry for being a dick again. Forgive me?' No... 'Hey Saskia, so since you accepted my souffle offering... we're good right? Wanna go out with me?' Yeah right...
I feel one of Saskia's hands on my face gently tilting it to one side. With the other hand, she had a cotton ball with peroxide dabbed on it. "This might sting a bit ok?" Her voice remained soft and quiet.
"I'm tougher than I look." I flashed her my signature smile but she didn't seem amused. She blankly stared at me and then shook her head dismissively. Ouch... Ok that didn't work.
I flinched a bit when she placed the cotton ball on my cuts. She was right, it did sting. 'Fuck it... it's now or never...' I quickly grabbed her wrist, effectively startling her. She let out a cute, soft gasp at my actions. She tried pulling away from me but I firmly kept her in place. Her brows furrowed in anger towards me and her lips were pursed but I didn't care. If I was going to apologize, this was the time.
"Listen to me." I pulled her down a little closer, albeit roughly but unintentionally. I just wanted to make sure she knew I was being serious. "Saskia I... I'm sorry." She definitely wasn't amused. Her eyes glared at me but she said nothing.
She quickly snatched her hand away. "Save your breath. You've made it quite clear how you feel about me. Honestly Kenny..." Her gaze was fixed on the peroxide bottle she clutched onto. The girl was playing with the sticker, trying to peel it off. "I gave you a second chance after you said those mean things to me when we first met and I thought you were genuinely sorry but... you're such a ..." She hesitated for a moment before mustering up the courage for the next word. "Bastard..." She whispered.
I smirked at her. There's no way she could stay mad at me for long, right? "Give us a hug Saskia!" I jump off the exam chair and reach out for her but she pushed me away. She's glaring at me... it's so intense it cuts into me like a dull knife... she's always been so kind, I guess I never thought I'd see her this way...
Saskia turns away from me without a word and grabs some supplies. She hands me some band aids and ointment. "You're fine. Put this antibiotic on your cuts and keep them dry. I'll have the nurse write you an excuse for missing fifth period." With that, she turned on her heels and briskly walked away. I feel like shit...
~.~.~ P.E. *Third person point of view* ~.~.~
Saskia sat on the bleachers where the goths were smoking right beneath her. She was aware of their presence but wanted to be alone. 'I shouldn't have been so harsh with him... I shouldn't have pushed him away...' She absentmindedly watched the boys play football. Her gaze would switch between Stan and Kenny but came to rest on Cartman.
She found herself blushing as she day dreamed about him. How his hair glistened in the sunlight, after pouring water on himself to cool off. How his muscles flexed with every motion he made to catch the football or while running. She shook off these thoughts and dismissed them as nothing.
"Ugh how stupid..." the girl muttered to herself.
"Yeah, fucking posers." Saskia turned to her right, only to see a puff a smoke and a tuft of red hair.
"Geez Pete! You scared the crap outta me!" She playfully glared at him and scooted closer to the goth. Pete inwardly smirked but on the outside, held no emotion. "So... what's up?"
Again, he took in a long drag of his cigarette and released the smoke slowly from his lips. Saskia held her nose with her thumb and forefinger. "You going to that poser, Token's party?" The girl blinked a couple of times, a little confused at his question but nodded 'yes.' "You going with anyone?" His gaze was fixated on the guys playing football. His brows were furrowed slightly in annoyance but other than that, his face remained stoic.
'"No. I mean, probably with my brother... I'm gonna try and stop him from asking that dumb bitch Bebe out... but otherwise no." Saskia sighed in annoyance. Her eyes scanned the boys again only to see Stan waving hello at her. Saskia smiled and waved back but then saw Wendy glare at her. She quickly turned away and smiled at Pete awkwardly.
He stared at her with one brow raised in confusion. "Shh... just play it cool, that bitch Wendy, is glaring daggers at me for waving at her stupid boyfriend."
"Oh yeah?" Pete flipped Wendy off. He had startled her but she quickly recovered and returned his gesture. "I love pissing people off..." He let out one of his rare laughs. Saskia blushed. She wouldn't admit it but she loved Pete's laugh. It was one of those rare oddities that he allowed only a select few to experience.
Pete put out his cigarette and suddenly put his arm around the girl and brought her close to him. Saskia was now blushing like mad. "W-what are you doing?!" She whispered but he buried her face in his chest and stroked her hair in a loving manner. He then rested his head atop hers and smiled devilishly.
The goth boy could see Cartman seething and he swore if it wasn't physically possible, the larger boy would have ignited himself in flames from the jealousy. Kenny was grinding his teeth trying to control his anger and not run up to the goth and punch his lights out. Oh how he loved to piss off those conformist little bitches. "Relax, it's just a hug." He cooed.
Stan had been staring at the two, only to have Wendy punch him on his shoulder to gain his attention. ""Stan! Leave her! You should be paying attention to me other than worrying over some dumb bitch!"
"Honestly Wendy, I'm getting tired of your shit." Wendy's face fell. How could he speak to her that way?! "And I'm getting tired of you talking bad about Saskia. She's my friend so deal with it."
"W-what?! Stan! But look at her! She's all lovey with that stupid goth kid! How can you say that to me?! I'm your girlfriend!" She pushed him but he didn't fight back. The boy only let out an exasperated sigh and tried to ignore Wendy's non relenting nagging.
Though Saskia was extremely embarrassed at his sudden boldness, she slowly placed her arms around his waist and returned his affection. Pete tensed for a split second before relaxing. Maybe it was because she was sad, or because she really could've used a hug at that moment, or some of Pete's boldness rubbed off on her but she shyly returned the hug. "Thank's Pete." The boy heard her muffled 'thanks' and he pat her back gently. Saskia smelled his cologne and smiled. He smelled really good. Some sort of spicy scent that oddly relaxed her.
"I'll meet you at your house at eight. We'll go to Token's party together ok?" Pete let go of the girl and she stared at him with astonishment and confusion. Why was he being so forward all of a sudden? He's always so quiet and secluded... what's going on? And as if Pete read her mind, he replied, "I told you, I love to piss people off." With that, the made his way back to the goths but not before flipping off Wendy, Stan, Kenny and Cartman, who had been staring at the pair.
'What the hell just happened?...'
~.~.~ Saturday at Token's party ~.~.~
The music was loud and to poor Saskia, unbearable. It was all rap and the newest hip hop. She always preferred hard metal, rock and alternative. Sure she loved the old rap like Tupac and Biggie Smalls but none of this new shit.
Saskia drifted back to the conversation she had with Zack earlier...
~.~.~ Mini flash back ~.~.~
"Please tell me it isn't true..." Saskia huffed and rested her hands on her hips.
Zack was eating a sandwich and with his mouth full replied, "What are you talking about?"
"Gross... and I mean about you wanting to ask Bebe out! Zack you can't!" The rocker simply shrugged, which only infuriated his sister. "Zack! What the fuck! She's one of my bullies! You can't do that! Don't be a dick!"
"Then do something about it! Don't let her bully you. Besides, she's hot and I'll probably get lucky at Token's party." Zack dismissively walked away but could feel his sister's eyes glaring a hole into the back of his head.
~.~.~ Present ~.~.~
'Ugh that bastard...' Saskia had been glaring at her brother from across the room.
"You alright there?" Pete's voice grabbed her attention. She turned to him and weakly smiled.
"Yeah." The goth simply nodded. He was definitely a man of few words but Saskia enjoyed it. They held a comfortable silence that they each appreciated. However, after a few minutes, the girl awkwardly shifted in place while holding some punch in her hand.
She turned her gaze towards Cartman. The girl's eyes were like saucers. There were some girls she didn't recognize swarming the boy. A voluptuous redhead was sitting on his lap and practically throwing her breasts at him. Another girl, a tall, long haired brunette, was giving him a shoulder massage. She had whispered something in his ear and suddenly started kissing him!
Saskia could have sworn time stopped as she gazed at them like that. She felt the blood leave her body and drain her of any and all feeling. Her stomach churned and twisted like a maelstrom inside her. She blushed in anger. Her face became hot and when she saw him return the kiss instead of push her away, Saskia quickly turned back to face Pete.
The goth was perplexed as to her sudden change in demeanor. She cleared her throat and tried to speak calmly but he could tell something bothered her. "Hey... um.. I think I should go... I'm not feeling well..."
"What about Zack?" Pete stared into her eyes, though she could not meet his gaze. Her usually bright green eyes that sparkled like emeralds were now dull and clouded. He decided then and there, he didn't like this side of her. He didn't like to see her so sad. When she shrugged as a response, the goth looked past her and scanned the room to try and figure out what she had seen. Pete's face contorted to that of disgust when he noticed Cartman making out with the redhead and the brunette.
Grabbing her wrist, unintentionally hard, he pulled Saskia towards him. "Uh, w-where are we going?..." He didn't reply and didn't let go of her wrist. Pete dragged her through the kitchen and to another wing of Token's house. It was more solitary here and very few people wandering about.
"Pete!" Saskia tried pulling away from him but his grip only tightened. "You're hurting me!" She harshly tugged her arm away from the boy but he suddenly stopped walking and glared at her. She was taken aback and became nervous.
"Will you please just shut up and follow me?" His usual monotone voice was laced with irritation.
"Not until you tell me where we're going." Saskia remained defiant, though she wouldn't admit Pete's glare was terrifying.
With a heavy sigh he rolled his eyes and let go of her wrist. "Suit yourself then." He started walking away but before he got too far, Saskia jogged to catch up to him.
"Geez! Would it kill you to just tell me?!"
"It's a surprise dumb ass. Either come and find out or shut the fuck up and go away." Normally, harsh words like these would push the girl away however, this was Pete. She was used to him and his cold, indifferent ways.
"Whatever." She crossed her arms over her chest but followed after him non the less.
After about a five minute walk, Pete stopped in front of a door. A normal door, just like any other in Token's house, but before he opened it, he spoke. "If you tell anyone this, I'll fucking sacrifice you to Cthulhu. Understood?" The girl nodded. "Good. Now... I sometimes hang out with Token, yeah yeah I know, very unlike me but whatever. Anyway, he allows me to use his karaoke set. Yes I fucking sing shut up. It helps me with my depression and I hope it'll help you too."
Before Saskia could reply, Pete was already shoving her into the room without closing it behind him. This room was huge and sure enough, an expensive and elaborate karaoke set was all set up and ready to go. Pete turned it on without problems or hesitation, proving to her that he definitely had been here before. The goth ushered her onto the stage and handed her the mic.
"Alright. Pick a song or I will."