Chapter 4
Walking into the house a few minutes later, I see all three men sitting in the living room. Taking my bag to my room, Koz follows me. "Thought you were staying with a friend?" he asks. "Lyla and Ope don't have the room so I guess we're roommates." I tell him, getting a bottle of wine out of the fridge. I walk out to the backyard where my hammock is. I sit down and take a swig from the bottle. A couple of minutes later, Koz walks out and takes a seat next to me. "I thought about what you said. Why do you want to make things right with me Koz? Because of Tig?" I ask. "No. Look, Raven, I messed up. I was spending time with you and getting close to you and then when we finally hooked up, I realized how close I was getting and it scared me." he tells me and I just nod. "How are you going to make things right? What's your plan?" I ask still not looking at him. He takes my hand and laces his fingers with mine. "I told Tig about what happened. Told him I wanted to do this right and earn your trust back. Told him I wanted to earn your heart." he says and I finally look at him. "You really want to be with me?" I ask. "Yeah babe. I do." he tells me. "I'm not agreeing to be with you right now but take things a day at a time and see what happens." I tell him. "Fair enough." he tells me. "What happens when you go back to Tacoma?" I ask. He smiles and says "Vote tomorrow. I requested transfer to Redwood." he tells me and I look at him shocked. "Hap too." he tells me and I look out at the yard. I don't know what to think.
We sit out there in silence until I empty the bottle. Looking at the bottle, I start laughing. Koz looks at me and asks "What?" I look at him and say "Nothing. You wouldn't get it. I'm ready for bed." I tell him. He helps me up and follows me inside and I head to my room and grab a tshirt and shorts and head to the bathroom. I take a shower and when I come back to my room, Koz is already in bed waiting on me. I lay in bed with my back to him on my side of the bed. I pull the covers up and so does he. I feel his arm go around my middle and he says "Night Raven." I simply say "Night." before closing my eyes and falling asleep.
Waking up the next morning, I am laying facing him and feel his warm body wrapped around mine. I go to move and he pulls me closer. "I gotta get up." I tell him and he lets me go. I get up and head to the bathroom to brush my hair and teeth before walking into the closet and getting dressed for the day. I come out of the closet and he's lying there looking at me. "Morning." I say. "Morning." he says. I sit on the side of the bed and start putting my boots on. He moves to sit beside me and asks "Are we okay?" I look at him and say "Yeah. But like I said. I'm not agreeing to be with you right now but we'll see what happens." I tell him. He leans over and kisses my cheek and I say "I better get to work."
Walking into the office, Gemma is sitting there. "Morning baby." she says. "Morning Gemma." I say, pouring a cup of coffee. Opie comes in to clock in and asks "How'd it go?" I nod and say "Okay." Gemma looks at us confused so I tell her what we are going. "Serves him right." she tells me. "I'm not doing it to get revenge. The more I think about it, the more that's just not me but I do want to see just how serious he is about this." I tell them and they nod.
Lunchtime rolls around and I am sitting at the picnic table across from Koz, in between my brother and Happy when my phone rings. I get up to answer it. "Hello." I say as I answer. "Hey Raven. It's Jeremy. I work with Lyla." he says. "Oh hey Jeremy. What's up?" I ask. "I was wondering if I could take you out tonight. Nothing special just get something to eat and talk." he says. "I'd like that. Pick me up about seven?" I ask. "Yeah. That works." he says. "I'll text you the address. See you tonight." I tell him. "See you tonight." he says before we end the call. I walk back over to the table and sit down and Tig asks. "Who was that?" I look at him and say "One of the guys that works with Lyla. Wants to take me out tonight." I say but don't look at Koz. "I better get back to work." I say before tossing my trash away and heading to the office. Gemma is looking out the window and sees Koz stand before storming out to his bike to leave. I stand at the door and watch him leave and Opie walks over. "He's pissed." he tells me. "Your point?" I ask. "He's headed to the porn studio." I look at him shocked and Tig walks over. "Let's go." he says and I follow him to his bike.
We pull up to the studio and hear yelling inside. Walking inside I see Koz with Jeremy pinned to the wall. "What the hell is going on?" Luann asks. "Jeremy asked me out." I say and she looks at me confused. I walk over to them and put myself between Jeremy and Koz and push him back. He still looks at Jeremy, not me. "Hey, look at me." I say as I cup his face. He finally looks at me and I ask "What are you doing?" He gets pissed even more and walks out the door to his bike but I am right behind him. I grab his hand and stop him. "Hey. Don't walk away from me. What was that?" I ask. He turns to face me and gets right in my face and says "You seriously going to go out with that fucker? He fucks for a goddamn living." he says. I know he's pissed and know not to raise my voice with him. Softly I say "Koz, I told you I wasn't committing to you right now. I am still free to see anyone else just like you are." I tell him. "Fuck that. You're mine. You ain't seeing anyone but me." he says. "Really Koz? How's that fair. You still get to be with who you want but I can't?" I ask. He pulls me to him and crashes his lips with mine and when we come up for air he says "You're mine." I look at him, still nose to nose and ask "Are you mine?" Kissing me again, when we separate, he says "Yeah baby. I'm yours." I look over and see my brother and he nods his blessing. "Let's go home and talk." I say and he pulls me to his bike. I grab my helmet off of Tig's bike and we head home.