~ Regular point of view ~
Rai gently pushed herself away from Loki, much to his disappointment. "Did you not say your heart was mine?..." She saw the hurt in his eyes. She hated to see him so sad. Usually she would be the one to put a smile on his face no matter how small. "I said another holds my heart Loki… I didn't say it was you." That hurt. Loki furrowed his brows in anger but did not look at her. Instead he stared down at the floor. Rai had never rejected him before and it really hurt.
"I cry for you every day you know… I miss you so much yet you always push me away… I try to make you smile and you ignore me… I'm tired of it… you show no emotions towards me except lust or indifference… I mean nothing to you do I Loki?..." Rai could not hold back the tears that started to stain her soft tan cheeks and Loki's heart tore in two. He had always comforted her when she cried… but this time… this time it was he who caused those beautiful honey brown eyes to tear. Well she had cried when she saw him with Angrboda but that was a mistake. This time… it felt like he did it no purpose and he couldn't take it. What could he say? What could he possibly do for her beautiful, soft, sweet face to smile?
He stayed silent unable to answer her for he could not bear to see tears on her face. The tears that he caused... "I always run to you… when I cry I always end up coming to you… I could pour the contents of my heart to you but you shall reject me like you always do so what's the point?..." Again he said nothing. He was at a loss for words... "Loki… you are just a narcissist... everything I gave was wasted… you only care for yourself and what makes you happy… I'm the one who's suffocating… a noose around my neck and you let me choke on it… I drown in tears for you… I suppose this is how it should be… I've always been a poor nobody… not worthy of you… not even worthy of being your friend… yes you asked me to be your lover but I thought it would lead to something more… I am so foolish… how much I have worried for you… I shall continue to protect your majesty to the best of my abilities… but I wish to be your lover no longer… this love will be the end of me…"
With that she stood up and quickly made her way out. Loki sat in silence. Should he run after her? What good will that do?...
~ Loki's point of view ~
Why… why couldn't I just say the words that burned inside my heart… why did this have to happen… Rai… I'm sorry… please… forgive me… why does my chest suddenly feel like it will explode… what am I doing…
"Brother where is Lady Rai?" Thor took Rai's seat while looking around the room for her. He was clearly a little buzzed but even so he worried for her… I don't really want to talk to him… I don't want to say anything at all… I just… want to go home…
"I… she left because of me…" I managed to whisper… he looked at me confused. "What did you do to her Loki?" He leaned in a bit closer to hear me better due to the noise in the bar.
"… I love her Thor…" It just came out… I couldn't hold it in any longer… I feel as though my tears will spill uncontrollably all over my face and at this point I didn't care… all I heard was Thor give a small gasp but he stayed silent for a few minutes.
"Does… does she love you as well Loki?..." I could hear the concern in his voice… as if he was afraid of the answer to his question… "No brother… I do not think she does…" it was the truth… I didn't know if in fact she still loved me… I doubt it but there was still a slight hope within me that she did… I heard Thor let out a small sigh.
"Brother… if you truly love her, go after her… I shall advise you now I refuse to give up on Lady Rai… so you will have to win her heart before I do." 'Oh please Thor… I don't have time for this…' I quietly thought…. Suddenly I felt his strong hand on my shoulder. "Go to her brother. Why do you not just take her and kiss her? Tell her your feelings and see what happens?" I gave my brother a dumbfounded look. How could I just do that? Yes I did kiss her but I thought she would feel the same… I do not have the courage to try it again…
"Do not tell me you are afraid dear brother…" He started to laugh… ugh how annoying… "Be a man Loki! Go to her and face her! Tell her how you feel! Women love men who are in charge!" Again he started letting out that loud obnoxious laugh of his… but as much as I hated to admit it… he was right… I had to tell her once and for all how much I truly did lover her… I had to tell her how sorry I am… I had to ask her to marry me… perhaps this was my only chance… I refuse to let her get away and I'll be damned to not have tried to win her back and let Thor take her from me!
I quickly stood up and regained my confidence. Thor just smiled brightly at me and ordered one of the serving girls to bring him another keg of Ale while slapping her behind… Really brother?...
I ran and ran and ran until I started to feel water hit my face. It was raining… I had to find her quickly… I could hear thunder and see lightning… there would be a strong storm tonight but I must find her! I don't care how long it takes I have to find her!
After a few minutes of continuous running I finally see her figure… there, slowly walking in the rain, uncaring that she was getting soaked to the bone, silently crying to herself… there was Rai in her brilliantly blue and white sun dress, being covered by the cold rain and her soft sobs silenced by the thunder… I ran to her… ran as fast as I could…
I suddenly grabbed her arm and spun her around to face me. She stood there in shock, face stained with tears and eyes red and sad. "Days come and go… but my feelings for you are forever… you are like the sweetest poison I have ever had the privilege to taste…Rai I…" It was difficult to say the following for I never apologized for anything… but for her… for her I would do anything… "I'm sorry that I hurt you… It's something I must live with everyday… and all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away… and be the one who catches all your tears… I never meant to do those things to you… but Rai… I just want you to know… I love you… I love you like I will never love anyone… I shall never find someone who makes me feel like you do… Please…" and there in the rain… I confessed my love… I poured out what was left of my heart and soul and kissed her as passionately as I possibly could… and when we parted for that split second for air… "Please… marry me… "
I could see her heart stopped. I saw those honey brown eyes light up with such happiness she was at a loss for words… So I inched closer to her… she closed her eyes and I could feel her warm breath against my lips in the cold rain… on that dark day… and in between the loud booming thunder and lightning… she cried even more… she nodded yes and cried in happiness… I kissed her once more not caring who saw… not caring who was witness to my love for her… she makes me happy… who would have known that this poor little orphan girl, who would steal food for her family that treated her so horribly, would have stolen my heart… who would have known that one day… this little poor girl and I would hold dark secrets for each other… that we would love each other so much there was nothing we wouldn't do for one another... who would have guessed someone actually loved me…. Me… she loves me…
I pick her up and spin her around in the rain, all the while never allowing my lips to leave hers… I kiss her neck and her ear lobe gently feeling the tingle run down her spine… and we made our way back to the palace… through the rain, thunder and lighting, we ran hands intertwined, getting soaked and intoxicated with each other's kisses and laughter… and when we finally reached my bedroom I pick her up and spin her once more… I press those cold, wet, loving lips of hers to mine and I close the door behind me locking it promptly… still kissing her, we made our way to my bed and I gently set her down. She looks up at me … those eyes filled with so much happiness… with so much love and gentleness, I could not resist and started to gently take off her wet clothes... slowly kissing her exposed skin as I trailed a finger down her abdomen and down to those perfect long legs of hers…
Somewhere through the night I end up tossing my clothes randomly on the floor… throughout the night I could hear her moans and cries of pleasure… I could hear her call out my name multiple times and I hers… all through the night I made her mine and I was hers once again… then again… I had always been hers… she always held my heart in the palm of her hand and she had always been careful not to destroy it… I loved her all night… and I vowed to her I would never leave her side again, even if Thor would not give up on her, she is mine and only mine…