Parker's POV

"Hey!" I hear the person behind me shout, I immediately shut up as I realise its Eric who has dragged me away from my brother, "you going to tell me why you've only been here five minutes and you've already hit an instructor" Eric barks at me, I flinch at the tone of his voice and I feel like I'm right back in Abnegation, I cannot say anything so I just try to concentrate on returning my breathing to normal, but I can't and I start to hyperventilate again. "calm down he" barks at me though this time his tone is much gentler, I just shake my head and I hear him sigh heavily, next thing I know he has grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest, I know what he's doing and I try to match his breathing rate. Once I'm finally calm he lets go of my hand and I drop it from his chest.

I don't know when but sometime during my outburst he has brought me down to what I imagine is the dormitories, he pushes me through the door and I see that the rest of the initiates are already here and have chosen their beds, when Eric leaves I walk over to the bed in the corner closest to the door. I can see some of the others are staring at me but I just ignore them, I've learnt to just ignore the pitiful looks I would get in Abnegation when the first accusations against Marcus came out from Erudite. I look around the room deciding I need to find my brother, I see him standing next to the door and he catches my stare, after a few seconds he tilts his head in the direction of the door, I stand following out the door so we can finally talk without the other giving us weird stares. As soon as I'm out the door I see him try to apologize for leaving but I stop him, not being able to deal with the guilt I say, "Don't, you've got nothing to apologize for, we both knew you had to leave, it was the only way you could have gotten away" I see him about to start to argue but I continue before he can "and don't say you could have stayed, because you couldn't have, if you had stayed you would have still made me transfer and you would have been stuck there forever", he doesn't say anything once I finish, but I can see he doesn't agree with what I say, he just sighs and tells me it's time for us to go to dinner, so he takes me and the rest of the initiates down to the mess hall. I'm sat next to Christina, a Candor girl with Four opposite me and Tris, as she was now called, was sat on his right. The rest of the initiates filled up the rest of the table. I sit looking suspiciously at the round piece of meat on my plate, Tobias tells me it's just beef but it doesn't make it look any more appetizing, I can see Tris shares my sentiment and watches as she pushes her food round her plate. I'm just about to try some of the food when I notice Tobias has straightened and is sat taller, confused as the sudden change behaviour I look behind me to where he is looking and spot Eric heading towards our table. I notice the rest of the hall has quietened dramatically as he approaches us, it is clear the young leader holds a lot of power over the rest of the faction, obviously age doesn't affect rank in Dauntless, unlike Abnegation, and I shiver slightly at the thought of my old faction, I'm glad to see Four is concentrating too much on Eric to notice, I don't want him worrying about me.

Eric finally reaches our table and stares at each one of us, he grabs my arm and pulls me out of my seat, "Dick-" I start to curse, but before I can get the words out of my mouth he pulls me back and I fall onto his lap. He wraps an arm around my waist -I can't help but notice how defined his muscles are-, so that when I try to stand up he merely pushes me back down so that I'm stuck sat on his lap. He turns his attention back to Tobias after staring at me briefly, "so Four" he asks my brother, "aren't you going to introduce me". I know for a fact he already knows who I am given my outburst earlier today, I think to myself, it's clear he is only doing this to get at Tobias as he probably already knows were related, one look across at my brother tells me he is think the same thing. I watch my brother tense up even more, though I can't think how that's even possible seeing as he got impossible tense when Eric pulled me onto his lap. "This is Christina, Tris and Deli- I mean Parker" Tobias replies through gritted teeth. "Tut tut tut, I would've thought you would know your initiates names Four" Eric says, once again the comment is aimed at the fact he slipped up on my which of course he knows. Four doesn't say anything and just scowls as Eric. "So two stiffs huh?" Eric continues and I suddenly remember him saying the exact same thing when it was just us left on the roof this morning, "Dauntless are getting quite a collection, I wonder how long you last" I refuse to give him the satisfaction of answering him, it's clear he's trying to get a rise out of one us with his insult, I have a feeling he's particularly interested in mine and Tobias' response as he hasn't so much as look over at Tris (or Christina).

Still feeling uncomfortable about sitting a strangers lap, I look back down at my plate and start to contemplate whether or not to try this strange food, then out of nowhere Eric reaches for the burger that's on my plate and eats it in a couple of bites. Shocked and annoyed I'm about to complain when he starts talking to my brother again. "Max's been looking for you" Eric starts

"Really I hadn't noticed" my brother replies clearly knowing where the conversation was heading couldn't be bothered to talk about it.

"Yes, he's been trying to arrange a meeting with you, but you never show, he wants me to find out why"

"You can tell him I'm happy with the position I currently hold"

"So he's trying to offer you a job?"

"That's what it looks like" my brother says with an air of finality, I hear Eric sigh heavily and he clearly knows he isn't going to get any more out of my brother, he stands up abruptly and I nearly fall, but Eric's strong arms stop me before I hit the floor, once my feet are firmly on the ground I mutter some sort of thanks and watch as he walks back down the way he came and walk out the door at the far end of the mess hall. I sit back down and slump into my seat, I look around me and I realise Tris and Christina had left, my confusion clearly showed as Tobias told me they left a few minutes after Eric sat down. I'm relieved to hear that none of the other initiates just witnessed what had just happened, not that I actually knew what that was, it was bad enough having the rest of Dauntless members staring at me and Tobias, at least I wouldn't have to interact with any of them during my initiation and I hope they will forget what happened by the time it ends. I look back at my brother, he's slouched into his seat, "you ok?" I ask him, he doesn't look up at me and just nods his head. I don't push him any further he obviously doesn't want to talk about it, so I tart to stand up, it's late and I need to get back to the dorm, just as I push myself up from the table when I hear Tobias speak, "he knows" he tells me.

"Knows what?" I ask him confused.

"Everything, that you're my sister, about Marcus"

I start to get very annoyed, "you told him?" I accuse my brother feeling betrayed.

"What no! He's a leader of Dauntless, he knows everyone's real names, not just the ones they give at the net. And as for the Marcus situation, he's from Erudite, he's seen the articles and as much as we may hate each other, I've got to give it to him, he surprisingly observational. Besides your outburst this morning hardly helped in keeping quiet about Marcus did it?"

"So you're saying it's my fault then?" I ask him hurt, "I was left with him for four years. Four years Tobias!" I'm practically shouting by now and I don't wait for his response and storm out making my way towards the dorms, with tears threatening to spill.

I burst through the dormitory door, and I find everybody staring at me. Not being able to take it any longer and turn around and walk right back out the door, I walk towards the training area and make sure nobody's there before I walk straight to the back of the room towards one of the orange punching bags, I just keep thinking back to the years in Abnegation after Tobias left, leaving me defenceless against Marcus' rage, he was worse than he had ever been to Tobias after he left, and I dint have the advantage of height against him like Tobias did. I don't know when but I some point I've started to cry and my hands are bleeding from hitting the bag for so long, but I don't care, if anything I deserve it I tell myself. I'm so involved with my own anger and upset that I don't notice the big double doors of the room opening and I also don't notice somebody approaching me.

I'm still pounding away at the bag, tears streaming down my face when I feel a pair of arms grab mine from behind just as I'm about to throw another punch at the bag. I don't bother to look who it is, I don't stop struggling against whoever is trying to stop me, I've had enough and I'm too angry but I know whoever it is won't let go, so I swing round, my fist connecting with the person's face. "Stop!" I hear the person shout and I realise its Eric but I don't care and continue to try to land a hit but he has my wrists pinned down to my sides and I can't get free no matter how hard I fight. I finally give up too tired to keep fighting, I'm still crying even more so now. I don't know what I was expecting to happen but I certainly didn't expect him to pull me towards him. I lean my head against his chest, and he just stands there not saying anything, we both stand there for a few minutes until I seem to have my breathing under control. Once I'm breathing normally Eric leads me over to one of the wooden benches lined up against the wall. He pushes me so I'm now sitting down, and he lifts my hands to inspect the damage, I look at my hands also, they are badly bruised and covered in blood from the split skin on my knuckles. I hear him say something about going to fetch a med box and then I hear the doors close. I am too tired to move anywhere, so I just lie down on the bench, and I fall asleep promptly.

So... what did you think? just wanted to let you know that majority of the story will be from Parker/Delilah's perspective, with the occasional point of view from another character. Please review if you can, even if it is just to say you are enjoying the story as it really gives e the motivation to continue to write. once again i cannot thank you enough for even viewing the story i never expected this much of a response thank you all so much.

~DepressedIntrovert~