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(Pony's POV)
They are gone.
It's now or never.
I stood up for the last time, and looked around my room. Never again will I see it.
I limp towards the kitchen, for the last time. I remember when I would always help out Mom. I remember baking cookies on Christmas to give to Santa, I remember making my first chocolate cake. I remember Dad showing me how make a turkey on thanksgiving. Now, maybe they can show me more….
"I'm sorry…" I whispered.
The pain in my leg was getting worse the longer I stood.
But I didn't care.
I went towards the living room next. I had so many memories there. I remember how the gang always played poker at the table. I remember how the radio and tv were always blasting at full volume, while everyone was just relaxing. I remember the first time I got a trophy, Mom and Dad put it on the mantle. There are so many pictures in this room, all of the gang and my family. We are all together and happy. Oh how I wish it could be like that, maybe in a long while. I remember when I was happy…
I remember when I came in this room laughing loudly. I remember the time when I wasn't ever scared to walk in this room. I remember when I would sit and read on the couch.
But never again will that happen.
I then limped to Sodas room.
It was messy, to say the least. But it was his. That's all I wanted.
I looked around, slowly observing things. There were still many pictures of Darry, Soda and I on the wall in there. On the desk there was a framed picture of the gang. He always kept his favorite pictures he took in his room. I hated how soda had been treating me, but it's for the best I guess. At least now I know Im a waste of space.
I had to say one more goodbye to him, so I limped into the room and scribbled something on a random piece of paper. It read,
'Even if you don't love me, I'll always love you Soda.
I'll miss you.
-Ponyboy'
I wasn't lying. I was ganna miss Soda, he's the person I love the most in this whole wide world. It hurt to know he didn't want me around but, at least leaving will make him happy.
I left his room and contemplated going into Darrys'. But I couldn't. Walking in there would only make me want to Change my mind. I didn't want to change my mind. I didn't want to feel this pain.
Some people say suicide is selfish, they say your just taking your pain and passing it to someone else. I guess they're right. But the person who feels the pain I'm feeling is strong enough. They would keep fighting. I'm just weak and useless. I'm giving up my fight. I always have been weak. So it's nothing new.
I started towards the bathroom. The last room I'd see. I inhaled long and deeply, and walked inside. I closed the door and locked it behind me.
I looked like shit in the mirror. I don't understand how I actually thought my looks were decent before. I look hideous. I always have, always will. There were tear streaks on my face and bags under my eyes. My clothes were noticeably getting too big for me and my skin was covered in bruises of purple, red, and brown. I'm glad I won't have to see this monster ever again.
I slowly walked over to the cabinet and opened it, taking out the pills. My eyes spotted a razor in the back of the cabinet too. I guess I could use it to speed up the process. It's time.
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(3rd person POV)
Darry raced down the street towards the house. It wasn't far, but after what Johnny had said about Pony, we didn't have much time left. We had to go fast. Twobits' hunk-of-junk was following us close behind.
"Darry, hurry!" Soda yelled in a panicked voice.
"I'm trying, I'm trying. Hold on soda." I replied in a calm, yet shaky voice.
Pony set the razor on the counter as he slowly opened up the bottle tears running down his face once again. Once it was open he dropped the lid down to the floor. He poured out one pill first and just stared at it, soon he put it in his mouth and swallowed.
Next he would pour out two.
"We're almost there!" Darry said in a noticeably less controlled voice. He was beginning to panic.
"Dar, calm down. Don't panic now." Steve said placing a hand on his shoulder.
Darry just nodded as a reply.
You're being a very good boy, Ponyboy.
Pony just smiled and poured out two pills. He quickly popped them into his mouth. He wanted this to be over as soon as possible.
How about slitting your wrists some, Ponyboy?
"I-I guess." Pony choked out. He grabbed the razor and slowly slid it across his wrists with a lot of pressure to make it deep.
Good boy.
Once Darry pulled up he jumped out the car, along with everyone else.
Slamming the door open Darry yelled, "PONYBOY?!"
No answer.
Darry decided to go look through all the rooms, along with Soda. The others looked outside the house.
Once they got to the bathroom door they started banging.
"Ponyboy! Open this door now!" Darry's face started to pale at the thought of what he was doing.
"PONYBOY LET US IN, PLEASE." Soda cried.
Bang Bang
"Ponyboy! Open this door now!"
That got Pony out of his mini trans. He had make 5 long deep cuts by that time.
BANG BANG
"PONYBOY LET US IN, PLEASE!" Came a cry.
Soda
"I'm sorry soda…" Pony whispered in a soft voice. He was already beginning to feel woozy. But he wasn't done. He took out three more pills and popped them into his mouth.
The gang heard us yelling from outside and ran back in. They heard the rattle of the pills in the bottle that Pony had.
BANG BANG
"Holy- PONYBOY OPEN THIS DOOR!" Darry screamed again, rapidly turning the knob and banging in the door.
"I c-can't!" Came a sob.
"Baby, yes you can. Just please open the door for us." Soda replied crying harshly already.
BANG BANG
"Darry we gatta break it down, now." Dally said in a slightly worried voice.
"Ok, lets do it."
"I c-can't!" Pony cried.
BANG BANG
He leaned against a wall and slid down tears streaming down his face. He was feeling a loss of breath and was shaking. His wrists stung and burned, and he could feel his body shutting down.
Still… he grabbed the pill bottle and took 4 more.
He was slowly starting to loose consciousness.
Dally and Darry began kicking and ramming into the door as hard as they could. Steve was just watching with wide eyes and Twobits eyes glazed over with tears, refusing to let them fall. Soda was sobbing against the wall.
Nobody knew what they would find in that bathroom. No noise came from it.
BOOM
The door broke down and they all rushed in.
Ponyboy was laying against the wall almost completely unconscious. His wrists cut and bloody while his body was slightly convulsing on the ground.
Nobody could help but notice the bruises all along his body and his skinny frame. His arm seemed to be at a wonky angle along with his leg. It was swollen the size of a balloon.
It's good that they couldn't see his mental wounds because that would of destroyed them all.
"Oh my god.." Steve gasped.
"P-Ponyboy…no….nononononono. PONYBOY GET UP!" Darry yelled as tears finally drizzled down his face.
"Ponyboy!" Soda cries as he ran and held Pony's head in his lap. "Nonono, baby this wasn't supposed to happen. You needa get up. PONYBOY!" Soda screamed moving his hair out of his face, sobs shaking his body.
"I'm ganna call 911." Dallas said sternly, his face blank and emotionless.
He doesn't know how to face emotions. He's already lost so many people in his life, he doesn't know if he can take another. Especially Ponyboy. Nobody really expected him to do this. They all thought he was just sad. Nothing more.
Twobit's smile was nowhere to be found. He just stared in horror at the scene in front of him. Steve couldn't move. He really did love the kid.
Screams and shouts were still coming from the bathroom. Until a small voice said,
"I-I'm sorry…"
followed by loud cries.
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(Pony's POV)
It was all starting to get dark. I think the last four pills did it. Everything seemed to be going in slow motion.
The door suddenly banged down to the floor. It would of said some smart ass comment like 'watch it you fucking prick!" Or something like that if I wasn't too weak to even move my head. Yet again, if I wasn't in this position I wouldn't want to say it anyway. Wouldn't be in the mood.
Everyone began to rush into the bathroom. I could make out their faces. It was getting too dark to really see anything.
"PONYBOY, HONEY SAY SOMETHING!" Someone screamed. It sounded like Sodapop.
You've been a really good boy...
"PONY I'M SO, SO SORRY!" Someone else sobbed pulling me close to their chest.
No they're not, don't listen to them Ponyboy.
Ponyboy don't you hear them, they're sorry!
"Baby please wake up! You can't do this!"
"Honey please open your eyes for us, we wanna see your beautiful green eyes."
All I heard was sobs and cries now. They were beginning to become muffled though. I couldn't tell what anyone was saying anymore. The only thing I could hear were the voices.
You did good, Ponyboy…
Ponyboy! What are you doing! People care Pony, people care for you!
Only a little bit of time left…
No! Ponyboy you need to go back! You need to stay awake. Don't close your eyes!
Close your eyes pony, there won't be anymore pain. No more suffering...
Pony, you're making a mistake!
You'll be able to see your parents again Ponyboy…
Your parents wouldn't want you to do this Pony, Don't close your eyes!
It's almost time Pony…
You have a family!
Just close your eyes…
You have friends!
No more pain…
People LOVE you Ponyboy!
Then I heard nothing. There was silence. I used the last bit of energy I had left in my body to say,
"I'm sorry."
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