A/N: This one takes place after Fighter Flight. Kanan is beginning to train Ezra and he feels meditation should be key. Enjoy
Kanan was starting to become a little frustrated. It had only been a week and already Ezra and him were struggling with training.
Kanan decided to start Ezra's Jedi training with meditation, a necessary practice to be a Jedi. For a week now the two had no success in the area. Kanan told Ezra what to do, but it seemed like Ezra was missing something or just wasn't focusing. Kanan wasn't mad at Ezra, but he was starting to lose his patience and that was what upset himself. Kanan knew he had to be patient with Ezra; just like Depa was with himself. But Kanan wasn't Depa.
"You're brooding." Hera stated as she entered his room.
Kanan got out of his meditative position and stood up.
"I don't brood." Kanan assured.
Hera though knew what was going on, "Kanan, no one expects you two to be able to get the hang of it all." Hera assured Kanan.
Kanan let out a sigh, "What did he tell you?"
Hera shrugged her shoulders, "Nothing really. But the kid seems to think he's letting you down."
Kanan was skeptical, "He's not letting me down. If anything I'm letting him down."
"Have you told him that?" Hera asked.
Kanan didn't answer.
Hera continued her lecture, "Look, I know you two are both in totally different positions now. You're now a master, and Ezra is a student. You're used to be a leader and giving orders, not teaching someone new things; and Ezra isn't used to having anyone guide him, to want to teach him."
Kanan's face softened a bit, he hadn't really thought of Ezra being unused to guidance. Then again he had grown up on the streets, so it would make sense for the kid to learn things himself.
"Hera, the problem is I'm trying to teach him, but I don't think I'm doing it right. I know the kid is listening but he doesn't seem to understand." Kanan told Hera.
"Is that what he tells you?" Hera questioned.
"No, but-,"
Hera put her hand up to silence the Jedi.
"Talk to him. You might be surprised by what he tells you." Hera told Kanan as she got up to leave Kanan to his thoughts.
Kanan hated to admit it, but Hera was right. Kanan was used to asking questions, he was naturally curious. But it wasn't fair to assume Ezra was.
So Kanan got his comlink and ordered Ezra to meet him on top of the Ghost.
Kanan made his way to the top of the Ghost expecting a long wait for his student. Kanan though was stunned to find his Ezra already there, watching the sun set.
Kanan took a seat next to Ezra ready to take Hera's advice.
But Ezra decided to ask a question, "Was it hard for you at first?"
Kanan was a little taken aback, but knew what the kid was talking about.
"I struggled with it at first." Kanan revealed, "I couldn't really seem to stop thinking of new questions. Like, 'why are we doing this', how long are we doing this', and why Yoda spoke strangely'?" The last one earned a laugh from Ezra.
Kanan continued, "But my master, Depa, she taught me how to let go of my emotions, let my guard down, and just focus on the force."
Ezra looked away, like he was hiding something.
"Kid, I know mediation isn't the most thrilling thing learn, but it is essential to be able to connect to the Force."
"What if I just can't?" Ezra asked nervously.
"What makes you think that?" Kanan questioned with some concern.
Ezra fell silent.
"Look, I know you're not used to talking about your problems. But I want to help you Ezra, and I can't unless I know what's wrong." Kanan told Ezra.
Ezra then let out a sigh before he answered, "I just can't do it?"
Kanan was confused, "Do what?"
"Let it go. I know when you meditate you got let go and focus on just the Force, but I'm not used to doing that." Ezra admitted.
Kanan was starting to understand. "Okay so when you try to ease your mind, what happens?"
"I end up thinking about our supplies, the Empire, the others. It is like I don't know how to 'not' think about those things." Ezra then laughed at himself, "I sound insane huh?"
"No kid I get it," Kanan assured his padawan, "You are used to thinking ahead. You're used being survival mode most of the time and after a while it's kind of hard to turn it off. Sometimes I have a hard time not thinking those things." Kanan revealed.
"How do you do it?" Ezra asked.
"You just trust the force." Kanan told him simply.
Ezra looked skeptical, Kanan then explained,
"It's not that hard Ezra, you've been unintentionally doing it for years; you just didn't know it was the force."
"But-," Ezra began to argue.
"Kid, do you trust me?" Kanan asked calmly.
Ezra was a little surprised by the question but answered, "yes."
"Then trust me when I tell you that you can focus on just the force. You can let your guard down and everything will be okay." Kanan assured Ezra.
Kanan then began to meditate. Ezra deciding to trust his master crossed his legs like Kanan had his, and closed his eyes.
"Just breath," Kanan instructed, "and clear your mind."
Ezra did as Kanan instructed, and for a moment, he actually felt a weight lift off his shoulders. Ezra began to focus on his connection, and for a moment he knew he was connecting, but then his instincts kicked in once again, causing him to open his eyes.
Ezra was so frustrated, and only frustrated even more when he saw Kanan smirking.
"I know, I screwed up again."
"Kid, you were meditation for almost half an hour." Kanan revealed.
This really surprised Ezra, "It didn't feel that long."
Kanan smiled as he ruffled the kids hair, "Normally it should be longer, but it's definitely a start."
Ezra smiled as his master did. Both relieved they were getting somewhere in their training; and unintentionally happy they got to get to know one another a little better.
I hope everyone likes this. I have had this idea up for a while and i finally typed it. I hope to update my stories soon! wish me luck