Until the Last Breath Leaves My Body

by Camelotpointe

A collection of short stories about the characters of 'Merlin'. Includes friendship, drama, comedy and more! Chapters 50 - 53: Too Much to Bear - Merlin is overwhelmed and struggling to cope with the weight of his responsibilities and the secrets he is forced to keep. Gwaine and Arthur are worried about their friend and try their best to help.

8. Love and Loss Part 2

Love and Loss Part 2:

Morgana's reflections on all those whom she has loved… and lost.

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters or the show 'Merlin'.

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How could he say she felt only hate? She remembered her words to Merlin when she had captured and bound him in her hovel: 'Don't think I don't understand loyalty just because I have no-one left to be loyal to.' Everyone she had ever loved had been taken from her. Her father, Gorlois, had been killed in battle. She had broken Uther's spirit when she had shown her true loyalty to be with Morgause, her darling sister who had begged her to sacrifice her in order to secure Arthur's death; a plan that – like so many others intended to end Arthur's life – had failed. Morgause had died in vain, and when Morgana herself had ensured Uther's death she had felt only pain and sorrow at the passing of the man who had been almost like a father to her – until she found out that he was.

Arthur was as dead to her as he would be if Mordred's final strike had found its aim, and Mordred himself was dead by the king's hand. She had felt a strong connection to the druid boy the moment she first saw him, and this final loss had cut her deeply, joining the hundreds of other scars that had been carved into her heart. Yes, she had loved… and lost. She knew much more about love than anyone could ever expect her to.

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