2017-07-28
Pairings: SoubiXRitsuka, SoubiXRitsu, RitsuXNagisa and two surprises along the way.
Theme music(Inspiration): Diary of Dreams- the valley; Mindless self Indulgence-This hurt; A life divided-Feel.
Warnings: blood, violance, death, unhealthy relationships, dark themes, dark philosophy.
Write date: 17-07-28 until 17-08-01
Genre: Mystery, romance, tragedy, suspense.
Disclaimer: all canon characters belong to Yun Kouga, I make no money. Though I do own Takehito Kunugi's first name.
A\N: Can't believe I'm finally posting this story! Hope Soubi won't be mad with the wierdnes I'm putting him through.*evil laugh*
Soubi: *reads through script, flushes then drops on the ground* Forget it I'm quitting!
Anyway let's get this started before Soubi runs away . Can't have plot with no main character! :) Hope you enjoy!
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Chapter1: The melody in the darkness.
"Do you know where you are? Do you recognize me? Do you know what happened to Ritsu-sensei?"
A voice kept echoing and consuming his mind, his memories were blurry. Soubi thought he didn't even had any to begin with, so those questions asked of him seemed nonessential, how could have Soubi answered them? He was preoccupied with the need to drink, hence calm his aching throat.
"Soubi-san! Can you hear me?" A disquieted manly voice bothered the young man yet again.
Soubi moaned in an attempt to see through the fog clouding his vision. No use. He tryed to utter, beg that dark apparition for water. Though opening his jaw seemed harder than before, his lips quivered, releasing a pitiful wail.
"Soubi-san answer me!" The voice paused, then suddenly became desperate, calling out.
"Soubi-san. Damn! I need a nurse here! He's loosing consciousness again!"
Those words were the last thing the blonde comprehended. And soon every sound seemed the same, his eyelids felt to heavy to stay open. Soubi faded once again... to a dreamless deep sleep...
Piano. A few high notes played without any structured continuence. No, the artistic individual didn't wish to compose a light blessed harmony to charm his audience or to relieve his musical seed. Those were just ludicrous, mystical sounds penetrating the dark abyss.
Soubi listened to this joke-of-a-music with no fallowing pattern, keeping his eyes shut. The man felt nervous, because he could not understand was it reality or just a simple reverie that struck his mind all of a sudden?
He tryed ignoring the hateful noise that rang in his ears. Although his subconscious mind felt sympathy, longed for it to continue with all of its might . Dissalowing the silence to creep in. As if the quiet was. Death?
Well that's how he percieved his emotions.
The melody seemingly got a darker tone to it, adding more and more low notes. Causing Soubi to shiver as if struck by a cold breeze. Soon he noticed imagery trying to bloom in his head. Those were sightings-memories originated from the melody.
Soubi frowned, those images flew through his head like flies, prohibiting to get caught by his mind and analysed. Soubi felt so lost, out of place, the imaginations ran and ran according to the music's rythm. He felt so tired, annoyed, maybe even depresed, he just wished for it to stop so the blonde could recollect his mind.
No. the patternless music kept playing what seemed for eternaty.
"Stop it. Please stop it. I'm begging you. Stop it!" The blonde repeated those words like a mantra probably to keep sane. Nevertheless with every sentence, with every word or syllable fading away into answerless pit of nothingness Soubi's voice got more disstressed, louder... Insane. That's how his last gibberish sounded like:
" Stop! kill out... I'm sorry, I'm sorry I,m sorry... Absolve my sins, absolve my sins... Absolve. Please, I'm begging. kill!"
The man started gritting his teeth, his words becoming meaningless mutter, harsly swallowed and crunched by the never fed greedy dark.
"Soubi-san..."
A tired voice echoed from before. This utterance permited the darkness to burst out-in a murderous fight between it and the furious brave light. fortunetly the latter won-Soubi eyelids tore an opening, his eyes still trying to adapt to the new enviroment.
Now. Just at this moment Soubi saw that he was laying in an infirmary bed, an IV tucked to his left arm and other machines to his chest. He was in a white room that recked of thick antiseptic smell, the male urged to caugh. Soubi slowly turned his head to the IV safely penetrating his skin were the blonde noticed a horrible sight. Though his body felt to weak to atleast shiver, talk about yell.
The inner part of his elbow was covered with neddle pricks as if thousand bees stang in one place. It was all red and covered with crimson blood. The male released a poor wail while trying to recall from where did he got those marks and why was he in an infirmary anyway? Who brought him here?
"You're finally awake?"
Soubi gently rose his head at the tall middle aged man, sitting on chair beside him. The older male wore his dark shoulder length hair in a low ponytail. He had a piercing just below the right eye and some facial hair, wearing a white long sleeved shirt.The wierd companion glanced at him studying his movement, though after a minute sighed with relief and pulled back wearing a smile on his face.
"Oh. You dont recognize me." The male spoke in a quiet intelligent voice. "Kunugi Takehito. Member of Septimal Moon, temporary head of the Seven Voices academy."
Oh? So Soubi unconsciously traveled all the way to Goura? For what purpose? Is Ritsuka somewhere near? Maybe he could ask him what's going on?
"Ah. I..." Soubi stammered silently with a dry throat. Still wondering which question to chose out of the million spinning in his head.
"Yes, Soubi-san?" Kunugi nodded, analysing the unreasonable shivering of Soubi's left arm ." Say have you ever had parkinson in your left arm?" ( Parkinson-a degenerative disorder of the central nervous system)
"No!" Soubi cocked an eyebrow.
"You do now!"
"W-what! But how?!" the young male yelled, his eyes bloodshot.
"Take a joke, would yea?" Kunugi giggled.
Soubi's eye twitched. What kind of joke was that? The blonde nearly fainted out of fright.
"Ehm... Kunugi-san..." Soubi began, loudening his voice, attempting to ask the hurtful questions that his mind urgued to know the answer to.
"Please. Dont call me that. I'm not your boss or something superior." Kunugi interupted, sighing. After a minute of silence he hissed unsavoury."Just Takehito. Kunugi... it's like you are reffering to my brother."
The blonde gazed in annoyance. That information was not necessary, maybe even impolite.
"Listen Takehito-san. Do you know where is Ritsuka? Loveless Ritsuka." Soubi poured out stammering with a frightened look in his eyes.
Kunugi Takehito got up from the chair, quickly striding to the window and putting his hands on the wondowsill, whisteling. He smoothly ditched Soubi's question.
"Kunugi!" The blonde snapped after a moment."Answer me!"
"It's Takehito. Sorry what was the question?" The black haired male side-glanced, cocking an eyebrow.
Soubi stared angerly. Was this guy a total idiot he got stuck with...or a person who could keep secrets and Unwanted conversations from reaching the day of light, keep them unvoiced forever in the shadows.
"Listen Soubi-san I know one thing, you came here without Loveless."
"What, really? T-then why would I come here alone!" Soubi almost jumped out of bed and Kunugi Takehito grabbed him, holding by the shoulders, keeping the weak man from getting out. Soubi harshly moaned in pain and finally laid back down.
" Easy there. You should lay in bed a day or two." Takehito stated, sitting back on his chair and stretching his hands above his head for no reason.
"I- I have so many questions I dont. Even. K-know where to begin..." Soubi wailed as his breathing lost rythm."I dont understand a thing. I can't remembr anything..."
" Everything will come in time. Now it's time for you to rest Soubi-san." The dark haired male mussitated with a tired voice, rushing through his jeans pocket. And finally getting out a key."Ok Ill be on my way now!" he said enthusiastically, spinning the key on his right index finger by the key hold, then abrubtly stood up.
Right at that time Soubi snatched Takehito's arm.
"Wait Takehito-san. My guess you aren't a staff memeber of the nursery, correct?So why have you come here?"
"Oh good point!" the black haired giggled, turning to face Agatsuma, while running a hand through his hair."I dont know if this is the time to tell you this?"
"Say it don't leave me in the dark!"
The black haired male sighed verbalizing.
"Dont think about it to much. We dont know details of that event ourselves."
"What happened?" Soubi swallowed, his pupils shrinking. An incident most likely occured in Septimal Moon. What exactly happened? If he could believe this Kunugi person, then Ritsuka should not have been caught in it. Even so, this mortal, if he could so easily befog a conversation or conceal the desired truth, Soubi could not trust him for a second. Kunugi Takehito appeared to have a two-faced mask. One side- the cold aristocrat. Second- the carefree liar.
One mystery remained-Soubi esteemed, that if there were two masks concealing his face there might be more. What was his true face hidden behind such perfectly planned masquerade?
"Shit, wasn't hoping to get into laying dress up party!" Soubi joked in his mind though still felt insecure and disturbed. What kind of secret had to be hidden even within Septimal Moon headquarters?
Suddenly a terrible idea flashed through Soubi's head. He sighed quietly, not showing the dark emotions and memories flooding in his mind when the blonde just remember's the bastard's name- Ritsu-sensei.
That's it, if the man wanted to know the truth, he had to seek the help of his former teacher. Because the blonde couldn't stand being in the shadows when his memories reached only prior to last month. Yes, Soubi had a whole blank month of no recollection. He hated and could not stand even thinking about Ritsu. And now he will meet him in order to cognise the unexplained, mysterious events happening behind his back...
"Ah Kunugi-san..." Soubi called the raven haired man as the latter stood at the door.
"I told you to call me Takehito!" The middle aged male snapped not turning around. The unexpected atrocious yelling rendered shivers to go down Soubi's entire spine.
"I-Im sorry..." The blonde stammered, feeling confounded. And this time he called him by his given name prolonging every syllable of it." Takehito-san could you tell me where is Ritsu-sensei?"
"Ritsu..." Takehito whispered, cutting the last part into a silent murmur. Trying to hide some facts again in all likelihood.
"I heard you! Answer me!"
He shuddered, but stayed quiet putting his palm on the handle then tapping his fingers to it. He was stonewalling once more.
Soubi got sick of that behaviour pretty quick, he snarled putting his hands on the edge of the bed in order to get up.
"Takehito-san stop stalling, answer where is that damned Ritsu!? I'm getting up anyway. So tell me now gently or say it to my face when I'm gonna kick you to that wall!"
That was Soubi's last straw of self control and this masked imposter cut it.
Silence. Was the tall-tongued man using it to his twisted game? Silence as a deadly weapon.
"Dont get up you should not walk yet."
"Then...You know what I want," Soubi gave the middle-aged man a glare."Takehito-san."
Kunugi ruffled his hair with his fingers again, then quickly shook his head. After a short minute he began explaining.
"Minami Ritsu is..." He paused, checking the clock, but then he heared Soubi purposelly caugh to get his attention." As I was saying his in rehabilatation."
"W-what did you said?"
"Yes in Septimal Moon's private hospital's joint."
'W-we have that here?' Soubi thought, still staring, while unconsciously shivering and feeling an ache in his stomath.'Why am I even worried that much for the asshole? I shouldn't!' That sentence didn't calmed him down one bit.
"The accident took place a few days ago, when someone assaulted the principal in the backyard. We havn't yet found the culprit." Kunugi explained with a calm voice like it was something that happens every day...
Surely, psychotic killers roaming in a private closed area, stabbing not anyone but the head of the school(what loot!). Yea, that can be seen any time of the hour... nothing special...
"Nana found him heavily bleeding from three wounds and brought him in. Thank god those werent fatal."
Soubi sighed. Okay, that meant he's alive, good to know the blonde hadn't wished death to anyone. Even someone as loathsome as Ritsu.
"The problem started to occur when Minami woke up. Ritsu had the symptoms of being wounded mentally: he didn't talk about that event, most of the time spoke in gibberish not controlling his intake of air. Often passing out from concealing his breath when he begin's to speak." Soubi bit his lip harder with every symptom Kunugi spilled out."that's why Minami's being locked up where it would be safe for him. And I took his place as the momentary headmaster!" The dark haired man seemed proud of that. Keeping his hands on his hips, while staring at the ailing Soubi with sparkles in his eyes.
"Ok I understand," Soubi nodded, keeping his gaze down."So Takehito-san what was your purpose?"
"My purpose?" Kunugi smiled. "For what?"
"For visiting me. You didn't came here just out of free time to say hello I assume." Soubi droned without any emotions in his voice.
The older snapped his tongue, striding back at the ailing man with an annoyed face. Soubi didn't gave in and shot him a glare back.
"What? If I'm a nuisance you shouldn't have gone here in the first place."
"Soubi-san Im here to investigate the slaughterous accident."
"Eh?" The blonde motioned to himself in disbelief. Then bursted out in what seemed a frantic laughter."Hahaha. Your suspecting me?! Well should have known you came here with a reason."
Takehito folded his arms over his chest.
"You may not remember-you Soubi-san," the man went back to his intelligent voice. Slightly leaning his head at the shoulder."Were closely living with Minami for a few weeks now."
"Excuse me," Soubi frowned groaning at the hideous name just mentioned."I think your mistaken. I havn't seen Ritsu-sensei in years."
"Your memories are still blurry. We know better."
Damn. No arguing about that. Soubi felt unneasy, disturbed. This memory lacking, not knowing where you've been or done was seriously creepy and shocking. What was even more putting Soubi on the edge, was this mysterious bloodshed. If Soubi had been with Ritsu why couldn't he had protected his sensei? What happened back then? Likewise why had Soubi abandoned Ritsuka in the first place? The more Soubi knew the more questions he had...
This dumbfounded state he woke up in was driving the young man insane... Soubi nearly yanked back out of the bed when a cold strong arm suddenly grasped his palm.
"Soubi patience. You'll know soon enough." Takehito ordered firmly.
For the next few minutes the light-haired male stared into space, his jaw fallen. He did not respond anymore, this was to much to absorb into the "freshly-washed"brain...
Just when Kunugi Takehito stood inches away from the doorframe. An idea invaded, penetrating Soubi's head. The blonde couldn't quiet the burning desire to keep it shut. The question spun around and around without fading also letting Soubi recall that wierd dream he had a few hours ago. The momories, the melody, god! Even the exact thoughts replayed again mixing with one another like a broken casette player. No, such vivid mental representation could not be just a reverie. have somebody played that discord lacking peace of mind somewhere near that Soubi could hear?
And if every melody every tune,note had an idea that they wanted to represent, a story to tell. A plotted place that can not be changed in the note sheet in order to achieve a musical perfection. Then... what was the meaning of that eardrum-killing racket?
"Piano..." Soubi wailed still studying that dream.
"Huh?"
"Oh. I'm sorry. Guess I was just deep in my thoughts..." Soubi quickly apologised, waving a hand."Have..." He began timidly."Were you the one who played the piano a few hours before?"
Kunugi stood frozen with shrunk pupils after another minute of silence he called through the door.
"Nurse! Another dose please..."
Soubi layed, watching as a pink haired girl, with cat ears, filled a needle.
" What is this?" The blonde looked wary, probably because of all those unexplained pricks in his arm.
"Stay still." the nurse ordered, Kunugi watched from the side. Just then Soubi noticed a smirk going down his face hidden behind a palm and eyes like a hawk, firsty for the prey's blood.
"Wait!" Soubi panicked snatching his IV'ed arm from the teenager nurse." I demand to know for what purpose are these medications."
"You do not need to know." The nurse replied bluntly."Give me your arm."
"Kunugi!" The blonde yelled, struggling to get his hand free once again.
For Soubi's relief his cold faced, black haired companion, tapped toward him. Although Soubi's timid smile quickly turned to a horrored look. Takehito pinned him down, holding by the chest.
"Continue."
" Wait Kunugi what are you doing?" Soubi screeched still fighting to release his hand from the tight hold."Stop it!No!"
The needle moved closer to the elbow.
"Nooo!" Soubi began trashing on the bed and suddenly felt a hand tightly cover his mouth the man released a pitiful moan in response.
Kunugi stared at Soubi's shaking body, while biding his quivering mouth with gloomy eyes, bitting his lip in annoyance. He hissed leaning near Soubi's frightened face.
"Better stay silent Beloved, or you'll get hurt."
The pink haired teen finally forced the needle in Soubi's inner part of the elbow, that was already dyed in crimson blood. The blonde ejected another harsh moan from his lungs as the liquid filling the syringe leaked out into Soubi's blood vessel. The two people standing above him receded.
The vision slowly blurred at a point where Soubi could not even make out the faces of the two people gazing at him. Which one was Kunugi now?
After a minute the medication finally took effect Soubi got sleepy and now it seemed that three ghostly apparitions stood just after the bed. Who were they? What did they want from him? One if those appearences took a step closer. Standing near his face. What did he want? Who was that person?
Suddenly the male standing next to him took shape: first the silver hair neatly cut above the shoulder, glasses hiding those blue eyes- there was no mistaking him...
"S. Sensei." Soubi whispered poorly, his eyelids lacking strength to stay open.
The blonde gave in to sleep, dragging him back to that once known place- the greedy blackout... the mystical melody... the murderous silence... the madness of it all. This was his home now... Soubi had nowhere to go anymore, hence nothing to fight the reverie for... Soubi had nothing. He was never destined to achieve happiness...
Those fluttering rose petals, the calming sound of chirping birds, a river going down near, love of another mortal, the grass tickling his knees underneath - this felicity had been forbidden...
Soubi had no one and nothing to call his own, to call dear. No, he had nothing.
So if he wasn't welcome by the light, why not give in to the darkness waiting for him with outstreched arms? Why not let the psychopathy pour on him, while grinning as the insanity poison his mind at the point where it was the last thing he saw? Render it as his dear home. Laugh while radiating with joy " I'm home now!" Bestowing it, feeding the yearning silence and let it answer "Welcome back!"
Yes, if heaven was prohibited, why not live in hell disguising it with lies or sick beliefs of a perfect home?
2017-08-01
The DarkCat*