Izuku POV

"Kacchan?"

"Hmm?"

"What am I to you?"

We just did something that people who are in a relationship do. Does Kacchan realize that?

"What do you mean?"

He's so dense.

"I mean.. am I more than your friend Kacchan?"

I'm so nervous.

"I don't know." He says with a blank face.

He doesn't know? What does he mean he doesn't know? maybe he's confused.. I don't know. What we just did was amazing.. seeing and hearing Kacchan getting off was.. damn. But he should know. Contrary to popular belief, Kacchan doesn't always act on impulse. There isn't a thing he's done that he didn't think through. I should know. I've studied him for years. He wouldn't kiss me, or hug me, or touch me.. if he didn't like me. Right?

But.. he's also really close with Kirishima.. does he kiss him when they "run" and "study". Kirishima always wants to be around him. Kirishima is also more attractive than me, and more confident..He's always touching his shoulders, and smiling at him to.. things I'd never be able to get away with.

I know I'm just jealous and not thinking straight. But I need to know..

"Kacchan.. do you do these things with Kirishima? Like do you kiss him when you guys are 'studying' ? "

Kacchan suddenly gets up and pushes me off of him.

He's going to yell. I've struck a nerve. Brace yourself. Stay strong. Don't cry.

"NO! GOD!! WHY WOULD YOU ASK ME THAT??! YOU OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW I DON'T LIKE HIM!!"

Dammit. I'm going to cry. Stupid tears. Stay inside.

"But..y-you're c-close to him..and I see the way he looks at you.. he.. l-likes you..and y-you just said you don't know how you feel about me..how am I supposed to know you don't like him... y-you haven't said you like me. "

No. Stoppit tears. Don't cry.

"AND?? I don't invite him over to my house, I don't go to the mall with him and help him pick out clothing, I don't KISS HIM. YOU'RE THE ONLY PERSON IVE DONE THAT WITH DAMMIT!!"

Yep.. here they come. I should just go..

I get up from the bed and start to find my clothes. I need to get dressed and just go.

Wait.. I was his first kiss??

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?"

And he's back fo yelling. The tears are flowing. Maybe I can take some of Kacchan's clothes and return them later. Mine are dirty.. dammit.

I rummage through Kacchan's drawers and find a shirt and sweat pants. I quickly start to put them on and grab my phone and keys.

"DEKU!! STOP, GET BACK HERE!"

Kacchan starts to get dressed.

Nope. Nope. I can't do this. I've messed things up.

"ANSWER ME DAMMIT!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?"

His clothes are so much bigger than mine.. at least these pants have a draw string..

"I'm j-just gunna go b-back to my room now.. s-sorry I asked."

"TELL ME WHY YOU ASKED DAMMIT!!"

I'm completely hysterical. This was a mistake he's so angry.

"BECAUSE I LIKE YOU! and.. I-I don't want you to kiss him.."

Great.. I'm sobbing non stop.

I need to take a moment to catch my breath.

Kacchan is staring at me with an unreadable expression right now. I don't know what he's thinking. But I hope he stops yelling.

"You don't know what I am to you Kacchan! How am I supposed to know you don't do this with him? He likes you. Everyone in class knows he wants you. I see how he looks at you, hear how he talks to you, and.. I dunno Kacchan.. why me? Why? Why would you choose a DEKU like me?? I don't know anything about how you feel."

I take another deep breath.

"If you asked me what you are to me... I would tell you that I think that you are the most incredible, most wonderful, most amazing, strongest, hottest, most intelligent person I know. I would also say that you are extremely important to me. You are my best friend. You are my first thought in the morning, and my last thought before I go to bed. I think about you all day long, I am constantly trying to get your attention, and trying to win your affection. I want to spend every day with you. Every. Single. Day. I have felt this way about you since we were kids. It may not have of been until middle school that I started to find you attractive, but I've know how Ive felt about you then, and how I feel about you now. And if you can't tell me what I am to you..Then I don't know what I'm doing! So I'm going to go. I'm going to take a shower. And when you're ready to tell me what I am to you... You can come find me. I don't just like you...I LOVE YOU Kacchan!"

No POV

As soon as he slammed the door, Katsuki quickly threw on the rest of his clothes and ran after him. Before he opened the door to the stairwell, Katsuki runs up behind him, and tightly wraps his arms around Izuku's waist, and rests his head on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry." he says in a small voice.

"Let go of me Kacchan." Izuku sobs.

"Izu.. please.." Katsuki Bakugo never thought he would see the day that he would beg for someone. He never begs.

"No. Because you're just doing this right now because of what I said. I made a fool of myself... I'm e-embarrassed"

Izuku is starting to shake. He ruined their moment again. He just had to ask him how he felt. He had to bring up Kirishima. He was so mad at himself. He knows he is overreacting. He knows he's being dramatic. So much has happened today.. it's so overwhelming. He just said the "L" word. And Kacchan hasn't even said the little "l" words. All he can do right now is sob.

"That's not true.. and Eijiro is my friend.. I don't ask him to sleep with me, I don't make him food, I don't kiss him, I don't touch him like that.. only you.. I'll talk with him and tell him to stop being so touchy feely with me. If you need time to yourself that's fine. I guess.. but I don't want you to go. I'm.. sorry"

It took a lot of courage for Katsuki to get that out of his mouth. He has a hard time staying how he feels. Let alone apologizing to people. But he doesn't want to lose the boy he loves even thought he hasn't said he loves him yet.

"And If you need to shower.." he says in a suggestive tone, "you can always shower with me. I also don't ask Kiri to shower with me." he licks Izuku's ear in attempt to loosen him up, and get him to calm down.

And because he's a fucking horndog who thinks they can have make up sex in the shower.

A small smile spreads across Izuku's face and he sighs. "Kacchan. There are too many people around for me to shower with you. And I don't know how clean we would get."

Izuku starts to calm down. He knows that Katsuki meant what he said. He isn't one to lie. He's never lied to him. He's omitted truths, but never lied. Dropping the items in his hands, he turns around to face him, and wraps his arms around his neck.

It's truly a miracle that no one is in the hallway watching them right now.

Katsuki wraps his arms around the smaller boy, and leans in for a kiss. It's a deep kiss, but only lasts for about 30 seconds.

"Fine, go shower alone.. you better think of me when you wash yourself."

Izuku turns beet red. I can't believe he just said that!

"But come back here when you're done.. okay? There's a movie on Netflix I want to watch with you."

I can't believe I just said that.

"Okay.. and.. I'm sorry. If you're not ready to tell me

how you feel yet.. I'll just have to accept it. Because I don't want to stop being with you" Izuku gives him one more tight hug before letting go.

"Also, please nothing scary on Netflix.. I've cried and screamed enough today."

Katsuki smirks. "Can't make any promises.. now hurry up" and he smacks his ass before he walks back to his room.

Friday. I will tell him on Friday. Only 3 more days.