2am Tuesday July 12th.

Izuku POV

I can't sleep. I should be happy.. Kacchan was so nice to me.. he is never this nice. He kissed my head, and hugged me to his chest when I was crying.. he hasn't done that since we were kids. It felt so.. nice.

So why do I feel so sad?

What are we even doing? He's my best friend.. it's normal I know to fall in love with your best friend.. but.. what if it doesn't work? I don't even know how I feel. This is all just been so overwhelming. Why did I let Ochaco and Mina pressure me into trying to makes moves on him in the mall? We could have just stuck to being friends... I liked being friends.. but I don't want him to be with anyone but me. I've never been in a relationship.. is that what this is? A relationship? Is he my.. partner.. my boyfriend? I don't even know.

I liked kissing him though. It filled me up with such happy feelings. My chest felt warm, and I got butterflies in my stomach. It was like nothing I've ever ever felt before.

And I don't know if it's the hormones or what.. but I.. I like the idea of doing more with him too.. I want to touch him.. He is just so.. attractive. I love his eyes, and the shape of his jaw.. it's so sharp and defined. And his toned arms and chest.. he is so strong. Even the scars on his body are attractive.. he works so hard to train his body to be the number one hero, and I've always loved his determination. His drive, and passion are so hot.

Ugggghhh what's wrong with me!! Why am I getting hard right now. I'm too tired to take care of this.

Hnng

It's like the world stops when his lips are on mine. And when his arms are wrapped around me I feel so safe. But why? He hasn't said a word to me about how he feels. Not really.. I don't want to just have.. sex.. with him if I don't know how he feels.

Why did he kiss me? What are we? Ugh.

I don't even know anymore... I just want to be near him.. I want him to be my friend. I don't know what I would do if he wasn't in my life.

I think.. I think I love him.

Izuku curls up in a ball on his bed hugging his legs to his chest.

Why must I have these thoughts at 2 in the morning.

I'm so scared. I don't know how to move forward. We haven't told anyone.. do we have to? Would he want to? He's okay being my friend.. but still teases me in class. He's nice.. but I don't know if he'd want people to see us together. He'd probably think it would make him look weak.. I'm not a big deal.. I'm a crybaby.. why would he want to be with someone like me?

My stomach hurts.

I wonder if Kacchan is awake... probably not.

Pulls out phone.

[Me 2:10 am] are you awake?

[Me 2:10 am] I can't sleep.

[Me 2:15 am] you're probably asleep.

[Me 2:15 am] I hope I don't wake you.

[Me 2:16 am] I'm so confused Kacchan...

[Me 2:20 am] What are we doing?

[Me 2:25 am] -_- sorry... nvm..

I need to try to go to sleep.

Or maybe I can read some manga.. maybe it will make me tried.

1 hour later*

[Me 3:30 am] Kacchan.. I still can't sleep. I keep reading manga on my phone.. its making me think of you. And it's making me feel so confused.

[Me 3:32 am] you're going to be so mad tomorrow. I should try to go into your room and steal your phone and delete these messages.

[Me 3:33 am] just kidding.. that would be creepy.. and you'd probably blast me for trying to take your phone.

If I don't get any sleep I'm just going to waste my day away. I don't want people to think I'm sick. But I feel sick. My head hurts. Why can't I just sleep.

I want to cuddle with Kacchan.

30 minutes later.*

[Kacchan 4:02 am] come over.

What?? Am I reading that right? Did he just.. no.

Looks at phone again

Yep. He asked me to come over.

I hope no one is awake. I'm not getting dressed.

No POV.

Wearing just a T-shirt and boxer briefs, Izuku grabs a throw blanket, keys, and his phone, and makes his way out the door.

Too tired for stairs.. he's on the 4th floor.. Im taking the elevator.

As he steps out of the elevator he looks down the hall to make sure no one is out. He doesn't feel like being seen in the hallway in just his underwear.. people might think things.. especially if they see him knocking on Bakugo's door.

He puts his hand on the doorknob and notices it's not locked. It feels like he has a pit in his stomach. He's so nervous. He gently opens the door. It's dark in here. He looks over to see Bakugo is in his bed. He looks to be asleep.

Darn it.. he must have fallen back to sleep. I'm just gunna go..

As he goes to tip toe back out and open the door, he hears Bakugo stirring in his bed.

"Where you goin' ?" Bakugo looked over at him. He sure was a sight to see. But he looked so scared. He wasn't the one who just invited someone over at 4am after reading texts about them not being able to sleep. But Bakugo was tired. And he remembered how fast he fell asleep when they watched that horror film. He didn't really know why he wanted him to be there. But he did. All these emotions he has been feeling these last few days have been so confusing. He's not used to expressing his emotions and he feels like he is hurting Izuku. If only he knew just how much the explosive boy cared.

Izuku jumps and slowly turns around. Kacchan's tired voice scared him.

He's awake.. this isn't a dream.

"I.. thought you were s-sleeping.. why are you awake?.. no, never mind.. I should just go.. this was a bad idea.."

Bakugo then motions over for him to come over to the bed. Maybe this was a bad idea.. but he wanted him here. He wanted to help him.

"Tis fine.. I got up to piss... saw all the notifications on my phone..." Bakugo felt uncomfortable. He didn't know how to tell him that he wanted him to stay. He invited him here. He was feeling that weak feeling again. He took a deep breath.

"Stay" he whispered.

Clutching his blanket close to his chest, the smaller boy makes his way over to the bed and sits down. How can he say no to that? Still hugging the blanket to his chest, he puts his knees up and just stares straight ahead. He's too afraid to look down at the piercing red eyes below him. Why am I in this bed.. He feels a hand lightly tug at his shirt.

"You'll never be able to sleep sitting up you dork."

Even when he's half asleep he finds a way to tease him. A little startled, Izuku slowly lowers his knees from his chest and lays down with his back away from Kacchan and closes his eyes.

What am I doing.. he thinks as he starts to feel nears well up in his eyes. I'm such a cry baby.

Kacchan's strong arms reach around Izuku's waist, and moves him so they are facing each other, and brings him to his chest. He then takes the blanket still being clutched to the green haired boys chest and moves it out of the way, gently covering him back up with it. The smaller hero's fluffy green hair softly brushing against his chin.

He always cries when we are together. He must think I'm a monster.

Without the comfort of the blanket, Izuku grabs onto Kacchan's shirt and nuzzles his head into his chest, wiping away the small tears that formed.

After not being able to sleep most of the night, Izuku is finally able to relax in Katsuki's arms.

I feel safe here.

"We'll talk later." Katsuki says. He needs to talk to him about what he said. He didn't know what they were doing. But they were doing something. And he had plans for Izuku's birthday. This wasn't going how he planned things to go. His birthday was supposed to be when he addressed these emotions.. not now.

Izuku just nods into Bakugo's chest.

We will talk later.

Bodies shift, breathing patterns change, and both boys slowly drift to sleep.