loneliness

my dear Eveline

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mommy's, so sorry

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that she was unable to...

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bring you back to this world for a long...

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but that man...

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It has been so hard without you...

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little happy baby smile...

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I Wonder...

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the man, who I would have called your father...

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unlike your actual birth father...

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that SCUM OF A MAN, who tried to hurt you...

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then it was the man, the one who I would have called your father...

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I loved him, so very dearly...

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but he died trying to help you...

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such a good man...

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always gentle and ever scared to let you fall out of his arms...

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Sometimes I feel jealous when any other woman...

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talk to my sweet Y/N...

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sometimes I thought he was too kind...

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BUT THAT'S EVERYTHING I LOVED ABOUT HIM...

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I have WANTED a taste of his body...

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satisfy him and him alone...

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I WANT him, so so so SO much

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but I will never have that chance again...

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or to be able to see...

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*sob*

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*sob*

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see you again *sod* and i...

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HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH...

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to be continued.