What on earth had I done? How could I have done something so stupid! I internally berate myself, as I sit on the floor of a Dauntless train, trying to catch my breath. I had chosen Dauntless, me, Dauntless. To say my parents were shocked was an understatement. Me the, anxiety ridden abnegation had transferred to Dauntless. There had been only two other Abnegation transfers to Dauntless, in the last ten years, there was obviously a reason for that. I watch from the floor, as the other transfers introduce themselves to each other, they all seem to already know a few people, and be friends with at least one other person. There had been two amity transfers, yes they hadn't made it onto the train and would now be factionless, but there was still two of them. Me, on the other hand was alone, and nobody seemed to notice I was even here, which I wasn't too bothered about, I never had been good at socialising. After I finally decide to get myself off the floor some shouts, "Get ready to jump!" I look out of the side of the train and I am greeted with the horrific sight of people jumping from the moving train onto a building rooftop. Oh Christ I think to myself, I barely got onto the train, how am I going to jump off it.

All the other carts have passed the jump point, now it's the transfers' turn. I don't look at anybody else, and just jump, knowing if I thought about it for too long I wouldn't ever jump. I land roughly on the gravel roof, it feels like I've broken every bone in my body. Everybody is gathering a man on a ledge, so I pull myself off the roof-floor and make my way over to the group, but I make sure to stay at the back of the group. When I get there the man starts to speak, "My name is Eric, I am one of the leaders here at Dauntless" his says in a serious voice. "If you want to get into Dauntless, this is the way in" Confused at what I'm hearing, I look up, this Eric person is motioning behind him. Then it hits me, we have to jump. "Is there water at the bottom or something" I hear someone ask, they must be former Erudite to ask something like that. "I guess you'll have to find out" Eric replies in a, close to mocking, to voice. I look up at the man, he is clearly enjoying our discomfort. I take this time to look at some of the people around me, there are a surprisingly low number of Dauntless-born initiates, which is weird, because only a couple transferred. In total there was close to an even number of transfer and Dauntless-born initiates. There was five Erudite and four Candor, which was expected; Dauntless always had the highest transfer rate from those two factions, there had been two Amity but they hadn't made it onto the train. And then there was me, the lone Abnegation. "Well, somebody's got to go first. Who's it going to be" nobody says anything for a while and I swear he is going to start picking on people to jump. A few beats later and still nobody has volunteered. "if nobody jumps in the next second, I will push at least one of you down there" Eric shouts, clearly getting frustrated This is just getting worse. I look at the floor, hoping lack of eye contact would make me go unnoticed, but I somehow doubted that. Despite the threat, still nobody had moved, not even the Dauntless-born, we must look really pathetic. "Time's up" Eric says, even more angry than he had been. Just as he is about to step of the ledge he had been standing on, a big transfer from Candor volunteers to jump.

The big Candor makes his way over to the ledge, and tentitvely climbs onto it. The boy stands there for a few seconds, clearly trying to gather himself a bit, which I don't blame him for doing. However it is clearly too long for an already pissed off Eric, who proceeds to push the boy off the ledge. We all wait with baited breaths, as the screaming boy get quieter, a few moments after the screaming stops, a faint "Tanner- first jumper" Sighs of relief ring out across the group, and I know for a fact we must look like a pathetic bunch. But I get why nobody wanted to jump first, it could be a test to see if anybody was stupid enough to blindly follow orders.

The knowledge of the boy's survival, and the practically murderous look on Eric's face, cause the rest of the initiates to scramble to jump next. I however, stay where I am at the back of the group, as far away from the ledge as possible. The rest of the initiates quickly make their way off the roof, and I am left alone with Eric, whose watching me like a hawk. He gestures towards the ledge and I know there is no delaying the inevitable any further. I make my way over to the ledge, and climb up. I stand still for a few minutes, really not wanting to jump. I must be taking too long, because Eric jumps back onto the ledge. I still do not move, absolutely petrified of what I'm supposed to do. Out of the corner of my eye I see Eric edge slightly closer, and for the first time since leaving my house this morning I speak, "You so much as touch me, and I will pull you down there with me" I know it's not much of a threat especially since we both need to go down there anyway but for some reason it makes Eric stop moving. Taking in a few deep breaths trying to calm myself, and stop from hyperventilating, I go to jump.

But I can't, I step off the ledge at the last minute. I take in more breaths but it is no use, as I start t hyper ventilate. I must look ridiculous right now, he knows I know that there is a net down there to catch me, but that is not the problem. I have a fear of heights, which is bad enough as it is but, I also have a major fear of falling. "Calm down, and get back up there." Eric says, making me jump as I had forgotten he was even there. "Are you really going to let this stop you from getting a place in Dauntless" I don't say anything, but approach the ledge once. I make the mistake of looking down and my anxieties begin to reappear. "I can't" I mutter quietly, so I don't he even heard me. "It's simple, close your eyes, and just walk forward". I nod, processing his instructions, then I close my eyes and take a step.

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