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Lost Without You
Chapter 9 Forgiveness
"Hello Raven," Robin said coldly.
I stared at him in horror, my powers automatically turning on the lights. Robin was wearing his usual uniform, cape and all. He was clutching his bo staff and several discs. At the sight of my former teammate I could feel the Peace that was in my soul ebb away in a manner of seconds. Instead I became filled with an inner desire for revenge. I kept my feet on the ground in an effort to not fulfill that desire.
"Hello Robin," I replied. My tone matched his. "Have you come back to join us again? Well, thanks to you, the Teen Titans is no more."
"I could care less about the team anymore. All that matters now is that I get justice from what you took from me."
Robin threw another disc at me. This time I was ready and blocked his attack easily. "What are you talking about?"
"Starfire. I had just built enough courage to tell her that I loved her. You turned her against me. I went to Tamaran and begged her to come back. She refused to even see me. Because of you, she wants nothing to do with me." I dodged another disc. "You ruined my life!"
I couldn't take my eyes off the hatred on his face. His teeth were gritted furiously. I so badly wanted to fight back, but with Brave gone, the only thing I could do was defend myself. I flew behind the kitchen counter in an effort to put more distance between us. "I did nothing but state the truth. You're the reason everything happened. You drove Beast Boy to suicide. You started all of this!"
"You're damn right I drove him to suicide!"
My heart literally stopped beating for a split second. I wasn't expecting him to actually admit it. "W-what?"
Robin's expression changed from fury to grim satisfaction. He grinned at me maliciously. "That's right. I did it. Since I'm going to kill you anyway, you might as well die knowing the truth. Starfire was right. I never liked Beast Boy. He was always an annoying weakling who never took anything seriously. He was always in the way. I never wanted him to join our team in the first place."
He loomed closer. I backed away, my eyes still staring at him in horror. Robin continued. "Then Beast Boy ruined my chances in getting Slade at last. When I was Red X and saved him from the train, Slade immediately knew it was me. If I had just let the train hit him, Slade would be in jail. So I knew I had to get rid of our teammate once and for all.
The accident at the lab turned out to be the perfect opportunity. I used that as an advantage to turn Starfire and Cyborg against Beast Boy. I knew I didn't have to worry about you because you kept your distance anyway. I convinced them that he was dangerous and worthless, and they turned against him just as I hoped. I knew my plan was working and Beast Boy was falling fast. I continued to knock him down and belittle him until he realized that suicide was the only way out. Beast Boy is dead because of me, and I'm proud of it."
Robin was getting dangerously closer to me. I barely noticed. Robin's words of hate rang horribly in my ears. My body shook as I felt myself losing control.
Beast Boy is dead because of me, and I'm proud of it
"What's the matter, Raven?" Robin taunted. "Am I making you angry?"
The world started to get fuzzy. My eyes rolled to the back of my head. I suck in a sharp breath as I felt myself losing complete control of my emotions.
Rage
I emerged in absolute fury. As I gained height, I advanced swiftly toward Robin, who was trying to put on a brave face. I was no way in hell going to start by intimidation I was going to kill the bastard-for Beast Boy. But first I was going to let him know how outraged I was by his confession. He intentionally caused Beast Boy's suicide. He was going to suffer.
With a black tentacle I grabbed Robin by his legs and lifted him off the ground. Then I slammed him hard against the wall, twice. A loud cracking sound rang in the tower. Robin yelled in pain. I was sure that I had cracked some of his ribs. Then I flung him in the opposite direction.
SHATTER!
After pulling Robin away from the now broken window, I threw my former friend to the ground hard. Robin's back hit the large button on the wall. The alarm went off, but I ignored it. He tried to escape the tentacle that were still wrapped around him, but I tightened my grip. Already I could see the numerous cuts on his body and his torn uniform from coming in contact with the glass. I advanced on him swiftly. I wasn't even close to being finished.
"THE ONLY ONE WHO IS GOING TO GET JUSTICE TONIGHT IS ME! YOU INTENTIONALLY TOOK THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! I'M GOING TO AVENGE HIM BY KILLING YOU! SAY GOODBYE!"
I tore off the cabinet doors and flung them at my target. I snarled and threw more objects at him, keeping him on the ground. I grinned in satisfaction as blood ran down his heavily bruised face from a broken nose. I was also enjoying Robin's constant struggle to keep breathing.
"HURTS DOESN'T IT?!" I taunted.
Using my powers I pulled the sharpest knife from the knife block and placed it in my right hand. I was going to stab him until he was no longer recognizable. I shrank to normal size and advanced on him, the knife held high. I made sure that the tentacle around Robin was tight enough so he couldn't get away.
"Wait!" Robin cried out unexpectedly. His voice was ragged and hoarse. "Don't do this! You're better than that, Raven."
"YOU DESERVE IT!" I boomed.
"Is that what Beast Boy would've wanted?" Robin asked desperately. "For you to kill me?"
I stopped short, a few feet away from Robin. My grip started to lessen. Having little strength, Robin's knees gave way and he hit the floor.
You need to forgive him, Raven
Once more I felt myself losing complete control of the power I had over Raven. I struggled to stay dominant. "NO! LET ME KILL HIM! LET ME BRING JUSTICE!"
Then everything came fast as I was forced back to Nevermore once more.
Raven
Shakily I dropped the knife. I couldn't believe that I almost took a life. I stared at Robin's bleeding form, as he struggled to his feet. The tentacle was gone. "I-I'm sorry Robin."
I didn't get a chance to react. Robin's hand lashed out, striking me hard across the face.
SMACK!
I fell to the ground in a gasp of pain. Robin was smirking at me. "You are so pathetic, Raven. All I had to do was mention Beast Boy and you immediately fall to pieces. You'll be easy to kill."
Robin quickly grabbed his bo staff from the ground and raised it high. I gasped, preparing my shield. Suddenly there was movement and Cyborg slammed into Robin, pushing him away from me. I tried to catch my breath. I took in the scene in front of me.
Along with Cyborg was Speedy from the Titans East. I wasn't sure where the other members of the Titans East were, but I was so glad they were there. They had responded to the alarm going off. I leaned against the wall and watched as the former friends fought each other. Despite the fact that he was outnumbered and badly injured, Robin was fighting pretty well.
I stared at the hate on Robin's face as he blocked Speedy's arrows and Cyborg's sonic blasts with his staff. I came to a sudden realization. Robin's hatred for Beast Boy and for me was so strong that it was all he could think about. He couldn't let go. It was slowly destroying him. Instead of hating him back, I slowly started to forgive him, just like I had with the others. I pushed myself off the wall. I had to stop this madness.
"STOP!"
All three Titans froze in the middle of the now destroyed living room. Speedy had an arrow ready to be released. Cyborg was aiming his cannon at Robin, who was gripping his bo staff tightly.
I struggled to my feet, then flew beside Cyborg. With a gentle hand, I lowered his cannon. "All this hate is getting us nowhere. Instead of fighting because of the past, we should be forgiving each other and moving on." I glanced at Robin, swallowing the lump in my throat. "Robin, I know you are really angry at me right now, but I beg you to let go of your hate. If you don't, it will destroy you in the end. Let's just end this peacefully and continue on with our lives."
A small silence passed between the three of us. I stared at Robin with pleading eyes. Unfortunately it was obvious he wasn't moved by my speech. His expression was still cold and angry. "It's too late."
Everything happened so fast. As Robin started towards me, Speedy released his arrow. Before I could stop myselfr, I ran in front of Robin, right in front of the arrow.
BAM!
I screamed in agony as the arrow hit me straight in the chest. Unable to stand on my feet, I fell backwards, my back hitting the floor. My vision blurred as the excruciating pain continued to build. There was a loud commotion. Vaguely I felt the arrow pulled out of my chest. I gasped hard for breath.
"Hold on, Raven," Cyborg was saying. His voice seemed so far away. "We'll get you help."
A tear fell down my cheek. I felt my heartbeat slowing down. I knew I wasn't going to survive the night. I forced myself to focus on Cyborg's horrified face. I was vaguely aware that Speedy and Robin were standing quite a distance, staring at me in shock. My eyes squeezed shut in effort to hold back the increasing pain.
"Nothing can help me now,," I whispered, another tear falling down my cheek. I struggle to get in my final words. "I have forgiven you all-for everything. Goodbye."
My breathing became nearly impossible. As my end became near, Peace consumed me from head to toe. I felt satisfied. I had brought Peace to my emotions at last by forgiving the others.
"I'm so proud of you, Raven."
My eyes opened halfway. An almost transparent Beast Boy knelt on the other side of me. He was looking at me with such tenderness. I smiled. "Hello Beast Boy. I thought you were gone."
Cyborg gave me a strange look. It was obvious that he couldn't see Beast Boy on the other side of me.
"I came back for you. I'll guide you safely to the afterlife."
My world became fuzzy as my organs started shutting down. I was ready to move on to the next life with my true love finally by my side. "I'm ready."
Beast Boy leaned closer to me. "I love you, Raven."
"I love you, too, Beast Boy."
I closed my eyes as Beast Boy's lips met mine in our first and last kiss. His lips were cold, but tasted just right. I kissed him back hungrily. A white light flashed in front of my eyes as we entered everlasting peace.
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