It's been about a month since Hikaru and I made amends (if you could call it that), and it was really nice to be talking to him again. Things were even back to normal... almost. It was still a little bit awkward, but only if we thought about it too much. Today, I was outside with the host club playing some games, but it suddenly got cloudy outside. Funnily enough, I didn't even notice it until Kaoru so kindly pointed it out to me. Naturally, I got worried. The last thing I wanted was a thunderstorm.
"Is it supposed to rain? Maybe we should head inside." I suggested.
"Come to think of it, I did see a chance of thunderstorms in the weather-report," Kyoya responded.
I laughed nervously, "See? Like I said, we should definitely be inside right now."
"Aw, what's the matter?" Kaoru began, "Are you scared?" Hikaru finished. Great, so now the twins were back to teasing me.
"Lay off," I said.
"Yeah, leave my precious baby girl alone!" Tamaki added.
"Tamaki-senpai, I can fight my own battles," I glared at him, "And I'm not your baby girl!"
Tamaki pouted.
"Aw, come on, Haruhi, you shouldn't speak to your daddy that way." Kaoru joked. That got a laugh out of me.
"Well, I guess I appreciate the sentiment, so, thanks, Tamaki-senpai." I said, "Now, I'm going inside whether you guys are following me or not." I went into the building and sat alone in the music room for a while. Tamaki-senpai came in a little bit later, after it actually started raining. I'm not sure where the rest of the host club went. Thankfully, there was no thunder yet. I hoped it would stay that way.
"Haruhi? You alright in here?"
"If you're going to start pretending like you're my 'daddy' again, I'm not talking to you."
He frowned. "Haruhi, I'm sorry. I didn't realize it bothered you so much."
Yeah, of course he didn't. He's an idiot and he's full of himself. He'll probably forget it bothers me, too. I sighed, "It's fine. It's not that big a deal. I just don't like being treated like a child. Besides, I know you don't really see me that way."
"What do you mean? Of course I see you that way. Did you not want me to?"
"I don't really care how you see me, honestly. But if you genuinely think that's how you feel about me you've got some thinking to do, senpai. I'm usually pretty oblivious about this stuff, but you make it really obvious."
He thought for a moment, but I guess he didn't think of a response, because he changed the subject back, "Well, anyway, are you okay, Haruhi?"
"I guess. I've had a lot on my mind lately."
"Oh? I just meant about the rain and all..."
"Heh. Of course you meant about the rain. Well, in that case, yeah, I'm fine. I don't care about rain, after all, just thunder. So as long as it stays like this I'm-"
At that moment, there was a loud crash of thunder, and I yelped, immediately clinging to Tamaki. "...Great."
Tamaki cuddled me and played with my hair. It actually really helped me calm down.
"So, are you going to elaborate?"
"Huh?"
"Well, what's been on your mind?"
I sighed. "Okay, please don't be hurt by this, senpai, but I don't know that you're the best person for me to talk to about this."
"What? Why?"
"You're just... really not the best person to talk to about this," I reiterated, knowing how much he'd freak out if he knew Hikaru confessed to me.
"Wait, is this about me?"
"You wish. Not everything is about you, Tamaki-senpai."
He looked hurt, as I knew he would. "Don't you trust me?"
"Tamaki," I began, interrupted by more thunder and holding him tighter, "This really isn't the best time to be talking about this, I'm really scared right now. Can you just be here for me? Quietly?"
"...Okay." He nodded. "Let's talk later, though?"
"Sure."
As we waited out the storm, I thought a lot about Hikaru. Part of me wished it was him comforting me right now and not Tamaki. Whether that was because I wanted to be close to him, because he'd be better at it, or just because I knew he'd be jealous I can't say. Maybe it was all of those reasons?
I just hoped the storm would stop soon.