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Raph's POV
Her hair bounced as she stomped away from me. My smile the biggest it had ever been. I crossed my arms, my heart pounding like thunder as I watched her body disappear...
The body that had been pinned underneath me, and then on top…
My tail curled.
Fuck…Fuuuck
I loved her; there was no denying it, no getting away from it- I. Loved. Her. Every little inch. Every speckle of her personality and frame.
And she had touched me like she wanted me, she had looked at me through those gorgeous eyes…
She lay underneath me, not even trying to push her self away from me as her long arms extended above her head, her curls fell fanned out beneath her as the shimmer in her eyes captured me, her lashes long and fluttering.
Her hands moved up my arms, creating Goosebumps with every little touch as they ghosted up over my shoulders.
She was perfect, and touching me like she wanted me.
Did she want me? Was that what this was?
She could have me; fuck she could take all of me and do whatever the fuck she wanted.
"Yer so fuckin-"
Beautiful was meant to come out.
I didn't care, I couldn't stop myself from saying it; I just wanted to let her know. I wanted to tell her everything she was again- just like last night.
But then a spasm hit my shell as I froze; her fingers tapping over the sensitive spots as I flung backwards away from the spasm.
She giggled as she landed on top of me and her hands pushed into my arms as if she had taken me down.
I let her do it; she grinned hugely, beautifully.
"Pinned ya!"
I sighed out loud, heavily, lovingly in the most pathetic way as I pictured her underneath me again, lying there- almost like she wanted me to take her…
Oh how I would take her.
In every way, in any way she wanted…
It was getting harder to stop thinking about her that way, especially after last night when she came to see me in my jersey wearing nothing else but her little panties…
I had swiped more than my fair share of glances at her legs and ass last night; how long they were, how round and plump her ass was…
And then after training with Master for an hour and the others, I had locked my self in the bathroom, picturing her exactly the way she was last night…
Jersey falling off her shoulder, panties a little on show, hair dishevelled.
Her ass in the air…her legs around my shell…my name on her lips in a broken moan just like it was that night…
"Raphael?"
I spun round, my eyes wide as I froze.
Master was standing arms crossed in front of me. My face slammed to a halt; my thoughts with it.
"Masta Splinta" I commented openly waiting for him to speak to me. He eyed me up carefully, in a new way as I cleared my throat and focused on innocent things; anything.
"I meant to speak to you this morning after our training, but you had fled so quickly my son"
My face fell red. I remained still, almost hoping like a T-rex, he wouldn't see me if I was still. He chuckled.
"You must relax- come- walk with me" he said as he motioned me down a small corridor and back to his room. He waited at the end as I seemed to wake up from my frozen spot and hurried after him, my cheeks red, tail curled out again in a sharp and unpleasant manor.
We entered his little area; it was always neat- an arm chair in the corner, a coffee table in the centre, pillows around it- books stacked neatly by his hammock.
Master pointed to the pillow motioning me again.
Jeeze, must have been something important to let me in fearless's spot.
I knelt down in front of the little table he kept as he turned to sit opposite like usual- this only really happened on certain occasions, or special events,
Or if I was to be punished for doing something wrong.
Had I done something wrong?
"So…Tell me about Miss Jones Raphael…" he asked, feeling his whisker as he looked away from me.
"W-what?" I asked. Master chuckled and looked back to my face.
"Miss Jones- Bonnie; I know nothing of the girl and she has been in your life…little over 3 months now, is that correct?" he asked with a nod.
"Urgh…comin' up 4" I shrugged keeping my face open.
He reshuffled on the pillow.
"Tell me about her" he pressed, his placed his hands in his lap and watched me with his big onyx eyes. I looked away- a nervous mess.
What could I say? What did he want to know? Why did he want to know?
Master cleared his throat, grabbing my attention again.
I swallowed and started to think.
"She's err…well she's same age as us…a-an' Casey's her cousin…'e errr helped move 'er from Jersey to 'ere"
Master laughed stopping my rambling.
"I am already aware. Tell me the less obvious my son"
I nodded obediently and swallowed the lump I didn't even know was rising in my throat.
"Well..."
I licked my lips and sighed, knowing what I needed to say.
"she's smart…real smart- doin' good at college…and erm…she-she wants to be like 'er cousin…she doesn't say it like dat, but I know it's what she wants...ta help people" I nodded as Master nodded too, in encouragement.
Then the words spilled out of me like liquid.
"She's good…like the kindest; She was out walkin' the otha day…and a little kid fell- she helped 'im and was real nice to 'im. She's good wid the otha's too; you know with Leo an' dat- no screamin'"
I nodded agreeing with my words. "…an-and…she's so funny, like not Mikey funny- tha good kind, she's quick and sarcastic; smart funny"
I looked down to the table in front my words getting hotter as my mind became full of Bonnie again.
"She makes me laugh so hard sometimes...like I ain't ever laughed like dat before…and she's feisty- can really move wid a bat...I never seen a girl do that before…"
I licked my lip as I tilted my head to the side. My heart began thumping wildly again.
"And she's…she's…. beautiful...you know" I looked up to him, my hands held out as if trying to demonstrate an expressionless phrase.
"Like not just pretty; like beautiful pretty… she got dese eyes dat…Sometimes I can't even t'ink about anyt'in when she looks at me, they trap me…and her hair… like in dose loose curls?- fuck there so soft… she's soft too…but in the best way…and it ain't just 'er face or-or 'er body…"
I stood up, my hands rubbing down my head as I began to pace.
"She's beautiful inside too yano…like April is; good, pure…but but she's different ta Ap…Like Ap's a sista…Bonnie's…" I trailed off. I didn't know how to word it. I didn't know if I should.
"She jus'… listens ta me… calms me down when am wound up…sits wid me like I was jus' a normal guy; she ain't ever once made me feel anyt'in but…good and-and…she trusts me! Like...ta touch 'er…not in dat way but…jus' ta touch her…and she touches my arm and its like…"
I breathed out a wild gasp as I rolled my eyes around remembering the way it felt to have her touch my skin, my biceps…my muscles…
I felt my lips curling into a smile as I spoke.
"She sounds wonderful Raphael" Master commented in a quiet tone as I flicked my gaze back up. I had all but forgotten he was in the room.
I froze again.
He chuckled.
"Sit with me" he told me as I kept my mouth glued shut and moved to sit down on the pillow again. He chuckled for the second time.
"Is Miss Jones aware of your feelings towards her?"
I narrowed my eyes confused.
"feelin's?"
"You are in love Raphael"
oh. That.
I could only look away from him embarrassed and nod in agreeance.
"Is Bonnie aware?"
"Don't t'ink so…at least I 'ope not…"
"You do not think she would return your feelings?"
I looked back up at him and snorted gently.
"Look at me masta; what woulda girl like dat, want with a freak like me?"
Master looked up with a stern face.
"As your father Raphael, you must know I believe you are as strong and kind as your anger is obvious- and any women would be lucky to have you in their life"
I looked to him flatly with a shuffling expression. When I didn't change he stood and turned to his TV; he picked up a remote that displayed the dojo on the screen.
"Donatello set this up for emergencies; in case of a breach in the lair…however- I have found it most helpful keeping my eye on you four…especially during training." He added.
I paled.
I had done a lot of stupid things in that dojo over the years- I would need to remember to punch Donnie later for that.
He flicked over the remote and scanned through the video till Bonnie and I were on the screen. We were sat on our own together at the dining table, her hand on my arm- her eyes locked on mine…
Out differences in stature flew out at me, hitting me hard.
Then Master paused the video when Bonnie turned to look at me. Her face; clear on the camera as she smiled to me gently. Her eyes just as beautiful and besotted as normal.
"Look at the way she looks at you Raphael…Does she look at Casey like that?"
I watched him carefully, and slowly shook my head, thinking it over.
He was right she didn't.
"April?"
Another shake.
She didn't.
"Your brothers?"
I growled at the thought her her sitting with Leonardo this morning, her eyes watching him as they conversed in a hidden conversation.
Master scanned the video forward, night took over and then morning broke and suddenly all characters were sat around the table again...Bonnie walked in and sat down by Leo; they chatted- but he was right…
The glimmer wasn't there; not like when she looked at me…
Not at all like she looked at me…
Could she feel this? She was certainly comfortable with flirting with me now, but maybe it was just playful. Maybe she was just feeling sorry for the ugly turtle who wouldn't ever be properly loved…
But those eyes…that look…
I looked down to the floor. Master turned the TV off blank.
"Raphael; wherever your relationship goes with Miss Jones…I wanted you to be aware that I am here for you; whenever you need to talk" he told me, his hand finding my shoulder as I stayed sitting. He came over to stand near me looking down on me like he used to when we were little.
"Masta…it ain't going anywhere…were jus' friends..."
"For now, my son" he added with a squeeze of my shoulder. A small smirk on his face like he knew something I didn't. "For now"
He headed to walk out of the room as I watched him go-so many questions on my tongue.
"Wait!" I called as Master turned expectantly.
"yer mean…yer…yer would be...okay- if…if somehow-"
"You have my absolute blessing Raphael; and you are right" he added.
"She is a beautiful soul" he said with a nod and turned down the corridor. "Well matched to you my son…"
I felt a grin etch onto my face. For some reason my hopes lifted at the idea of his blessing. I grinned stupidly as the idea of being a couple with Bonnie swam in my head.
It had done for months, but this time it was lighter, happier, free- it was allowed.
Not that I cared all that much if it was allowed to begin with, but to have Masters blessing- meant more than I could say.
But it all depended on her side.
And then I felt like I was being hit with her baseball bat; right to my face.
It all depended if she loved me back. I turned standing and switched the TV back on, I grabbed the remote and hurried back to the image of Me and Bonnie again. I kept the tape running, watching her as she spoke to me…
Her eyes glimmering….
Only for me…
My fingers reached out to the screen as I ran my finger tip down her face; she was perfect.
I swallowed, grumbling and switched the TV off. I shook my thoughts trying to slam the hope down in my head. I huffed out once and shook my head.
"Nah…not'in's as simple as dat" I grumbled out to myself, before I threw the remote down and turned to head to the gym.
I needed to punch something; all of this was getting way too confusing.
§
The hours seemed to float by as my hands met the punching bag. The breath fell out of my lungs the more I pushed and I felt the nervous itch loosen.
I sat down on the bench and wiped the sweat from my forehead, pulling my mask off with it. I blew out a breath of air as I sighed.
"Wow- only got a few rounds in you?" I looked up as Leo's voice entered the room. I rolled my eyes at him as I breathed slowly.
"What do you want?"
"Just come to see how things were" he shrugged. I growled.
"She's wid Ap; wanted ta talk to 'er" I shrugged going to place my weights back on the shelf. Leo nodded mutely with pursed lips. I did my best to brush him off; I could feel a big brother talk coming on- and I wasn't in the mood to deal with his shit on top of my own.
"So…Master said he spoke to you earlier today" he added as I turned to him with a shrug.
"So?- 'e speaks ta us everyday"
"About you and Bonnie" he added pointedly, I rolled my eyes.
"What? Can Masta not ask me questions now?" I pushed.
"Hey, I'm just trying to talk to you about it" he raised his hands in defence. I raised my eyebrows up at him.
"Why? Why do you need to talk to me about anyt'ing?"
"because I'm responsible for where you go Raph- and if you're going out on a night to see her, we need to know about it"
"who? you and Masta? What ya playin' mom an' dad now?" I snorted. Leo sighed and looked to the ceiling, it only pushed my buttons further.
"Listen; Raph- I'm trying to help here-"
"Maybe I don't need your help!"
"You needed it the other night! "
"Ya bringin' dat up again?!" I growled.
"It's a priority Raph!" he pushed, his face stern and sly; how I hated that expression. I gritted my teeth feeling my anger pool.
"God; I don't know why I even bother sometimes! I came in here to be supportive… to say that...whatever is going on with you two…if you need time together…we can work something out..."
I felt the snap coming. I felt the pull getting tighter.
"I don't need a schedule...neither does she!"
"I'm not saying that! I'm just saying-"
"WELL, maybe its best if ya all butt out- fuck off!" I growled. "I mean…shit, why ya all so convinced were gonna end up…like dat…look at me- look at 'er, dere's ya answer. Now leave it!"
"Raph we both know its not like that-"
"NO WE DON'T KNOW ANYTHING LEO!" I bellowed, my voice loud and irritated. I huffed as I felt my fists curl up again, the tingling coming back with energy and adrenaline.
"Why are ya pushin' it so much?! Why masta? Why you?!"
"Because it's the best you've been in a long time!"
I felt my shoulders drop, my stance dropped at his surprise sentence. My teeth stopped gritting so hard as my face softened.
"Master noticed it in the first month… You've been on time…you've been focused- you're the quickest you've ever been…you're obedient- talking to you is more pleasant…fuck, you're smarter, better…happier…"
My whole body seemed to dissolve the rage that had taken over as I watched him- he used his hand to point and explain his reasoning's. And for once I listened; knowing every word coming out of his mouth was right, and for once- accepting those words.
"And its because of her isn't it?" he added with a sigh. I stayed silent, not wanting to give him the benefit of doubt.
"I see the way she looks at you" he added his eyes trying to grab my expression. I looked down and clamped my jaw again. So Leo noticed it too. And Master.
Huh.
Could she really?
"She's kind about you too- when I talked to her this morning, she was so…loving towards you, and protective" he added as my face looked up at him. He held a hard expression- his eyes glazed over as his lips pressed tight.
"She's good for you Raphael" he added with a nod. I rolled his eyes.
"Now ya praisin' me fer meetin' a girl…Jeeze- few months back ya'd a murdered me" I grumbled. He sighed and laughed once under his breath.
"Well I never would have expected it to be you- I thought maybe Mikey; you know how he is" he added. Instantly we both relaxed a humoured huff spilled out of both of us as we looked to each other with a smirk.
"Yeah well…it's still probably gonna be- she's gotta life ta live Leo; she wont want me like dat in dat way… she's smart and…and like Casey said las' night…she needs ta get away from dangerous men"
"You're not dangerous Raph" he added pointedly. I crossed my eyes in confusion.
"You're a hot-head sure, strong…but you ain't dangerous- Casey was just fired up. He's like you- says things he doesn't mean" I rolled my eyes again and he chuckled. He moved to lean against the wall in front of me as I sat further up and crossed my arms.
"So what am a supposed ta do? Go up ta 'er an'…an' jus tell 'er? It could ruin everything we got…an' I can't loose 'er…not like dat…" I cringed outwardly feeling the pain strike at my heart- the idea of her disappearing out of my life because of my stupid feelings…
It would ruin everything.
"I'd ratha keep everyt'in' tha same…dat way she stays, an' we all stay happy" I told him. He nodded and looked to the floor.
"Alright…Alright- if that's what you want" he said pushing him self up from the wall as he clicked his neck to the right. He looked like he wanted to say something else; and me being the big mouth I was asked him before he could disappear.
"ya got anything ta add?" I asked.
"Just…you say you wanna keep everything the same- fine, but you can't get all destructive when she starts to date- which she will."
Crap. I hadn't considered that.
My teeth gritted. My stomach lurched. The idea of another man touching her, putting his arm around her; smiling at her.
Kissing her…
I felt saliva swell into my mouth as the pain of the image burned deep. I kept my eyes on Leo- hiding my feelings as best as I could as I pouted my lips out and shrugged him away.
He watched me with an unreadable expression and turned. Before he left he looked over his shoulder at me.
"Its something you gotta think about" he added before leaving.
My hand found the weight on the floor as I pulled it tight into my grip.
The idea of her wrapped up in some stranger's arms smiling and kissing him burned at me- I held the dun bell tighter.
The idea of her underneath some stranger the same way she was under me…
tighter and tighter I gripped the now light object in my hand…
Her name calling for some random dude while he lay on top of her naked body while-
I growled; a roar of a growl and the dumbbell in my hand threw out to the left, hitting the wall in such fierceness. My breathing seemed to get deeper, my teeth nearly shattering at the pressure of my bite, my fists clawing in at them selves tightly.
I hated Leo for bringing it up- I hated him.
I hated that he was right.
I sighed. I needed to accept it, but it was going to take the longest time.
§
I headed out of the gym to go and find April and see how Bonnie was holding up, but as I turned down to see Donnie's lab, I could only see April and Donnie crouched over a desk in paper work.
I pulled my eyes down confused.
"Hey Raph what's up?" April asked with a smile as she looked up from her work.
"Where's Bon? She said she was comin' ta find ya ages ago" I told her as April pulled her eyebrows together similar to my own expression.
"Sorry, She's not been down here Raph- I thought she was with you" she added as a spasm of worry hit me. April looked to me noticing my change. "Don't sweat she's maybe gone for a lie down; she looked pretty tired this morning"
"I wonder why…" Donnie said looking up with a pointed gaze. I rolled my eyes at him. "She bandaged you up last night didn't she?" he added. My face dropped. My eyes wide.
"Ow da fuck did you-"
"Surveillance dude- I checked it before, she followed you into the bathroom around 2" he shrugged.
My insides seemed to shake again, the idea of my brothers all invading this private life I had with her in the space of two days seemed to flurry my frustrations and emotions. Leo's diving, Master's interest, Donnie's surveillance camera's….
"FUCK, CAN NO ONE HAVE ANY PRIVACY ROUND ERE!" My voice boomed out as both of them looked at me with wide eyes.
"Its alright Raph chill!"
"Hey GUYS! You're totally missing it dude! Beautiful's all sleeping and looking pretty…in MY bed!" Mikey skipped in delighted as I turned with rage and growled massively.
And then there was him…
"God its gonna smell so fucking good later"
What did he just say?
I growled at him as he smiled hugely; I could feel the snap building, the tension behind my eyes burning as I gritted my teeth.
"WHAT?!" I growled out to him feeling my instincts go with me. My eyes zoned in on Mikey as I tumbled forward.
"Wait DUDE! I SWEAR I DIDN'T PUT HER THERE!"
Mikey took off running towards our rooms again as I charged after him, another growl on my tongue.
He span quickly- a good 10 meters ahead as I got closer. He barged into our room with his hands in the air.
"BEAUTIFUL! WAKE UP! PLEASE DEAR GOD WAKE UP!"