***Hello, everyone! This story isn't dead after all! Every character belong to Toby Fox, except for Kabel because she's mine, and let's roll!

Chapter Sixteen: Crazy

Over the next month or so, Kabel was trying.

She was trying her best to improve who she was. She tried to have a more optimistic outlook on life, especially when Papyrus called to check in on her-a daily occurrence.

She kept inside all of the things she wanted to really do. Whether that was cursing someone out or straight-up mauling someone with magic, she had to keep it back. All for the sake of getting her fix.

Every Sunday night, she would get to go back to Sans and Papyrus' house and enjoy her cigarettes once again. And good Lord, she was grateful. The rest of the six days, the denial to her addiction's demands almost drove her crazy.

She would commonly have to bite down on her hand when she felt urges, and if she was around other people, they would ask her if she was okay. She would take her hand from her mouth shortly thereafter and usually get on with her day.

Normally, Grillby could help her if they were together. But they weren't always together.

And Kabel could only hold this back for so long before she started to lose it.

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It was evening time now. Actually, it was pretty late at night. Grillby was fast asleep, his flames a gentle crackle that anyone could fall asleep to.

Kabel, however, wasn't quite asleep. She was wide awake, fidgeting in her place, thoughts running through her head at rapid speed. And she was desperately tryin to shut them up. She tried to relax into Grillby's gentle, fire-made arms. Normally, she could do that. But she just couldn't this time.

Shut up... shut up... shut up! SHUT UP! she screamed mentally.

At last, she couldn't take it. She sat up and threw Grillby's arms off of her.

The fire elemental woke up, putting on his glasses. "Kabel?" he asked tiredly.

"Enough. I'm done. I can't take it," Kabel finally submitted. She got up and felt a grip on her wrist.

"Come back to bed. You're just having another episode," Grillby said, getting up behind his girlfriend.

Kabel forced him away. "Episode, my blind eye socket! You can't just... just fix me with how much you love me! You can't fix me! Sans can't fix me! Papyrus can't fix me! This... this BS idea of goodness is driving me crazy! I can't do it!" she cried, clearly desperate. She was breathing hard, and she realized then that glowing, purple tears were running down her face.

Grillby walked towards her cautiously. "Serifa, you have to ca-"

He was cut off by a harsh slap in the face.

"Don't call me that," Kabel growled, her voice hardly even recognizable. She held a magic bone in her hand so tightly that the bone was starting to crack.

"Kabel, you have to calm down! You're the one who's letting this get out of control!" Grillby exclaimed at last.

Kabel opened her mouth to yell back... but she had nothing to say. She dispelled her bone and wiped away the tears on her face.

"Y... yeah. You're right. It's my fault," she said quietly.

Grillby went over and wrapped his arms around her gently. She accepted it, and the soft kiss to the top of her skull as well.

At last, she stepped back. "Hey, I... I need to take a walk. Clear my head. I'll come back," she promised, her voice still thick.

"Fine. I'll be here," Grillby said. He watched as Kabel pulled on her sweater and slipped on a pair of shoes. He was falling asleep as she left.

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A downstairs lighter burned into bone. It wasn't quite the same as the relief of a cigarette... but it would have to do until Sunday.

***And that's where I'm going to leave you for now. Be sure to leave a review on the way out and I'll see you all in the next one! Bye!