Write date:17-08-01 til 17-09-03
Time for the second chapter yeay! Speed freak! That's a fast update! I'll hope to keep this at it til I have no more chaps left!
Takehito Kunugi *read's through script than drops to the ground, shrugging* I don't need no fuckin script swag level one thousand!
Anyway, Thank you to Dlbn for rewieving!
Dlbn: Indeed Soubi does. Not the best exp. if you asked me. Btw. I'm happy you liked Kunugi! It was a joy to play with him on the plot and all. With the way he acts... Well I can't call it anything else but fooling and playing around. A lovible jerk indeed :) Glad your enjoying!
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Chapter 2: Fairytale without a happy ending
A month before*
"Soubi-kun!" a familiar voice reached Soubi's ear making him frown. This was a mistake-Soubi shouldn't have came here.
He should not have left him in such a drier state. He should have stayed with Ritsuka through tenderness and suffering... Yet... He escaped, left his dear sacrifice. What is more he hadn't done it for Seimei, Soubi hadn't returned to his master-this was just a selfish act, need to run away. How loathsome. How ridiculous. What shame was for a sentouki to abandon his sacrifice.
Notwithstanding, Soubi was nothing more than a wretched blank, just a worthless cast away... he did not belong to anyone... he was not Beloved, nor Loveless. If that's the truth this wasn't such a horrid crime. He did not discard anyone other than himself.
The blonde stood in front of Ritsu's office he knew very well. Soubi looked terrible: The face tired, eyes red from lack of sleep, his hair unwashed dirty. His clothing was torn, showing his thin, skiny body. Hands bruised from what seemed being tangled with a border wire. His body appeared abused and worned.
"What happened to you?" Ritsu finally asked with rage burning in his eyes.
"Had nowhere to go..." Soubi wailed facing down in shame hearing Ritsu groan in annoyance.
In truth, The blonde hoped for a reaction close to this. It reached his ears with no surprise.
It was just common...
If Ritsu won't take him in. That will be understandible. Who would want to see a person they had put all their hopes in return home as failure? If he'll cast him aside, that will be acceptable. He already did it, when he had given his favorite student to a psycho...
Soubi already lost all his hopes, and lived life in misery, why would it change so suddenly? Why would it change at all? Maybe it would be better to give in to those demons whispering in his ear day and night, finally giving in to the temptation of that sweet, harmless, awaiting death that they were proposing. It will come one day or the other...
"I'll just make it happen sooner so I wouldn't render others suffering. Im useless anyway what's the point in staying here? I give up. I dont have the strength to last another distressing hour..." Soubi's inner voice encouraged him every night like a mantra.
Again. And again.
Those thoughts at suicide drained all of Soubi's moral strength away. In the end the man was reduced to a death yearning weakling. All of hope or rational mind was squished out like lemon juice.
"What about the Aoyagi?" Ritsu smirked. Seeing Soubi's eyes widen at the mention of Ritsuka."You left your sacrifice?" Sensei taunted him tilting his head closer to his student's.
"I-I..." Soubi's voice broke down to silence.
Ritsu scrutinised him with cold pupils for a minute then sighed.
"You'll tell me later. I don't have time to waste with you." The principal walked past him, laying a key in his hand."Here this is your room for the night"
Soubi glanced at the key given. Well that was generous of him. To put a roof on his former student's head on hard times. Soubi peeked at the key, to notice it did not have a dorm room's number.
"Wait sensei!" Soubi enquired, confused. "What room is this?"
He heared sensei giggle behind his back.
"Its mine. Forgot it already?"
"Your kidding!" Soubi frowned. Sensei's room meant one bed."I'll take my chances elsewere then, thank you."
" Oh, no," Ritsu spun around facing his student with a glint in his eyes."Stay, I see no problem helping my student..." He gazed at him then attempted to touch his face. Ritsu's hand was sharply rejected by a slap.
"I missed you..."
"You said you were busy get going!" Soubi hissed leaving his office.
"Oh? So rude..." Ritsu chuckled then added closing the door."You're still mine Soubi-kun."
Soubi just rolled his eyes striding down the hallways. Why did he came here anyway? Could've just stayed at Kio's appartment. Although that wouldn't have been safe... Soubi knew he could not even protect himself in this state. Talk about erase Kio's memory's if anything.
He was too weak. Emotionally worn out... Septimal Moon was the only organisation that could have protect him. Of cource this was selfish, but...
"Ritsuka..." the blonde wailed, burying his face in his palm. Walking past teachers that gave him distasteful looks."Gomenasai..."
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Soubi saw Ritsu again just when the night fallen. The man woke up from his deep sleep when a table lamp got turned on bringing an illumination, that instantly conflicted with shadows in the gloomy room.
"Now we can talk." Ritsu whispered dipping in the bed next to Soubi and the younger male just pulled back to his side.
Ritsu snickered nostalgically at his reaction.
"Just like in the old times."
Soubi remained silent, though covered his ears with a blanket if Minami Ritsu's going to start blabbering about the past which the blonde obviously did not wish to remember.
"Soubi-kun" Ritsu began softly again."I know you're not sleeping. " he pat his head. Causing Soubi to turn sideglancing at his former teacher with irritated sleepy face."Can you tell me what happened? Or should I wait for the morning? And let you sleep now."
"What?!" Soubi growled.
"Where is Ritsuka, Seimei? I thought I taught you better than to leave your master?"Sensei smirked, motioning his fingers down Soubi's anxious face."Not that I'm not happy to see you. But..."
"I could not stay." Soubi murmured concealing his mouth behind the blanket. After the stiffed utterance Ritsu's expresion suddenly became dyed with curiosity." Ritsuka... He..." Soubi's eyes almost flood in tears his next sentence was restrainted." Ordered... me..."
Ritsu snickered leaning closer to his student's face.
"Stop laying!"
Suddenly it seemed Soubi got panic-struck he began spilling out with wide open eyes shuddering
"It was not my fault! not my fault!" He cryed out despretly.
"Soubi-kun calm down!" The principal gripped the terrified blonde's arm in hopes to stop him.
"He killed him! He killed Ritsuka!"
"What!?" Ritsu's eyes shot open.
"Who killed Aoyagi! You couldn't defend him?!" Ritsu groaned in anoyance, pinning Soubi by the wrists.
"Seimei?" He guessed, staring into Soubi's frightened face.
"He devoured Ritsuka. Ritsuka's gone." Soubi stammered faintly, staring with blurry, wet pupils." He wanted to kill me too! He's still searching for me! He'll find me!"
Ritsu focused on his student's blabbering's running a hand through Soubi's shoulder.
"Soubi-kun, Ill give you some pills for sleep..." Ritsu-sensei leaned a chaste kiss on his lips. "We'll protect you..."
Though the last words made even Minami Ritsu worry.
"He'll find me..." Soubi whispered after sitting up taking the round tablet and a cup of water with shaking hands." He knows..."
Ritsu spun around ignoring the last statement.
Who knows? Who was after them? The headmaster side-glanced at Soubi to see he was sleeping. Atleast he was quiet now, not disturbing Ritsu's rest. He sighed soundlessly, what did his student got into?
Minami Ritsu closed his eyes wishing to drift off.
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When Soubi woke up the first thing he noticed was that his sensei already gone, the sheets were cold as ice. He sat up, searching for a clock and soon spotted it on the nightstand. And it was... Aready noon.
"God. What the hell did that bastard gave me? I slept more than twelve hours..." he winced still half asleep, noticing new clothing neatly folded for him on a knee-high coal black drawer across the room.
"Soubi?" a familiar voice exclaimed as the blonde walked down an empty not well-lighted corridor.
"Its good to see you here!" Nagisa called out again with a warm smile trying to catch Soubi's attention.
The latter stood silent, calm, nevertheless his mind felt disgust for her. Beautiful expresion she wore atleast it would be perfect, if it wouldn't have been fake. Nagisa hated him... He noticed it, when he was an adolescent, couldn't comprehend why though. Right now he swore it had something to do with her attraction to Ritsu...
Why would she pay any attention to him suddenly appearing in Septimal Moon? It surely wasn't because the woman missed Soubi or something.
"You look unusually scrawny today. Went on a diet? Or anorexia?" The blue haired female pestered, tapping her pointer finger on the chin.
(anorexia-a psychological disease, may be life threatening, an eating dissorder, chracterized by illogical fear of gaining weight and distorted perception of self-image.)*
Soubi raised his eyebrow in resentment.
"Anyways how are my Zero? They live somewhere near you..."
The blonde just apologised walking past her sideways. So that was her reason for being nice to him. Should have known...
No one cares about a blank. Accept if they want to use you in advantage to themselves. That's how Soubi considered Seimei.
The Aoyagi just needed him to accomplish his gruesome agenda. Soubi could have dealed with it. In fact the carved name on his neck confirmed that Agatsuma fully belonged to Beloved.
On the other side of the coin, was he really Beloved? The name defined the unchangable fate. Therefore The name was suppose to appear on the body, not be forced on. Beloved- a fate violently thrust into his dumfounded arms.
That's what Soubi's mind came across painfully analysing every night leading Soubi closer to the point of a mental breakdown. Fate can not be handed by a mortal. He can guide you, but not determine your destiny. Soubi did not belong to Seimei, nor Ritsuka. He was not destined to be with them at all. If he had not met Ritsu that unfortunate day, if his parents wouldn't have died that horrid demise. Soubi would have probably lived as a normal person. There, where he originally belonged.
Not in Ritsu's loathsome office, not by Seimei's frightening voice, not holding Ritsuka's loving arms. His future was ripped from him... Forever out of his reach...
Soubi was discarded and thrown into mud of suffering. Why?! If that accident was destined with no other posibility. Then it could have atleast taken Soubi too!
This ailing, watching the clock count your days until your passing, was a never ending tragedy. Soubi just wanted to rest.
His inner voice craved for death. Scratching and biting the man'sanity.
Soubi paused at the flickering light bulb, probably the last one working in the entire hall...
Actually, life so far was pleasant, When Loveless came of cource. The timid warmness, Ritsuka radiated, was the shine that woke Soubi up for a second life. The boy caused the young man to forget about pain and hardships he faced. He was someone Soubi trully loved with no fear. Who the light haired male considered family. Even though they did not share a name or bloodline. They were closer than any two people. They trusted, confided and helped one another in misfortunes Wasn't that what a true family was like?
The blonde unwillingly clenched his fists, climbing up the stairs.
Ritsuka... How he missed his little sacrifice... How he wished to be with him once more...
2 months ago*
"Ritsuka..." Soubi remembered himself call his sacrifice's name a few months ago.
"Hi!" the teenager greeted his lover, running towards him with a timid smile.
"Are you feeling well?" Soubi asked, spotting the false expression and taking the teenager's hand in his own.
Ritsuka grunted, walking down the path, surrounded by trees from both sides-a beautiful park.
"No. Its nothing." The teenager quickly stated, brushing his unoccupied hand through his hair.
"That's not what I asked..." Soubi giggled. And put his palm on Ritsuka's cheek."Is everything alright? You know you can speak to me."
In truth the pair got a lot closer during the previous months. Soubi became a person Ritsuka admired and looked up to almost like a father figure, who Ritsuka could have seek help, or information out of. The teen had a person he cherrished and loved the most in the world now.
"Yes I know..." The boy answered after a few minutes, following the patern that the fallen petals created, with his plum eyes. Suddenly he snatched free from Soubi's hold, scuttling a few steps forward and peeking at an interesting leaf.
Ritsuka was still childish even being fourteen. Well the male was happy he could save atleast tiny scraps left of the boys childhood and let him taste them without fear, loss or sadness. The way Ritsuka's life should have been...
If it wasn't for one person. If Seimei hadn't existed... Then Ritsuka's life would not have been in such a drier state.
Soubi bit his lip out of the stupidity his mind fabricated. It's impossible the deeds have been accomplished long ago. there is no way to turn back time... But there is no future waiting too... As long as Seimei still live's, still roams somewhere like a treacherous cat, as long as the name Beloved exist's.. there can be no happines for them. Their worned out scarred souls will not achieve their longed freedom, will not brake away from this bloody cage... This fairytale will not have a happy ending...
The pair continued their stroll down the park.
"Soubi can we take a picture next to that tree?" Ritsuka asked with excitment in his voice.
"Sure. Why not?"
Ritsuka giggled in response while taking the camera out of his backpack. It was nice to notce his mood changed. It wasn't so timid as before.
" This place is amazing!" The boy shouted." How come you found it?"
"Well I've known it ever since I moved to Tokyo." The male smiled patting Ritsuka's hair." This park..." he gazed at the path." Was my primary source fo inspiration."
"Primary?" Ritsuka seemed confused." Then from where do you take inspiration for your drawings now?"
" I dont need to search for ideas anymore." Soubi said calmly moving closer to Ritsuka's face." Because I have you."
"Huh?"
"Ritsuka," He landed a kiss on his cheek, then whispered not moving away."When I see you smile, when I see you blush or laugh I feel something hard lift from my chest." He put his palms on Ritsuka's cheeks, looking at his eyes.
" You rebuilded my life from scratch, you sewed the scars in my heart. Ritsuka you are my inspiration now..." He leaned a soft kiss to his lips." And forever."
Ritsuka looked at Soubi with scared eyes for a minute after the peck.
"Ritsuka..." the boy's eyes shot open, then he ubruptly ran forward, forcing free out of the blonde's hold.
"Ritsuka!" Soubi seemed worried, watching the boy stop after a few steps." Is something wrong?" He frowned seeing his lover timidly look around as if someone was stalking them." What are you afraid of?"
Just as those soft words reached Ritsuka, his ears perked up. The teenager's terrified eyes unconsciously collided with Soubi's resoluted pupils flickering from the glasses. The black haired boy turned away after a second clutching his chest.
Soubi stared at Ritsuka feeling lost,as the wind ruffled his light hair.He couldint grasp the situation:why did this happened or how to act next.
"Soubi..." Ritsuka staggered still clutching his chest this time with both hands as if he wanted to tear himself apart.
"I'm... scared." He wailed, facing down, avoiding to show the tears swelling up in his petrified eyes.
"Scared?" Soubi sounded confused." of what Ritsuka?"
Ritsuka hyperventilated, digging his nails into his own body. He just stared at Soubi, like a prey realising its last moments before being devoured.
"Ritsuka..." Soubi enquired disstresed. But the only answer he earned was the soundless, horrific rustle of the ever falling petals...
"Ritsuka!" The boy finally noticed- he lifted his drier eyes at Soubi, shivering, while embracing himself. For a second the older man thought Ritsuka's lips quivered as in attempt to speak to him. However no sound penetrated the high pitched sough Ritsuka's eyelids began falling, erasing the imagery before him- his consciousness faded, his body became a lump, who wished to be put to sleep.
The blonde hurried to his sacrifice a second too late. Ritsuka already lay on the pavement with leaves covering him; he fainted.
"I'm scared... Those eyes that never leave my side... It will find you to Soubi... It will."
09-03
The DarkCat*