No POV

When they got to the dorm building Katsuki let go of Izuku's hand. He's still unsure about making whatever they are public. The loss of the hand holding his made Izuku sad. He looks over at Katsuki and notices he's has a scowl on his face. He starts to speed up and wizzes past the smaller boy.

Izuku lets out a sad sigh. Why do I love someone who messes with my mind so much?

Katsuki went straight to the elevator so he can get his stuff to shower. Not even waiting for Izuku to join him. He had all these thoughts and emotions running through his head. He screwed up. Why does Izuku love him? He feels so very unworthy. He also really hurt his best friend.

Katsuki POV

What the hell is wrong with me?? Everything is going to shit! Nothing is going right..

Deku I'm sure is still upset. I would be too if I found out he tried to kiss Halfie or some shit like that. What was I thinking trying to kiss Kiri? He's never going to forgive me. Neither of them.. I dont deserve them.

—time skip..Katsuki bae had a boring shower.—

I don't know what to do.

[Me 8:00 am] I don't want to see you again today.

[Izu 8:03 am] ...

[Me 8:03 am] I'm just an asshole who makes you upset. I should keep my distance.

[Izu 8:05] I'm going to talk to Kirishima.

[Izu 8:05] Do whatever you want. You always do.

Ouch. That was so cold. He must still be mad at me.

I hope Kiri is alright..

Izuku POV

Why is he doing this? I need to talk to Kirishima. Figure out what's going on. And I need to apologize.

knock knock*

I hope he's in here.

"Who is it?"

He sounds so.. so sad..

"M-Midoriya.. can we talk?"

I heard movement inside the room. And the door open slightly. Kirishima greeted me with a nervous and forced looking half smile.

"H-hey.. sure.. come in"

As soon as I got inside it was very clear that he had been crying. His eyes were puffy, and there was a box of tissues by his bed.

"Can we sit?"

He nodded his head yes, and I sat at his desk. He took a seat on his bed facing me.

"So.. did Kacchan really ask to.. to kiss you?"

Kirishima looked like he was going to cry again. He looked down at his feet and sniffled.

"Yea" he chocked out.

I got up to sit next to him on the bed.

"Can I give you a hug?"

He shook his head yes still looking down. I could tell he was crying. I don't want to be mean like Kacchan and yell at him. He clearly feels terrible already. I slowly go to wrap my arms around him, and he cries on my shoulder. I hug him tighter and start rubbing his back.

"I'm sorry Kirishima" I whisper and nuzzle my face on his shoulder. "I'm so sorry"

We sat like that with him crying, and me comforting him for awhile. I just let him cry. Kacchan hurt him too.

He eventually pulled away and blew his nose.

"I'm sorry.. I'm so weak. I'm sure you think less of me now." Kirishima moves away and sat up against his head board hugging his knees to his chest.

"No.. I don't." I gave him a smile.

"So.. tell me what happened"

I listened to him recount what happened. It was just as he said before. Kacchan and him were running, he was in a trance, Kirishima stopped him, and he asked if he could kiss him, and Kiri told him no.

"I.. I wanted to though.. isn't that terrible?" he nervously laughed.

"No.. it's not."

"He's my best friend.. and he really likes you. I can't have him.." the look on Kirishima's face was heart breaking. He loves him just as much as I do.

"He is pretty great..but I don't think he likes me Kirishima"

I showed him the text he sent me this morning.

"See? He doesn't even want to see me. And why is it that he's told you that he likes me.. but hasn't told me?"

Now I'm the one starting to cry. We really are a bunch of saps this morning.

"You know Bakugo.. he's.. he's Bakugo. He doesn't know how to express his feelings in words."

He looks over at me and smiles.

"I'm sure he has something big planned for you. He likes you Midoriya.. you're all he ever talks about. That and wanting to be the best of course." He said with a smile. He seems to be cheering up.

Butterflies start to dance in my stomach. I wonder if he does have something planned. That would make me so happy. I decide to change the subject.

"I think Todo likes me."

Kirishima shifted his body to face me and sat criss cross on his bed.

"Oh? Did something happen?"

"I think so.. we were doing yoga this morning.. Me, him, and Ochaco.. and he um.. touched me."

The look on Kirishima's face was making it sound worse than what it was. I quickly explained to him what happened, and he calmed down.

"So.. you gunna tell Baku?"

"Do you think I should? I mean.. we're not dating.. so like.. it's not like I cheated."

And he will kill Todoroki if he finds out.

"I guess that's up to you man.. I mean.. after what happened this morning.. I think you owe it to him."

We were silent for a few moments.

"And just because he's not your boyfriend doesn't mean he isn't expecting you to be loyal... like I said.. he really likes you."

Sigh Kiri is right.

"But he doesn't want to see me today.. remember? Or talk to me.. how am I supposed to tell him?"

"Give him sometime. I'm sure he just needs to blow off some steam. If anyone should be mad it's me. He put me in such a terrible position. He.. he knows I have.. feelings for him. Which I will never act on of course! But.. still."

I'm glad Kiri is being so open. I trust that he wouldn't do anything. I hope he can find someone else though. I can't imagine having to watch my crush fall in love with another person.

Kirishimas phone buzzes.

"Oh hey, speak of the devil.. he just texted me. He said he's coming over to talk.. you better go."

"Thanks Kiri.. and again.. I'm sorry for yelling at you.. being in love with Mr. Explodo Kills can be really painful sometimes."

"Heh.. yea.. but he likes you.. trust me."

As I go to open the door I am met face to face with Blasty himself. I quickly look down at my feet.

"Oh.. H-hey Kacchan.. I was Uh just leaving."

As I was rushing out, he grabs my upper arm and pulls me to him. He then brings his other hand up to my face and gives me a quick kiss. Thankfully we were still technically in Kiri's room so no one saw that.

My face turns bright red. And he pushes me out and closes the door behind him.

Maybe he really does like me.

Kirishima POV

That so was cute! No! Stoppit! You're mad at him!

"Hey Eijiro.. I need.."

"To stop talking and listen to me? Right. Sit down."

Im not letting him bulldoze me. He needs to know that what he did is not okay.

"What you did, what you asked me to do.. was not okay."

Bakugo was sitting on my bed looking very serious.

"I know.. and.."

"I'm not done yet. It is clearly not a secret that I like you. I have been trying my hardest to stop liking you. You are my best friend, and I want you to continue to be my best friend. But when my best friend asks me if he can kiss me... It is very, very confusing."

Dammit tears say inside.

"Especially when this is the same "best friend" who has been telling me that he likes someone else. Someone who I have been helping him surprise, and confess his feelings for. And he asks me to kiss him? No that is not OK!"

And now I'm yelling. And I'm crying. Dammit.

"Do you have any idea what type of thoughts were going through my head when you asked me that? Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to tell you no? Because it was really hard! It was really hard because I have been wanting to kiss you for years! I like Midoriya. He is my friend. I don't hurt my friends! Why the hell would you indirectly ask me to hurt my friend!?"

Bakugo has been looking at me and silent the whole time.

"Dammit Katsuki!! I wasn't supposed to cry over you anymore!"

I grab a tissue to blow my nose. As I'm blowing my nose, I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"Eijiro.. I'm.. I'm sorry. I don't know what I was thinking. and I don't know what else to say..I should just go.."

He starts to head to the door.

"Wait.. I-I'm not done yet."

He turns around and faces me.

"Midoriya really likes you you know. Don't screw that up. He came in here so full of doubts and confusion. You better hope that he still wants to be with you come Friday. Don't ruin his birthday."

Bakugo lets out a sigh.

"I know. I'll try not to"

And he opened the door and left.

Why did I have to fall in love with my best friend?

No POV

12pm.

Izuku and Katsuki spent the rest of their mornings alone. Neither one attempted to talk to the other.

Izuku was confused by the kiss he got after leaving Kirishima's. He wishes Katsuki would just tell him how he feels. He's sick of the mind games.

Bakugo has never been good at expressing his emotions. It's hard enough for him to apologize.

All of his life he has felt like he is not good enough. He was always told he was overly confident, which is a sign of weakness. All the friends he had growing up were afraid of him, so they followed him around so they wouldn't get picked on.

He was called a bully, which was a characteristic of a weak person. He was captured by the sludge villain because he was weak. None of the hero's that day helped him.. Deku was the only one to try to save him. He felt like he wasn't worth saving.

Deku beat him in their first class with all Might because he was weak. Todoroki didn't use his flames on him during the sports festival because he wasn't a worthy opponent.

When he got captured by the League of Villains, he got captured because he wasn't strong enough, or fast enough to fight back. When All Might came to his house to ask if his parents still wanted to attend UA, his mom said he got captured because he was weak.

He also didn't get his provisional license when everyone else did, and felt like a failure. He felt like there was something wrong with him.

He caused All Might to retire. He bullied the boy he loved for years because he was afraid of the feelings he had for him... all these things, along with all the other things he tried and "failed at" over his years at UA, really messed with his head.

But Izuku was his one constant. He accepted the fact that he likes him after they fought at ground beta. He's known he's liked him for a long time.. so why is this so hard? Why can't he just say it?

"I love you Izuku."

It shouldn't be that hard.

Izuku POV

buzz buzz*

[Kacchan️ 12:01 pm] have you eaten yet?

[Me 12:01 pm] no.

[Kacchan️12:02 pm] come to the cafeteria with me?

[Me 12:02 pm ] K.

It's just lunch.. right?

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