I am pissed off.

Annoyed beyond words.

And I have no idea how to process all of the damn emotions in my head. I know I told him it was fine.. but its not. I lied.

I really don't want to sit down at some shitty restaurant. But I'm hungry. And that damn nerd will be really upset if we don't sit down somewhere. I would rather just get some food to go, and get out of this damn mall already.

He has given me all of these mixed signals today and I don't know how to handle it.

Do I think he likes me? Probably. Do I think he knows I like him? GAHH! I don't know.. maybe?

I don't like this. I don't like these damn emotions. I've wanted nothing more than to fuck him senseless for months.. years even. Way before I let him sleep in the same bed as me.

Fuck! That asshole has been making my dick hard since I was 16! That's two years of pent up frustration! I hate to admit this even to myself.. but I've been scared. We've been too young to act on any of those damn emotions.. and I've been too focused on school, and being the number 1 Hero to even think of seriously having a relationship with him.. but FUCK. I think I want one now.. it's so damn confusing. I want to show him that I want to be with him but I don't know how. The head I am supposed to be thinking with right now isn't working.

But I think I am developing real feelings for him. And I don't know what to do about it.

We don't speak at all on our way to the cafe Deku wants us to eat at, and I can tell he is trying to find the right words to say. He keeps muttering to himself.

When we get to the cafe and order our food, he finally looks up at me across the table with a nervous smile on his face trying to start a conversation.

"Guess what? I found out the other day that the owner of the jewelry store.. you know the ones with the rings? He has a precious metal manipulation quirk..So when you order your ring, you don't have to wait weeks for it to be finished because the owner will just make it right then and there for you! I-Isn't that c-cool Kacchan?"

Of course I knew that. I did my research on that damn shop because I wanted to make sure that when he got one of those rings, that he wasn't going to get ripped off. But I wasn't about to tell him that.

I hummed in response. Letting him know I heard him. I didn't feel like talking. I wanted to get my food, eat, and leave.

Thankfully before he could try to start anymore awkward conversation, our food arrived. We ate in silence. And yea.. you could cut the tension with a knife. But I didn't know what to say.

After we were done with our food and the waitress came, I put my money down on the table. I know he said he would pay. But it was the least I could do after making him suffer through the silence that was our lunch.

"Lets go."

The walk back to the train station, and the whole ride home was silent. I didn't even look

at him. When we got off the train and started to walk home I could tell he wanted to say something. It wasn't until we walked up the stairs to his apartment, and got to his door, that he decided to break the silence.

"A-are y-you mad at me K-Kacchan?" He said looking down at the ground.

"B-because y-you won't even l-look at me" he was starting to cry.

"I I had f-fun today K-Kacchan..I don't k-know w-what I d-did w-wro.."

Before he could get out his next words, I closed the gap in between us, and hugged him to my chest burying my face into his fluffy green hair.

He was shocked at first, but I soon felt his arms wrap around me returning the hug. I let him cry in my arms, holding him close to me. When he started to calm down I decided it was my turn to say something.

"You didn't do anything wrong. A-And I'm not mad at you" I said in almost a whisper.

He lifted his head off of my chest and looked up at me with tears still in his eyes.

"Then why did y-you .."

I moved my hands off of his waist and I lightly cupped his face in my hands wiping away his tears.

"Shh. Not another word."

I looked deep into his bright emerald eyes..

And I kissed him.

His lips were soft and sweet. I didn't expect him to return the kiss, but after a few seconds I felt him kissing me back. It was my first kiss.. and I was melting into his lips. It was perfect. I pulled away after a few seconds keeping it short and sweet, but still filled with passion. And looked again into those beautiful green eyes.

"I had fun today too." And I lightly kissed him again before letting go, and leaving him without words at his front door.

"Have a good night.. Izuku. "

And I turned around with a smile on my face, and a flutter in my chest.

As I walked home, I realized that our relationship wouldn't be the same after today.

And I was okay with that.