Chapter 5
Walking into the house, we take off our shoes and he takes off his kutte. Sitting on the couch I tell him. "Koz, this doesn't mean everything is okay between us. I want to take things slow. You really hurt me and I still have to get right with that." I tell him. "I know. I will want to earn you but I can't handle you with anyone else." he tells me. "Now you know how I feel walking into the clubhouse seeing all those whores all over you." I tell him. "That stops." he tells me. "I don't need them anymore. All I want is to fall asleep next to you and wake up still being next to you." he tells me. "So all you want to do is sleep?" I ask joking. "Hell no. But like I said, we take this at your pace." he tells me. I lean into his side and say "First time I see or hear about a whore touching you, we're done." I tell him. "Understood." he says. "That means runs too." I tell him. "Understood babe." he says. Tilting my chin up to look at him, he kisses me softly. When we separate, I say "That kiss back there? You've never kissed me like that." I tell him. "I promise to kiss you like that more often." he tells me smirking.
That evening, Tig and Happy walk in and I am snuggled up to him on the couch, watching a movie. "You guys hash your shit out?" Tig asks. "Some. Shit we need to work on will take some time but we'll get there." I tell him and he nods. Happy sits next to me on the couch and tells Koz "You better not fuck up this time. You do, Tig don't kick your ass, I will." he says and Koz nods. I move to the kitchen to cook and when Koz comes in for a beer, he wraps his arms around my waist and says "Thank you." I look at him and he says "For giving me another chance." I kiss his lips softly and say "Just don't make me regret it."
After dinner, the guys clean the kitchen and I get in the shower. Once I get out, Koz is in the bed looking for a movie to watch. I climb into bed with him and lay my head on his chest. "You remember all the nights we laid like this?" he asks. "Yeah. I loved those nights." I tell him. "I'm sorry I fucked things up." he says. "Don't matter. What matters now is now." I tell him and he kisses me softly. I lay my head back on his chest and just listen to his heartbeat.
Waking up the next morning, he's not in bed. I get up and head to the kitchen for coffee and he's out on the deck on the phone. I try not to listen but when I hear him say "I told you I'm done. I'm back with Raven and I'm not screwing things up this time...No...I don't want you...Don't call me again." he says. He walks in and sees me standing there. "Who was that?" I ask. "Croweater I was hooking up with in Tacoma. Wants to move down here thinking we'd be together. Told her we were together and I wasn't screwing this up this time." he says. "I heard you." I tell him. I pour my coffee and have my back to him for a minute. "Raven…" He starts. I turn to look at him and before he can speak I say "I know you're with me. I'm just trying to figure out the best way to handle her if she shows up. I won't give you up this time." I tell him. He walks over and says "I won't screw this up again." he tells me. "Better not." I tell him as I kiss him softly.
We get to the clubhouse and I tell him "I'm gonna talk to Gemma." He kisses me and says "You know you mean everything to me right?" he asks. "I know baby." I say. I kiss him and say "I feel the same way." I tell him before walking into Gemma's office. "What's wrong baby?" she asks. She can always tells when something's wrong. "Koz got a call this morning. One of the croweaters in Tacoma wants to come down thinking her and Koz are going to be together. He told her on the phone we're together and he's not screwing this up this time." I tell her. "You don't trust him?" she asks. "It's not that. I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt but I just need some input on how to handle her if she shows up." I tell her. "Baby, how would you handle it if one of the whores here came after your man?" she asks. "I'd bounce her off the goddamn floor." I tell her. "That's what you do to this one. You bound that bitch off the floor as hard as you can and show her why you're the Princess. Show her why you're his Queen." she tells me and I see what she's saying. "Thanks Gemma." I tell her. "Anytime baby but if you do play bounce the bitch, make sure someone gets video so I can see it." she says. "Yes mama." I say before walking out the door and back over to Koz and into his arms. "You okay?" he asks. "Oh yeah. I'm good." I tell him before kissing him deeply with all the whores watching.